I Know Better I Just Ache For It So Deeply I Am Willing To Risk My Sanity

Please don't remember me fondly

Remember me as the one who held your heart so softly, the one who loved you without restraint even when your love for me was a tangled mess which took years to unravel

Remember my patience and devotion as I sat at your feet, then how you crushed them under your heel

Remember me with pangs of guilt and regret when you think on your habit of assuring me I was safe with you then abandoning me once again

Don't remember me fondly, remember you killed me

When you avoid your feelings, you bury your passion

What is life without passion?

Hanging on by a thread Waiting for you to cut the cord

How can you let doubt lead you the way you do?

How can a man so spectacular in so many ways feel so inadequate?

I know my attempts to enlighten you to your own greatness fall on deaf ears

I know you believe I see you through love’s eye so my view is skewed You forget that I haven’t always loved you, But I have always thought you a great man

I thought if I believed hard enough in the two of us it would be enough for both of us

I was an idiot