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Desperate Little Loser (Fem!Reader/Flug NSFW)

here’s something I wrote really quick before the vivid idea passed through my head completely.

Reader wants to try some noncon roleplay with Flug, and it goes gloriously wrong.

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he's so needy

stirring up mischief

sry, imma be gone from this forever...sry...

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what's wrong anon, context? am I missing something? I can be a little slow-

you better don't think to do anything stupid.

here

take this Flug, he has flowers for you. I'll be seeing you here again tomorrow I hope

we DMed and I got an audio of Flug speaking to me

so if you need me, I died.

my greatest achievement of my life is that Flug's english VA is my mutual (I can't believe it with my weird ahh art)

by popular demand

"Still fits"

If you had the opportunity to rewrite dementia any way you wanted, what would you do?

that is a really good question! since I am having a bit of a hiccup warming up to her.

it's bc I require emotional depth for me to be interested in a character.

which I'm absolutely sure there is a lot of in her... but we've just not seen enough to work with. I like mentally disturbed characters that are struggling more outwardly, like Flug or Miss Heed. I think it's less of a writing flaw and more CN/Warner holding them back from releasing the stuff as it was roughly planned probably. maybe if we had the rest of the 1st season we'd already be much further in her character development.

there's core emotions that I NEED to see in a character to get hooked, which is fear, regret and grief.

none of which we've seen in her yet. nothing genuine that's not caused by the brainwash she stands under.

the most conflicting thing we've seen her do is having tears well up in her eyes after Flug hit her which didn't come off as physical pain, but emotional. that's interesting, but too short of a moment.

I feel like anything I'd "change" about her are things that are canonically planned, we just have to wait.

I think what's missing in her rn is self-awareness.

without her artificial obsession with Black Hat, she is nobody. maybe she'll have a crisis later about exactly that; not knowing who she is as a person. she should. if and when she snaps out of that she's wasted a large chunk of her life under his influence.

let's say it like that, if they don't start to show clearer signs of character development in the remaining S1 episodes, that's what I'd change. pick up the pace a bit. there's more obvious foreshadowing about literally every other character than about her. they really keep her backstory a secret.

there's so much to work with. why is her name Demencia? what's her real name? why did she arrive there "barefoot"? why is she better at math than Flug? why did she react so silenced when confronted with her mortality? was it fear? what does she truly fear? what or who is important to her outside of the hypnosis? does she have a real goal, for herself? smth must have led her to Black Hat... did he lure her or did she have such a terrible life before all this that she saw no other use to her existence than to turn to him?

you already know this drawing but I think I never posted it here

however I'd like to change 1 thing about her visual design for sure.

Please give her muscles. like... all the time.

I've criticized often before that I find the female characters in the show slowly drift too much into one and the same mould, their silhouettes are all the same, since Miss Heed; every relevant female character looks like her body type (...and some newer ones even in the face.) they could start diverting from that by giving Demencia muscles (not just in promo illustrations or closeup shots of her flexing, I feel like they could easily always draw a visible biceps on her)

that's not too hard to animate either, I mean they animated Sunblast and Airlock and that whole 5th episode, and it can't be harder than all the striped and spiked elements in Dem's design.

do u write fanfics? i need to GOON 💔

damn brother, you just gonna come at me like that? alright I see you

that's a great question tho! I have indeed thought about writing a fic... for years tbh...

but there's a myriad of problems

well first of all I'm not native in english. that is probably noticeable more often than not. I sometimes even use a translator, I always secretly got google/dict.cc open in a second tab. didn't formally learn english, I just snagged it by proxy listening to American Youtubers and reading manga online. that's why I prefer to ramble a bit in public or to my damn self in private areas than live-texting 1 on 1/in groups; bc I can take more time totally judgement-free. you're gonna see me "typing..." for 30 minutes and wonder wtf is taking this mf so long?!

apart from that there's dyslexia. I can't spell one word correctly without swipe-to-type autocorrect. I think all arguments I've gotten into stem from me mistyping, using completely wrong words, messing up the sentence structure etc

my brain is a single dense cloud of fog that'll occasionally split open to drizzle down a bunch of jumbled thoughts that I could turn into barely cohesive words if I'm brave enough and exude copious amounts of energy.

so my linguistic skills are not up to par. my intelligence lies more in... intrapersonal and existential departments.

unsurprisingly I've thus become a visual artist to express myself.

the catch is... that I understand paperhat, I do.

but I can't seem to draw toxic dynamics. my head is just empty about how to depict it. it's like it doesn't come naturally to me. not without going overboard and making a whole comic that I would likely abandon before even reaching the half mark. I've been given these angelic skills along with the curse that I shall only draw joyous, bright scenes.

however if I could write it... now we're talking.

as a matter of fact, I'm pretty sure that most of my ideas are way too dark and sober. people don't know me like that so I'm petrified about the presumably shocked response when and if I did drop smth like that.

I'm not ready for that... I have really severe OCD (that the internet is making way worse with their anxious tendencies to interpret smth sinister into any and all fiction that is not happiness and rainbows. which seems new to me, idk where this mindset to read so deep into shit is suddenly coming from. I was here 2017-19, left for like 3 years and all of a sudden everybody's fallen off their rockers)

writing domestic stuff is too boring for me... there's gotta be gut-wrenching horrors and drama and tragedy and conflict!

none of this would be PG (which is what I assume you're asking for anyway) I'd just write smut with sprinkles of character studies and a pinch of comedy mayhaps, but I used to do that about 10 years ago and it was so bad. the way I describe these scenes comes off very plump and cringe

I... might. dip my toes into it later this year.

I'll drop a few ideas in the tags... maybe 2 ideas. very roughly. without spoilers, just in case.

2017 -> 2024

don't give up

bonus crazy coincidence: (we didn't even know that at the time???)