hi hello here's a little tag drop !
⦠. āā picks a direction , it's ninety in memphis turns up the music so thoughts don't intrude predictably winds up thinkin' of elvis ā and wonders if he believed SONGS COULD COME TRUE .
NAJI KARIM ( emilio sakraya) , he/him , roadie for @staticavenue .į intro. pinterest. spotify.
āā .⦠penned by envy ( she/her , 21 ).
to be fair , naji's not really a happy anything. he's always felt too much or too little , and even tonight he leans towards the former , awkward andĀ messyĀ in a way that he's hoping she won't find pathetic. the word mopey sticks with him , but he's simply amused , the feeling tugging his lips into a reluctant, lopsided smile he has no business letting mabel see. he swears it's the first time he's smiled all night , but hey , she's always carried a kind of warmth with her that's bled into his gloom. " i'm not grumpy all the time ā " i'm definitely not grumpy around you. " ā and , believe it or not , the eeyore commentĀ is unoriginal. " naji stares at her reflection for a beat longer than he should , alcohol addled senses fixating his gaze there. he swallows , hard.Ā tentativeĀ fingers drift to the door handle , rough thumbs brushing over it beforeĀ the cold metalĀ finally snaps him out of it, najiās blinking hard like heās trying to shake off the fog. " maybe i'll get you that shot when you're done. " before he's encouraged to sayĀ another drunken word , he pulls the door closed between them , letting the latch click softly into place before he leans against it. the heels of his palms press into his eyes , the pressure sending his vision dark and filled with sprinklings of stars. he's hoping that now ā now thatĀ mabel's behind a door, where he canāt see her ā he might finally be able to get a grip.Ā
inĀ herĀ ownĀ defense,Ā mabelĀ isn'tĀ completelyĀ sureĀ thatĀ herĀ poutsĀ workĀ onĀ najiĀ ;Ā there'sĀ theĀ sneakingĀ suspicion,Ā yes,Ā andĀ maybeĀ sheĀ weaponizesĀ itĀ aĀ lotĀ becauseĀ sheĀ knowsĀ it'llĀ work,Ā yes,Ā butĀ she'sĀ neverĀ beenĀ sure.Ā alwaysĀ theĀ gnawingĀ feelingĀ thatĀ maybeĀ he'sĀ justĀ humoringĀ her,Ā insecurityĀ personifiedĀ andĀ speakingĀ inĀ theĀ mostĀ irritatingĀ littleĀ voiceĀ inĀ herĀ headĀ āĀ ifĀ mabelĀ thinksĀ aboutĀ itĀ tooĀ muchĀ herĀ stomachĀ hurts.Ā cheeksĀ goĀ pinkĀ whenĀ sheĀ looksĀ atĀ himĀ likeĀ this,Ā enoughĀ toĀ makeĀ herĀ freezeĀ forĀ aĀ sputteringĀ momentĀ beforeĀ givingĀ upĀ andĀ duckingĀ underĀ hisĀ armĀ toĀ getĀ in.Ā pushĀ pastĀ himĀ (Ā ignoreĀ theĀ stumbling,Ā sheĀ didn'tĀ claimĀ toĀ beĀ soberĀ )Ā andĀ sheĀ won'tĀ haveĀ toĀ lookĀ tooĀ long.Ā "Ā iĀ don'tĀ evenĀ haveĀ attitude,Ā you'reĀ justĀ soĀ grumpyĀ allĀ theĀ time.Ā thoughtĀ you'dĀ beĀ aĀ happyĀ drunk,Ā youĀ know.Ā "Ā confidenceĀ isĀ restoredĀ andĀ herĀ toneĀ evensĀ out,Ā gainsĀ theĀ littleĀ liltĀ typicalĀ ofĀ her.Ā mabel'sĀ evenĀ braveĀ enoughĀ toĀ grinĀ atĀ himĀ fromĀ theĀ mirror,Ā "Ā awww,Ā you'reĀ beingĀ soĀ sweet.Ā f'iĀ knewĀ you'dĀ beĀ likeĀ thisĀ iĀ would'veĀ askedĀ youĀ forĀ aĀ shotĀ earlier.Ā "Ā mabelĀ contemplatesĀ kickingĀ himĀ out,Ā feelsĀ theĀ nervesĀ inĀ wavesĀ ;Ā naji'sĀ auraĀ wasĀ quiteĀ blueĀ (Ā orĀ maybeĀ purpleĀ ?Ā )Ā rightĀ now,Ā sheĀ wondersĀ ifĀ heĀ notices.Ā "Ā mmĀ āĀ actually,Ā i'mĀ fineĀ !Ā areĀ youĀ okay,Ā thoughĀ ?Ā youĀ lookĀ soĀ ...Ā mopey.Ā likeĀ eeyore.Ā "Ā ouch.
WHO ? naji & open. WHERE ? right in front of the (insanely long) bathroom line. WHAT ? event 01 ā house party.
he's leaning heavy against the sink , fingers gripping the cool edge as naji finds himself in the mirror . one of the lights above it is flickering ā bulb's gone out ? ā and it's terribly eerie how his face is cast in a sickly yellow glow that is doing nothing to flatter him. not that he's doing himself any favors , anyway : he's half - convinced that the cherry four loko from earlier wasn't as good for him as the others had insisted it'd be. yeah , he's looking at his reflection again , fingers brushing against his temple as he wonders how long it'll take to shake himself back into sobriety. naji closes his eyes , breathes in , out , in again , out again , and ā bang , bang , bang ! fuck. his jaw tenses as he listens, eyes narrowing, hoping theyāll give up. no such luck , because barely thirty seconds follow those aggressive knocks before another set makes the door shake. he can hear someone complaining on the other side , and even drunk , naji finds the irritation to roll his eyes. lord , are there no other bathrooms in major's home ? he's not thinking when he flings the door open , drunk words spilling out before he can rein them in. " the fuck is your problem ? you canāt wait one damn minute ? "
āHe was silent and reserved. But he talked to me. And out of every sentence that guy ever said to me, my favorite line might have to be: āI donāt talk much, but it was easy for me to open up to you.āā
ā walkingironyĀ Ā (via wnq-writers)
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