Why Is This Happening? Why Does It Hurt So Much And Why Is It So Hard. I Have Always Been Indifferent

Why is this happening? Why does it hurt so much and why is it so hard. I have always been indifferent to people, and I didn’t feel much sympathy for them, I understood that if some connections are beneficial or useful for me, then what can I use, but I’m used to people leaving, but I don’t expect that if a person stays for a long time, then you can get used to him, but people are not constant, and tend to change, and in which direction, you never know, but there was so much good, even if it was bad from the outside, but I wanted to smile .