MY TURN!

I just discovered non-dualism 3 days ago and I'm struggling to realize that this is natural. I want to get back with my ex-bf but I know he's with another girl right now and that makes me sick... I want to reconcile with him WITHOUT him dating another girl while we're separated. However, I saw physical evidence that contradicts this, and if I ever "succeed," I feel like I've changed something, not that "it was always like this", so it's not "natural" anymore. I don't know what to do.

There is no continuity. You recreate the scenario every day. It can be just as natural that he was never with anyone.

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How funny because I went through something similar. Although I never made her disappear I just used her as his incentive to realize nobody could ever be as perfect for him as me and he made the biggest mistake of his life 🤪 the whole thing worked out in my favor; his behavior toward me changed magnitudinally. THIS IS YOUR DREAM. REALIZE THIS.

And if you reaaaally really find it hard to think that she never existed think of what you want her to represent to him.

Also read this on thoughts and be totally indifferent to any thought that arises that he's not absolutely head over heels for you.

And you can check the questions about past/future in the list so you understand why there is no time.

Finally, he was made by you and for you, what are you creating her for? 🤣 you bored like that? You like making yourself suffer? Are you masochistic? Forget her. She never was 😴

IM SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED YOU I KNOW PPL DO THESE KINDS OF THINGS BUt i genuinely didn't have the time like the past few days have been insane!!!! this is gonna be kinda long asfhsksl

basically i read your posts over and over and i would have a new epiphany each time, i started to feel light as a feather and this boundless feeling came to me!! when i started feeling more confident in myself i stopped coming here looking for answers and just kept focusing on "I AM", nothing else!! i didn't try to get anything like you said but started feeling myself as the reality of all that is,, everything felt easy and peaceful until I BECAME AWARE i had no questions or doubts anymore. now listen after this my world completely shifted!! i still feel like i'm living in a dream. i kind of forgot what i looked like ? i stopped thinking abt the body entirely, i was basically functioning automatically and NOTHING disturbed me. life happened around me but all i was focused on was feeling myself as the witness, unaffected. and then on the 2nd or 3rd day a thought came to me abt the body again,, i was so unbothered with everything that i thought "eh maybe i can start functioning as a body again, it doesn't affect me at all now anyhow". i didn't purposely identify with any appearance i just went to shower that night and when i looked in the mirror, i looked exactly how i always wished to look. and it felt COMPLETELY NORMAL to look like that. I mean of course it did we are pure awareness but what shocked me wasn't that because i was already completely indifferent,, but how fast and easy everything happened. things started showing up out of nowhere, i am totally uninvolved in the illusion of an external world and everything still caters to me. i mean it, i do nothing at all and everything happens around me exactly how i want it meanwhile i don't even think on it. i got fired from my job after that??? but i literally couldn't care less, i was living fully in the moment and nothing could break my stride. now guess what... the next day... probably even less than 24 hrs i had a brand reach out for a collab. like WHAT? influencer life here i come 💀 truth be told i don't care about that either now that i've reached such a high state of being. i still have a little bit to go since i don't feel completely fearless and desireless but i am determined to achieve all you've said and i won't stop until i do. for now i just feel in love with everything and everyone and ecstatic to live all the time. THANK YOU ADA THANK U SM i love you most of all. i can keep updating you if it's alright in the dm?? i have no one else to talk to about this and it just makes me so happy to know that i finally "cracked the code" after years in this community 🥲

wow... i am so proud of you. you're just coming back home to your self, it will become the most natural thing to live like this before you know it. ♡

yes, of course you can update me, it's only up from here!

Success story (not the void)

Maya, as I promised you, I'm writing you my success story. It's quite a wild one, so please bear with me.

My journey started during the Angel era, when I was struggling with the void state. I tried everything I could think of to get out of it - every method, every meditation technique, affirming, intention, lucid dreaming, and even coaching from various LoA experts, including those not so well-known. I was desperate for a breakthrough, a key to unlock the life I deserved. I would have done anything, even ate dirt if that was what it took.

At that time, my family was going through a rough patch. My abusive father, a police officer, divorced my mother and left us with nothing. We were homeless, living out of our car, while my dad was living a comfortable life. He had a new girlfriend, a younger woman, and continued to be respected in his job. Meanwhile, my mom, who was a victim of his abuse, was labeled a liar and lost everything. I was filled with rage, towards him, towards the world, towards the jury that declared him innocent. I wasn’t safe in this world especially being homeless, women and children are the most vulnerable to sexual and physical assault. I was scared, unsafe, and had nothing aside my mother and siblings.

I wanted to enter the void, not just for myself, but to give my family a better life and to bring justice to those who had wronged us. I was at a point where I was harming myself, but I couldn't give up because my family needed me. I remember messaging you, Maya, pouring out my story, begging you to help me enter the void. Despite your initial hesitation, you responded with kindness, sharing some personal experiences, and reassuring me that I wasn't alone.

Your words gave me hope. You made me realize that many people who find the law have gone through, or are still going through difficulties. If they could overcome their struggles, so could I.

So, I decided to let go of the void. Not because I didn't believe in it, but because I had elevated it to a status akin to a genie that would magically solve all my problems. When non-dualism and other loa concepts were introduced, everything finally clicked. I realized I didn't have to be angry, or try to be someone manifesting master, or do all these fake methods. I have always known that my family and I were meant to be happy.

For a month, I went through a process of shedding my ego. It was uncomfortable, and there were times I found myself fighting my own thoughts, telling them to shut up. I was separating my ego from myself. You, Maya, had once said that this process was similar to withdrawal symptoms of someone quitting drugs. This thought comforted me. I was becoming someone new, my old thoughts weren't there anymore.

Living in my car, I began to see it as my mansion. My mom's crying turned into laughter, my siblings' whine for food turned into jokes. We pretended that we were living our dream life, and after a while, my siblings joined me in this game. We would come "home" from school and yell at each other, pretending that the house was so big that we needed walkie-talkies to communicate.whenever I needed to steal food it was because we owned the place and can take whatever we want, not because I had to.

One day, we parked at a field, and I started imagining my life. I tried to become the clouds by thinking I am and accepting that my consciousness could be whatever it wanted. I got my siblings to do the same. We became the flowers, then the sun, then the stars at night. Even though physically I was still in the car, mentally and emotionally, I was living my dream life.

When I woke up, I was in a large room. It was decorated to perfection. I heard my siblings running around, throwing toys, and my mother laughing with a man, who's laugh alone sounded like gold. I explored the house, and it was beautiful. There was no yelling, no violence, only laughter and love. My mom introduced me to her boyfriend, and he was holding a newspaper that read that my father had been arrested for domestic crimes and fraud. He was losing everything.

At that moment, I realized that I had done it. My mom was happy, beautiful, and loved. My siblings had plenty of toys and clothes, and our house was filled with love. My family and I were finally living our dream life.

I have been living my life for about a month and now, and it has been blissful to say the least. I go to a well known private school and I am the top student. I am apart of many clubs, and also spend a lot of time volunteering at domestic shelters, and speaking to victims of intrapersonal abuse. I have made friends of people who volunteer with me, so it’s nice to have people who care about the same thing I do.

I am also apart of my writing club, and found comfort in reading and writing and have decided I want to be an author once I graduate. I have always wanted to be a writer but they don’t make enough money often. But now not only do I know I will be successful but my family has enough money to last us multiple generations plus some more. My Bio father had gotten much to what is coming to him and he will be going to jail. I hope he drops the soap but I have let go of my anger with that barbaric fool. So has my mother who has also recently gotten engaged and I get to be her maid of honor. She has a friend group of mothers from school and I have never seen her happier. My now father treats her like a goddess and treats everyone like that. He spoils my mom and us with gifts and luxurious trips. He also spoils the help such as the maids and cooks and never treats them below us. He does not expect anything from my mother except for her to be happy and spend time with us. He is kind selfless loving and respectful. the real definition of a man. I adore him so much and I’m so happy to call him my father.

I find great joy in the little stuff. I love cleaning my room. My bio dad was a hoarder and the house was always a mess because my mom was the sole provider though my “bio dad” made much more. He instead used it on hookers, alcohol, and drugs. Pathetic excuse for a man I know. I love going shopping, as I don’t have to look at the price tag. It feels normal, there was no shift. This is just life constantly changing. I have 5 pets and spend great time with all of them, and they are all so loving and adore me. I love school, and doing my homework, taking tests, assemblies etc. i love talking to my teacher about my ideas and how I can improve. They’re always so encouraging and kind, and I have never experienced that. I also loveeeee having crushes hehe. I never had time nor the “looks” for that prior to these past few months, but I receive a good amount of attention from a lot of sweet man and the “what if” aspect of having crushes is fun. I just love being a teenage girl, something I was not always able to say. I love the world and the people in it, the creations I bring and make, and all I did to make it what it is. I never worry what happened to my old self or life. It died, it doesn’t exist I am here right now with them and the old story is gone. Like an author erasing a part of a story she doesn’t like and never producing it, I did the same. My one true reality and I am so blessed.

Also big thanks to bloggers like @awarenessis @starbursts777 @consciousnessbaddie for introducing this concepts to Tumblr in a simple and kind way. Love to everyone in this devoted app.

Congratulations on your astounding success story 🥹 Your journey is a testament to the power of the human spirit, and it's an honor to hear about your transformation. This is beautiful wild tale, but it's your reality, and it's absolutely beautiful.

Your story is a powerful reminder that we have the power to shape our reality, no matter how dire our circumstances may be. It's a testament to the power of belief, determination, and the human spirit. I'm incredibly proud of you and wish you and your family all the happiness in the world.

Hiii Ive done the I Am affirmations and these are my results! I saw someone post on Reddit how they’d seen an amazing shift using I AM and other affirmations that I wanted to try as well. I was not only affirming through the day but sleeping on the feeling/knowing at night as well. I Also meditated but I really enjoy it so that was easy!

During the 4th day I could feel the shift, I became so indifferent to the 3D, you know when someone is like really calm that it’s scary? That’s how I felt. Like nothing phased me. I constantly would here and see people say that we’re God and that we create our realities blah blah, but that day it really clicked. Nothing is in my way, I can have everything I want.

I was at work this day and usually I hate being there but today I knew it was different. I got yelled at by a customer for a return and I was like whatever. During the end of the transaction I firmly stated “I AM” and the lady apologized for her behavior saying “I didn’t know what got into me” like right after I had affirmed. We only get 10 minute breaks but I was gone for damn near 30. I affirmed my managers wouldn’t say anything because “I AM” and when I came out the only thing they asked was “how my break was”. I also got my food and drink for free at the cafe downstairs just cause the barista felt like it.

My manifestations are instant there really isn’t a time lag. But that depends on me really, some things I’d prefer if I woke up and they were there rather then appearing in front of me, and other things I’ve revised instantly. I feel like I’m in the constant void? If I close my eyes and affirm for like less then a minute everything is still and I can’t hear anything around me. Like I’m really just consciousness with no physical body. It’s been like 2 months since then and I’m living my best life.

What I’ve manifested:

-clear skin

-desired Face and body

-Money+ a job in fashion that I really like

-money for my siblings and parents

-both my older sister having their college degrees as well as my degree(I dropped out of college like freshman year)

-revised that my parents were never smokers and are in perfect health

-my eyesight; used to be negative -6.5 but I don’t need to wear contacts anymore

-dental health, got rid of my cavities cause I hate the dentist

-moved to NYC/ got my desired apartment

-payed off all debts/ having no debts at all

-little everyday things like free food, drinks, parking, free flowers, literally super cute everyday things

-A new passport because I lost my old one

-shifting; I’d been trying to shift for damn near 2 years but I’ve finally been able to go to many of my DRs

-being able to manipulate time(slowing it down, speeding it up)

-dream wardrobe

there’s probably more but I can’t think of anything else. Just know that there isn’t anything I’m lacking or want rn, I have everything I can think of 😭.

omg this is absolutely amazing i love it!! especially knowing that everytime we are saying I am we are declaring we are god it's literally such powerful statement in just 2 words i absolutely love this success story and i hope it motivates y'all just as much as it did me 🥰

"Purpose" ?

"So, what is the purpose of this whole ordeal? Am I truly feeling helpless? Have I genuinely experienced heart-wrenching events? Is my life really that miserable? Understanding THAT, it became apparent that these things were mere illusions, appearing that way because I continuously identified with it happening to a little "me". I believed I was a helpless human being, lacking a deep understanding of my true existence. I stopped assigning any meaning to this story, not even deeming it meaningless. These thoughts are meaningless because they are nothing. Any idea is irrelevant to your true identity.

Then why does this situation exist? In the game of life, everything is just "Being-ness" playing with itself. I could ask why I have to go through this nonsense, but it's senseless. Why? It's all a big Paradox. So, when you ask why this situation arises, people seek a logical answer. But there is no rational, logical answer. It's like a puzzle; it's an appearance. In a dream, there are no rational, logical answers. All thoughts, emotions, and identities are things we collect. They are not you. This doesn't mean you have to confirm the truth in your mind because there is no truth in thoughts—they have no meaning unless you asign one to them. You can't describe THAT with words; you can only be THAT. Thoughts aren't something only you possess. So, there's only one thing: transcend it and realize who you are.

draft written by most likely Dawa , no one knows

When you say shifting with intention, do you mean like when you set an intention to be aware of ur reality, you visualise? Because you talk about imagination and physical reality is the same and plus unless you can shift realities physically, i imagine it will be imagination so is it that or both?

An intention is simply a decision like buying a coffee to go. I usually go to bed, think about what I want to experience the next day, and if I feel like it, I choose any desired reality or the one I'm currently experiencing, and the next day it happens. One thought is enough. I don't visualize, I don't meditate and I don't do anything else. I just decide and that's it.

As soon as you give up the duality that the physical is something other than the imagination, everything is instantly. But when you think that one is more real than the other, you experience a time delay. You think physical reality is real because you perceive it with your senses. The senses are also imaginary, and you are not the body. You are only aware of it. If imagination and physical reality are the same thing, then anything you want is instant, even in the seeming physical reality. (What LoA people call instant materialization; I don't like this definition but I think it easier to understand).

Two things that made me shift for the first time (now I shift with intention only)

Ok, guys. I know you are tired of trying different methods in the hope one might work. I know a lot of you just want to shift to escape horrible circumstances. Please, listen to me and read everything carefully. I've been in your shoes and I know how frustating it all can be. I was into LoA a long time and was only able to manifest "small things" like weather changes, text messages etc. I got tired. I really did. I wanted to escape. I just wanted to live the life I deserved. "The life I deserved?" - But who is this "I" wanting this?

Misidentification

You are not who you think you are. My journey brought me to Non Dualism and made me realize that even Neville was limited to one point. But how can I be God and limitless if listen to someone who is still limiting in his belief? ND made me understand that I AM only awareness and I AM reality itself. Everything this body sees, feels, .. is just form of my consciousness. But the senses in them are not real and just a form of my consciousness too. So what am I if I am not the senses, the body or the seeming world around me? I AM the pure awareness being aware of it all. So I AM just aware of this seeming physical reality and the body. I am not going to deep into this philosophy but you have to understand that the body you think you are, the thoughts/doubts you have are NOT you. You are just aware of it all since you are awareness only. You don't have a name, age, gender and so on. You are just pure awareness. So here comes the main part: You as awareness started to identify with the body you are "wearing", acting like YOU are a human being but you are not. Stop identifying with it and you will be golden. Become aware of the person you are in your DR and stop identifying with the person you think you are now. Since you are only awareness you really are in your DR right now. Time does not exist so always be aware of what you want in the moment. Dismiss the senses. They don't belong to you anyway.

Indifference

Now you know you are only pure awareness and not even the human you thought you were, why would you give attention to the physical reality around you? Don't react and stay indifferent. There's a quote in the Bible which Neville also mentioned in his book: "Be still and know I AM god." If someone is being mean to you, he is not being mean directly to you. He is being mean to the person you are not, right? So why react? You might be aware of it in the moment but you just keep being indifferent. Not your body, not your thoughts, not your problem. You don't react and just be aware of your DR instead because you are ALREADY there.

So the main points are:

Stop identifying with the person you think you are and become aware of the person you want to experience in your DR.

Stay indifferent to the seeming physical reality around you. You are already in your DR. NOW.

Oh, you don't have to persist in anything. This is not a loa blog. If you are aware of the heat of the sun in your DR right now. Guess what? you are aware of the person you are in your DR right in the moment and this means you as awareness did experience it for real. You are not bound to any physical body.

all the love ✨🤍

You see, when you're yourSelf, before you say anything your work is done. You need not say that you should be successful. You have no idea ... if someone puts the dust of the path upon which you have just walked to their forehead, their wishes are fulfilled. This is not noticed by you. Unless there is full confidence in the awakening of the Self, your concept is futile. If this awakening is there, what is there to be astonished about if some work is done? In due time, the mango tree becomes full of fruits. Similarly, in due time, you are sure to be fully powerful.

However, for now, let it be definite in your mind what you are, and where your attention is focused. Then you become as vast as the universe. You become unlimited and immeasurable. Why should there be any anxiety about whether you, who are God, will get any food or shelter? You will get anything you want. You are the whole world, but wait until that inner conviction becomes strong. Do not be too eager. Wait until your mind, which is only attuned to the Self, becomes itself "The Totality." By devotion to the Self and humility of the ego, unlimited power is attained.

— Nisargadatta's Guru.

This made me think, back on my manifestation journey, I didn't want fulfilled desires as much as I wanted control and power. I wanted it to be WHEN I SAY. I wanted real knowledge and I wanted freedom. I wanted the how, I didn't want any confusion. I wanted to be the decision-maker. I didn't want to get, I wanted to give. I wanted to be powerful enough so that I would never need to get, that I would always be the one to give. I am truly blessed to have been born with a mind intelligent enough to make the right distinctions on this path. Discernment, logic, understanding – those were the ones which truly moved mountains.

Is it "acting as if"?

No. It's acting based on knowledge.

Acting as if implies you're pretending.

You're pretending in hopes something will happen if you act this way. It implies you do not have the knowledge, and doing this in order to gain it.

But after gaining the knowledge, why still act as if you are an individual?

If you know what you know and still continue to act like an ignorant person, that is your choice.

Lester said, you can only have it through your own experience. What he meant by this is only that it is a conclusion you arrive to through your own discrimination. If I tell you, you might not believe me - but if you inquire yourself, use your own logic, your own intellect - and arrive at the same conclusions - then the knowledge is now your own. Then you know it. It is yours. Even so, you should understand - it is only the mind who imagines it knows or does not know. Self is as it is, all the time. How can God study to become God? If you understand God is nothing more than your own being, and you are That alone - the work is done.

Ego already doesn't affect the Self, the practice of detachment and everything else is all so you arrive back to your natural state of being, unaffected and unrestricted.

The experience is of 'knowing', it is not something physical, something of the body. It's an intuitive truth. That's the best way in which it can be described with language. It is something understood so deeply, it can no longer be shaken.

You cannot 'act like yourSelf' because you already are the Self, all the time.

You don't desire the things as much as you desire the freedom from needing the things.

What you want the most is to stop needing, stop lacking. That is why you are here, seeking to find yourself. You want to do away with all those suffocating feelings, you want to do away with everything that stops you from truly experiencing and enjoying life

You brought yourself here to free yourself. You can have, because you already do. You are here to realize that. The things are yours. The things are YOU.