S10 Carry On

cook ing?.

here’s another fun fact: asexual does not mean nonsexual.

asexuals’ relationship with sex and sexual attraction tends to be….complicated. there’s a bit of an idea of like, oh of course, you’re either sex-favorable, sex-neutral, or sex-repulsed, but honestly i see a LOT of discussion about how wildly different those can each look for each individual. some people are comfortable with some acts in very specific contexts, and deeply upset by them in all others. some people find certain forms of nonsexual intimacy (like kissing) to still be off-limits, while something most people might consider more charged (like nudity) is totally fine. a lot of us just kind of have a long laundry list like “this is fine, this isn’t, that one’s okay, that one’s always off-limits….” because the big secret is that “sex” isn’t really any cohesive act as much as a lot of little things that people just threw together and called one thing.

as for attraction: some aces are actually attracted to other people once in a blue moon, and simply don’t want to clarify that every time. some aren’t entirely sure, but don’t want to spend their whole lives guessing. some ARE completely sure they never have and never will feel an attraction.

at the end of the day, much like any label, this single word really doesn’t tell you much of anything about what a person is actually like unless you bother to ask them what it means to them.

For a minute in that montage of Dean driving Baby while Sam was living his life I absolutely thought Dean was going to drive by Cas in the onion field and Dean would see him and then it would cut to Cas and Dean in the impala just talking and laughing while Sam lives out his life and then they end up on the bridge and we get the Winchester reunion. I got that from that damn onion meta lmao

boyfriend shit

I always thought Supernatural missed the opportunity for making a truly beautiful series ending by not ending everything at the end of Season 5. Dean is possessed by Michael, Sam possessed by Lucifer. Dean breaks out of the hold because he wants to protect Sam, but knows how he would always have to kill him. Dean breaks Sam out of the hold and Dean kills the both of them while holding onto his baby brother and telling him ever6is going to be okay. They save the day with brotherly love and Castiel goes on to spread the Winchester Gospel.

But after Season 5 continued I knew that it would be hard to find a good ending to the show. It's never easy and while I haven't really watched the show in like 3 years I wanted to tune into the last one because I had loved this show for so long.

It wasn't a perfect episode and the amount of Olaf gifs that popped up after Dean was impaled had me rolling.

I'm glad that Sam got to grow old and have a son and live an actual apple pie life. I wish that we had seen whether or not he ended up with Eileen,, because I'm pretty sure she's alive and it just seems like he forgot about her.

I'm glad Dean got to be happy in the end, dying a hunter with Sam nearby, and living in a Heaven with all his loved ones. Driving Baby for how ever long he wants. I wish we had a montage of Dean meeting with everyone in Heaven before setting out on his roadtrip (would have been wonderful just to see the spn family in that context).

As much as I want Dean and Cas to be together forever, I kind of like this ending that Cas gets to be a good angel under Jack. It's kind of beautiful that he went on a journey from this stoic soldier to experience humanity and the gift of falling in love. I do wish we could have seen a reunion between Dean and Cas in Heaven. It wouldn't have even had to be destiel related, but just a friend checking in on another friend now that he is finally at peace (though I wouldn't oppose to more).

I love that Sam and Dean are reunited at the end and I love that we are given this perfect world with which there are no limits to what we can imagine for these characters after death. We were given a blank slate essentially to work with and I for one love and appreciate the gesture.

There I things I wish I had seen in the canon context of the show, but I had fun on the journey nonetheless. Thanks Supernatural for the 15 years of your time and effort!

no one touch me, I got the motivation for my AU back and its hitting me like bus

Just A Thought About Cas and Dean's Lack of Interaction

The nice thing about Dean and Cas is that even if they don't interact for long periods of time, their relationship, respect, admiration, and love for each other remains just as strong.  (Note: I am talking about time and distance here... not their actions and consequences) Cas is always thinking about Dean and how he can help him.  Dean asks about Cas and checks up on him a lot.  It's not an "out of sight, out of mind" kind of relationship. 

Not being together and talking all the time doesn't mean that the intensity of their relationship is fading in any way.  Albeit some people are more needy and have to be around the person they love 24/7 or they wilt, but Cas and Dean - in my opinion- are not those kind of people.  

Cas is an angel and he has a sense of duty.  He needs to be doing something to help Heaven or to help Dean.  A lot of times that means leaving Dean alone, but that doesn't mean he doesn't care about him any less.  

Dean himself has a lot on his plate and can't tag along with Cas every time he has to go somewhere.  I'm sure he doesn't want to either.  He has his own duties to perform. Even with Sammy.  Dean isn't with Sam all the time either, but that doesn't mean he wouldn't offer up his life and soul for him at the drop of a hat.  

There are some relationships that transcend time and distance.  For example:  I have a friend who I live 3,000 miles from.  We've been best friends for our whole lives.  We check in on each other every so often via text, e-mail, messenger... but we're both very busy people and so it doesn't happen that often.  I see her maybe once every 2 years now, if I'm lucky once a year...  Every time I go back and see her though, it's like nothing changed.  We still love each other to pieces and our relationship is exactly the same even with the time, distance, and sparse communication.   Now while, that's an example of friendship, romantic love can be the same way.  On a sad and morbid note, many people who have lost someone they love, don't cease to love them just because they're gone.  Stuff like that doesn't fade.  The pain may go away, but the love will always be there.  

I believe that Dean and Cas and Dean and Sam have that kind of relationship.  That no matter how much time passes, they'll still love each other.   Sometimes when they finally are able to see each other though, there are more pressing matters at hand than bonding.  Sometimes stuff works out that way.  Again, preoccupation with saving the world or stopping evil doesn't mean that feelings are lost, fading, or dying.  It just means they're busy.  They'll find time for each other and when they do finally get to sit down and interact without immediate concerns, it's usually a wonderful sight.   So please don't worry about any lack of interaction between them!  :) 

Spn Season 10 Finale

So, if Cas has to die in the season 10 finale can it at least be like this? Dean is rampaging again and is attacking Sam and Dean.  Dean has Sam down and cornered and Cas steps between them.  He says he won’t let Dean hurt Sam and he won’t let Dean hurt himself (because he knows that hurting Sam in the end would devastate Dean beyond repair).   He steps forward suddenly into Dean’s personal space and holds his arms tightly as he leans in, connecting their lips.  Dean is shocked for a second before he realizes what Cas is doing.  Cas is expelling his grace into Dean’s body and burning away the Mark of Cain and replacing it with the “Mark of Castiel”- the love of an angel.   Cas is now human and Dean is saved, but Rowena does her attack dog spell and Dean is forced to kill Cas.   Then we have Season 11 start off with Dean having some angely powers due to the MoCa  and we can complete Dean’s checklist of him being:  Human, Monster (brief stint as a vamp), Demon, Angel.  :P It won’t happen but lol  It’d be nice... and sad.

dib got a cool enchanted scroll off the dark web and tried to use it to stop zim from flushing dry ice down all the neighbors toilets and it just went downhill from there.  yes i did take the ghost bunny things from mopiness of doom lol. gir keeps them and gives names to every single one. 

another thing i did a while ago but 4got to post WHEEEEE

Head-canon: Can't help it. I'm convinced that Saitama became so obsessed with becoming a hero that he turned into a hero-monster and that is the source of his power up and his monster transformation was hair loss. Lol