16.03.23 Well Done, Self. You Are Nearly There In Finishing One Massive Assignment. (And You, Too. You

Magnolias are so ancient plants that almost every other plant and insect who came to being around the same time as them has gone extinct by now. They are the loneliest plants in this world. Does anybody understand how much grief it gives me that the symbolic flower of Kuras is magnolia.

Vespertine 💕

Evening Star -   Gottfrid Kallstenius , 1929.

Swedish,  1861-1943

Oil on panel , 30 x 50 cm. 11.8 x 19.7 in.

10.04.2023

— As if I don't have any paper due in 3 days and presentation on the 11th and 13th. Coffee and movie date with bestie.

a letter to students,

because I need it right now. your worth is not your grades. an assignment is not worth sacrificing your mental health. your body, your mind, is the only one of its kind, and it shouldn't be given up for an A that'll get lost to time. because grades will be lost to time, but you won't be. you have so many years ahead of you—and if you look back on yourself now, you want to see someone happy.

yes, it's always nice to do well. yes, what you do now will affect your future.

but what you do now will affect your future. if this is your one chance, go: go live, and laugh, and eat foods that you enjoy, and make friends and fall in love with the world. grades are important, but happiness is more.

all I'm saying is that focus on yourself as much as you do your work. one day you'll look back and be grateful for it.

and most of all, I love you. don't forget that.

<3

friendly reminders:

you don't have to be productive every day

you are worthy even if all you did today was get out of bed

there are people out there who care about you

your existence makes a difference

if something bothers you, then it bothers you. no one has the right to tell you otherwise

you are allowed to take up space

there is no 'right way' to grieve

you cannot put a time limit on emotions

your likes and interests are valid and they matter

it's okay to take your time in doing things. not everyone can do everything at the same pace

cycles

(follow my art on ig)

— Edna St. Vincent Millay, Spring

31.03.2023 I confessed I did something reckless to my health (mentally and physically), need to remind myself and you (my fellow reader who work so hard for themselves) to not let yourself be too exhausted doing your academic. :( I spend from 8 pm till 4 am managing individual paper and groupwork paper, and it wasn't healthy to do so. I skipped my suhoor and the morning, I felt so drained mentally that I wanted to cry but your girl had online presentation in the afternoon 2 pm. It wasn't rewarding feeling. Won't do it again.

After the class, I just laid down in bed and read. The reading calms me down a bit and yay, to slowly reaching my book goal.

(MAKE SURE YOU TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, READER, OR ELSE I WOULD MAKE YOUR ICED COFFEE MELTS FASTER OR YOUR HOT DRINKS BECOME COLD FAST. Maybe worse, it spills) 💕

J. Estanislao Lopez, "A Metaphor", We Borrowed Gentleness

Life's been quite tiring, lately.