I Will Now Be Sharing Poetry

it's a shame you can't Cool, Silent, and Mysterious your way to being very close to people. we are unfortunately going to have to embarrass ourselves for this

oh...that's why my "rest day" ended in more pain :/

Fun fact! Did you know that if you don't move around enough with chronic pain, that it will hurt just as bad if you move around too much?! So no matter what you do, there is only

pain˚✧ ﾟ.

Always help someone. you might be the only one that does.

Unknown

in a song i heard the lyrics

“he only loves me when I rot with him”

and those words tested their way through my being until they rested in the wound I cannot touch, cannot heal, and cannot see.

Rotting

love

two words i’ve often always associated with eachother despite a part of me believing in the purity of love.

A purity i reach for but cannot touch, perhaps one i never can.

“he” only loves me when i rot with “him”

when my eyes lose light as the mention of his name and i have to remind myself that i’m no longer rotting.

But it’s hard to believe that when a part of you is still stained in his sheets, when the taste is still in your mouth, when you see him when you close your eyes.

rotting

when my bones pierced my skin, my body rejecting what he gives me, shaking, when he gets near.

He only loves me when I rot when i’m sick

when he can manipulate and lie

with him.

manifesting this for all my disabled friends.

get you a partner who loves you as much as walking canes love falling to the floor at every opportunity.

— Evelyn Graham Frost, ‘Memory’

i’m still alive, I’m sorry for my lack of posting, the despair of social media rotted my brain and caused me to need some outside mental help.

Hopefully I’ll get back to posting normally.