You need a rest. You need empty moments in which you tolerate your anxiety and circling thoughts until they slow down and stop circling. You need slow, quiet activities that ground you and remind you to accept yourself in spite of huge obstacles and bad thoughts. You need to put solutions out of your mind for now, and engage in activities that have nothing to do with your ego. You need habits that strengthen your patience and focus, but also feel real and not arbitrary. You need to abandon your glorious future and build your imperfect present instead.
Ask Polly: “I’m Lazy, Reckless and Addicted To Social Media. Help!”
been awhile, I posted something here and this is not study-related.
by mothmanfan19
– SHR [Eid mubarak]
Introduction to The Iliad, Emily Wilson
10.04.2023
— As if I don't have any paper due in 3 days and presentation on the 11th and 13th. Coffee and movie date with bestie.
Crying
when georges bataille wrote, “no greater desire exists than a wounded person’s need for another wound” & when gillian flynn wrote, “a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort” & when ocean vuong wrote, “sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined” & when lisa m. basile wrote, “did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god? do you believe in god? do you believe in yourself? are you still on fire? did you ever put out the fire?” & when stephen a. guirgis wrote, “why didn't you make me good enough so that you could’ve loved me?”
“ᴡʜʏ ᴄᴀᴛs ᴘᴀɪɴᴛ: ᴀ ᴛʜᴇᴏʀʏ ᴏғ ғᴇʟɪɴᴇ ᴀᴇsᴛʜᴇᴛɪᴄs”, 1994. x
It's midnight, and here I am awake with endless thoughts. The weather here been so hot that I swear I could melt into a puddle causing a need to keep my water super cold and iced all the time. But at night, I want my drink to be warm hence the Tyseo tumbler with OSK's oolong tea.
Gentle reminder to everyone to keep yourself hydrated, eat that delicious food you keep thinking of and get some rest when you're tired. You deserve it.
Salted toffee latte (with oatmilk) and new book.