it's funny how i actually ended up in a state where my mind craves cigarettes more than food
i've found a shirt in my drawers that i last wore in 2012 and i can't believe that i fit into it again. it wasn't from my lowest weight but close. besides, it's a size small, so it still feels good.
“i spent the last 4 years planning my death not my future.”
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my goal was to get back down to my original weight so that i can k1ll myself, and i've actually reached it now