P@ypal.me/asteronauts | C@sh App: $asteronaut | Ven/mo: @asterlux

hey fam. i really, really need y'all to come through for me this time.

p@ypal.me/asteronauts | c@sh app: $asteronaut | ven/mo: @asterlux

trigger warning for abuse of physical, psychological, and sexual nature. please stay safe.

if i don't make rent for August, which is $700, im going to have to move back in with my abusive mother. she is extremely stingy with her money while also using my money without my permission constantly. my work has bedbugs and she makes me bathe outside in a kiddie pool before i can go into the house. now that my baby brother is getting older and has seen her constantly violate my boundaries whenever i am around, he does the same. he often hits me, pours water on me while i am sleeping, and has taken to touching my inappropriately sometimes. he especially tries to take advantage of me while i am sleeping. he is only ten, but he has an intellectual and developmental disability that makes it hard for him to understand that what he is doing is wrong. i am a repetitive sexual abuse/assault survivor, so this behavior is extremely triggering for me and i can't get him to stop.

if i have to move back in with my mom and brother, i know in my heart that i won't make it. i struggle with mental illness and am both physically and developmentally disabled myself. i can't work more than 18 hours a week and at my job rarely get more than that (usually more like 14 at most unless it's summer camp), and getting a second job isn't on the table for me unless i get an electric wheelchair and find a job that will accept me being a wheelchair user.

i am in 10 thousand dollars debt, not including student loans, and i recently lost my financial aid in school due to my disabilities making me fail multiple classes.

i am so incredibly scared of what my future holds for me and often don't see one for myself at all, but im trying my best to stay positive. if i end up having to move back in with my mom, though, i don't know if i will be able to continue doing that.

i need help raising money for August rent and would like to also raise money for September and October if at all possible. altogether, this would be $2100 dollars. i had already given notice at my current place, but my landlord and roommate is pretty nice and i am confident that if i tell her i want to stay she will let me provided that i pay rent on time.

i know this is a huge ask, but i dont know what else to do. i don't have a college degree yet and therefore don't qualify for any sort of desk job. i was nannying, but the people i nanny for hired one of their neighbors instead of me.

please help. i genuinely am at a loss of what to do moving forward, and having this extra help would be so incredibly important to me. if you don't want to donate, i also can coach gymnastics lessons privately through zoom (i can do groups at a reduced rate). i also am able to edit papers and other forms of writing including fanfiction if anyone needs help with that.

p@ypal.me/asteronauts | c@sh app: $asteronaut | ven/mo: @asterlux

if you donate, thank you. if you can't donate, reblogging is appreciated as well. please don't like this post, as it inflates the notes and makes it seem like im getting more help than i am. i also ask that if you do donate through PayPal that you mark it for "friends and family" so I can actually access the funds. sending much love 💜