Men 40+ Years Slider Than Me Grab My Attention Too Well.

an older man would cure me

dear diary,

i don’t want to be “beautiful” i want to be cocaine. once you get started on me you’ll never stop and you’ll keep on wanting more. the recovery process is the hardest part. harder to quit than to start. toxic but addicting; harmful but euphoric

-𝒶𝓇𝒶𝒷𝑒𝓁𝓁𝒶༊*·˚

(june 26, 2023)

see this is what i was talking about.

with aubrey i’m CM he has such a magnetic pull to her in the kisses, his body moves into hers as if he needs to touch her with every inch of his skin.

his hands move through her hair reflexively, his body is straining to get more.

and in beautiful girl, it’s once again so pure. you watch as he genuinely puts passion into the kiss, not as a character but as a person.

he and kat had only just started dating when the filming of suburban gothic had begun, and that real chemistry appears on screen multiple times, making it one of my personal favorite romances of matthew’s characters.

and, like the other examples, this kiss is so raw. it’s real and full of emotions. it has the same magnetism that the kids with aubrey had, the emotion of 68 kill, and the purity of beautiful girl.

there is a clip of him in the pool trying to remember his lines for the kiss with amber heard in CM, and he is genuinely flustered, genuinely feeling things. the kiss, however brief or passionate has this brain freeze effect.

ultimately, what im saying is, matthew has such a real emotional tie to the on screen kisses he preforms. it’s so much more than acting.

no one has any idea how much i adore this kiss scene from 68 kill right here

so full of gentleness and tenderness and trust and he's holding her almost cautiously as if she'd break if he didn't hold her as if she was the most delicate thing on earth

god i love the way this man kisses, it's literally like it's the last time he'll ever kiss anyone and i envy every single person who's ever got to experience this fr

I LOVING COLORING!!!

the theme is: FBI favorite wh♡re

literally just the beginning, middle, and end of my period

"i need to get outta here"

Matt’s getting mischievous with age, telling nick they couldn’t give him his wisdom teeth only to pull them out later. Making the bet before the car video where he baits Chris into asking for some chocolate. The egg video incident. Now the uber prank.

He’s getting silly and it’s a little scary

doctor, you’ve clearly never been a teenager girl before!

i spent another homecoming in the corner, you’d think i’d know after all the other dances - it’s never fun, im never asked to dance and i end up following someone i barely know like a lost puppy all night.

as i walked the ghost town of hallways listening to the clacking of my heels, i twirled my long skirt and i danced with the moon because even if it was alone, someone asked me to dance.

i remember at 10 i’d thought i’d have it all in high school, but i don’t have a license, or friends, or anything. as i still hold out for a first kiss and a first date, i’ll remind my younger self that if even for a moment, the moon wanted to know me. i danced to the quiet and my shoes sound, and the night loved me.