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Watching life go by

My thoughts written down as I continue watching... The first time I teared up watching the patriotic documentary was when you got the call from a nice lady who gave you bad news. (I won’t tell you how many times tears were shed after the call lest I be compared with John Boehner.) I did sing along, but I’m also taking my morning medicinal toke before breakfast, which may or may not be eggs, so my voice is weak. (I plan a gym visit later today after it cleans out.)And now I’m pausing the documentary because I want to take it all in and post my thoughts online like a good little millennial (even though I’m taller than most millennials and I’m actually Generation X. Can you tell that I’ve heard many a Baptist preacher – and have adapted their tendency to drone on and on and on? 

I’m eager to let you experience the other side of it all, where it’s OK not to be perfect but neither of us has to like being imperfect. As a kid I would throw temper tantrums when I couldn’t get something just “perfect.” When the lines weren’t straight enough in the fictional Southern city I was drawing, I went to the office supply store and bought a ruler. Straight, clean lines are the best. To this day I prefer writing with pencils because you can erase it cleanly.

I insert my foot in my mouth even faster than my brother Peter could ever think about doing. It’s a gift and a curse. It helps, though, when you just see your previous words in the context of a new truth: cancer. The next time I teared up in the documentary was when I heard your mom has cancer. That’s a truth that hits me hard, too. I’m surviving it so far, but it makes me long to wander the wonders of life. Preferably with a few hippies and someone to love. Someone who doesn’t mind being the “good” one, since we all know I’m the bad kid. (My brother compares me to Macaulay Culkin in “The Good Son.” He’s one to talk! (Hello, pot. This is kettle. …) It's hard to turn the other cheek, especially when you know you’re in the right (or at least not in the wrong), but that’s what we have to remember to do. As Sheldon Cooper likes to remind us on perpetual reruns, haters gon’ hate. Players gon’ play. And the best woman will win every time. 

***I’ll probably clean up most of my social media feeds today. I need to get more real instead of live in the clouds, and we all know that tweeting one’s stream-of-consciousness does not suit anyone. Ever. For myself, sometimes I like to put out my raw thoughts to test the waters. But the hit hurts every time. And for the record, boots hurt like hell.

RIP, DJ Avicii

Avicii dead at 28. Story: https://www.nytimes.com/2018/04/20/obituaries/avicii-dead.html?smid=tw-nytimes&smtyp=cur One of his best videos: https://youtu.be/IcrbM1l_BoI

If the Founding Fathers knew how bad this country would become, they never would have founded it. Talk about Sophie’s Choice!

New mix coming before midnight. Link is above.

Getting back into the old grind is a grind itself -- especially when your job is jack of all trades. Here’s hoping that I finally can bring my life full circle (and meet the other half I seem to know so well). ;)

I’m a big country kid who grew up in small cities. Living near the water has opened my eyes to how I think God experienced life, and looking up at the stars like this image (from NASA or ESA) helps open my eyes to that beauty. … Beauty and wonder for me was escaping my house and escaping into the woods. For my brother it was much the same. He went farther than I did. He always does. 

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The spirit of comparison Will rob you of identity Because you will be too busy Focused on who you’re not Instead of who you were created to be

Before you were in your mother’s womb You were known by God You are uniquely and wonderfully made No need for a facade

You don’t have to fake the funk Or try to be like what you see The anointing on our lives is on the REAL you And on the REAL me

I need you to remember And don’t you ever forget That the real you is a weapon And one of satan’s biggest threats — view on Instagram https://ift.tt/2PDoqQp

Of course

So I order the new #TS (Explicit version) CD off Target since I can’t find it at Walmart and Amazon refused to let me download it. I usually buy the edited version of albums because I already cuss too much -- and wouldn’t you know it; as soon as I looked it up this morning, I find it at Walmart for less and edited. Live and learn, I guess. It can’t be that dirty, can it?

OMG

The path of the just is like the shining sun, that shines ever brighter unto the perfect day. - Proverbs 4:18.

Life’s a trip

My parents are trying to get me to write a blog about cancer. Truthfully, if I did write a blog, it’d be about how weird they are.