Remus Lupin Realising There Were All These Other Werewolves Out There Who Never Got The Same Opportunity

definitely don't read it and protect your peace. i absolutely loved choices and it makes sense that in a canon compliant world he somehow has to be able to move on from regulus. but ohmygod. the love they had was so magical and beautiful and seamless and then it crashed and then boom hes with lily. AND ITS ALL WRITTEN SO WELL THAT LIKE. THE WRITING WAS ON THE WALL BUT U ARE STILL FLABBERGASTED. I was clawing at my chest praying for death to just take me honestly.

One of my favourite things about Choices is how thoroughly interwoven jily and jegulus are. they're always present like a lingering shadow but I wish we had seen more of the time inbetween the end of jegulus and the start of Jily. The guilt James must have felt at moving on, despite everything that went down between him and Regulus. the fact that it was with LILY, who regulus always felt insecure about. And when I think about it too much my heart aches.

Because it was truly so insane. Like I think it hit him so hard. because he loved regulus, truly loved him. Regulus had him, unconditionally, with no strings or games, all of him. and all james wanted was for him to love him back more than he hated himself. more than he was scared. to try another path. to not give up. and he had SO much hope for them, that they would work. And in those moments with Regulus he just felt so full and so happy and then Regulus was gone and left this humongous hole in his life and the only person that can fill it is the very person Regulus was always scared was really meant for james.

fuck that damn bridge he lost everything there 😭😭😭 i cant even imagine how he felt finding jinx in the same spot he found her mother ohmygod

Silco | Death on the bridge

worst part of reading choices is the constant what if's i keep asking myself. what if dumbledore had got them out of there? what if regulus had fallen in love with james sooner? what if sirius had taken him with him that day? what if he had just gone with james after the ministry attack? what if he had just stayed at hogwarts? what if he had brought cerci to the cave? what if what if what if.

you just introduced me to something i never knew i needed but i'm going to die begging for ohmygod

Clearly I got a thing for tragic siblings fighting on the opposite sides of war. Sirius and Regulus? Vi and Jinx? This is seriously getting out of hand. Please authors write an Arcane au for Sirius and Reg I need it! Literally on my hands and knees begging someone to write this Becuase I unfortunately can't put my thoughts into words well enough.

finished choices and i genuinely feel like i've just served on the front lines of a battle and barely made it out alive holy shit. fic so devastating i was crying for hours dry heaving and retching like i genuinely LOOKED sick. so devastating it had me crying in public (which I haven't been able to do for years) So heartbreaking It feels like it carved out a piece of me.

i'll be fine and then i'll remember that regulus was 14 when choices started. FOURTEEN. and he'd already been through so much, and his life was on a ticking clock because he dies 4 years after the start of the story. he was literally a child it makes me feel so sick.

canon sirius this canon sirius that canon sirius knew a man who canonically cross-dressed (even if for convenience) & did not bully him, did not mistreat him, did not approach the subject with malice or negativity. canon sirius said, verbatim, "if you want to know what a man's like, take a look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals." canon sirius asked remus for forgiveness for not believing in the best of him. canon sirius instantly, without hesitation, forgave remus for believing in the worst of him. canon sirius expressed sympathy for barty crouch jr in regards to his father's neglect and entertained the possibility that barty may have been "in the wrong place at the wrong time" when discussing his crime. canon sirius, when he thought he would be a free man, immediately offered his godson a home and a place with him, even without being aware of the neglect his godson faced, even before he had a home to offer, and he did so by prefacing that he would understand if his godson didn't want to, making it clear he would not try to force him. canon sirius could be cruel, and insensitive, and vengeful, and obstinate—but that's not all he was. canon sirius could also be compassionate and sympathetic and forgiving and accepting. canon sirius was complex, and it goes both ways, in the direction of his faults as well as his virtues. btw.

nothing on my mind except how during their relationship all james was thinking about was how happy he is to just be with Regulus and then in Regulus' POV he's just constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop and convincing himself he needs to leave.

hardest part of watching arcane for me is having to admit that heimerdinger was right. For all his flaws he predicted exactly what the hexcore and magic would end up doing to their society. His issue was that for all the wisdom his experience and aged lent him, it robbed him of empathy for humans. Yes he cared, but he failed to understand the human desire for progress, that we don't have hundreds of years to sit around and test things and he conveyed just how little he empathised in every conversation. But ultimately he really was right and it's a bitter pill to swallow.

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my roman empire is that i will never be able to experience a friendship as deep as the marauders had