Jax And Roki From Fancy Dance Both Pass The Ali Nahdee Test!

Unconditional love isn't a free pass to hurt me.

Art by colormehappii

Stolen meme.

ᏍᎩᎦᏚᏏᏁ ᎠᏅᏱ - Sgigadusine Anvyi - March 15th

ᎫᏩᏯ/ᎧᏩᏯ - Kuwaya/Kawaya - blueberry, huckleberry. 🫐🫐🫐

ᏣᎳᎩ ᏔᎷᏣ - Tsalagi Taluj - Cherokee basket

Cherokee double wall basket purse, braided cotton cord strap, commercial shell flowers, bear stone button. Worked on and off on this for about a week.

I got the idea from the strawberry baskets I have seen various weavers make, I may try one of those next. The woven flower was difficult but I enjoyed it at the same time, stems are getting easier to sculpt. I don't really like challenges, I've had enough and I'd like my life to be easy so this is a nice way for me to work on that intolerance. Blueberry and Huckleberry are the same word in our language, you may find a dialect difference.

Consistency is not having 100% every single attempt, consistency is giving all you got every single attempt. Some days you might have 0.0001% to give. That’s okay! That doesn’t mean you won’t be successful. Consistency, success, healing, none of these processes are linear how we think they are.

Give it your best shot, that’s the most anyone can do. Maybe yesterday wasn’t your best day. That’s fine. At least you showed up. That’s the only thing we can ask of you.

Today: 1/19/25

I didn't very good last week. Not sure what happened. I had to go back to understanding why I want these things. Took the oldest to a splatter room. They seemed to enjoy it. It helped me get out of my head. Work is picking up and going to be taking a lot of time. Did five 12 hr sifts last week.

1/15/2025

What is going on? I'm on my phone more. I'm not doing the steps. Sleep is lacking. I'm not getting into motion. Discipline is falling apart in my mind. My thoughts are not positive. Why? How? When?

It's too much again? But last week it wasn't.

Hajichi -- banned tattoo practice originating in Okinawa, Japan

1/26/25:

Reflection:

Ok. I mid day shuffle yesterday, that's ok. Instead of working out with weights I did lots of walking while I fished. I am counting that as my work out. I got the laundry washed and dried. Still need to put it away. I'm feeling mentally better. I don't know how I fell into the pit despair last week or the week before. I do feel physically like I'm picking up a cold. I managed two workouts last week. I'm hopeful I can get three this week. It was fun going fishing yesterday, it has been a month since I got out there. Something about the water lapping and the repetitive motions has a calming effect.

I really a tired of being a student. I love learning but being a student is draining. Not even half done. I got to keep reminding myself why. The reason I want a masters is so, if I get laid off again I'll find a new job faster. The job pool is smaller for people with masters.

Plan:

Put away laundry,

Put away dishes,

Strength based work out,

Homework,

Fishing again, if all else complete.