Luxlila

Campus Hottie📓💒

constantly thinking about how badly i need to be railed by a loving, sweet guy. (i’ve never never even been kissed.)

Shyness...

One of my goals this Winter is to become less shy and more comfortable speaking up for myself. I talked about this before but I wanted to dive deeper into myself and understand where this shyness comes from.

I am naturally more introverted. I am aware that being introverted does not equal shyness, but I do enjoy being alone and hanging around people drains me.

Guys make me shy. I don't know why but they do. I am not shy around girls the way I am around guys. I think it's because I think they are super judgmental even though thats just an assumption.

Group settings triggers my shyness as well. I can have a 1 on 1 conversation with a stranger and do fine but put that stranger and I in a group setting, now I don't know how to act.

My shyness has definitely improved but I have a long way to go. And if you're wondering why this is important to me, it is because I see myself living a very fun and amazing life, and being shy and not knowing how to have a simple conversation with people is going to close more doors than open, so its important to me to overcome this.

Thats all,

Literally

horse back riding lessons, piano lessons, french/spanish/japanese lessons, regular work out routine, every day runs, screen time below three or four hours, longer reading lists, longer pre and post shower rituals, a morning routine, a night routine to breathe and wind down...

... a closet full of good quality staples, putting effort into my appearance (skin, hair, diet) every day, reaching out to my family atleast once a day, taking time to express my gratitude. putting time aside to write to myself and talk to myself. remaining calm, taking longer breaths, staying patient... reminding myself that i deserve it. i deserve the love, understanding, success, and extraordinary life-changing events that are coming for me.