/rp Im Still Never Gonna Be Over The Fact That, After Tommy’s Prison Break-in Stream, The General Fandom

/rp im still never gonna be over the fact that, after tommy’s prison break-in stream, the general fandom response was “how could sam stop caring about tommy like that!?” when, if you’ve been keeping up with sam’s arc over the past few months, that stream did nothing but show how much he adores tommy

when ponk stole sam’s old keycards and even entertained the idea of breaking into prison, sam took his life, and his arm. sam gave him warnings, yes, but when ponk went through with it anyways sam showed him no mercy

compare this to tommy, who actually broke in. who got all the way to the main cell before being caught. who sam thinks is actively trying to break dream out. what does sam do to him in response? absolutely nothing. you can’t even say tommy got off with a slap on the wrist, because sam didn’t even do that much! he didn’t hit tommy a single time

and that, my friends, is one of the reasons why sam was so excruciatingly angry during this scene. he was angry at himself for not living up to his own expectations as The Warden. for not being strong enough. he was angry at tommy for even putting him in that position in the first place, and revealing his weaknesses. he repeats it over and over: “you should be dead right now. i should have killed you.” but he loves tommy too much to let him off with anything but a warning

when sam says “you should be dead” he means “the protocol states i should have killed you, but i can’t (i don’t want to) and that infuriates me”. when sam says “this is why i let you die- what am i supposed to do now?” he means “this is why i didn’t let you out of the cell. i was afraid dream would take advantage of the situation and something worse would happen”

sam says “go away. i don’t ever want to see you again”. he means “i don’t want you to die”