Little Box Of Hate

Why "Panic"?

Because it’s what I do!

I live with depression, anxiety, obsessive skin-picking, and some lingering trauma.

My brain spends a lot of time telling me things like “If you don’t get a perfect grade on every paper you write, you will flunk out of grad school, never get a job in your field, disappoint your entire family, and probably die of, like, a bot fly infestation or something.”

It’s not fun, but I’m doing waaaaay better than I was, even just a few years ago.

Inaugurating this beautiful sketchbook made for me by my beautiful boyfriend with some gesture drawings.

1 min, 2 min, 5 min.

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I feel this is close to done. Just needs some more work on the hair and some highlights.

Another painting in progress

Doing insane shit with string today

Second panel of fabric. Next step involves getting out my sewing machine so I’ve been avoiding it and fucking about with others projects instead.

First stage in a multi-step project. Hand-weaving fabric which I will then use to sew the body and limbs of a marionette doll.

Figure Study 2023

Work in progress pictures can be seen here

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Get three digital (PDF) versions of my comics, "Queer Code," "Emet," and "Seven Hundred and Seventy Eight Days," and two SECRET EXTRA COMICS.

(If you want to know what the secret extra comics are, see here)

Queer Code: An exploration/rant about "queer coding" in horror film and canon queers in pop culture; includes a recommendation guide to 20+ of my favorite horror films.

Emet: A short story about a woman and a Golem

Seven Hundred and Seventy Eight Days: Five comix on life and learning after seven hundred and seventy-eight days on testosterone.

This bundle costs less than what it would have cost to buy all five of these comics separately!

The Look of Love

original collage portrait available for $35

9 x 9.25in

Ink, marker, water color, loteria pages, floral wrapping paper, and product packaging on found cardboard, coated with matte varnish for increased durability

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"Alone and Forsaken" by 16 Horsepower

The Artistic Process

I’m here, I’m queer, and I’m gonna put my little gay hands all over everything.

Also, here’s an interview of me by Devon Douglas-Bowers of the Hampton Institute

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