a lump sum of money is on the way to you
Valley of Fire
I think we’re all so brave for making it through every day
My yearning for creativity has been so strong lately, but it's like my compass isn't tuned. I'm craving the creative process but I feel stuck in the initiation phase. There are so many projects and crafts that I could do....Need a crafting session with some friends STAT.
I think I could sleep for a month straight at this point.
I'm so exhausted. I took sick leave yesterday and I thought I was better but goddamn. Every time I think I'm getting used to my level of fatigue it changes. I just want to be able to get through a day without feeling like I'm dying. I suppose on the bright side my joints aren't as sore today, so that's something.
I just fucking wish that I could work from home without an ADA request. I'm the only person in office full-time, which wouldn't be an issue if I didn't have mysterious chronic illness b.s. affecting me on a daily basis. I've genuinely never taken this much time off of work at any job before this one.
Video captions: And stop trying to show your ex what they missed out on! Stop trying to teach your family a lesson for not believing in you! Stop trying to shit on your haters! Do it for you! Do it because you deserve it! Do it for YOU! Water your dreams with love! Don’t put no hate and resentment, and try to — “oh Imma fucking show them, Imma show” — FUCK THEM! Fuck them, do it for you! They don’t matter! They NEVER mattered.
ohhhh I get it now. I'm meant to subvert outdated/useless societal standards with my own flavor and prioritize growth and contentment.
who is it that needs you to be perfect? because it isn't you. and what sort of perfect is it that you have to be? is it whole, is it authentic and full? is it everything you are and everything you have been, embraced and accepted? or is it a sanitized, easily digestible, inoffensive and rigid, unlived textbook beauty and conforming shell of what you truly are?