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Length goals

Scans from Androgyne (2007) Photography: Gregoire Alexandre

Dork being a dork discovers item from Swap Meet fits and is thrilled to embrace Vampire self.

Thank you Iron Garden and Dark Force Fest for the Swap Meet!

Bat necklace OOAK from Halcyon Designs on Instagram

https://www.instagram.com/halcyondesignsnj?igsh=dzkyZmE3N2tzbGpv

Siouxsie in Brussels, 2023

📸 Daria Miasoedova

Frank Quitely

Oooh, This is gonna hit the dancefloors for sure 💜

Hey,

What ever happend to:

James D Stark?

I loved his music when I found it on VampireFreaks, and always thought he was a bigger name in the Goth genres.

Any extremely similar artists I should listen to?

Totally obsessed with these 1920's Austrian Neo-Gothic/Art Nouveau Bronze Bat Lamps.

There are always deer in the cemeteries here.

I had just bought the skirt when the Fog rolled in Thick and Heavy and Fast.

I always drive past this cemetery. I've loved its mausoleums for years.

Tonight, I finally took some classic cemetery goth photos.

I do wish we had a plot for Joe. Some marker somewhere that it would be acceptable, and desired by Joe, for me to take my silly cemetery photos with. So as not to intrude on strange families like I did here. I mean nothing but admiration for the beautiful memorials, and respect for the passed and present families. In my grief, I offer love and reverence to them all.

I don't need my DiD confirmed like this

I DON'T NEED MY DiD CONFIRMED LIKE THIS

Aaaaaah

If Copia being head of the literal clergy and still asking for permission to do things isn't a sure sign of the emotional manipulation he's dealth with, then him constantly dissociating with people around him is

FKA Twigs & Minnie Driver read letters from the Ask Polly column about t...

please don’t spend your life convincing yourself that love or joy is reserved for the idealized version of you that only exists in the future

Hi! This is out of the blue, but I saw your tags on the post that said "so normal people don't have whole conversations in their heads?" and this question is actually one I've been trying to figure out an answer to for a decade, to some success. The inside of everyone's brain looks different and sounds different, and their thoughts process in different ways. This is all anecdotal, but a few examples:

Typewriter to process verbal thoughts + never-ending checklist (my mother, who has clinical anxiety)

Music and noise 24/7, thoughts tumbling over one another, and a literal conscience that was present during his childhood & who could talk, who kept his impulses in check (my brother, who has ADHD and struggled with authority as a child)

A library arranged in self-contained hexagonal shelves, 6 levels each, 6 books per shelf - to think and recall information was to grab books from around the library. Conversations with own self would absolutely happen up there (an old friend).

Much like my brother, I experience music and noise, radio static/a constant earworm, and I have a full sensory memory + think verbally in first person. My thoughts tumble over one another incessantly like a water wheel, and since my thought process is largely verbal, it's like listening to two sentences superimposed over one another. It's too disorganized to properly capture. I have ADHD also.

GENERALLY, more neurotypical individuals will just say that they can hear their own first-person voice in dialogue, and little else - so, ironically, having whole conversations in your own head with yourself is actually the most common mental trait I've noticed throughout the years I've asked people about this.

There's absolutely a range of internal thinking in which "normal" exists. Have you ever heard the question, "Do you think in pictures, words, or out loud?" Some people say one, some people say a mix. For a lot of people, that ACTUALLY describes a large chunk of their experience without any additional complexity. But if you dig deeper, certain patterns start to emerge otherwise. ADHD minds tend to be "loud," to the extent that it sometimes makes it hard to think even if it's dead silent. Like, genuinely, our internal lives are just characterized by noise. Some autistic friends I've spoken to about this have much more rigidly organized minds - think mind palaces with an emphasis on patterns and predictability. Anxiety? Getting hung up on the same thought over and over again, or, you know, constantly skimming that internal check list. Those conversations with yourself maybexist in those fringe settings, but most people have conversations with themselves. It's all the other stuff that marks an unusual internal world - the constant noise, or the doom loops, or the rigid order, so on and so forth.

But TL;DR, having conversations with yourself is actually as normal as it gets, at least anecdotally. That's just thinking verbally lol

Oh! I am all here for the mind exploration!

I definitely get pictures and very persistent earworms (I helped Skeleta get to #1, I am certain of it).

I am always purposefully vauge because I don't know how people will react. Also, I have not been actively pursuing a diagnosis yet, so I do not want to falsely claim. A lot of stuff just makes so much sense, though.

That is, however, due to a medical phobic family growing up.

I'm just interested in understanding what of me expresses to others my mental load? If that makes sense?

Why is it I need to deregulate my system from a shock literally an hour before I'm planning to go out?

TWICE NOW! I've had unpleasant experiences within hours of me needing to get ready to go somewhere.

THREE TIMES NOW! Someone has shown up at my door uninvited and scared the shit out of me.

Knock it off, Universe!!!

SOLVED IT!!!!!

It's because I can't see my own body at all.

None of the photos does justice to how much space I take up. How large my stomach is. The black of the suit behind the skeleton is so pitch black you can't see the awkward curves ect. That won't be the case in florescent stadium lights but who cares?

The skeleton is so distractingly white, and the pitch black just works perfectly for the overall effect of a floating skeleton. Even with additional layers and accessories, it's a chilling difference to my actual body.

I'm embarrassed to admit: I love it so much. I wish I could dress like a skeleton everyday. I am starting to actively search out skeleton clothes.

Also, it's pretty loose fitting. Getting looser. The pudge won't budge, but I'm definitely not the same.

Tobias is on to something.

Dressing up like a Sparkly Bat Skelton just healed some part of my soul.

Why haven't I done this sooner?

Like, is this not delicious? I'm so happy, and this isn't even close to done (I need sooooo many more rhinestones 😂)

Oh trust me: The Cape is Definitely Part of This

Oh Gods, what I just thought about that finger

I had a grey faux fur jacket from hot topic I paired with far too tall demonias (the only ones I ever owned- the Ankle Breakers), with a mini skirt.

Some kid (like 6/7 years old to my 17 then) at Walmart thought I was really cool and came over to talk to me.

It was such a cute moment having this little kid think my boots were cool and wanting to feel the faux fur cuff of my sleeve.

We held on til May. Now what

My doctor and therapist: now with this autism + ADHD diagnosis you need to learn to unmask because masking all the time will make you burn out again and feel like shit

Other people: well it's just interesting how after getting the diagnosis you suddenly start behaving like that I mean I'm not saying you're faking it's just funny how you suddenly cannot be normal like you were before

Do Not Attach To Me, I Am Not The Me You Made.

I Am Only Myself.

You Need To See, I Will Never Be The Me You Made.

You Cannot Make Me.

I Already Exist Like This.

You Do Not Know Me.

Do Not Attach To Me.

I learned something new about myself yesterday and WOW EVERYTHING MAKES EVEN MORE SENSE!

It took me too long to stop reading "and one airport" as "and, we just have one airport" and remember And One is a band.

new industrial estate plan:

• depeche mode sex shop

• KMFDM gun store

• nine inch nails hardware shop

• skinny puppy zoo

• and one airport

• front line assembly townhouse

• sister machine gun army barracks

• prick couple therapy

• fad gadget mechanics centre

• imminent starvation food bank

• coil mental health hospital

• ministry ministry

• gary numan gas station

am i funny yet