she doesn't waste another glance on the brewing storm. she'd spent enough years tending the aftermath of ego; split lips, shattered knuckles, the kind of hurt that clings long after the blood dries. the pressure built from years of silence and pushing war down your throat because it's not man enough to admit it's there. so the marines punch the Green Berets and the SEALS knock both of them to the ground. on and on, like all traditions of broken systems and the bodies they leave behind. it’s an old but familiar ache now, a quiet grief for how easily people throw themselves into ruin, knowing there's nothing she could do to stop it.
❛ smart. ❜ once, she might have stayed. might have tilted her chin up and thrown herself into the fray out of pride or stubbornness, to prove she could survive. it's almost worse knowing she can. worse, even that she might have tried to if she had felt the spark of violence gather close enough to the surface. gloria was grateful for lizzie's presence. a tether to the femininity the former combat medic nurtures within herself as though it might undo every terrible act.
❛ not just that, i have a bottle of zacapa if you think you can handle it. ❜ it's a gentle nudge of words, limbs slipping into her jacket, purse tucked high beneath her arm. gloria bids the rabble behind, leading out the door.
lizzie dons a mask of careful ambivalence, holding the brewing fight in her peripheral as her sights languidly cycle: her present company, her empty glass, the fine lace of condensation wound along its surface. a tattered slice of lime sits at the bottom, sprawled over half-melted ice. she prods at it with the end of her straw, quietly indignant of the acuteness of her awareness so deep into the night, but she avoids the bartender’s eye. tries to stifle the way she stiffens as egos swell, boisterous voices teasing the bounds of violence. she knows this game. could, theoretically, understand its basest appeal: the thrill of a fight projected. life rendered in adrenaline bursts and broken skin. finds herself, suddenly, inwardly, grateful gloria doesn’t seem to share in this interest.
“not much of a gambler.” only in the company she keeps, if murmurs were to be believed— diluting their business to the simple whim of gangsters and murderers. as if she were any better. but, stealing another glance over her shoulder, lips pursing in careful assessment, lizzie inclined to agree. with a little over a foot of difference between them, they weren’t exactly entering on even odds.
“yeah?” she smiles at @medicbled's choice of word, obnoxious, shouldering her purse in silent acceptance.
I’m not even sure her ass makes up for the collective amount of trauma and baggage anymore…her head game does though.
feel free to edit pronouns as needed! content warning for some strong language, threats and implied violence.
to each other:
❝ you’re mine. only mine. ❞
❝ i’m all yours. ❞
❝ mine. ❞
❝ yours. ❞
❝ we belong to each other. ❞
❝ you belong to me. ❞
❝ i belong to you. only ever you. ❞
❝ i just didn’t like the way they were looking at you. like you weren’t mine. ❞
❝ you know i’m yours, right? i only have eyes for you. ❞
❝ no one else is ever gonna have a chance with me. you’re it. you’re all i want. ❞
❝ i chose you. and i need you to trust that my decision is final. trust me. ❞
❝ wait are you jealous? ❞
❝ aw, baby. it’s cute when you’re jealous. ❞
❝ i don’t like the way they keep staring at you. ❞
❝ i don’t like how they keep staring at me. ❞
❝ are they making you uncomfortable? i can do something about it. ❞
❝ no one should even get to look at you unless you want them to. ❞
❝ stop— it’s okay. they’re not worth your anger. just kiss me. ❞
❝ stop saying i’m jealous. i’m not— i just. i don’t like having to share. ❞
❝ i’m not jealous, who said i’m jealous? ❞
❝ well if i’m all yours then kiss me like it. ❞
❝ show everyone who i belong to. ❞
❝ i’m gonna remind them you’re mine. ❞
❝ i want everyone here to see that you’re mine. ❞
❝ i want everyone here to see that i’m yours. ❞
❝ hey— look at me. why are you all upset? ❞
❝ you can’t keep getting your feathers all ruffled when anyone else gives me attention. ❞
❝ they don’t deserve you— i don’t deserve you. but at least i’m aware of it. ❞
❝ i promise there’s no one else. you have my heart completely. ❞
❝ hey, is this asshole bothering you? ❞
❝ tell me you’re mine. ❞
to a third party:
❝ get the fuck away from them! ❞
❝ look at them like that again and you’ll won’t be seeing anything. ❞
❝ don’t you dare touch them. ❞
❝ yeah it’s time to walk the fuck away. ❞
❝ you’re gonna lose a finger if you don’t get outta my sight right now. ❞
❝ you heard them, get lost. ❞
❝ lucky for you, i don’t wanna ruin their night. but i see you sniffing around here again you might not be so fortunate. ❞
❝ you wanna lose a limb? beat it, fucker. ❞
❝ see, i woulda left it alone. but you made them fucking cry. so now you’re gonna lose your eyes. ❞
❝ hey, they said ‘no.’ ❞
❝ hey asshole, shut the fuck up or i’ll make you shut up. ❞
❝ what did you just say to them, you little shit? ❞
❝ oh yeah. now you’re all quiet. not so bold when you’re not the toughest guy in the room, huh? ❞
❝ get lost. ❞
❝ go. ❞
❝ leave. before my patience runs out. ❞
❝ get the fuck outta their face. ❞
❝ hey, that’s enough. ❞
actions:
[ CLAIM ] for one muse to possessively place their hands on their shoulders or hips.
[ HOLD ] for one muse to slide their arm around the other in a possessive way.
[ SHELTER ] for one muse to lean into the other’s side or hug them to seek comfort from a crowd or individual while in public.
[ STAKE ] for one muse to protectively and/or possessively stand behind the other to intimidate a third party.
[ RESCUE ] for one muse to intervene upon seeing a third party making the other one uncomfortable.
[ CHASE ] for one muse to interrupt and make a third party leave the other alone out of jealousy/possessiveness.
[ TENSION ] for one muse to get in a fight on behalf of the other.
[ STOP ] for one muse to break up a fight which started because of them.
[ MEND ] for one muse to treat the other’s wounds they got from protecting them.
[ SCOLD ] for one muse to treat the other’s wounds they got from fighting over them.
[ CARESS ] for one muse to possessively kiss the other in public.
[ TAKE ] for one muse to passionately kiss the other, fueled by jealousy.
[ TAUNT ] for one muse to flirt with a third party to try and get the other to act possessively.
[ REMIND ] for our muses to have passionate sex meant to remind one party who they belong to.
[ EMBRACE ] for one muse to dominate the other due to possessiveness/jealousy.
[ LINKED ] for one muse to hold the other’s hand in public to stake claim.
[ INTERTWINE ] for one muse to hold the other’s hand in public in a comforting manner.
the gun is still, but her breath isn’t. it slips through clenched TEETH as something she doesn’t trust herself to name. her eyes don’t waver and that’s the only thing that doesn’t betray her. everything else, every muscle, every nerve ending is listening to him. his words coil around her like smoke in a sealed room; thick, unrelenting, poisonous and holy.
he stands in front of her like a revenant. a memory reanimated into something hungrier, rougher but not gone, and maybe that was her penance for unearthing what should have stayed dead. she watches the way he leans into the barrel, like he’s inviting annihilation. like he already knows she won’t give it to him.
and that’s what tips her.
gloria moves before thought, a surge of instinct and history. rage, ache, and hunger burn under her skin like shrapnel hitting a nerve. she lifts her hand, the barrel close enough now that it kisses his chin at the juncture between flesh and mask. she knows he'll find her and haunt her, and she will let him in every single time.
❛ you’re right. i don’t want control and i don't need permission either. ❜ her voice serrated, low and trembling with something that has nothing to do with fear. her free hand curls in his shirt, dragging him tighter against her. she wants to feel the pulse of him and plead to the man beneath.
❛ and you, what about you, querido? ❜ she leaned in, her nose brushed his mask, mouth hovering at the edge of his jaw, and then so suddenly. CLICK — that's all it was: an empty game of roulette she never loaded. a sound so deafening despite being so small. She pulls back just enough to look at him, really look at him. ❛ i could always see you, you know. all that hurt i could sink my teeth into like you tore into mine. ❜
she holds a beat like she's unhinging her maw. ❛ but you’re wrong about one thing ❜ a push off his frame, empty clip snapped out of the pistol, and the entirety falls to the ground. her eyes don't leave him, emotions too deep to remain buried and twice as volatile as the heart on her sleeve. ❛ i don’t want to pretend i’m better than you. i want to believe i wasn’t always just like you, but we both know that's not true, don't we? ❜
🔫 [ something tells me it's fucked up but hot though? the one time she can't pull the trigger but should. 🫦 ]
POINT A GUN AT MY MUSE PROMPT. | @waruins
that barrel's not cold. that is what gloria doesn't realize. it's not trembling in her grip. but he can feel the hesitation affecting her. and jigsaw? he feeds on that.
it's not wanton glee or the mockery you'd get from an overperforming circus clown. he has a hunger that lives in the marrow of his bones. the version of him before wouldn't flinch. neither would the one that came back from the mirror.
❝ now this—this is the good part. ❞ his voice scrapes out. it's rusted and sharp, like heavy metal dragged across the asphalt. there's a twisted reverence that overrode any delight or scorn he might have derived from his grim circumstances.
his devilish audacity compels him to tempt his fate and step closer. to dare her finger to twitch against the trigger because he invaded her space now, in her head, and still—he’s unafraid of death.
❝ oh, go on. ❞ the virtually masked eyes flick to the muzzle that was ready to bark at any second. he wonders what dark whispers it put in her head to make her believe this was the right move. ❝ do it. i’d let you. right here. right now! permission to kill, soldier! ❞
the mask covers the jagged and lopsided grin. it shields her from the ruin, but not the dark dare. his head cocks, wolfish, a second away from acting on the impulse to tear into her for the cowardice alone.
❝ i think you want me close. i think you want me to bleed for you. break for you. and maybe even burn you a little and call it worship. ❞ he says it like it was a secret passed between their sinner selves of a previous life. a gospel carved into the wall of some brig.
❝ i think this little gun? ain’t punishment. it’s one of our fucked up foreplays. ❞ because it felt familiar. it seemed like some shit he'd be into with a girl like her in his past. his hand lifts slowly—measured, not threatening—fingers brushing against the side of the coal-black barrel like he’s petting it. like it's her hair. his thumb grazes the slide, the tension point of unceremonious death, and he sighs like he's tasted the most exquisite dish for his last day on earth.
❝ you don’t want control, gloria. you want permission. you want to see what you are when you stop pretending you're better than me. as if we didn't fly the same colors for our country. ❞ his other hand reaches—not to her, but to his own chest. he taps it once. twice. thrice. firm. he leans in and whispers rot in her ear:
❝ squeeze the trigger. i’ll still come back for you, gloria. even if you break me. even if you kill me. i'll crawl outta hell and find you, sweetheart. ❞ then—he steps back. but it's barely an inch away. it's enough to see her beautiful trepidation in her eyes. enough to see if his words led to them softening or hardening. jigsaw grins again.
❝ now what’s it gonna be, angel? you gonna make uncle sam proud? or are you scared it’ll feel too fucking good? ❞
few could possibly understand the depth of it all, the uphill BATTLE made of claws and teeth and admitted spite. ❛ hard to be soft, tough to be tender. ❜ of standing toe to toe with men twice your size and coming out alive and higher up than any of them could possible imagine. gloria knows she understands. enough for her to offer up the adage of something stronger than beer.
lyrical sc// @w4rwhispers
gloria, the doctor who will know how every nurse takes their drink. gloria the doctor who can ( and likely has ) probably strong armed a violent patient before security can get there. gloria, the doctor who needs a giant hug and something explicit.
❛ there ain’t language for the things i’ve seen. ❜
Gloria’s preference for older lovers has never come from a weird insecurity or lack of personal relationships…it’s competency, it’s leadership, it’s attraction to someone with life experience and that scratches the intellectual brain and becomes sensual.
❛ i'm going to wait until i'm on my deathbed, get in the last word and then die immediately. ❜
holt & diaz quote starters // @walkeddeath