And A Moment Of Silence For Women In Donna Tartt Novels

Love when Richard randomly lore drops like yes id love to know more about how you showed up high to School everyday at the age of 13 because you thought it would make you cool.

Or how your friends having a lil argument reminds you of when you dad used to hit you. Like fucking hell bro.

I’m just like richard papen (has no game and completely unreliable)

shifting is self discovery.

excuse the yap but i think it’s very important that people realize how fundamental you are in your shifting journey and that you are literally the only thing you need to shift.

you do NOT need:

a method

subliminals

(guided) meditation

to look for advice hour after hour online

symptoms

the void state

lucid dreaming

to visualize

to use your 5 senses

a script

you DO need:

yourself

you can say fuck you to the universe, doubt as much as you want, and still shift. i say that because i’ve done it before even with doubts! so you can too!

“how do i shift?”

every time someone asks this i lose 5 years off my life span. i can’t determine that for you, nobody can. i can tell you what has personally worked for me and so can others, but there’s no guarantee it’ll work for you.

“so what do i do?”

sounds a bit harsh but you figure it out. and that’s what i mean by self-discovery.

of course, you can & should see what other people are doing to create a base line of what you think could work for you. for example try getting into the void state, see what happens from there. doesn’t work or you don’t like it? (because that obviously won’t do the same thing for everyone) try something else!

play around. add new things into the mix. affirmations. intention. you can visualize or use your 5 senses. keyword can. you don’t have to. because what do i think works the best? minding your business and shifting your own way.

remember that you can literally just say “fuck you i want to shift” and shift. you can shift accidentally. so who’s to say what you’re doing doesn’t work? (if it really doesn’t then you can adjust it slightly. look back on your behavior and think about what you want to change.)

seriously!

you can shift:

tired

awake

asleep

in the hypnagogic state (the state of the transition from wakefulness to sleep)

in the hypnopompic state (the state of consciousness leading out of sleep)

while dancing

sitting

standing

laying down

on the floor

accidentally

through a lucid dream

with doubts

and so much more i didn’t mention. seriously no need to overcomplicate it.

just remember that other peoples’ shifting journeys are not yours and that you’re the most important part of your own.

you are what makes you shift.

it’s not your subliminals or your method or whatever, it’s you. YOUUUU. subliminals? “methods”? those things? just helpful tools. they can HELP you shift, but there’s no guarantee.

for example, i personally have been getting more effective results after listening to specific subliminals regularly (psst.. i make sure they’re safe! to check if they are safe, look at the comments around the page and if you’re still not sure and you feel uneasy then do not use the subliminal. if it makes you feel unsafe or weird then do not use it. always read the benefits or what you can find in the description.) it works for me. it got me results (along with other stuff) but it might not give them to you and that’s okay. you don’t have to use subs.

just a reminder that you don’t need anything but yourself to shift <3

it’s self discovery because you’re learning from it and actively finding out (discovering) what works for you.

your shifting journey is yours so don’t make it rely on what someone else does.

THERE’S NO KEY TO SHIFTING EXCEPT YOURSELF.

I LOVE YOU CAMILLA!!

Little sketch of little friend

unpopular opinion but the secret history should not be turned into a movie like ever

somehow, it was meant to be a book and that’s it.

that’s the hill i will die on

happy birthday to mef

rip henry you wouldve hated kindles

“it’s starting to smell like pumpkin spice!”

“it’s starting to smell like scary movies!”

no.

it’s starting to smell like, the snow in the mountains was melting and bunny had been dead for several weeks before we came to realize the gravity of our situation.

so i was thinking about camilla last night and how she feels after it all. does she feel wronged? she was the deer, the prey, the chased. does she lie awake at night, thinking of the group, knowing that when they sleep and dream of their guilt, they will see her reckoning, pointing at them with blood dripping from her hands? to be a woman in the world of men was the loneliest sin of all. all of them had sinned too, not through the death but also against her. francis, who had stood silently by, henry, who dragged her into the mess and then died, richard, who romanticized but didn't truly care, bunny, who mocked and harassed, and charles. her brother. who abused her and forced her and all the other things, the evil the rot the destruction. ante said that those who sin against whom they must love, those who sin against their family, were th worst sinners. complex fraud, in the 9th circle of hell, and GOD she hoped that it was true, hoped that charles would be there, frozen as a corpse or even being chewed on by lucifer-

at least some nights. others she wished that her brother would come back to her and they could be twins again, best friends. but she knew she could never really forgive, always hating hating hating hating

but shes a sinner too, isn't she? she watched as bunny died, allowed henry to kill himself. her hands are dripping in blood, but its not only her own. the deer had found her, and she was both the predator and one of them one of them one of them one of them one of them

anyways yea i was like up late last night thinking abt this. lmk ur thoughts!

reading a fic and they have a canonically repressed character say something directly and proudly