I Love Them (I Am Devastated)

I haven't abandoned this story. I just put it on the back burner for now. The story is just on a small vacation. It is currently out of office. It can't come to the phone right now. It just fell under my bed to sleep with the monsters. It never left my head. It is everywhere - except on paper.

microdosing on catharsis by watching a fictional character or persona i relate to have an emotional breakdown until my chest starts to ache from the amount i've repressed

genuinely i really admire people who can set aside some time and go Okay I'm Writing Now and then get some writing done, i'm just out here fighting for my fucking life

my main goal in life is genuinely just to have a good day

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You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

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Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

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This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

Really needed this coz i ended up overthinking so much my page was left blank for 2 entire days

Dialogue tips that actually work:

You are not writing a movie (ignore this if you are). The reader doesn't need to know every word the characters say for the duration of the story. Less is more.

Dialogue can happen within the prose. "And they awkwardky discussed the weather for five minutes" is way better than actually writing five pages of dialogue about the weather.

Balance your dialogues. Surprise yourself with a monosyllabic answe to a dialogue that's ten sentences long. Don't be afraid of letting your character use half a page for a reply or nothing at all!

Don't write accents phonetically, use slang and colloquialisms if needed.

Comma before "said" and no caps after "!?" unless it's an action tag. Study dialogue punctuation.

Learn the difference between action tags and dialogue tags. Then, use them interchangeably (or none at all).

Don't be afraid to use said. Use said if characters are just saying things, use another word if not. Simple. There's no need to use fancy synonyms unless absolutely necessary.

Not everyone talks the same way so it makes sense for your characters to use certain words more often than others. Think of someone who says "like" to start every sentence or someone who talks really slow. Be creative.

Use prose to slow down the pace during a conversation.

Skip prose to speed up the pace during a conversation.

its so fucking embarrassing joining a discord server like hii im a random asshole and heres my stupid attempt at assimilating into possibly years of injokes and personalities that i have to blind read and hope i mesh well with but for now ill just fucking talk to myself publicly in front of everyone i guess because nobody cares about what i have to say

Sometimes it is very disappointing to be a Jin Guangyao fan in this fandom, especially as I continually see people miss the entire point of his journey and slander Wei Wuxian in the process.

They deliberately are introduced to us with reputations that are the opposite of their actual characters. At the start of the book we hear about how evil Wei Wuxian is and how he deserved to die and yada yada yada. We also hear (even from Wei Wuxian himself) about how Jin Guangyao is a pretty decent guy, done some good stuff, definitely a decent person.

And by the end of the book we get the reveals that we need to understand that both of these presented reputations are false. Jin Guangyao built himself a shining reputation out of blood, torture and lies and used it to place himself atop the jianghu. Wei Wuxian refused to stay silent in the face of malice and had his reputation torn to shreds.

The people who insist that Wei Wuxian is a villain and Jin Guangyao is a misunderstood hero are doing a disservice to both characters. Jin Guangyao has no regret for the blood he shed or the harm he did, only that he was caught in the end. Just like Wei Wuxian has no regrets for his actions in the end, he did what he knows was morally right in the situation and saw it through to the end.

Let Jin Guangyao be the villain he was crafted to be, he worked so hard for it, he killed his own damn wife and child in order to get what he wanted. Don’t make his sacrifices (of other people) worthless by calling him a sad boy who only wanted his father’s praise, cause he killed people for that.

I can’t breathe through the air I have dreamt despair I have been lost, I have gone way above my head I’ve been drawn to this sensation Give in to my existence and now Who will save me? I’m drowning I believed in everything I have lived seven sins I have my doubts but they would never mattered anyhow When the stories here are written The truth’s all forgotten I was another victim of everyone else Awakened every night Surrounded by the devils I saw the shadows taking my life How could I find myself Trapped in these broken shells A world that has taken sunlight And stolen the fight from my fist held tight So long is the night I will keep in mind To leave so that I can find The path where I took all the pain And still walked away with a true heart I’ve known it all the way I have lied in every way Because the truth always turned you away When my friends are holding hands Heading into abyss I ran my lungs out so I wouldn’t have missed But I missed I missed I missed And I kept on repeating this I wanted to say you were wrong But it was your choice Goodbyes are all but lies But there’s no where to hide When you see your own mistake You can’t take them back So you pray and pray But just please be careful with your mind To live in these little cells Trapped in these broken shells The world that has taken sunlight And stolen the fights from my fist held tight I’ll sing through the night I will keep in mind To be brave so that I can find The path where I took all the pain But still walked away with a true heart I’ve known it…all.. All the way See the world for yourself Trapped in these broken shells The world that has taken sunlight And stolen the fight from my fist held tight I’ll sing through the night I will keep in mind To live so that I can find The path where I took all the pain But still walked away with a true heart I’ve known it all the way

Note: You can’t imagine how happy I was to find out that this song that was played in the final episode from Emma and Xiaoshis scene of Link Click was already released I think? TT^TT !! It will take some time till they’ll release the OST of Link Click. So I’m damn happy to be able to listen to some songs of this donghua! Especially to this song! When I listen to this song I’ll get really emotional. It’s like the lyrics were written perfectly about some of the characters. The quote that Xiaoshi said at the end to Emma “Even though there are times when we find ourselves in darkness.. Eventually, we will meet people who will shine their light on us.” I loved that quote, cause it’s true. Link Click has a really special place in my heart now. I’m in love with this donghua. Yesterday I saw a post on Twitter where someone said that Link Click has one of the most realistic portrayal that everything in life is ephemeral. The family you have, the friendship you built, happiness and solitude, pain and loss. That all has their ending. “So, live now than later. Start today, not tomorrow.” and I couldn’t agree more with them as I already do. This show is a masterpiece in it’s own way. I can’t wait till the second season gets released. One thing is clear this donghua will not leave my mind that easy and neither my heart. I could write so maaany things what i love about Link Click about the characters but it would go on forever haha. ❤