Fu*k If Anyone Finds This I’d Absolutely Love To Read It

Seeing Jodie Whittaker and Sacha Dhawan in other shows together is so surreal, no wonder they have such amazing chemistry

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Some of my story

When I was 8 years old the seeds were planted for my mental issues. By the age of 10 they were truly making themselves known in behavioural difficulties. At 12 I was given counselling for communicational management. When I was 13 that turned into visits to an NHS psychiatrist and psychologist to sort out my depression, anxiety, disordered eating, body image issues and suicidal thoughts.

It took a while but I made it back to feeling good. My anxiety persisted somewhat, but the depression was pretty much gone.

But then, last month, with me being now 17, the anxiety came back in full force worse than it’s ever been before. My doctor even wanted to prescribe me medication. I lost half a stone (7 pounds) in 10 days, lost so much sleep and woke up in cold sweats every night, and I even had to have a blood test to confirm that nothing was wrong.

But the reason for this would have shocked 13 year old me.

It was because I developed a debilitating fear of death and dying. I realised how much I love being alive and how much I haven’t been able to do yet.

I may be afraid, and I may have been miserable for weeks at a time, wondering if I should just quicken up the process (since you can’t be afraid of something that’s already happened, especially not something like that), but it has also inspired me. 

I’ve taken up walking (WALKING), both alone and with friends. I even now have a couple of friends I’m going to go walking with every weekend. And, hopefully, soon I should be able to begin enjoying my ballet lessons again.

I’ve also made huge progress with my body image. This month has made me more comfortable with what I’ve been given. Soon, I’ll hopefully be happy again.

Times may be hard, but if you stay with yourself long enough to see the other side of it, you may just surprise yourself.

Recovery is hard, recovery can be slow, but recovery is worth it. It may not be the only time you have to recover but that’s just going to be another chapter.

And this post may be the most ramble-y mess I’ve ever written, but I feel like some people need to hear that they deserve to tell the world their entire story, not just a couple of chapters.

i get that its very amusing to you guys but when non-brits make fun of heavily accented british dialects and say they're impossible to understand or they sound funny or stupid its just like... why are you helping these elitist english pricks out? its historical fact that the upper class in the UK Deliberately cultivated a southern ""english"" accent amongst themselves that they decided denoted 'status' and have since called all other british accents 'unintelligable' in order to protect class boundaries. accent is Such a sensitive race and class related subject here - oftentimes your accent is Assumed to indicate if you're intelligent or not which is just Bullshit. its used to gatekeep jobs and housing and schools. so can you at least Try to stop making fun of british regional/working class accents and bully the posh english twats instead. we get enough shit at home without americans or whoever else on twitter joining in

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But now COMPLETED~

a summary of the consequences of my life because I read percy jackson

If you're reading this...

go write three sentences on your current writing project.

“Born from you, but led by me!”

Soooooo, essentially you just had thousands of children together 0-0