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"immortality sucks because all your friends die" all your friends die anyway. those we do not mourn are those who mourn us.

"immortality sucks because you forget who you are" we always forget who we are. do you remember who you were at four years of age? who you were at fourteen? "who i am" is a shadow cast on the wall.

"immortality sucks because" skill issue. skill issue. skill issue. give me your liver

I'm a guy and I had really cystic acne when I was 16 (now 18). I'm on my second treatment of acutane right now. The first was for 8 months and my current treat is on its 5th month. I just feel like shit all the time. I feel bad about myself. I can't look into the mirror and like what I see. I've already seen a therapist about this problem but it didn't really help much. I've learned to deal with it better, but I still struggle. Any advice?

I’m so sorry!! It’s really unfair just how much acne can affect ones self image. I had a really hard time with mine when it was bad, and I don’t think I can say that I know how you feel, but I went through a long period of self hatred just because of my skin. I definitely understand that it can take a toll on you and your happiness. I think the best advice I have is that in the long run, dealing with something like this can make you a much better person. It makes you understanding of others, less judge mental, and more accepting. That’s mostly how I got through dealing with my skin, but I know it’s not as simple as that. Just know that we are all here for you and you are so so so much more than your skin. Don’t forget that you have a personality and all the potential in the world to do what you want. And honestly, when I see someone dealing with acne it makes me relate to them more and have respect for them. When mine was at its worst I really reached to people that had similar problems and t made me feel better to have an unspoken similarity. It helped a lot to not feel judged because who I surrounded myself with understood what was happening. Another thing is that when accutane comes up with people I know, the people can’t seem to remember what my skin used to look like, because when it isn’t your skin it isn’t a big deal. Don’t worry, you’ll get through it and you’ll come out on top. If you ever need anything I’m here, and I’m sure tons of other people apart of this community and your life are there for you too :)

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3-card | t a r o t | spreads |

past / present / future

mind / body / heart

goal / blockage / guidance

in one week / in one month / in one year

true feelings / true intent / potential together

what / why / how

you / me / us

strength / weakness / guidance

you / them / relationship

situation / obstacle / solution

their wants / your wants / potential together

action / reaction / outcome

connection / repeating cycle / havoc

you / current path / potential

start / stop / continue

solution / alternative solution / how to decide

strengths / weaknesses / growth

pain / healing / advice

situation / attitude / advice

idea / manifestation / process

beauty / truth / knowledge

feelings / improve / caution

history / problem / advice

past life / present life / future life

physical / emotional / spiritual

Self Care Spell Jar

Ingredients: A piece of my hair. Sugar to sweeten my attitude. Lavender to help me keep calm and bring happiness to my life. Dandelion to make my wishes come true. Agrimony and Juniper, for protection. Mullen for courage and motivation. Cardamom pods to attract love and lust. Orange peel, for luck and happiness. Rose for self love. Jasmine for love and protection. Cinnamon for love and money. And my favorite ingredient .. Orchid flowers fully bloomed, for inner peace and a reminder that I to will bloom beautifully.

I put sage on the top of the jar for a final cleansing and sealed it up with a white candle.

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Cats, directed by Tom Hopper

EA developer playing the new Battlefront 2 for the first time (cca. 2017)

Lunar Phase Associations🌙

Your Life Isn't Over Because You Have Misophonia (Surprise!)

I wanted to write a post about you specifically. Yes, you, not someone else, you. I want you to know that your life is not over because you have misophonia, and that you’re important to the world. You have a lot of options as a diagnosed misophonic! Here is sort of a mega-post of information to maybe help you to succeed in life and explore opportunities you may not have known existed :) I’ll also put some photos in between so that you might feel more inspired. 

The Importance of Getting a Diagnosis & Your Legal Rights: First off, I think the first step you have to take in making your life easier if you’re still in school is getting a diagnosis from a certified doctor. I know that not every state or region has an audiologist that can diagnose you, but I certainly think that a trip to the nearest one, however long it would take, is completely worth it. Why? Because, as far as I am aware of, if you live in the United States, the United Kingdom, New Zealand, Ireland or Australia, you have anti-discriminatory rights as a disabled citizen. (I know there are laws in other countries, but we’d be here all night if I covered them all!) Here are government links that explain your civil rights in the U.S., the U.K., New Zealand, Ireland and in Australia. Also, I checked with Canada, and they don’t have a law yet, but they’re currently campaigning towards one!) Here are two lists of practitioners who treat misophonia: (Just the United States) and (The U.S. and several other countries). Some of the doctors on the second link might only treat tinnitus, so email them first or look them up! The doctor in London and the doctor in Victoria, Australia do treat misophonia for sure, so do not fret! 

Your Legal Rights to Equal Education in These Same Countries: Because there are anti-discriminatory laws in the countries I named, you have an equal right to attain an education as any other non-disabled student. If you are officially diagnosed with misophonia from a certified doctor, these rights legally apply to you, as long as your doctor can explain in a letter exactly why misophonia is a disability for you. In the United States, Section 504 of the Rehabilitation Act of 1973 basically says that federally funded schools cannot discriminate or deny a student the same access to education because of their disability, and it specifically covers neurological disorders - which misophonia actually is. Because of this law, I was able to get accommodations at the University of Colorado Denver to make my education attainable. (I am one of two students there with misophonia accommodations!) I am allowed a note-taker, I may leave or skip class without being counted absent (so long as my excuse is misophonia-related), my professors are not allowed to discriminate against me in class because of my disability, I get preferred seating, I can take tests and quizzes in a room by myself (yay!!!), and I am allowed an FM system (an auditory system consisting of earphones for me with a receiver and a microphone for my teacher, so I can’t hear other people!), which my professor is legally required to wear and help me with. I mean, how cool is that?! These are the sorts of accommodations you can ask for when you try to make your case! For a while I had been thinking about dropping out because going to class was so hard, but man, nothing is stopping me now! PhD., here I come! 

Those of You Who Are Home-Bound: Even if you can’t stand being in a classroom for any reason, there are many options as far as online school go. Here are 50 online high schools and 542 online colleges and universities! Here are some online programs for those in the UK needing to complete sixth form. I personally know at least one girl with misophonia who is doing online school here in the U.S., and it seems to be working for her :)

Rights As An Employee: Disability laws also protect us in the work space! As far as Section 504 in the U.S. is concerned, an employer is required to accommodate a disabled employee within reasonable means. In the U.K., the Equality Act of 2010 says, that an employer has to make ‘reasonable adjustments’ to avoid you being put at a disadvantage compared to those in your work space who do not have disabilities. In Australia, their anti-discriminatory law says that it is against the law for an employer to act in a discriminatory way towards your disability. Ireland’s Disability Discrimination Act says it is illegal for employers to discriminate against people with disabilities for any reason related to their disability, in all aspects of employment, unless it can be justified. I didn’t quite understand New Zealand’s Disabled Persons Employment Promotion (Repeal and Related Matters) Bill, but you can visit this page for more information if it would be helpful to you!

Ideal Jobs: Basically, I’ve learned that if you have a job where you can control your environment or work alone, it is possible for you to work a job as a professional. Ideal jobs would be things like being a teacher, working from home, owning a business, being a doctor or a counselor, being an electrician, doing work in the field, working in a controlled office, ect. I currently work at my dad’s office, where I am mostly on my own. The secretary I work with knows about my condition and helps me out in any way I need! To be honest, I’m kind of scared to get a job working in customer service because my triggers are so bad, so I additionally raise cows, whom for the most part, don’t bother me yet. Plus, they pay for my textbooks! 

Places to Find Online Support: These blogs: confessions-of-a-misophonic, adventures-in-misophonia, misophonia–sucks, misophonia-isnt-fun, living-with-miso, misophoniachicago, misophoniaadailyhell, and misophoniaandme! 

These Facebook groups: “Misophonia Coping and Solutions”, “Misophonia: Selective Sound Sensitivity Syndrome (4S)”, and “Misophonia-Parents of children with misophonia”.

Websites:  Misophonia Online, the Misophonia Association, and Haunted by everyday noises. 

Conclusions: I really stand by the fact that even while you have misophonia, you are still able to live and interact with the world, and you are also able to make a difference! The Internet, in this way, is a beautiful and wondrous tool that allows us to come together as a community, share ideas with one another, and encourage each other. I don’t know where I’d be if I didn’t have you all for support! I’d encourage you all to think of the talents you have been gifted with and maybe think of ways you can use them to further raise awareness and help other misophonics in our community. Like, if you’re going to be a misophoniac, be a damn good one, right? If you’re a musician, maybe write songs; or if you’re an artist, create ways for others to visualize what we have; if you’re confident, make videos, talk about what you have, and share them with the world; and if you’re not too bad at writing, speak out and communicate! I mean, that’s how this ridiculous blog got started. I just thought I’d share a few ideas and then it kind of bubbled over and came to life! It’s one of the best decisions I ever made.

You all have voices and are important to the world, make something of yourself that you can be proud of! You won’t regret it.

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done that, I’m going to go bleach my eyes. 

“Bloody Mary” Abuser Curse (Lady Gaga Inspired)

A curse to use against those who abused you in the past to get justice and return your pain to them. Inspired by Lady Gaga’s song “Bloody Mary”.

You Will Need:

A jar with a Lid

Garnet

Red Ink

Chili Powder

Onion

Paper

Black Marker/Pen

3 black candles

2 red candles

Burn safe bowl

Taglock 

(Optional) Lady Gaga’s “Bloody Mary” playing in the background

Steps:

Light your candles and have them burning as you cast the curse. Turn on the song if you choose to listen to it during.

On your paper write down all of your frustrations, past pain or even just scribble and shred it to put your anger and energy into it. Do what feels right for you. Once done put it all into a bowl and light it on fire to burn it to ash. Do this with caution and keep water or salt near you in case it flares.

In your jar add the taglock and cover it in the herbs and ashes. Pour in the red ink making sure to cover everything with it. Seal the jar shut and bury it or store it somewhere dark that you won’t see it.

Afterwards rest and cleanse yourself. If needed or desired do a self-love spell and/or a spell to help you get over the past. Be sure to also seek professional help and aid about the pain, they can help.