We seriously need a sequel of d:bh just for RK900
Hank: Why are you two fighting again?
Gavin: Connor always uses common phrases incorrectly.
Connor: Cry me a table, Gavin.
Connor: āBeware of dogā they say. Of course I will be aware of the dog. I like dogs. I am aware of all dogs.
This is so true, it hurts
me when the Undertaker was first introduced
Halloween Theme: *plays*
Michael Myers:
Connor [to RK900]: We donāt use bad words in this house.
Hank [in the other room]:Ā FUCK!
The month of May was horrible!
brace yourself, I talk about my dad who shares the same values as a trump supporter, death and abuse
Hereās the rundown
(5.20) good friend was lost to suicide. He fought the same battles, shared the same rusty spoons. As someone who already struggles with suicidal ideation it was HARD TO SWALLOW
(5.21-25) funeral planning and being triggered as shit totally not fucking okay. Contemplating hospitalization and questioning life. Bad bad bad
(5.26) mom tried to get me to talk to her (woohoo :D) but instead we were interrupted by sperm donor/dadās abuse, homophobia and transphobia (D: boohoo guess who is homo and trans itās me). He saw that Iām looking a lot more manly suddenly and screamed in my face and reacted⦠Well⦠Violently, inhumanely.
Canāt call the fucking cops cuz my dad is sheriff and well if you live here you know that we canāt trust them to not shoot us dead given the chance (and honestly knowing my dad he has joked about selling me to his friends and Iām sure he would be happy to joke about hinting that heād be chill with them shooting me if I ever try to open my mouth about some shit so pls letās not test this like last time).
Anyways he spends some time being an asshole while one of my partners sits next to me and is listening to this very triggering traumatic event unfold. Meanwhile Iām totally full fledge not ok PTSD out the ass I canāt even do anything but shake and scream at my mom for just watching it all happen and beg her for help. Bouncing from āplease help meā and āyou fucking bitch how dare you just turn a blind eye to this abuse AGAINā
After more shit I finally start getting snarky just so he kicks us out instead of traps us there to get who knows what happened. He throws me the fuck out and my mom just locks herself in her room for some time knowing that Iām already suicidal and was there for comfort. I couldnāt hop in my partnerās car because my dad is fucking nuts and I donāt want to make any wrong moves. So I ran and screamed like a nut and then realized I had a half gram of weed in my pocket and should probably go away before dad sends cops and they somehow know that I a dirty medical marijuana pothead faking pain to get dRuGS, as my dad probably phrased it
So I run to Grandmaās to talk
Grandma offered to let me stay with her a few nights of the month bc honestly my dad is nuts and while I have no proof heās going to use any excuse out there to kill my āfaggot special snowflake selfā he WILL kill me in front of his mom if he finds me using her home as a safe spot permanently (sheās disabled and canāt protect me, he has keys and can come in any time). Idek if I can trust GMa because her dementia is making her v forgetful and if she slips up by mentioning to dad Iām there Iām FUCKED. I love her tho
Also it feels like my partners are at risk just for being physically with me tbh⦠And I have nobody else irl besides professionals to help
(5.27) TODAY spent almost all of last night just on the street hiding out by some parking lot so I woke up TIRED. Iām kind of really considering bad things. Itās memorial day tho so hospitals next door are closed early. The clinics are also closed. My only choice is to get admitted through the ER and I literally have $1.54 left because I havenāt been able to properly function since 5.20 and have been using saved funds to pay for everything I had to up until now. Now next month is coming and Iām not sureā¦.. Iām not sure idkā¦
Idk what I want to do. Yes I do. I just donāt know how Iāll be able to do it. My parents arenāt helping me. My insurance plan isnāt providing these services that I really donāt know if I can pass up. I need to get help. I donāt want to end up killing myself because of the mistreatment. I donāt want to fucking die by his hands either I just need to get stable and get a job and go to school and move the fuck away far the fuck away
The first baby step is getting the support I need to be okay. Iām sorry to write out all this triggering horrible stuff. Ik it wasnāt calmly put or nice to read⦠Maybe even painful
If you took the time to say anything nice or make sure I was okay I really appreciate it. I promise you if it wasnāt for the kindness I got online I would not be strong enough to push myself to get help. Iām scared of what it will cost. Idk what debt it like. Nobody else is going to help me feel safe tho so I have to go thereās no other choice
If youāre comfortable and able, I could really really really really REALLY use some $ support for when Iām out since I wonāt be prepared to pay off ANYTHING⦠Iām sorry to ask and I hope this doesnāt warrant a bunch of hatefulness. Please help me climb out of this ditch, I need a hand
I hope that you all are safe. FUCK COPS BE GAY BE TRANS AND CUT YOUR HAIR
PS pls donāt add anything rude or triggering on this post rn isnāt a good time š oh oh and if anyone could pls vouch saying that I Am Not A Bot that would be awesome help in case anyone isnāt sure idk man Iāve handled a lot of wack stuff lately so itās worth mentioning
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