(from "Velleity")
Maybe you're right,
I would have to liberate myself from them.
A mere velleity, a little hope, that suffice for me,
but among you, with you, I also might have to make something of my life.
(from "Moths") rainy late night, a bright glass door of the mall, the place of ghostly large, achromatic colored moths they always whisper under their breaths you beware of those who crush the eyes that are awake at night
(from "One Afternoon") lying on the bed where pieces of my lips are scattered, thinking of the short stories of Sait Faik, savoring songs of an inexplicable-named band, wondering if her desperate look in the movie was real,
(from "Into the Darkness")
Two cups of different sizes
are filled with different drinks,
the more you want to hide your heart,
the more ferociously it jumps out.
With no color, no odor, no taste, it makes
the most fatal poison. And it doesn't disappear.
It just plays in the most discreet way.
It never disappears but becomes even more evil.
(from "Social Animals")
What's the most depressing is
To hear hopeful words
From their feigned concern;
If they don't see with their own eyes
They never believe or even
Imagine something in you
And if you hurry to dance
To their tune to shut their mouths
They eventually fail to contain
Their sincerity, just burst into a laugh.
(from "An Intruder")
but it is the process that leads the direction of the result
the choice of words cannot tell everything and the delusion
that you're holding something in your hands makes you most vulgar.
(from "a candlelight") there's a candlelight in my heart that always precariously flickers with their own eyes with their own blue lines it's a meaningless world for truth say their own eyes, say their own blue lines, but my candlelight would never flicker like this ravingly if they're right
(from "The Color Theory") I'd rather open my eyes, look at the light and bring the paper back which I threw it far away savor the childish splendor I couldn't understand why they were getting so upset
(from "The Age of Peace")
As they pulled out her elbow,
indulgence flared up with heat
As the roar died down,
fear seeped into the void
Above it stretched humility with shallow roots
As they broke his knee,
arrogance was sucked
deep into the ground with pus
As the fury subsided,
shame crept into the void
Below it grew a leech as tenacious as tar,
gripping the earth with
a heavy and heavy
and obsessive hold
The suspicious limp swaying of the arms,
the pathetic dawdling of the legs,
no longer carried the plague
The world still looked strange,
but at last it was at peace.
(from 'a wilderness')
in the middle of the world's darkest and most solitary wilderness,
I am just standing still alone.
I cannot sink down.
I have to keep looking
for the light, which is invisible.
as the frigid wind blows,
I tore all the clothes
I was wearing to shreds.
I couldn't get over it without shivering
and feeling the cold more
and more severely.