Pre-menstrual depression is always depicted as like "He He! I had a box of icecream bars and cried while watching the Titanic!" But in reality, it's more like, "I'm standing the edge of an abyss. There is nothing good inside of me, I'm filled with rage and desperation."
It's crazy that being told how to deal with that is never a part of anyone's menstrual sex education.
I think the main thing that gets me about episode 6 is that it shows how truly unfair it is. Like, Adam literally said “we don’t have bad days” THEN HOW CAN YOU JUDGE HOW SOMEONE ELSE COPES IN A PLACE WHERE THEY ONLY HAVE BAD DAYS?!? Lute looked directly at Angel in pain and said that it was his fault, like he had a choice. And maybe he did, but it’s still not his fault of all the horrible things that’s been done to him. They never had to experience that and feel no sympathy for things they don’t understand. Thats why I don’t think they want to know what the system is of how they ended up where they did. They think they won and that’s all they need to know to think their better then those is worse situations.
Air Himbo
Water Himbo
Earth Himbo
Fire Himbo
They’d either be chaotic best friends that judge everyone around them, or equally chaotic enemies that also judge everyone.
Someone needs to get Kaz Brekker, Artemis Fowl, and Five in the same room together.
I don't think some of you should be coming down on Aziraphale so hard for his decision and I'm going to point out something not enough people take into consideration.
Just think of the circumstances he was in. He got offered a deal that could fix pretty much every single problem they have and that could consequently make both him and Crowley incredibly happy.
At least that's how he sees it. It all comes crashing down once he realises that that's not what Crowley wants. That it's not that easy for them to have that perfect life. Having that opportunity and then it being ripped right out of his hands. Just look at how giddy he was when he was telling Crowley, after which he straight up went into denial and refusing to listen to what Crowley has to say, because this. would. have. solved. everything.
But... it's not what Crowley wants. And it's not as if he can make him go with him to Heaven (thank god) because he's not that kind of person. He's not possessive or controlling. And more than anything he loves Crowley and up until that moment he had the perfect means to make him happy. And now it's gone.
So not only does he have this earth shattering realisation about Crowley and what he wants he also now has to deal with what he himself wants. Now if anyone knows how it feels to be in such a stressful and agonising dilemma over something, you will probably feel and emphasise with Aziraphale pretty hard in this scene. Because this is where old coping mechanisms start to hit. This is where he falls back on something reliable, something he can trust will make the right decision, and that is his old belief that Heaven is to be obeyed and that it can do no wrong, that is still so ingrained in his instincts and decision making. This is where his trauma comes into play.
And he fights it.
How fucking strong do you have to be to be able to fight your own gut feeling, that has been trained and created for millions of years. He actively tries to tell the Metatron "no" multiple times, shame that the Metatron is a master manipulator and doesn't let him the opportunity, but he still does it nonetheless.
(This is the part I wanted to point out) This boy had to make a life changing decision that would determine how he would spend the rest of eternity itself. And he didn't even have 10 minutes to make it.
He had only minutes to make this decision. Imagine the sheer soul-shattering heart-rending turmoil that has been going on inside him. The sheer panic and dread he was probably feeling.
And despite what millenia of training and what his thoughts and logic were telling him, he still followed his heart, he still chose Crowley... until the Metatron sensed exactly that and told him about the Second Coming.
Well, now that made things much simpler. His happiness or the universe. And he sacrificed himself. Again...
And to top it all off, he had to fucking smile. He has just lost everything he loves, earth, the bookshop, crepes... and Crowley. No. No, it's more than that. After Crowley's confession he realised he lost everything he never even had. Utterly and completely alone. And he cannot dare shed a tear. How. Fucking. Strong. Do you have to be to be able to do that.
I'm trying to prove something.
”Alastor’s hair sucks” “it’s so ugly”. Yeah, maybe it’s not the best. But what about VALENTINO’S FEATHER?? WHY HAVEN’T I SEEN ANYONE TALK ABOUT THAT HUH?!? HES BALD AND TRIES TO COVER IT UP WITH A BIG HAT AND FEATHER?!?
No because maybe it’s just because he’s disoriented from waking up, but the way he looks at her is literally so soft, even for just a moment. And the way Inej is just lightly caressing his temple in a comforting kind of way. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This scene was AMAZING!!! And the actors did SO well I don’t think I can say that enough.
I know this is kind of a popular question, but how powerful is Alastor? He was surprised when Adam broke his staff, he fights with Lucifer, etc. So is the deal he has weakening him? Was he more powerful before? Is that why he’s so stressed out, because he knows he’s more vulnerable? What about the wing comment he made during his part of “The Show Must Go On”? The stitches on his smile suggests that he literally can’t stop smiling, or at least feels like he can’t. I’m not sure if Lilith is the one who owns Alastor, but it’s still not a coincidence that they were both missing at the same time. He really is one of the most beautifully written characters because he’s such a complex character with complex emotions that we don’t know a lot about but still try to figure him out. This is a bit of a ramble, but I really hope we get more of him in the second season. I’m really liking the Roo theory right now because, to me, it makes the most sense.
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