Mia-rules-me - ✨miarulesmylife✨

people don’t understand how mentally draining having an eating disorder is. they assume you just skip a meal a day and then boom you lose like 30 pounds then recover. they don’t realize that you lose all your energy and can barely even function. you lose friends over it, get horrible grades, have to stop working, lose interest & energy in pursuing passions and hobbies. it fucking sucks and they make it so obvious they don’t give a shit about us.

Just because I smile for you doesn't mean that I wasn't thinking about cutting my wrists open at the same time.

if im not 20lbs down by christmas

i will simply pass away

Now I’m empty. I have nothing to give to anyone. Except for talking about my pain. And since I realize that’s toxic, I’ve simply isolated.

I can feel everyone getting sick of me, and to be honest I don’t blame them, I’m pretty sick of myself at this point.

“She is written in a foreign tongue.”

- Henry James, The Portrait of a Lady

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