I Am No Longer Explaining My Chronic Illnesses. I'm Only Ominously Referencing Them Like I'm A Fantasy

i’m still alive, I’m sorry for my lack of posting, the despair of social media rotted my brain and caused me to need some outside mental help.

Hopefully I’ll get back to posting normally.

Heather Havrilesky, How to Be a Person in the World

boy so pretty he triggers my fight or flight response

spoke deeply to me.

being chronically ill with fluctuating symptoms is so annoying because when it's at it's worst im like "okay i desperately need some type of mobility aid right now, i haven't been able to leave my house in days" but then i'm able to go for a walk one day and suddenly i feel like im exaggerating my symptoms and that i actually can walk fine and it would just be embarrassing and pointless to ask for a mobility aid assessment

but like ... not struggling as much one day doesn't take away from the days that i struggle the most

our pain is valid even when it's not at it's worst and we deserve the accommodations we need even if we don't always need them at all times

manifesting this for all my disabled friends.

get you a partner who loves you as much as walking canes love falling to the floor at every opportunity.

Advice for the younger ones on here!!

There’s a micro community on here and Tiktok that’ll show weight loss/hair loss/other unhealthy symptoms and claim it’s because “they’re in love” or that it’s “love stress”

IF YOU EVER experience this while in a relationship I urge you to leave that relationship (if you are not safe enough to leave alone please reach out to the DV hotline or SH hotline) that is not love that is quite literally your body shutting down due to the stress and trauma.

I fell victim to that narrative and ended up nearly being hospitalized.

I lost weight and was nearly put on a high protein diet because of it, I was dealing with menstrual bleeding for three months and even more serious symptoms.

The right, healthy person will not bring on those symptoms!!!

look I'm a disability studies scholar so I know why people are like this. but. people really do get so pressed about the dumbest shit. why do you care if someone has multiple people in their head? why do you care if someone is existing with a mobility aid in your line of sight? why do you care if someone takes a couple extra seconds to formulate a sentence? even if you don't believe that someone is legitimately disabled (which is bad on its own. but still). what do you lose by just taking people at face value? and what do you gain by living life as an angry little ass all the time?

MY MOM JUST COMPARED DIGITAL ART TO AI SAYING,"you think Van Gogh would agree with digital art?" YEAH CUZ IM NOT COMMITING ART FRAUD AND PLAGURISM????

stealing this idea