Taylor Swift, State Of Grace

god i’m, actually invested, haven’t even met him. watch this be the wrong thing, classic!

-risk

i fear whenever my english and french teachers ask me what a specific word means, i can give the broader detail of it, but i don't know it's exact definition, all i know is it goes there 😭

it may have to do with reading past my level in grade school, but that's where i like to stem most my problems from 🤷🏼‍♀

xander: hi, i'm xander! short for alexander

xander: this is gray, short for grayson

xander: this is jamie, short for jameson

xander: and this is nash... he's just short :)

nash: for the LAST TIME-

Taking anti-depressant pills?? Seeing a therapist??? Journaling???? No need babe, my fav writer just dropped another x reader fic.

uh oh i have to get up in five hours

not that that's stopping me from stalking @inkstainsonmysheets blog more but 🤷🏼‍♀

heyy! You followed me and I followed you back! I'm umi! Your Ky! Right? Anyways! I adore your blog!!! I'm also a massive swiftie too hehe! And your moots with @inkstainsonmysheets !

Btw just letting you know I'm a little crazy 🙃

i am ky!!! it’s so nice to properly introduce ourselves! i love finding other swifties 😊, and dw i love a little crazy ❤️❤️

i feel like i heavily relate to 'everybody's falling in love, and i'm falling behind', because all my friends have dated, many have kissed boys they've liked, or even haven't like, they did it just for fun to try it out. but i'm the last actual romantic friend who's been single all her life, (other than some situationships that did nothing but mess with my perspective on the meaning of the word love), all because i've been pining over the same boy for four years, who i've been friends with since i started school with him, and who i'm afraid will always see me as the friend who he can talk to about his crushes, and he's too caught up in our friendship to notice that my smile dims every time he brings up a new crush, another girl who i will constantly compare myself to and ask myself 'what's so different about me from everyone else?' but i'll remind myself time and time again that i'm not different in a bad way, i just worry my view on romantic relations changes the way i could actually operate in one, and i have no reference to what a real relationship feels like since i've been celibate my whole life, and i'm constantly wondering if real romances would be like the beautiful ones they describe in books and show in movies, or if i'm just going to be disappointed and underwhelmed when i finally live the experience i've longed for since i was young.