Am I The One You Look For? Am I The One You Think Of? Is It Me? Is It Really Me

Thinking about doing everyone a big favor...

Its never been about her she’s not the reason I feel down,

I just get so fucking tired having nobody around.

I push myself to push myself and what’s it even for?

I’m looking at the future and it’s filled with broken doors,

And they don’t lead to anywhere I’m lost inside a maze.

Just trying to find a home but maybe home is heaven’s gates.

So I try and fight the feeling and I take another shot,

In hopes it clears my brain before I try and take a, shot.

Yeah, it’s a little harder than you think,

I smile for the camera but inside I feel so weak.

I talk about these fakes, but the fake is really me.

Battling depression since before I was thirteen.

And none would ever guess because I wore the biggest smile.

No one would have guessed because I’m always running wild.

But every night’s a struggle and I cry myself to sleep.

They think I’m on a diet but I really just can’t eat.

So I sit here by myself as I put my thoughts down into words,

My anxiety is killing me and my skin it starts to burn,

I try and hold it back but tears flood like swimming pools

For so long it’s been over but I hold on like a fool.

Marriage doesn't change things

It wasn’t until he looked at me and saw everything you didn’t that it hit me. All this time I had been trying to convince you to see me. But the truth is, you did see me. I realized that seeing isn’t always believing. That sometimes you have to believe long before you ever see.

Vivi Dale (via lovelustquotes)

So my sisters show was like 30 seconds too short so they had my friend Matthew do a long buzz roll to a chord and then do a stick trick at the end but he dropped his stick by accident so he dropped his other stick on purpose like a fucking god I’m dead I love him

water

She call me daddy, but I ain't her motherfucking father

Will reblog everything from this show! 😭