I Don't Think I'll Have A Bad Life In The Future But I Know That No Matter What Happens I'll Always Feel

I hate school so much, i was sh clean for almost 7 months but I relapsed yesterday, feeling like the dumbest person to ever walk on this earth

Will i ever receive affection without having to ask for it? Will anyone ever love me without me having to beg for it?

I was born in '06 and movie rental stores started disappearing when i was still little but my favourite memories as a child is of me and my mom going down the block to rent movies for our movie nights

we as a society genuinely need movie rental stores back so much

How do i stop feeling like a burden for everyone in my life?, financially,emotionally,physically, i just can't stop the feeling that everyone's life would be better if i weren't here

I want to vent for a hot minute. I want to start off by saying, as a person of Jewish decent, FUCK ISRAEL!! don't get it fucking twisted, I support Palestine and what is happening is 1000% genocide and VILE.

I'm not comparing by any means, but what i have ALSO been seeing (here and everywhere) is just crazy hate for ANYONE Jewish with the assumption that all Jews are on the side of Israel.

Not saying that some aren't but throwing so much bigotry towards ANYONE Jewish is both fucked up, and absolutely not helpful.

I've felt unsafe on certain parts of the internet and in my reality because of what's being said. and I truly can't see how anyone finds this helpful in bring peace to Palestine.

Again, not comparing, of course there is no possible way this is on the same page, let alone in the same book or even in the same library. It's just been getting into my head so much lately I needed to get it out of my head so I don't explode.

Support Palestine, donate if you can, AND FUCKING VOTE!

Me every time i recommend a series or a movie to my friends

recommending a movie to someone like oh my god they're gonna hate it and i will be brought to the town square and stoned

I want someone to love me softly, I'm tired of the violent love, the kind of love that makes you feel dirty and unworthy. I'm tired of hearing my father's voice in the throat of anyone who expresses even the slightest bit of discontent or disapproval towards me. I want soft kisses and hugs and light touches and quiet understanding and light conversations that make you feel warm inside. I want to feel worthy for once, feel peace for once.

this what i mean when i say boys night btw

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What if i don't go to uni and get a 9/5, like i don't mind having an office job i quite like the ideia actually ya know getting paid to sit all day and do pre determined tasks, i like the idea of a routine