hi so for your event I was wondering if you would write about mental health illnesses as well? like a song I like and think is great heavily implied bpd and I was curious if youβre open to that? πππ
absolutely!!! pleaseeee go ahead and request πππ
can u tell iβve never worn eyeliner before
(Itβs subtle guys ik)
SOMEONE PLSSSS DRAW LANDO WEARING EYELINER AND MY LIFE WILL BE YOURS πππ
[ part one / masterlist / requests are open ]
β½ο½‘β part 2 of THE GREATEST. he tried to live without you, but how is one to survive with a broken heart? a story based on TRUE BLUE by billie eilish. β lando norris x fem!reader (could technically be read as a stand-alone)
αΆ» π π° angst, hurt & comfort, hints of fluff (?) π 4.1k words
β Lights out, youβre not here holding me β
Lando had never before felt the way he did the day you left him. Seeing you walk through that door, intending to never come back to him ever again, it pained him. It took him too long to realize how much he hurt you, and now he had to suffer the consequences. He swore it wasnβt on purpose, but when his friends told him that also the third girl he had brought along since you broke up with him resembled you in a way, he stopped denying. There was no use. The guys knew, the internet knew, he knew that he wasnβt yet over you. And he thinks he never will be. You left an empty place in his heart, a place that would forever be reserved for you only and you only. No matter how hard he tried to find someone else, no one would ever be able to replace you.
The girl he brought to the first race after the summer break was long forgotten already.
At first, everyone around him believed him when he said he felt happier now without you. But the moment he went back to his old ways, the heartbreaker theyβve known for so long, they realized he wasnβt. The girls always looked like you. He only rarely smiled anymore and he couldnβt care less about his friendsβ relationships, even going as far as faking a gag or simply not coming to hang out with them at all. He said itβs because he needs to focus on racing. They knew it was because of you. Lando was yet to tell them why the relationship ended. Heβd rather crash his car and DNF in every race for the rest of his life than to ever have to talk about the night you left ever again. He felt embarrassed and bad and was so terribly regretful. Only his parents knew the whole truth. He told them with tears caressing his face just like you once did, and seeing the disappointment in their eyes, he felt his heart rip apart even more. They had loved you so much, only waiting for the day he would finally go down on one knee for you, and now he messed it all up.
If he could just go back and make it all alright. Make you feel unconditionally loved wherever you went, make you happy, keep you happy. He would change it all if he just had the chance, but he knew you deserved better. Maybe one day, he could be better again.
He is ready to give up the very thing for you that had made you leave him that night if youβd ask him to. Racing would never again mean as much to him as you, though broken up, still do to him.
He was currently seated in his McLaren, waiting for the lights to go out so he could try his very best to overtake max at the start already. He should have his mind on the track. He shouldnβt think about you, not here. But like always, he couldnβt help it. He hoped to see you in the stands once he was able to get out of the car again. He hoped to see you wave and smile at him, run into his arms and let him kiss you all over, do all the things he had failed to do so many months ago. He knew it wouldnβt happen. He believed anyway. The lights went out and the cars began moving. He tried his best, he always did, but he wasnβt afraid to lose anymore; for what was it worth to win a race when he had faced the greatest loss of them all already?
β I count every tear down my cheek instead of sheep β
You couldnβt sleep. You could never sleep while he was racing. Especially when he was on the other side of the world, which is why you went with him last season, and also at the start of this one. Maybe you never shouldβve. Long distance was hard, but you managed. He felt farther away when he was still sleeping next you every night. At least when he didnβt send you off to sleep on the couch.
You tossed and turned in your sleep, but you didnβt dare to turn on the TV. Itβs been months, you should try to live without him. Without seeing him. Without feeling for him. His races had nothing to do with you, neither did the outcome. And god, if he wins and you have to watch him kiss someone else again you might as well just take his racing car and drive right into the nearest wall. Heβs so far away and yet, it didnβt make you love him any less. You huffed, fear slowly building up inside of you. You knew you shouldnβt do this, you had to wake up early tomorrow and really, it wouldnβt be that bad to miss a race once or twice, but you couldnβt help it. Reaching for the remote, your eyes were flooded with tears and your heart stung like never before when you saw him driving out there. You were rooting for him nonetheless. Just months ago you had watched the races from inside the McLaren hospitality, but now? All alone in your bed, anxiously following his every move. You would never fall asleep like this.
β Sleepwalk, find myself on your street. Three knocks, ring the bell, then I leave β
And there you stood high up in the stands the next weekend, head hanging low as you didnβt want any fans of him recognizing you, back in his territory. You tried to ignore him, you really did, but your eyes kept following him around the paddock and didnβt leave him even while he was doing the quick interviews he had to do on his way there. And honestly, it kinda felt like home. Attending the races. Being near him. Being with him. You missed it more than anything else in the world, and you felt pathetic for it. He hurt you every way he could, and still, he didnβt hurt you enough to make you hate him. And you really wanted to hate him.
You went to the race together with one of your friends from uni. You bonded over formula 1 and your shared passion for the sport and quickly became very good friends. However, she had to leave soon, moving to another city for a better starting point for her career. Hence, you decided to save some money and go to a race together for the last time; for now, at least. You still remember the way she looked at you when you told her you were with Lando. The way you swooned over him to her, and the way you cried your eyes out when it all ended. You really thought youβd be able to spend the rest of your life with him, and now all you had left of him were memories. Sheβs known you long enough to immediately notice your longing after him the moment your eyes locked onto his dark brown curls. Your heart fluttered and it made you nauseous. One day this would stop, right? Your feeling must fade at least sometime, or was this all just wishful thinking? Could you not just get over him like everyone else got over their exes and start dating someone new?
Your heart ached. He was so close, not out of reach anymore, not on the other side of the world anymore, but still, there was no way of getting back to him, the crash barriers and the grandstand keeping you away, and it felt like the end of your relationship all over again, with him on the track and you sitting and waiting patiently on the sidelines, always at least an arm length distance between you two. You shouldnβt even want to get him back. You left out a sigh as he walked into the McLaren hospitality, finally out of sight. But still not out of mind.
Your friend huffed next to you, and finally decided to try and convince you to talk to him after the race while you were still in the same place, to get closure at last. You knew it must annoy your friends and maybe even your family that it was so hard for you to just move on. They put effort into understanding, but still, Lando wasnβt good to you, at least not in the end. Many would treat you better, but you didnβt seem to care. You quickly shook your head no, telling her how he probably didnβt want to talk to you and that catching him after the race would be nearly impossible, with bodyguards and tons and tons of interviewers and cameras around him.
The conversation ended soon after, as the lights went out and the drivers hit the gas. You pondered for a second, reconsidering your friendβs suggestion, a weird feeling building up in your stomach. Maybe you shouldnβt even be here, maybe you should *leave* after the race and never look back. But to your dismay, every sense in your body was telling you to stay.
β I try to live in black and white but Iβm so blue β
The race went well, but he didnβt really care. Of course he was happy, the whole team was euphoric for their two drivers who secured place 2 and 4, huge smiles plastered on their faces. Once he was done with the post-race interviews he left to go back and get some rest inside his apartment, at least until the others came around to drag him to the afterparty, slandering from one club into the next one.
Everything felt so lonely without you. His bed was cold even when he was hidden under his blanket, and the dining room was nothing more than a reminder that he wasnβt spending his evenings with you. Watching TV got boring. Everything got boring. He didnβt even know why he lost you anymore, he didnβt know what the hell it was that made him believe you werenβt made for him, making him believe there was actually something more important than you in this lifetime. You haunted his every thought, and even though he truly only wanted the best for you, deep inside him, he wanted you to still need him as well.
He stood in front of his bathroom mirror, gently buttoning up his shirt like you used to do, always leaving the 3 highest ones unbuttoned. He missed your touch, your eyes looking up at him and your hands always reaching for his. His arms would be wrapped around your waist and his head would be leaning on your shoulder, sneaking a few, small kisses up your neck as you changed your earrings for the night, the imagine of it painted onto your fast beating heart as you stood in front of the full-body mirror in your apartment, finishing up your accessoires. You wore a blue dress that covered your thighs, not reaching your knees. It hugged you in all the right places, accentuating your features. It used to be Landoβs favourite, but you had no other alternative, not having brought any other dresses. Your friend insisted on going clubbing anyway, desperately wanting to finally get him off your mind for one night at least.
The other drivers were loud and happy and drunk and Lando sat next to them, staring at his already empty glass. He knew how this would go. At some point, either the drivers or one of their girls would tap his shoulder, saying they have a friend they think he would really like, and if he would like to be introduced to her. He would agree so they would finally keep their mouths shut, he would talk to the girl. Maybe they would kiss if he drank enough. Maybe he would take her home. Maybe he would think about you the whole time, maybe he would accidentally call her your name. Maybe he would wake up in the morning and would be happy that sheβd left, content with it only being a one-time thing and not meaning anything.
Because, in the end, nothing meant anything without you.
He pretended to laugh at the jokes of his friends, but really, none of this was fun to him. These nights were nothing more than a constant reminder of how he used to have his fun while you were waiting for him at home, cold and sad and alone. How could he be so stupid and leave you alone all the time? He doesnβt even know why he did it anymore. He yawned, very obviously not enjoying the party. Yes, it was nice seeing his friends so happy, the mood wasnβt as tense as it was around and on the track and the people inside the night club were vivid, dancing and drinking, seemingly having the time of their life downing countless beverages, but still, the happiness didnβt reach him.
βDude, I think your girlβs here.β Oscar pushed him slightly, two vodka bull in hand for himself and Lily. Lando didnβt pay him any mind and rolled his eyes, not really in the mood for talking to any girl that isnβt you at the moment. Couldnβt they just give up? He wasnβt ready yet for someone else, he didnβt even know if he wanted to be with someone that isnβt you at all. Ever. Instead of arguing with Oscar about how he didnβt want to hear from any other girl right now, he went to get another drink as well.
He pushed through the dense crowd of people, navigating through the cacophony of laughter and piercing yelling that seemed to echo from all directions. The deafening loud music blasting through his ears made it difficult to focus, and the harsh sound of glass clunking together only added to it. The colorful LED lights rapidly switched from green to red to purple to yellow in a matter of seconds, creating a dizzying light show that overwhelmed his vision. This sensory onslaught of sounds, sights, and sensations overstimulated his senses, making each step forward feel like an effort.
Finally at his destination, he waited for the waiter or waitress, he wasnβt quite sure, to get his order. He wasnβt certain what his plan was that night at all. Sleeping around or not, you wouldnβt stop haunting his mind anyway, so was it really worth it? Getting drunk and trying to make his nights feel less lonesome? Or should he just wait and really focus on his carrer again until maybe, one day, youβd come back?
He ignored the possibilty of you not coming back at all.
He let his eyes wander around the scene unfolding in front of him, occasionally making eye contact with random girls who winked at him and tried to get his attention, but he didnβt pay them any mind. Frustration started to bubble up inside of him as the wait for his drink seemed to go on for forever, until suddenly, his heart skipped a beat.
Lando was certain that in a room full of people, he would always be able to notice you first. He pondered if it was you whenever heβd walk by a girl with the same hair colour as you, immediately dismissing the thought when he saw a face that didnβt match yours just a second later. But this time, it was different. The hair ressembled yours without a doubt, and of course he remembered the dress he had bought for you so long ago; never once had he been able to keep his hands to himself when you wore it. The height matched you perfectly as well. But it couldnβt be you, right?
Oscarβs words replayed in his mind and he finally understood what he meant. Who he meant.
It was really you.
You tried to enjoy the party, but you really werenβt doing so well. Your friend had left you near the bar, thinking youβd be hitting it off with a guy youβve been talking to for some time, but that wasnβt the case. he left just five minutes after to go home, asking if youβd like to come with him. You denied, but your friend was nowhere to be found, having found someone in this club herself. It was scary being alone in a club full of drunk, intoxicated people, even more so when you sensed someone staring at you from behind. You didnβt have to worry about things like that when you were still with Lando, with him always stuck to your side, a protective arm hanging around your shoulders. you shuddered at the thought, and dared to turn around to find the very person who was looking at you so steadily.
And then you locked eyes.
The world suddenly went quiet. All the chaos, the noise, it all faded into the background, no sound to be heard other than the synchronised, rapid beating of your heart. It seemed as if the only two people in that room were you and him, only the void surrounding the two of you. The LEDs turned blue, engulfing you and him, the light accentuating your features and he couldnβt move even if he wanted to, stuck in a trance of what this could mean for him in the future; what this could mean for you both. Time seemed to stand still. He wanted to run to you, to hold you, to tell you how much he missed you, but his feet felt like they were glued to the floor. His breath hitched and so did yours, all the yearning, all the longing hitting you and him at lightspeed.
You walked towards him, each step filled with electricity. The tension was palpable, his mouth agape as you stood in front of him, only centimeters away from closing the gap between you. There was so much he wanted to say, so many things he wanted to apologize, so many things he wanted to make right, but he didnβt dare to say things first, afraid too scare you off. The last thing he wanted is for you to leave him again.
βI didnβt know youβd be here, thought Iβd seen Oscar but I wasnβt sure,β you started, stumbling over your own words, laughing awkwardly, then biting your lip right after. He noticed, because you always did that when you were nervous; youβd done it too when you broke up with him. You wanted to blame it on the alcohol, but that would be a lie, one he could look right through of. You just couldnβt process actually being in his presence again.
βYou still wear the dress?β
βItβs, uhm, quite pretty, so yeah.β You nodded along to your own words, gulping at the tense and awkward silence right after, looking down at your shoes, the sight of him in this light still not leaving your mind. Maybe he didnβt even feel the same way, maybe he didnβt even want to talk to you. Maybe you already made a fool of yourself when you made your way over to him, maybe you really shouldβve just stayed at home. But at the same time, this is what youβd hoped for this whole time. To finally see him again.
βIβm so sorry for what I did to you, y/n, please believe me. E-Ever since you left, I couldnβt stop thinking about you. Not once. I tried to move on, yβknow, would probably be better for you as well, βcause you deserve better than how Iβve treated you at the end and I donβt want to have to put you through that again but I just- I miss you so much, I donβt know what to do! And now youβre here and I swear Iβve been waiting for a moment like this and-,β he stopped for a second, heavy and shaky breaths filling the silence, βIf giving up racing means youβll let me come back to you, Iβll do it.β
Your teary eyes widened and you looked up at him again, staring into his. One could take it as an empty promise. But you knew better than anyone else that Lando wasnβt one to joke about racing, ever. βLando you canβt just- I- I mean, racing? It didnβt work before Lan I just- donβt give up your dreams for me, please? You shouldnβt, you have so much ahead of you still,β you sighed out, every single part of your body overwhelmed like never before.
But Lando was certain. He traced every yet so small feature of your face and body with his eyes, and he knew in that exact moment that, no matter what, he could never lose you again. Not this time. Not when fate hat somehow brought you together once again, giving him a second chance to make it all better. Question was now if youβd let him have that second chance too.
He lifted his hand to gently wipe away the tear running down your cheek, having you lean into his familiar touch. βIβll do it for youβ, he said, and that was when you broke apart, legs feeling numb and wobbly suddenly. Tears streamed down your face as you took another step forward and he wrapped his arms around your body out of reflex, gently placing soft kisses on top of your head, tearing up as well as your cried into his chest.
Maybe it was bad, maybe you shouldnβt feel like this again, but youβve never once after the breakup felt as at peace with yourself and your as you did now, even if you were in a loud and busy club, surrounded by drunk and high people. You managed to push them to the back of your mind, the familiar scent of Landoβs perfume calming your senses. It felt like home. Maybe he really did owe you something, and though you once were anguished because of it, you wouldnβt ever deprive him of the joy of racing. There would be a way through it without having to abandon any of your or his dreams. There must be if you want it to work out, and you were sure that this time, it would. And so was he.
Lando took you home with him that night, not before you shot your friend a quick text message, afraid she might think you were kidnapped or whatnot. You knew that youβd have to fly home again in two days. He knew that too, but there was no need to rush things anyway. You were still his and he was still yours, and thatβs all that mattered for now. Itβs gonna be weird explaining this to your friends and your family, but neither of you minded it as long as it meant you could be with each other again. You would have to talk things through and see how youβd manage the race weekends and the events and the media - but not now. Now, with you calmly and lightly snoring in his arms, he didnβt care about any of that, simply content with having you again.
He promised you before you drifted off into your tranquil slumber that he will make it right this time. He will be there for you no matter what, he will defend you and take you with him and show you off and love you like already should have done all these months ago. This time, he will put in the work and the appreciation and the effort, and then, you will finally be able to be the greatest.
β Iβd like to mean it when I say Iβm over you, but thatβs still not true. β
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how did you get into writing???
i used to write preferences and imagines for guys from IT chapter 1 when i was like 13. Dunno why, just felt like it! Then i got into lots and lots of different fandom annddddd im a professional daydreamer so i was like why not write down
and thatβs kinda how i got here! I have another blog here on tumblr where i used to write Harry Potter and anime stuff and then on Wattpad i used to write for Stranger Things, IT and all that stuff
The list of fandoms Iβm in is definitely still going strong! However, if you really only mean writing, for me it was actually just making scenarios in my head and then writing it down, having a crush on several actors and characters and just famous guys (max verstappenπ€§) and probs boredom! Thatβs it
I also get inspired by songs very very often
Sooo ,, music + character or person + scenarios = my writing lol
girl no pressure at all but are we still getting part 2 of the cheating texts?
yup! Iβm on school break rn so I thought Iβd have time to write but I had to go to work everyday instead so thatβs why I didnβt post much! Maybe Iβll get to it today tho
hi mel!! how are you doing? itβs been a while since youβve been active π
omg i love youπ I know Iβve been away for some time now but Iβm doing great ml <3 Iβm on vacation rn and dont use my phone a lot BUUUUT the waiters here are super cute so expect some vacay fics soon π€