Where Can I Find This Friendzone I Need Some Friends

𝔪𝔦𝔰𝔠𝔥𝔦𝔢𝔳𝔬𝔲𝔰 𝔪𝔦𝔰𝔣𝔦𝔱𝔰

The Secret History destroyed my life like what do you mean I can't drink wine and study classical literature and spend the nights in a countryside mansion with piano echoing through the dark halls and break through the confines of humanity in a bacchanal and commit a string of murders and try to escape but eventually kill myself in a blaze of glory, ultimately shattering the lives of the people around me? That I can't escape the cognitive mode of experience and transcend the accident of my moment of being? That I can't lose my self, lose it utterly? What do you mean I can't live without thinking?

how athena everybody feels listening to telemachus in "we'll be fine"

the technocrat

turn the screen on give me my feeder plug me in, slide in the needle

i don't want anything i don't need anyone just another hit from the dopamine machine

turn it up a little louder i can still hear myself think this seat numbs my skin reminding me i'm still here

i have opinions on things i've never seen and thoughts about places i've never been

i talk like i know when i can't look in the mirror i hate hard and i hate loud and it makes me feel better

hate is human a human's all i am so don't act so shocked when i take what i want

i send my men to bleed in a country i've never seen for a resource i don't need just to increase the defense budget

cash runs hot, flows right out and it smells so divine if you want them out take a look at my wishlist

i don't wait till christmas to open my presents an icbm opens every door and i got this big red button

''the secret history vibe is studying hard and loving the classics'' so close! the secret history vibe is a close group of pretentious idiots who secretly hate each other murdering people for the vibe and ignoring the concepts of the moon landing and hypothermia

i just want my books to consume me devour me unstring my bones and spit me out reborn.

behind every hot girl there is an unhealthy, slightly concerning, spiritual connection to a sad gay fictional character

I just thought of something yesterday.

Did Dazai know that Chuuya wasn’t a vampire from the very beginning (since he arrived)?

Because like I can think of two reasons why Dazai could deduce this.

1. It’s Chuuya I mean like the best martial artist in Japan if not the world, no way a vampire got him

2. Chuuya’s hat blocks out anything that tries to intercept his consciousness. The vampirism would fall under this, so Chuuya would be immune.

And since Dazai was the one who possessed Rimbaud’s notes, he was aware of Chuuya’s hat too.

So these two were winging the entirety of the Prison break, counting on each other not to kill each other.

I think Dazai knew that Fyodor wouldn’t be killed based off that one attempt, and by extension Chuuya. Maybe he was immediately trying to set up Chuuya fake-killing him, and Chuuya was able to figure this out and played along.

Those are just my thoughts, I don’t know if they are right 😂

Ok after going back and forth between the chapter where Chuuya was introduced into the prison arc to when Chuuya was revealed to not be a vampire, I came to two conclusions:

1. Dazai had to have known that Chuuya was coming. That also means that he knew that Chuuya wasn’t a vampire from the very beginning.

2. The only “plan” they really had was the part where Chuuya had to fake-kill Dazai. Everything else was them winging it and hoping they don’t kill each other in the process because they very much could have at multiple points.

Lots and lots of bullet points and questions to get to those two conclusions 😭

look i spend 99% of the book disagreeing with richard but he was right about one thing. why wont they just get jobs????

(I don't know the context of this screenshot here. I just know that this was the most in character moment ever)

Zeus and Hermes judging if these 2 villagers (Baucis and philemon) respected xenia good enough or if they should hit them with uncalled for retribution