Pouty Lottie You Will Always Be Famous To Me

I'm an adult now but all that it takes is one specific trigger to take me back to one of those days and all of a sudden I'm a helpless little girl again.

lol LOLLLLL Lol lolol

like at what point do i stop blaming my BPD and start taking accountability-_-

i am… i uhhhh… well what if i say… AHHHHHHHH

having quiet BPD is just me second guessing every single thing about my life everyday. convincing myself i simultaneously deserve better and i am the best person on the planet but also that i deserve none of what i have and i am a selfish bitch

need a change before i rip my skin off but i am trying to grow my hair out WHAT TO DO

growing up is terrifying i wasn’t supposed to make it this far and now my future depends on me and i have to make wise choices and decisions and i’m just sitting here like a clueless little kid

omg maybe life is worth living [i had a decent day] —> i cannot be saved [the slightest inconvenience occurs] —> i am a fucking god and everyone loves me [someone laughed at my joke] —> i am going to kill myself [i feel a little bit unwanted because of someone’s reaction]

and this shit just goes on and on and NEVER stops

i give so much of myself for everyone and expect nothing in return. when will i learn to love myself the way i love others )-: