It’s Time Again

Is it weird i started to feel more comfortable being feminine after realizing i was a trans guy?

NOPE!!! NOT WEIRD AT ALL THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENED TO ME

when i sat out to transition, i had a few things in mind. i knew that i needed my voice and body to be different. i knew that i was not a cis woman. however, i was still drawn to femininity. at the time i was awakening as a gay man and i realized that i had a feminine side, but it had nothing to do with womanhood. absolutely nothing. to me, my femininity is part of my manhood, and my genderqueerness, not my womanhood.

i transitioned partially so i could feel comfortable being and dressing feminine! i actually told people that during the beginning stages of my transition, that i was excited to masculinize myself so i could be femme without dysphoria. being seen as a feminine cis woman was utterly painful, but living as a femme gay man... that was liberating. i finally felt so many pieces of myself click into place.

you are NOT alone in this, i hear this experience a lot from other trans men, and ive actually heard the opposite from tons of trans women- that after transitioning into womanhood, they felt a lot more comfortable in their masculinity. feminine doesn't mean woman. masculine doesn't mean man. it's okay if you find that femininity is now much more comfortable and enjoyable after realizing you were a guy. being a feminine man is a beautiful experience

i hope that helps! feel free to ask any more questions you may have! you're definitely not alone and it's not weird at all!

I want to be a guy's princess but in a boy way. His pretty boy. His malewife, if you will.

Still not over the fact that there's people out there, putting their laptops in their fridges to cool it down..

*queerplatonics all your love songs*

This feels so religious trauma coded and I can't unhear it and can't believe I haven't found anyone talk about this interpretation of the song yet

Will I ever know peace in the Realm of Slumber ?

"I wish we met sooner" is such a gentle sentiment. I love you so much I not only want you in my future, but in my past too. I want to have known you when we were small stupid kids, have held hands together as we played outside. I want to have stressed out over exams together, nudging a mug of still steaming hot chocolate against your elbow to get you to focus. I want to have told you I love you before I did anyone else. I want to have held you in my arms when all those sad memories you describe to me were still fresh wounds. I want my past to have been full of you, and full of meaningful memories with you. I want my past lives to have been spent with you, whether as two lovers, or two housecats cuddling by the fireplace on a snowy day, or two flowers that just happened to bloom on the same day, next to each other. I want to have consumed your existence and intertwined it with my own since my birth, never to be separated from you for a moment. I want to have loved you throughout it all, for all time.

Your value and worth as a person does not lie in how productive you are.

You are so much more than the amount of shit you get done (or don't get done) and no person can be judged by something like this alone. We are so much more my loves.

Just wanted to say that in case you needed to hear this. <33