My Ship Dynamic

Ekko: You have the smarts, the looks, and the power to take whatever you want

Jinx: And tell me, what do I want?

Ekko: Me. On the bed, beneath you. At your mercy

experiencing the hunger games renaissance through twitter for the first time is so beautiful

The Good Place Appreciation Week Day 6: Favorite Lesson/s

in my next life, I would like a chance to be soft - and not get belittled

or shamed

or dismissed

or laughed at for that.

i would like a chance to be bold and loud, bright and boisterous, and covered in glitter, in kisses from those I love - from head to toe - in sunlight, to get so free and unrestrained that all little parts of me would get a spotlight in this world at least twice

(one of them for this life, where I am lost and scared, and empty, always empty)

I would like to live unafraid.

- sure of my place, of my wants and dreams, of my words.

- not trying to reach out to everyone and thinking that I am healing some part of myself that wants being held and cherished, being seen, known, and remembered.

it would be such a nice life.

but in this one

i can't afford to be soft.

the thing that always breaks my heart about benji ovich is just… how good he is. how selfless. how kind. how he helps people without expecting anything in return, without even asking for acknowledgement. he just has such a strong, solid moral streak, far superior to that of his peers and even those of the adults around him. 

he stops bobo from attacking amat in his fury after their first training session together, saving amat (whom he just met) from potentially serious injury. he splits with kevin, his best friend and the boy he’s loved for years, for the unforgivable act of hurting an innocent girl. he’s one of the first few people to believe maya and take her side. he wrecks an entire bathroom in school just so she doesn’t get in trouble for smashing the mirror, taking on all the blame for himself. he steps aside in the bathroom as she’s storming out so that she doesn’t physically touch him and relive her trauma. time and time again he throws himself in the line of fire to protect the people around him, even those he barely knows. 

and in spite of all that he still truly believes himself to be a monster. he’s convinced that he’s beyond redemption, that something inside him is irreparably damaged. he doesn’t want to be saved because he doesn’t think he deserves it. he gets high and starts fights and shuts people out because he’s afraid of those he loves seeing how gentle and vulnerable he truly is. despite being one of the most self-sacrificing and considerate individuals in beartown, he still makes himself out to be the villain.

it just gets me every time, man. 

[ Mockingjay, ch. 25, pg. 351 ]

"Peeta's still in the burn unit. He made it to the City Circle after all."

ONE line. This one line has me clawing at the walls because Peeta managed to follow her all the way. He was with her the whole time, to the point that he was just as injured in the bombs' blast as she was.

I know Katniss is an unreliable narrator BUT I NEED a little more appreciation for our love-drunk-even-when-hijacked idiot Mellark.

not having children in Panem isn’t even a guarantee that you won’t still watch your kids be reaped, is it, Haymitch?

can we talk about peeta - the one that fandom & probably most other characters within the universe itself misguidedly believe is weaker than katniss and a pacifist that refuses to kill - murdered brutus, the largest and most athletic/muscular tribute in the arena, a man both three times peeta's size and twice his age, with probably decades of physical training and bloodlust under his belt... and he did it because the love of his life was in danger??

“Being cheerful starts now, Will thought as hard as he could, but it was like trying to hold a fighting wolf still in his arms when it wanted to claw at his face and tear out his throat; nevertheless, he did it, and he thought no one could see the effort it cost him.”