I Will Think About This Scenario Every Single Hour Of My Life Since Now

The only I feel pretty is when I take photos of my body or I starve my body for some hours, sometimes a day. Today I looked at myself in the mirror and I cried bc I'm definitely not pretty. That's ok bc I already knew it but something it sucks. Now I'm sweating in the bathtub while I'm listening to the black album aka my comfort album. Hope tomorrow is a better day bc I can't stand this shit anymore 🥰

This entire interview they're just squished together

This combo is letal omg

Been working really hard on drawing from reference lately. It’s rlly hard😢

Metallica ride the lightning tour! (I think)

Ft. Lars and Kirk’s matching scarfs😋

Life gets much better when you remember that james wrote nothing else matters to lars

I feel so upset at myself bc this post is obviously about Kirk and my horny ass noticed James almost immediately and I can't stop looking at this profile

Kirk at a press conference at the Warszawa Hotel in Katowice, Poland

February 11, 1987

James third wheeling

And another quick fangirl post for the night. I feel like I just don’t give this era enough appreciation. The slightly longer hair, the nice and pretty grey/white hair (that he is still pulling off so much), the energy he had, and just his vibe overall. And he was just so handsome in this era too. Plus I feel like he would just give amazing hugs in this era too😭. Like, I can imagine he’d be a fantastic hugger now, but in this era they’d be like just a tad bit better. Completely unrelated but forehead kisses. A hug and just a kiss on the forehead form this man, any era, that would solve all my problems in seconds.

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No one actually cares about the community. I mean. I'm talking for myself and what I see. My father told me that the only thing he can't bear is injustice and I got that. And he's absolutely right. But in the end of the day it's just me and me. And no one cares more about me than me. And everyone should care about themselves and only themselves. Idk what I'm trying to explain. Lately I have so messy thoughts

there needs to be a cultural shift in america like im not talking about culture war bullshit i mean the average american needs to learn to care about their community and the rest of the world and not be a self-absorbed asshole with a "fuck you i got mine" attitude.

Ok so I just remembered that when I went to Anchorage (in April???) and I saw that big JAMESON I took a photo with the intention to make a joke about it in my IG but I never did it so here we are plus yeah I also print photos of those 2 and they are my wall now. Yesterday I ended a fic called Dawn to the Doorway by theLazarus and I feel SO BAD it was so good now idk what to read bc I miss it so much lol. Whatever. Long live to my ships and me reading fanfiction at 2am in my bed listening to the black album. I have been doing since I was... 14? It feels good to not changue at all, at least sometimes