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The bulletin board in front of you showcased several pictures of individuals in your husbandโs organization, some of whom you recognized from the event that took place only a week ago. Besides them were excerpts of newspaper articles and court documents with red strings connecting each picture. Jin stood proudly in front of it, pointing stick in hand as he explained the basics of the illicit businesses that Jungkookโs family partook in.
It felt like the pictures were staring back at you, taunting you as Jin described all the crimes and all the bloodshed Jungkook was responsible for. compared to this man you were nothing. You had never killed or stolen in your life, you were just a naรฏve girl with aspirations to bring down a criminal enterprise that had been standing and prospering way before you had even been born.
you couldnโt help but note the excitement in Jinโs voice as he described everything in detail, as if he was speaking of a discovery he had made, it never seized to surprise you how much Jin loved doing his job, how much happiness he found in putting his life on the line.
or was it because of you? did he feel accomplished because he had done this for you?
โtheyโve been working towards going legit for some time now, which makes no sense seeing as they have made literal billions in this businessโ Jin furrows his brows at his research, his eyes lingering on the picture of Jungkook for a moment too long.
You knew the answer, recalling the announcement your father-in-law had made during your anniversary dinner. Of course, it all made sense now you couldnโt run for governor if you were the very person poisoning your society, he was attempting to erase his shady past and become a man not only criminals respected but the people of this country too. There was no way in hell he would have his cake and eat it too, not while there was still air in your lungs.
โNow from what I have been able to gather in the past 2 years, Mr. Jeon has been able to invest in a total of 3 companies, the very first being Intalex, then only 3 months after he invested into Capitalab with Austrade your parent's company being the last one.โ
Your body tensed at the mention of your parentsโ business, the one they had worked so hard to bring to life, the one you were so keen on protecting, it made your stomach turn. You couldnโt help but scowl, shutting your eyes in frustration.ย
โDo you need a moment? We can revisit this at a later timeโ Jin spoke noticing the way you shifted in the chair you sat in; you opened your eyes and shook your head urgently, you had no time to lament over things that had already been done and you needed this information more than anything to succeed, you needed it to survive. Your anger and resentment alone would never be enough to bring Jungkook down.
โCarry onโ you breathed.
Jin cleared his throat and glanced back to the bulletin board behind him, he pressed his lips together, a certain reluctance forming in his chest. he knew it hurt to know what kind of family it was you formed part of but ultimately, he also knew this was what you needed, even if he doubted the path, you were so set on going down.
โRight,โ Jin sighed, swallowing back the bitter taste in his mouth. ย โThere is simplicity in money launderingโ Jin continued, pressing the stick against a court document pinned to the board โFirst, there is placement which is the introduction of what we call โdirty moneyโ into a legitimate business in this case Intalex, Capitalab, and Austrade then comes layering which through a series of investments and money play will conceal the source of the money much like the investment made by your father in law to your fatherโs company in exchange for your marriage, and then when the money is cleaned with legal paper trail it's then removed and integrated back to the criminal's finances.โ
Your eyes narrowed at the thought of how much money your father had already laundered for Jungkook and his family, of how you were all just pawns in a game you had no chance of winning. It made you sick to your stomach to think for a moment you had ever tried to be amicable with a man like Jungkook, someone who held no compassion, someone who had no heart.
โHow- โyou whispered, โhow have the authorities not caught wind of this?โ your eyes remained fixed on the board. You focused on remembering each face that was displayed there, the familiar ones and the ones youโd never seen before too. They would have to pay for what theyโve done.
For an instant, you couldnโt help but feel saturated, what you thought was a burning house was instead a forest fire and the smoke was choking you to death.
You had underestimated them in ways you couldnโt describe.
Jinโs eyes traveled to where you sat, a disappointed expression on his face, the answer remained on the tip of his tongue, but his teeth clenched together, you had lived in a glass cage with no clear view of the real world, and it pained him to be the one to give you a reality check.
โWhen you have money and influence in the way the Jeons have, there is nothing in this world you can't buy and that includes government officials and dirty copsโ he sighed.
โYou would be surprised how little money it takes to bury a crimeโ You felt your chest tighten at his words. It was a fact that you knew to be true but one you had ignored all this time because it almost sounded fictitious.
ย if Jin had been able to gather all this information in less than 2 weeks then you were sure the cops were already very much aware of all these crimes, it destroyed all the plans you had previously made, all this paper trail, all this evidence meant nothing if no one was willing to go after them. You couldnโt just walk into a police station with all this proof, all that would do is put a target on your back, if the police was on their side, then how else could you destroy them?
Would you be willing to become a criminal too at the expense of your revenge?
โCan you tell me what intel youโve gathered on these guys?โ You took a gulp of the tea that sat in front of you, hoping that it would wash away the lurking thoughts that had overtaken your mind.
โAs we know we have Mr. Jeon as the head of the organization and then we have his heir Jeon Jungkook, his name doesnโt even appear on the police database which can only mean 2 things, either your husband is a saint, or he has been paying someone very powerful to keep his record clean.โ
You scoffed and rolled your eyes, Jungkook a saint? There was no fucking way.
โBut from what my private investigator has managed to find he is responsible for various crimes as wellโ Jin proceeded to slide a file in front of you and you stared at it for a moment before flipping it open. You remained silent, frozen in time as you attempted to digest the pictures in front of you.
There were photographs of his crimes. dead bodies, Jungkook meeting with other drug lords, and drugs and weapons that had been seized by foreign countries. Your heart felt heavy, and you shuddered at the reminder that this was who you were married to.
Jin didnโt remove his eyes from you, expecting a reaction but none came. Your face remained stone cold even if inside you were falling apart, unable to express how sick you felt.
โKim Taehyungโ Your ears perked at the mention of the name, out of all the scrum bags you had met that night, Taehyung was the only one that was tolerable, you recalled how safe you had felt under his gaze, but you knew Jin would soon destroy the way you had once perceived him.
โHis father was a shareholder in the Jeon company, he has since retired due to poor health, but Taehyung has taken his place, due to his constant travels we can assume heโs responsible for their international affairs, Jungkookโs โbusinessโ has ties to Japan, China, Taiwan, and even the Russian Mob.โ
Jin went silent and you blinked repeatedly, you tried to process what he had just said. The mob? The fucking mob? You were aware you werenโt dealing with ordinary criminals, but this made your blood run cold.
โWe can deduct that Taehyung is in charge of representing the Jeons outside of the country during their deals and agreementsโ Jin looked through a file in his hand, his eyes focusing for a moment before looking back up at you โhe got charged with Vehicular Manslaughter last year but a settlement was made between the victimโs family and Taehyung to resolve the issue with no jail timeโ Jin mumbled, closing the file and laying out in front of you.
โSpare me the attorney talk, he paid them outโ you corrected, taking the file in your hands now and looking through the pages.
Jin rubbed the back of his neck and nodded โYes, he paid them out.โ
Charged with Vehicular Manslaughter last year? You sat silent for a moment, trying to piece together the information in your mind. Taehyung was not present at the time of your wedding because he was away in Paris and he had just returned when he attended your anniversary dinner which could only mean that it was plausible he had left Korea right after that accident.
โI've lost you Y/n, what's going through that hectic mind of yours?โ Jin asked, bringing you back from your thoughts.
โSorry, Iโm just trying to collect all of thisโ You werenโt comfortable withholding information from Jin, he was helping you after all, but you didnโt want him to know how consumed you had become by this entire ordeal, you didnโt want him to worry. ย
โLet me know if Iโm going too fastโ he chuckled nervously before turning to point at the board once more.
โThen we have Jung Ho-Seok, who is their legal advisorโ Your attention was brought to the picture of a man whom you didnโt recognize, he hadnโt attended your dinner, and he wasnโt someone you had ever seen around the Jeons. โHe graduated top of his class from Seoul National University School of Law, and he's a well-respected lawyerโ Jin rolled his eyes and looked back at you โAfter me of course.โ
You allowed yourself to smile, Jin had a way of easing the tension even in difficult situations and for the first time since you arrived, you took a breather. Perhaps itโs what made him such a good lawyer or maybe it's what made him such a good friend.
โAnd lastly we have Min Yoongi.โ
ย Your smile faded as you focused on his picture, you could hear your heart stop for a moment and then pound full throttle against your chest. your ally, the man to whom you had told all your dark desires to, he was an important asset in your plan and yet somehow you didnโt think you were prepared to hear what role he had been playing in this organization or if you even wanted to.
โWhere do I beginโ Jin sighed, grabbing another file into his hand but this one was much larger compared to Taehyung's or Jungkookโs, you blinked slowly, trying to suppress the pressure that built in your stomach. You knew Yoongi wasnโt a good person, he was just as involved in this life as Jungkook and his father but somehow you had made yourself believe that his evil had meaning, you had even been capable of putting yourself in his shoes.
โHeโs the son of the late Mr. Min who died under suspicious circumstances, he was Mr. Jeonโs right hand and business partnerโ Jin hummed, his eyes scanning the documents in front of him, you hoped he wouldnโt notice the way you tensed, the way you had been unable to blink since he started talking about the Minโs โ he couldnโt know that you had made a deal with someone like Yoongi. ย
โI mean this kid has been charged with almost everything in the book, you name itโ Jin huffed, and you could see his eyes trail as if he was reading off a list โAggravated assault with a deadly weapon, attempted murder, armed robbery, drug possession with intent to sell- โ
Your throat went dry as Jin continued to name the many crimes Yoongi had been involved in and soon regret nestled itself comfortably in your consciousness. Was this the same man who promised to help you? the same one that made you feel reassured in your vengeance? You couldnโt be surprised, of course not. That night, the way he spoke, the way he carried himself, it came with experience.
You were just too consumed by your own personal gain that you overlooked it, because at that time it didnโt matter what kind of person he was, if he was helping you.
Did it even matter now?
You felt the room spin around you and you held onto the end of the table in front of you for support. You didnโt know what to think or how to feel, your mind and heart once again battling against each other. Your morality was now hanging by a loose thread, and you didnโt know if it was worth salvaging at this point.
โShould I continue?โ Jin hummed, looking back up at you with raised brows.
You gulped and shook your head; Jin slid the file in front of you and this time you looked away. If Jungkook hadnโt worked so hard to keep his record clean then perhaps it would look the same as Yoongiโs, at least thatโs what you tried to tell yourself because only then could you still keep some of your sanity.
Was Yoongi a reflection of who you would become if you continued down this path? Your desires were far too similar, both of your resentments intertwined.
Jin took in the pale tone of your skin, the way you bit down on your lips as you stared into nothing. Disassociating from the reality that he had worked so hard for you to see and in that moment, he didnโt feel proud like he did when he first stepped into the room. He felt guilty as if he was the one committing all these crimes or maybe just committing one by telling you all of this.
โY/nโ he whispered, taking a step closer to you. He reached forward and brushed his fingers against the skin of your arm, and you flinched out of your state, eyes blinking widely up at him.
โWe should stop nowโ he announced, his voice low and soothing almost as if he was trying to persuade you but you shook your head and your lips trembled.
โI need to know everythingโ you protested. โI need this, I need to know all of thisโ you gulped, trying to repress the turmoil in your mind. You were not too proud to admit that you had bitten off more than you could chew but you would prefer to break your jaw than to give up on your freedom.
This was only the beginning and yet, there was no going back.
โWe can continue this on another day, I think this is enough information for nowโ Jin replied, and you knew he was right, you were overwhelmed, and your thoughts were scattered. You couldnโt pinpoint one single emotion inside of you and it scared you. Anger, disappointment, and guilt came in waves, and it left you drowning in your own fears.
Yet, you repressed them, leaving them to be dealt with later.
โnoโ you muttered โit's actually not enoughโ Jin furrowed his brows at your determination, unable to tell what it was that you were thinking, what it was that you wanted out of all of this, but he gave in, you needed him and for him that was sufficient.
โThe Jeonโsโ he began again, his eyes remaining on you. His voice was a mere whisper as he carefully selected the words he spoke. โThe jeonโs work like a bureaucratic system, almost like a political structureโ You noted the way his tone lacked confidence, his words were reluctant, and his eyes held sadness.ย ย
โIllegal activities are planned out and approved by superiors like Mr. Jeon and Jungkookโ he cleared his throat once more, swallowing down as if there was acid in his mouth โand then are carried out by lower rank individuals who form part of the organizationโ you sat completely still, eyes focused but mind withdrawn.
โBesides the illegal sale of firearms, they have been linked with the distribution of drugs, gambling houses, speakeasy bars, night clubs, and strip clubsโ Jin sighed โThe only thing this family has not profited in is human traffickingโ you bit down your lip and lowered your gaze.
Perhapsโฆ
โY/n, I donโt mean to intrude but what are you going to do with all of this?โ Jin dropped the pointer stick on the table and slumped into the seat next to you. He appeared disgruntled; you could see the resignation in his eyes as you looked up at him while he asked you a question you no longer knew the answer to.
โI mean if the authorities are turning a blind eye to this, what will you do?โ
You didnโt want to answer him, didnโt want to tell him the thoughts that went through your mind, but something inside you told you he already knew, you could see it in his eyes, he was just asking for confirmation. Your eyes filled with tears, and you allowed yourself to come to terms with the cards this life had dealt you.
You covered your face in frustration and hid yourself there for a moment. You couldnโt carry this weight all by yourself and taking the legal route was no longer an option. You had thought about this plenty of times and yet, you still feared losing yourself in the complexity of this situation.
You wanted your freedom more than anything.
More than anythingโฆ.
You removed your hands from your face and your tired gaze traveled to meet Jinโs, his eyes were held wide open, and within them, you could see fear and agony.
Was he aware that he would never see the old Y/n again?
โThen I'll just be the monster they have made me.โ
You couldnโt shake away the pulsating migraine that meeting had left you, a storm of thoughts consuming your mind with worries and doubt. You tried to hush the voice inside of you that screamed you were afraid, a warning coming from your gut as it too screamed at you to run. You tried to lie to yourself, attempting to find some kind of normality in all of this but you had been stretched out past your expectations.
You slid a cigarette between your lips and lit it, taking a long drag. The sun beamed down on you as you stood in front of the small cafรฉ, the place that often brought you comfort now being the place in which you stood motionless, your thoughts incapacitating you.
Knowledge was power but at what cost?
It only nurtured your hatred and invoked a new feeling in you that you had long forgotten about when you began to plot against Jungkook and his family, pure trepidation.
You blew out smoke past your lips and dragged your hand over your face, attempting to gather yourself. You needed to stop pretending like you had everything under control because one thing was for sure, you had stepped into a lion's den with no weapons, with no experience, and without any idea of what you were facing.
This was bigger than you and you couldnโt help but shrink inside of the idea of what was to come.
You were startled by the sound of a car approaching, its tires pressing on the grabble underneath your feet making you blink up in a panic. The black escalade stopped in front of you and your body trembled.
Did Jungkook find you? fuckโฆwhat time was it?
You held up your watch, squinting your eyes as you made out the time, it had been over an hour and surely, Jungkookโs lapdog was already looking for you. You looked back at the cafรฉ and your heart dropped. Jin was still in there, what if Jungkook found out what you were doing? You couldnโt risk putting Jinโs life in danger. You needed to come up with a lie that was convincing enough to explain all of this.
You got lost on your way back, you stopped for some coffee, anything.
But once you blinked back to the escalade, a man who you didnโt recognize stepped out. He wore an all-black suit, and his black shades blocked his eyes from the sun and from your eyes too, yet you were sure he wasnโt one of Jungkook's employees, and the smile he wore only confirmed it.
You shifted in the spot in which you stood, holding your breath as you prepared for the worst. If this wasnโt one of Jungkookโs men, then he was an enemy, and you didnโt know which of the two facts scared you the most.
โMs. Y/n?โ he asked.
Your body grew taught as apprehension flowed through you. who was this man? And how did he know who you were and how in the fuck did he find you here?
โy-yesโ you responded, your voice shaking as the word escaped your mouth.
The man smiled at you once more and offered you a small nod.
โI didnโt mean to startle you Maโamโ he noticed the way your hand trembled as it held onto your cigarette, evidence of your panicked state โMr. Min has sent for youโ he explained and it was as if you had been punched in the stomach, a sudden need to hurl settling there.
You couldnโt stop Jinโs words from replaying in your mind, recalling all the violent crimes Yoongi had committed. his grand criminal record, a depiction of the kind of person he was. You took a step back and your chest rose and fell noticeably. You felt your knees buckle and surely you would soon find yourself on the ground.
You couldnโt repress the thought that you had made a mistake, a big mistake. Yoongi was a criminal, apparently the worst of them all. What would he do to you if you werenโt good enough as an ally? How stupid had you been to begin a relationship with someone you knew nothing about, with someone you couldnโt trust?
โMaโam? I can just tell Mr. Min you are busy now.โ ย
You focused your eyes on the man once again, his head tilted as he waited for your answer. If you didnโt go it would be suspicious, he was your ally now, you couldnโt doubt your ally and then again, he was someone who had committed unspeakable crimes and you couldnโt erase the pictures of his victims from your mind. all the blood, all the damage, and all the terror.
If you crossed him, would you become another file in his criminal portfolio?
You needed to make a choice, there was no time to evaluate the situation. You had made this decision and now, you couldnโt backtrack no matter how much you wanted to. Ultimately this was what you had asked for, you needed a strong ally and thatโs exactly what Yoongi was.
He was cruel and he was feared, even by you.
You dropped the cigarette from between your fingers and pressed down on it with your heel. You had no other choice but to hold your head high and pray that this would all soon be over.
โNo uh-Iโll goโ you said.
The man smiled at you once more and he moved to open the door for you. You looked back at the cafรฉ one last time, hoping that Jin wouldnโt see this. That he would stay as oblivious as possible to what you were doing. although eventually, he would come to find out the kind of person you would have to become.
You slid inside the escalade and flinched once the door slammed shut beside you. There was nothing in this world that could ease your mind, everything that you were doing felt wrong but while you battled to keep your rationality a part of you felt thrilled. you were meeting a side of yourself that you didnโt know, someone who hadnโt been part of your conscious, or maybe they were there all along, hiding behind your deepest desires.
Urging you to be vindictive and you were feeding into it.
Regardless, one thing you knew for sure was that you were never going to be the same Y/n from a year ago, the naรฏve and weak girl who allowed herself to be put in this position in the name of love, in the name of honor. Even while finding your freedom, you would surely lose a part of yourself. Was it worth the sacrifice?
Yoongiโs smirk appeared in your mind, his words from that evening echoing in your ears, and then Ha-yoonโsโฆ are you sure? Are you prepared? It hurt to say now that the answer was no but there was no going back, even if you tried to back paddle, there was no road left behind you. nothing to go back to.
The further the car moved from the cafรฉ the deeper you had sunk within your thoughts, it wasnโt like you were second guessing yourself and you had promised that you would no longer be a victim to your circumstances, but you couldnโt help but question what you had done, you couldnโt help but feel regret for the choices you had made.
However, there was no feeling stronger than your resentment and it overpowered all rational thought forcing you to stand firm on your goal, regardless of the cost.
The escalade made a sharp turn into a long narrow road, and you peered out the tinted windows noticing how the scenery had shifted from tall skyscrapers to large trees, the car continued to move deeper into the woods, and you could tell you had been taken past the city lines, no longer being able to see any familiar landmarks and it only made you that much more uneasy.
You looked at the driver through the review mirror, he appeared calm, and you didnโt know if that was a good thing. The car reached the end of the road and then the driver made another sharp turn into an unpaved road this time, you could feel the wheels run over rocks and grabble, making the car shake for a moment. Your heart pounded harshly inside your chest, so much so that it drowned out the sound of the wheels crushing everything in its path but then your focus was drawn to the house that appeared before you.
Standing proudly amongst the trees, the grand mansion called for your attention, its large windows were blocked off by white curtains, and vines grew along the white-bricked structure, it was elegant and clean in contrast to the forest that surrounded it. The car made a stop in front of its entrance, and you could only assume this was one of Yoongiโs properties.
The driver exited the car and stepped to open the door, he gestured for you to proceed but for a moment you remained motionless, you didnโt think yourself prepared to face the man whom you had made your ally. Would he be able to see your uneasiness? Would he be offended by your mistrust?
Your feet felt heavy as you stepped forward and your heels dragged against the gravel underneath you. it wasnโt the best idea for you to be here, not after learning all that you had about the man who waited inside. You didnโt have enough time to make sense of all of this and you feared you would make another mistake.
Fuck.
You walked up the steps and stared at the door for a moment too long, pondering if this was the right decision. By this time your driver would be on a call with Jungkook, letting him know of your sudden disappearance, and then what would you do? What excuse would you be able to come up with to explain all of this? You hated that you had to even consider these things, things you wouldnโt need to do if you were free.
You raised your hand to ring the doorbell but before you could, the doors swung open and in front of you stood a woman wearing an all-black uniform, she offered you a smile. The kind of smile you only give to someone you know, and you couldnโt help but be tense under her gaze.
She bowed before you and then gestured for you to enter โWelcome Ms. Y/n, right this wayโ she spoke softly. Your steps faltered as you stepped inside, it felt like you were walking over landmines, and you grew dizzy once you heard the door close behind you. You turned to look at her once again but noticed her smile had remained.
The woman leaned down and collected your heels as they came off your feet, reaching to slide slippers in front of you. You stared at her for a moment and then slid your feet inside of them. You could feel every nerve rise within your body as the woman led you further into the home.
The various windows allowed the sun rays to seep inside, casting a golden shadow of tranquility inside of the space. You couldnโt help but compare this house to your own and it made your heart lurch in yearning. This felt like a home, the walls held comfort in a way only something that had witnessed happiness and memories could, and, in your mind, you struggled to connect this place to the criminal Yoongi was known to be.
It felt safe here in contrast to the unsettling feeling you had towards him now.
โMr. Min is waiting for you here,โ she said while stopping in front of tall wooden doors, she then bowed deeply and proceeded to leave you alone in the hallway. From within the doors, you could hear the soft sound of what appeared to be a piano. you shuffle momentarily, allowing an anxious huff to release past your lips.
You werenโt capable of seeing Yoongi in the same way you had only a few days prior, you had admired his perseverance, seeing yourself in him but now the reflection of that man was obstructed by his past and you didnโt know if you could continue to admire it. Your hand trembled as you reached to open the door and once again you were immersed in doubt.
Yoongi sat in front of the piano with his head lowered as his fingers graced the piano keys gently, his eyes were closed, and his brows furrowed as he concentrated on playing the melody you had heard from outside the doors. the song made you feel at ease, and you allowed yourself to step inside, entranced by his gentle and calm posture and yet again your brain struggled to attach those vicious crimes to the man who sat before you.
Yoongi pressed onto the last key, leaving the sound to echo in the air and then he raised his gaze onto you, his eyes distilling pleasure as his lips formed into a smirk but your eyes dropped to the floor, unable to hold his stare.
โYou cameโ Yoongi rose from where he sat, taking a few steps towards you. Your eyes moved up once more at the sound of his voice and you took in his relaxed posture, a glass of whiskey in his hand.
โH-hello Mr. Minโ you mustered to say yet it was nothing more than a whisper and Yoongi grinned in response.
โCall me Yoongi, I think we are past formalities.โ
You felt goosebumps arise from your skin and you were reminded that the man who stood in front of you was an ally, a friend. Even if you were reluctant to admit it, even if you regretted your decision, that is what he was.
โYoongiโ you repeated, correcting your previous words.
โYes, Yoongiโ a smirk danced on his lips.
โI apologize for the short noticeโ he continued before you could speak again โI wouldโve called had I had your number.โ
His words held sincerity but something inside you didnโt allow you to believe this meeting wouldโve gone any differently.
โYeah,โ you muttered, โabout that, how did you find me?โ
ย You always ensured you were being discreet when meeting with Jin, and you were sure the cafรฉ was a safe place but having been found by no other than Yoongi in the place you felt most at ease left you feeling unsettled.
It would come to seem that you werenโt safe anywhere.
โI did say I would find you, didnโt I?โ he chuckled lowly which did nothing to calm your anxious thoughts. If this was anything, it was a demonstration of his power, of his influence.
Yoongi noticed the way your eyes shifted, your body tense and immobilized as he spoke, and his laugh subsided. You were scared, he had rattled you to your core with his intrusion and he knew that.ย
โYou were in my territoryโ he admitted, gulping down the liquid in his glass.ย
โActually, you spend a lot of time in my territory, and I canโt quite be convinced itโs because you like Mi Chaโs coffee.โ
Mi Cha? You didnโt even know the owner's name. You always called them auntie and uncle and you were there almost every weekend. He wasnโt bluffing, you were in his territory. How long had he been keeping tabs on you? how many times did he send men to observe your every move? Did he know about Jin? Fuck, you were fucked. Did he know who you were before you approached him that night?
Of course, he did, after all, you are his enemy's wife.
You clawed at your brain for an excuse; you needed him to believe that any visit made to that cafรฉ was innocent but fooling someone like Yoongi was not going to be easy.
Another chuckle abrupted from his chest as he stepped towards his bar, reaching for the bottle of whiskey and pouring himself another drink.
โRelax, we are allies but that doesnโt mean that you have to share all your secrets with meโ he reached for another glass and prepared it, this time stepping closer to you and extending out his hand for you to take.
โI donโt care about what you have going on in my territory as long as it doesnโt threaten my businessโ his voice was smooth, comforting even but his eyes were cold and withdrawn.
You took the cup from his hand and nodded, before taking a drink from the bitter-sweet liquid.
โWhy did you reach out to me?โ you asked, feeling braver than before.
โAh yesโ he exclaimed, โI heard about your father-in-lawโs upcoming campaign.โ
You grimaced at the words, recalling the distasteful conversation you had with Mr. Jeon regarding his future plans and how he needed you to assist him. You took another drink from your glass and then your eyes met with Yoongiโs.
โYes,โ you huffed โit appears he has grown aspirations to be a politician.โ
Yoongi chuckled once again, shaking his head at your words.
โNo, it is not that he wants to be a politicianโ he corrected which made you attentive. logically what man like Jungkookโs father would want to deal with the pressure and labor that came with the job of a governor, not when he was used to a life of easy money.
โHe wants to be in controlโ Yoongi shrugged. โControl the police that arrest his men, control the authorities that stop his drugs and weapons from coming into the countryโ Yoongi spoke nonchalantly as if he was just holding a simple conversation, disregarding the actual words that were coming out of his mouth.
Your stomach flipped inside out and the taste of the whiskey on your tongue turned sour. The answer had always been there, yet you were still too naรฏve to put the pieces together, it was never about aspirations or going legit. It was always about power.
You felt your jaw lock and that anger, the one you have fed for months, made its presence known inside of you. Yoongi may have been right, but you wouldnโt allow any of those things to happen.
โThe real question here is what are you and I going to do to stop it.โ
You held onto your words, you trusted him less than you ever did before but once again he was the only one willing to help you set this plan in motion, and at this point, it didnโt matter that Yoongi was a violent criminal because just as the night of your anniversary he was willing to help you.
โI say we let him continue with his campaignโ you suggested, shrugging your shoulders.
โAnd why would that bring us any good?โ Yoongi responded, raising his eyebrows in confusion.
โI thought you were a smarter manโ You grinned, and Yoongi chuckled in response.
โEnlighten me then.โ
โInitially I was repulsed by the idea of helping the Jeons but after learning how they work; and what kind of people they are Iโve concluded that we should give them what they want.โ
โMhmm and why is that?โ
โBecause only then can we expose all their crimes, they get away with all of this now because they can buy out half the police in a second, they surely have the money to do so but once Mr. Jeon becomes a public figure, a governor and the corruption goes public, how will they hide then?โย
โAnd what about his son?โ
โWhat about him?โ
There was silence whilst you and Yoongi stared at each other, his eyes were defiant and yours faltered under his glare.
โJungkook won't think twice to retaliate if his family is threatened, even if you are his wifeโ his eyes stared into you menacingly, as if taunting you and you couldnโt help but feel uncomfortable โDo you think yourself capable of ending his life If given the opportunity?โ
The question sat heavy in your mind. Would you? A part of you wanted to eagerly say yes, to assure Yoongi that he didnโt have anything to worry about, that Jungkook was a criminal, the person behind all your suffering but you hesitated to respond, unable to find the words to agree, why couldnโt you agree?
Yoongi lowered his gaze and cleared his throat, masking his discomfort with a chuckle.
โI guess we will have to seeโ he breathed then his eyes trailed back to yours โJust know I will be capable of that and much more Y/n and I hope that this doesnโt turn us into enemies down the line.โ
In that moment you donโt understand his words, he was your ally. Why would you become an enemy if he were to come for Jungkook but if your silence was a demonstration of anything it was that you didnโt know the answer to that question, and it only conflicted you further and it permitted Yoongi to wither in doubt.
โI've set up a meeting with some people I want you to meetโ Yoongi quickly changed the subject, allowing you to take a breath despite all the tension.
โThey are individuals who have wanted to come after the Jeons for a while and are willing to offer us their resources, I hope you can find a way to make it to this meeting, I think it will be very importantโ Yoongi continued, pacing around the large office.
Would these men be dangerous like him?
โUhm yeah just let me know the time and place and I'll be thereโ you spoke confidently, holding back the knot in your throat.
โdonโt worry this time I'll take down your phone numberโ Yoongi promised, a small laugh falling from his lips.
โOh, so no more abrupt kidnappings in order to see me?โ you challenged.
Yoongi smirked and his eyes flashed with a certain darkness you couldnโt describe; it made chills go down your spine and you felt yourself shrinking under his gaze.
โdonโt tempt meโ he muttered.
โHave you ever shot a gun?โ Yoongi followed up, approaching you once again.
A gun? This man had a way of fucking with your composure and you hated it. ย
You shook your head slowly, eyes beaming at Yoongi as he reached behind his back and pulled out a gun from his waistband, the black weapon glistened under the sunlight as he held it out in his palm. Yoongi admired it as if it was a piece of art while your body trembled in its presence and then everything came back to you and the bravery that the whiskey had given you soon disappeared.
The man who was standing before you was dangerous.ย
You were standing in Yoongiโs home with his men and no protection. In the middle of the woods where no one could hear you, where no one could save you. If he shot you right now who would come to rescue you, who would mourn you?
You were alone.
โThis is a Glock 17; Itโs low weight and has a magazine capacity of 17 rounds.โ
Yoongi reached for your hand and laid the gun there, but you didnโt try to grasp it, letting it sit there as you struggled to rip your eyes away from it. You had never seen one in person before, much less held one in your hand. It was heavy and cold against your skin, and you couldnโt stop your throat from going dry.
โI'll teach you how to use it,โ he said, and your eyes trailed back to his.
โSo that you can protect yourself, even from me.โ
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am i okay? no lmao, heres too many jungkook fics main masterlist
dextrocardia | cop!jk x f detective!reader, undercover cops, fake marriage, e2l au, [a] [f] [s], ongoing
โณ dextrocardia. Originally a medical term, but also a way to describe someone whoโs got their heart in the right place.
โSheโs been moved to another operation to help out. This pairing is necessary because youโll be undercover as spouses. I know you two can be professional about this.โ
โWhat?!โ Itโs Jeonggukโs upset voice that sounds, and for once, you share his displeased opinion.
01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08, 09, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17
between takes | porn star!jk x f fluffer!reader, porn star au, [f] [a] [s] complete โ๏ธ
01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07
โณ as a fluffer for a popular porn star, your focus is to keep him hard and performing on set. turns out heโs not the only thing thatโs hard.
drown for youย |ย siren!jk x f reader, sci-fi, merman/siren au, [f] [a] [s] ongoing
โณ there was something in that enormous tank, hidden in the murky water. all you knew was that you werenโt allowed inside the room and that it used to hold something dangerous.
evolution of a loverโs heart | fuckboy!jk x f reader, college au, bet au, [f] [a] [s], complete โ๏ธ
โณ the rules are simple: first one to take the virginity wins.ย
part one: the lover 01, 02ย
part two: the beloved 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08
drabbles (on patreon): piercings, accidents, โฆ
to tame a god | alpha!jk x f reader, werewolf au, [f] [a] [s], complete โ๏ธ
โณ jeon jeongguk is the youngest alpha his pack has ever seen, and they all trust him with their lives. one day, a strange wolf enters his territory. they know itโs not a regular wolf because just like their own, its eyes shine with the supernatural powers from within. but it wonโt shift back to its human form to reveal its intentions.
(preview) ย 01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06
brown-eyed baby | single dad/dilf!jk x f reader, exes2lovers au, [f] [a] [s], complete โ๏ธ
โณ a lost child at the mall, eyes from a different time.
01, 02
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summer nights and morning dewย | alpha!jk x f knitter!reader, cottagecore, oldentimes au, [f], [a], 11k
โณ โAs if we donโt know where you go every night.โ
young spy | spy!jk x reader, mafia au, [a] [f], 11.6k
โณ three down, many to go as bad men are meeting their deaths tonight. the brown-haired one, whoโs next in line, has given up his fight. will you make it in time?
wherever there is you | jk x reader, marriage au, [a] [f], 4.6k
โณ anniversary. dinner for two, yet youโre alone. you donโt know where he is.
what money can buy | sugar baby!jk x rich!reader, [f] [a], 17.8k
โณ in need of money, jeongguk signs up as a sugar baby, assuming heโll be paid for sex by some old kinky woman. he never expected to meet someone like you. what were you doing on that site, and why would you have to pay for company?
deal | demon!jk x reader, [a] [s] [f], 19.5k
โณ what do you do when your teenage brotherโs cancer is too far gone? well, you summon a cocky crossroad demon to make a deal; your life for Taehyungโs.
dear stranger | ex-firefighter!jk x reader, [f], 3k
โณ lucky you, getting stuck in an elevator, your worst nightmare come to life. lucky you, getting stuck with a stranger.
love you, crazy | boyfriend!jk x reader, [s] [f], 3.1k
โณ โI wish you would write a fic where jungkook wants to get off but youโre not available (for whatever reason) and he gets off by himself.โ
or, youโre at a party with a coworker who has the hots for your boyfriend. Jeongguk decides to put an end to her comments once and for all, and he does it throughโฆ facetime?
bad delivery | bad boy, delivery guy!jk x reader [c]
โณ โI wish you would write a fic about delivery boy jungkook who everyone thinks is a cool baddie for riding a motorcycle around but itโs a company bike, and heโs just a shy nerd that wears lots of black.โ
hell, overtakenย | devil!jk x f angel!reader, [s] [a], 251 words
โณ how did an angel conquer hell?
cunning affairs | jeon jungkook
summary: youโre his best friend, sure youโre a bitch 95% of the time and you have absolutely no empathy but he loves you and youโre nice to him
warnings: smut, shy Jungkook, college au, sub!jungkook, female!reader, mentions of partying, drinking, smoking weed, humiliation kink, praise kink, virgin koo, heโs got a schlon, degradation, face sitting, riding, biting, hickies, FRIENDS TO LOVERS, READER IS A BITCH, mean girl x shy boy trope, mentions of past relationships, mentions of cheating, PORN WITH PLOT, needy kook, non protective sex, oral sex (both receiving), masturbation, jealousy, possessiveness, READER CUSSES A LOT, manipulative, tit play, JUNGKOOK LOVES BOOBS, cunnilingus
- You woke up, horrible hangover. You couldnโt even remember how many shots you had taken. You spent more time getting drinks than actually enjoying the party. It was around noon when you finally woke up. Jungkookโs bed feeling extra cozy today as you struggled to get up. You could hear people talking from beyond the door and it was driving you insane. Grumpily, you got up from bed โ too fast might you add โ you wore an old shirt of Jungkookโs and you looked in his drawer for some socks. You went to his bathroom, grabbing your extra toothbrush and brushing your morning breath away.
โSleeping Beauty is awake,โ Yoongi chuckled. You gave him your middle finger, throwing yourself on the couch carelessly. Jungkook was a huge fucking weeb and gamer. Him and his lame ass friends you surrounded yourself with. It had been just your friendship with Taehyung for a long time, and it was fine that way, until you met Jungkook. He was unbelievably shy at first, he still is sometimes, but he introduced you to some of his Comp Sci nerd friends and Taehyung liked them too much to not become friends with them.
You watched as Taehyung, Jimin, and Jungkook played some video game on the tv in the living room. You pushed your legs onto Yoongiโs lap, barely acknowledging Namjoon and Jin as they prepared an order of pizza on their phone. You played with Jungkookโs hair mindlessly as he sat just below you on the floor. He even leaned his head back every now and then whenever youโd slow down or completely stop. โSomebody set me up on a date with one your weeb friends,โ you sighed, pulling your hand away as you sat up, โOr somebody who could give me a good dicking.โ
โIโm right here just say the words,โ Jimin chuckled. You rolled your eyes, โArenโt you sleeping with that stupid hag?โ He shrugged, โYeah what about it? I think sheโs going broke or something. This month she paid me like two hundred less.โ
โSleep with Jungkook,โ Jin shrugged, โWe all know damn well he needs some good cooch in his life. Or cooch in general, isnโt that right?โ It wasnโt a secret that Jungkook was a virgin. The boy couldnโt even talk to you without stuttering let alone somebody he was actually interested in. The boys teased him a lot about it. You carressed the side of his face, โKook wouldnโt be able to handle me for his first time. Isnโt that right Kookie? Iโd break him.โ He looked up, big doe eyes staring at you. He cleared his throat, snapping his eyes back to the screen in front of him. Your relationship with Jungkook was strictly platonic. He was an easy person to talk to and very comforting. You werenโt exactly sure why he liked being your friend, considering heโs a sensitive boyโbut he claimed you were nice, to him at least.
You ended up leaving his place, heading back to your place. You were lucky enough that your best friend lived a few doors down from you. You werenโt sure what youโd do without her near. You let yourself in, paying no mind to the naked guy on her couch. He looked to you for a moment, cheeks turning beet red as you let yourself into her fridge. โWhen did you get here?โ Your friend, Mina, came out from her bedroom wearing nothing but her undergarments. She sat on the guyโs lap. โLike two seconds ago. Do you have cereal?โ You asked pulling the milk out. You havenโt had the chance to go grocery shopping yet. โLucky Charms,โ Mina turned to the guy, kissing his jaw lightly.
It was late again. You hadnโt bothered texting Jungkook or the others at all. You had a bad hangover and you just wanted to be in bed. You wouldโve gladly stayed in Jungkookโs room if it werenโt for them being so loud in the living room. He had sent you a text.
kook๐ฐ: can i come over?
you: idkkkkk. why? you miss me?
kook๐ฐ: yes :( I gotta talk to u
you: did you get a girl preg or sum?
kook๐ฐ: stopppp open up im here
You let out a sigh, it was dark out already and tomorrow was Sunday but you didnโt want to do anything tonight. Your roommate just got here too, and knowing her lazy ass she was probably in the living room pigging out. You didnโt bother glancing at her as you made your way to the door, opening it to find him waiting out there.
โHey Jungkook!โ Your roommate, Yeaun, smiled. You rolled your eyes, grabbing his hand as you pulled him behind you, โDonโt talk to him.โ You hated her. She was an acquaintance of your ex, and she knew he was cheating but never said anything. The only reason you two still lived together was because neither one of you were going to pay to terminate the lease. โSheโs so nice,โ Jungkook smiled as he closed the door behind himself watching as you jumped onto your bed. You rolled your eyes, โIf sheโs so nice why donโt you go out there with her?โ
He shook his head, laying down next to you, โDonโt wanna.โ You sighed, hand going to play with his hair, he leaned into your touch, โThen what do you want?โ He dug his face into the covers, mumbling. โSpeak clearly Kook or get out.โ He whined, lifting his head up, โThereโs this girl I like. And I wanna ask her out but I donโt know how.โ
โSay โHey, will you suck my dick?โ And if she says no itโs not meant to be.โ His cheeks turned a light shade of pink, โIโm being serious.โ You let your phone rest on your chest, waiting for a text back from Mina. โWell that depends, who is she? Is she a weeb like you? If so Iโm not helping some otakus get laid.โ You teased him, he rolled his eyes at you, โStop seriously, I just need your help. We have Psych together and sheโs super nice, you might know her, Kang Jisoo?โ
You let out a laugh, not meaning for it to come out so harsh but it slipped, โOh god the weirdo? You like Ugly Betty? Iconic. Didnโt take her as your type.โ He sighed, pushing himself off your bed, โTaehyung was right, I shouldnโt have asked you for help.โ
โIโm just playing donโt get your panties in a twist,โ you chuckled, still barely able to hold in your laughter. There wasnโt anything wrong with Jisoo actuallt. She was just boring to look at or to talk to, or to sit next to. There was literally nothing special about her. Her glasses too big for her face. Her hair always had a greasy shine to it like the girl didnโt know what a shower was. And she had a nasally voice that drove you and Taehyung insane in Advanced Composition. And she was a know-it-all. A Hermione Granger but a thousand times worse than your Wizarding World queen. โUm first of all, just be upfront and ask her out the normal way. Itโs not hard, youโre hot sheโll say yes,โ you shrugged.
It was hard to take you seriously. If you werenโt being bitchy you were being sarcastic. It was hard to find the line between you being serious and not since you treated everything like a joke. You and Tae sat in Advanced Composition. Lucky enough for you, Jisoo was currently going on about some TedTalk she had seen about the effects of technology in a classroom. Her and the Professor were going back and forth. โIโd so do Professor Lee,โ you told him eyefucking the man mentioned. He was young, radiated Dead Poets Society energy. โYouโd fuck anything,โ Tae said, brows furrowed as he listened to what Jisoo was saying, โIโm surprised Jungkook told you that he was attracted to someone.โ
โWhy are you surprised?โ The professorโs eyes landed on you for a moment and you were two seconds away from jumping down your row to suck his dick.
He sighed, โWell because youโre made for each other. I figured youโd be mad or heโd be too nervous to tell you. You know the guy doesnโt do anything that you wouldnโt like.โ You chuckled quietly, โThatโs stupid. I love Jungkook, I seriously do but letโs be honest. If him and I were together in that way Iโd make him cry.โ
It was lunch, you sat in the lunchroom with the boys and Mina. You and Mina were talking about all the things youโd let Professor Lee do to you. Personally you wouldnโt mind if he bent you over someoneโs desk and manhandled you. She preferred to let him take her in the backseat of a car. โYouโre gross,โ Jungkook scrunched his nose in disgust, โHeโs a teacher.โ You rolled your eyes, โYouโve never had a teacher x student fantasy? Try it with Jisoo, maybe she can be your librarian.โ
โStop,โ he whined, gripping the hem of your shirt from the back. You pinched his cheek playfully, โAw okay, my little Kookie.โ He winced, looking to Jimin who smiled from across the table, โJisoo just got here. If youโre going to ask her to hang out tonight you better go do it now.โ
โI canโt,โ he looked to her, twiddling his fingers nervously, โWhat if she says no?โ Mina sighed, โWhat are we doing tonight?โ You pushed Jungkook out of his seat, โHurry up before I tell her you said her cootie cat smells like ham.โ He looked back to you, brows knitted together as he stumbled out of the chair. Taehyung shrugged, โJungkook wants us over at his place so he feels more comfortable when she comes over. You guys should come, bring beer too.โ
It was actually a surprise when Jungkook said she was at the door. You seriously thought she wouldnโt show up, but there she was backpack in hand and textbooks. โOh... I donโt know why I brought my backpack,โ she blushed looking behind Jungkook at the group of people. โJisoo you know them all right? Thatโs Taehyung, Jimin, Jin, Yoongi, Namjoon, Mina and Y/n. Come in.โ
The girl wasnโt that bad, you couldnโt lie and say she was. She was just boring and watching her and Jungkook talk to each other was like watching a shitty Hallmark production. โY/n, question, you dated Hoseok right?โ Jisoo asked, looking to you as you and Mina were focused on taking selfieโs to send to whatever guy was snap chatting you. You stiffened for a moment, โUh yeah, why?โ
โHeโs dating my friend right now, I just wanted to know if he was a nice guy,โ Jisoo shrugged looking back down to where heโd and Jungkook had been playing some video game together. Tae put his hand on your knee, mouthing easy tiger. You forced a smile, โThe nicest guy youโll ever meet.โ
โThatโs good. I donโt want him to hurt Jina, sheโs too nice for that.โ
โSo should only people who arenโt nice be hurt then?โ You asked, head tilting to the side. Taehyungโs grip on your knee tightened. She shook her head not picking up on your tone, โNo. Not like that at all. Iโm just saying, Jina is too sensitive for that stuff. She gets hurt easily and she has good intentions so I donโt want Hoseok to break her heart.โ
You chuckled, typing away on your phone, โJinaโs a fucking cunt so I hope Hoseok breaks that little heart of hers.โ It fell quiet. Jisooโs eyes lingering on yours. You arched a brow, urging her to say something. Jungkook looked to you, eyes begging to stop. And that was only going to fuel your anger. Because Jungkook knew exactly what Jina did to you and he was looking to you like you were the one in the wrong when Jisoo was the one to bring the guy up in the first place. โWhat?โ Jisoo asked, head tilting to the side. You rolled your eyes, pushing Minaโs legs off your lap, โIโm gonna go get drunk or something.โ
You didnโt see Jisoo again up close until Friday night. Taehyung had his arm around your shoulders as she walked in behind Jungkook. They both looked unbelievably out of element. Jungkook never came to parties unless with you so you wanted to know if he was shitting bricks yet. โPlay nice kitten,โ Yoongi poked your nose when he found them walking in. You rolled your eyes, tilting your cup back and letting the alcohol burn down your throat. You almost choked, eyes widening as you found the couple behind them two. You could feel your nostrils flare up. In walked Hoseok looking as confident as ever with his girlfriend on his arm. Or, correcting your terms โin walked the cheating son of a bitch and the side chickโ. Two months. Thatโs how long ago your breakup with him was. Two years with him and seven months of your relationship was spent with him sleeping with Jina behind your back. You wouldโve noticed it sooner if you were so lovestruck by the first guy you ever fell in love. If he didnโt tell you he loved you every night and slept in your bed you mightโve seen it coming. Jungkook looked uncomfortable next to them, eyes not wanting to meet yours.
Youโd never admit it, but your relationship with Hoseok was why you slowly became less empathetic. Taehyung was the first to notice since heโd known you the longest. At first you werenโt the nicest but still manageable, but the man would gaslight the fuck out of you. Making you believe that everything was in your head and that if you would fight it was your fault. Then he blamed you when you found out he was sleeping with Jina. โWell if you were nicer to me I wouldnโt have donโt it.โ โYouโre crazy, Iโm not sleeping with anyone else, why? Are you cheating on me? Is that why you want to think Iโm cheating on you so bad?โ
โHeโโ you didnโt give Jungkook a chance to speak to you. The others had left but he came to you. You walked off to get another drink, him trailing after you like a puppy. โPlease donโt be mad at me.โ โI didnโt know she invited them.โ You ignored him, feeling a small shot cup with Bacardi and taking it straight. He didnโt give up until you left to play Beer pong with Joon, Jin, and Tae. From the corner of your eye you could see him and Jisoo laughing happily and Jisoo making Hoseok and him talk. He would laugh with him too.
โWhyโd you call Jina a cunt? What did you tell Jisoo?โ You laughed, pouring yourself another drink when Hobi came up next to you. You didnโt say anything, adding a drop of soda to your Vodka before chugging it. โStop drinking and answer me. She didnโt do anything to you, it was me.โ โNo it was both of you,โ you finished the rest down, wincing at the taste for a moment, โYou for being a cheater and her for knowing you were in a relationship and still choosing to fuck you. So, did I really lie? Or is she actually a cunt?โ
โAnd you think youโre a saint or something?โ Hoseok asked snatching the bottle out of your hands, โIf you werenโt such a fucking alcoholic weโd still be together but you had to go and fuck around. Whatโd you expect? Iโd just watch you ruin yourself and not fall for anyone?โ
โIs that the excuse youโre using now? I thought you cheated because I was mean,โ you chuckled, โOr no you said because I was too nice. No, because I didnโt give you enough attention. Wait that doesnโt sound right, you said it was because I wouldnโt party with you. But now itโs because I drink?โ
โYouโre still on that?โ Another voice piped in. You rolled your eyes, Jinaโs voice filling you ears. At one point you thought she your friend too. Youโd study together and text often, sometimes hanging out to shop, but clearly she was just trying to get closer to Hobi. โLook, leave it in the past if youโre over him let it go.โ You ignored her, filling your cup once again.
โOr are you just mad that Jisoo is fucking Jungkook?โ She added. To that you had to laugh. First of all, nobody was fucking Jungkook but you werenโt going to say that. The two had barely started talking a couple weeks ago and he was still a fat virgin. โY/n,โ Jungkook called for you, Jisoo on his arm. โJust admit that youโre bitter because nobody wants you,โ Jina said, you could hear Jisoo snicker behind you.
Taehyung had heard. He was coming as fast as he could before it escalated any further. But by the time he got there, the damage had been done. Your drink covered Jina from head to toe, the cup resting on the top of her head. โGet out,โ he told the group, looking to Jungkook with hard eyes. You didnโt expect Jungkook to follow them out, but you let it be. He mustโve liked Jisoo a lot to go after her, or maybe he was tired of you too, you didnโt care. You spent the night hooking with someone else anyway to fuck the night out of you.
- You ignored his texts for a whole month. Not letting him hang out with you. You didnโt even look to Jisoo once or bother asking the others to hang out. You hung out with Mina, occasionally sparking conversation with whoever she was fucking while she was showering. They were boring to say the least. You didnโt eat in the lunchroom and you didnโt bother sitting near him during class. You could see him wanting to talk to you but he never did.
It was Saturday night. You didnโt go out surprisingly. There was knocking on your door, and you opened it assuming it was some guy who forgot his keys in your room. But it was Jungkook, hair a mess and eyes red. โPlease let me in.โ โNo.โ You could hear him sniffling, a tear falling, โI canโt take you being mad at me anymore.โ
โIโm not mad Jungkook, you chose your side,โ you shrugged moving to the side so he could cry his eyes out away from your nosy ass neighbors. He shook his head, โNo. No thatโs not right.โ
โDonโt fucking lie to me,โ your finger pushed against his chest, โI saw you walk out with them at Taeโs party.โ He shook his head again, โI only did it to tell her I didnโt want to see her anymore.โ You rolled your eyes watching as he full on cried in front of you like the pussy he was, โShe tried telling me that you were mean and a bitch and I told her to shut up. I told her that you were the nicest person ever and that Hoseok was a dick for treating you like shit and that Jina was a cunt.โ
You laughed dryly, lightly pushing his shoulder back, โAnd you expect me to believe you of all people said that? Please Jungkook everyone knows you donโt have a spine.โ He nodded reaching for you but you moved away, โI did! I tried telling Taehyung because you were closest to him but he wouldnโt listen either. And Yoongi hyung was mad at me too. And I couldnโt tell you because you blocked my number. And-and in class you sat so far from me. And I didnโt see you during lunch so I thought Iโd give you space but I canโt do it anymore. I miss you.โ
โShut up,โ you looked at him, his eyes watered at your slightly disgusted face, โYou are too much of a coward to say anything. Jisoo found out you were a virgin and left you huh?โ โStop!โ He yelled, brows scrunching, โStop talking about Jisoo. I didnโt even like her that much. I just thought maybe if I were to be with her youโd get jealous and want me but clearly it didnโt work out well. But she was so mean and I didnโt like her at all but I didnโt know how to tell her to leave me alone.โ
โBecause youโre a pussy.โ You ignored the part where he said he was trying to make you jealous. Realization hitting when you finally processed what he said, โYou tried making me jealous by trying to fuck the girl who is best friends with the cunt who stole my douchebag boyfriend? Yeah what a great plan Jungkook.โ
โI never wanted to sleep with her!โ He shook his head taking a step closer to her, โI wanted to sleep with you but you always said that I wouldnโt be able to handle you and thatโs why you didnโt want to sleep with me. So I thought that if I tried making you jealous with Jisoo then youโd fuck me. I mean youโd let me fuck you.โ You laughed, walking away from him, โAw, does little Jungkook want to get fucked by me? And why Jisoo of all people?โ
โBecause sheโs completely opposite of you so I wanted you to be mad that I was interested in her when you are so much better. Plus sheโs the only who likes me.โ
โGod youโre an idiot,โ you rolled your eyes making your way to your room, โYouโre hot Jungkook. You couldโve made me jealous with anybody else.โ His head lifted up, โWere you jealous?โ You shook your head, โOf course not. Iโm better than her. Sheโs just a cunt.โ He nodded his head following you into your room, โYes and sheโs mean. Youโre nice, to me at least. She was so mean to me. She got so mad when I said you were nice.โ You put your hands on his face, pulling him close for a small peck on the lips. His eyes shut, clearing his throat, โW-what?
โYou said you wanted to fuck so letโs do it,โ you shrugged going to lie on your bed. Truthfully you werenโt too mad at Jungkook. You had already told yourself that youโd forgive him when he came crying to you but you werenโt going to tell him that. โB-but, I thought you were mad at me,โ he shook his head suddenly growing nervous. You smiled, โI am, youโre going to fuck the anger out of me Kook. Maybe I was a little jealous you wanted Jisoo over me when Iโve been nothing but nice to you.โ
โI didnโt choose her over you,โ he immediately came to you, โI just wanted experience before I made a move on you.โ You laughed, hand going to play with his hair, โMake a move on me? And you think youโd be able to get that experience with Jisoo? She doesnโt know you like I do Kook.โ He nodded his head agreeing with you. โSheโd probably want you to fuck her hard on a park bench, would you be able to do that?โ
His eyes widened, โIn public?โ You had a feeling your Kookie would be a bit more submissive. Hell, the amount of times youโve seen him close to blowing his load just by cuddling you was insane. There was absolutely no way heโd be into any dom shit on his part but that didnโt mean you couldnโt play with him. To be honest youโve been waiting for the chance to. You smiled, โHave you kissed her?โ He looked down, โYes.โ โShow me.โ He looked scared, looking at you with dark eyes already looking blown out. He nodded his head, moving closer to you and softly touching your lips with his. You could feel the inexperience but you didnโt let it stop you from swiping your tongue against him until he let you devour the inside of his mouth. He was very disappointed when you began to pull away, his eyes closed and head moving forward to chase you. โLay down.โ
He did so quite quickly, rolling back until he was lying on your pillows. He looked so fucked out from a small kiss and you were ready to completely destroy him. You crawl on top of you bed, placing your hands on either side of his hips as you made your way up, watching him gulp at your cleavage close to spilling out in your tank top. You knew Jungkook was a boob guy. Hell the guy was bad at hiding it when youโd sleep over at his place and cuddle and during the night his hands would magically find their way to your chest. You leaned over him, crotch hovering just above his own as you arched your back letting your chest touch his, โYouโve been really bad Kookie, trying to make me jealous knowing damn well Iโm the only person you want to fuck.โ His mouth opened to speak but no words came out. A small gasp escaped as you lowered your head, leaving small kisses against his neck. You kissed his jaw, a whimper coming out as you applied a bit of pressure just behind his ear. His eye squeezed shut at the feelings balls fisting your sheets. You smiled, lightly biting his jaw before lifting yourself back up, โLetโs take this shirt off. I wanna see you.โ He was quick to follow your orders the second you leaned back giving him room. And, even if it wasnโt the first time youโd seen his toned stomach damn was it a sight to see, โMmm my baby is pretty.โ You let the word slip out, watching him nod his head absentmindedly as you lowered your head again this time kissing his collarbone and lightly sucking lower and lower until you were over his mound. He had amazing pecs. Your hand came up, landing on one of his buds and squeezing lightly. His back shot up, arching into your touch with a whine as you licked the other one teasingly. โDoes pretty baby like his tits played with? Would Jisoo suck on your tits like this?โ He shook hs head, mouth opening to speak but all that came out were whines. You pulled away, lightly biting the bud with you as you made work on the other side. โDo you want Jisoo to play with your tits?โ
He shook his head, โOnly you. You, mm,โ he sighed in content as your finger grazed against his stomach, lowering to where his underwear showed just above his sweats. The guy was hard, you could feel him poking you. And you were getting so turned on knowing it was because of you. You shorts stuck to your thighs, threatening to let your slick seep through them as well. You sat up, just against his groin, as you pulled your shirt over your head. He was looking at you in complete bliss as his fists clenched the sheets while you very slowly removed your bra. You let your hands trail up, taking your boobs in them, rocking for a second against him as he sighed, โKookie I want you to touch me too. You donโt want to touch me?โ โI wanna!โ He stuck his hands out, you shook your head clicking your tongue, โNuh uh. With your mouth first. I know youโve dreamt about sucking my tits. Show me that youโre a good boy. You scooted up, leaning forward and dragging your chest against his face. You could hear him gasp for air and when you looked at him Goddamn you couldโve came from just that. He looked at you, big tits pressed against his cheeks, eyes big and innocent. And then he went and did it, nudged your bud with his nose before bringing it to his mouth like a starved man. His hand came up to your abandoned breast and kneaded it gently, โSoft,โ he moaned as you flipped your hair to one shoulder watching as he seemed almost starved for your tits not able to choose which he wanted to squeeze and suck on, โLove. Love em. Love you.โ He didnโt react to his words, so you chose not to either. It was small and you were letting him suck on your tits. He was just talking out of his ass because you got him horny.
You were soaked. You needed more, but as you tried pulling away he only groaned. โBaby come on I want to make you feel good down there.โ He shook his head, closing his eyes and sucking making you let out a small whine. His ears perked up, doing it again. You had to push yourself off him to get him to let go. You shimmied down, his eyes going from your face to your chest to where you sat between his legs now. The sweat did very little to hide his erection. You smiled, hooking your finger with the underwear and sweats and pulled it down in one go. You moaned at the sight. His pretty dick sprung up smacking his lower stomach making him hiss and arch his back again. It was so pretty pale and pink with no hair and a mushroom tip. You leaned down, not thinking much as you took in the smell of his soap mouth watering at the sight. โOh my god Jungkook,โ you moaned looking at the length. If you knew your best friend was packing this monster you wouldnโt have bother fucking other guys. His hips bucked involuntarily, head thrown back as he stared at the wall, โDo something Y/n.โ You clicked your tongue again, โMaybe we should stop here. I bet Jisoo would love to have this big cock in front of her.โ
โNo!โ He bucked again, โNo donโt want Jisoo. I want you,โ he whined. You chuckled, watching as his tip reddened, vein bulging out. He huffed, โAlways wanted you.โ โReally? And when you couldnโt have me? What did you do?โ Your head tilted to the side as he looked down at you, sweat dripping off his hair, โWould you touch your virgin dick?โ He nodded his head, turning his face into the pillows as you dragged your finger against the length lightly. He moaned at that. โShow me.โ You watched as his hands trailed down, slowly rubbing his palm against the length. It was so stiff his touches made him wince. You watched closely as he palmed it gently, finger coming to separate his balls. โWhat did you think about?โ You asked watching as his free hand came to his nipple, โYou. You kissing me. Touching my dick. Sucking it.โ
โYeah? Were you in control?โ He nodded shyly making you laugh, โThen take control show me.โ He shook his head, โDonโt wanna.โ He was such a brat. You leaned forward, thigh touching his dick, he bucked toward it gently, โSpit.โ He looked down at your hand, spitting into it and watching as you spit in the other and rubbed them together, coming down to hold his cock abruptly. He let out a loud moan, back arching once against as you quickly worked him, โDid you want me to be gentle?โ He didnโt answer, too busy struggling on the mattress in ecstasy, โDo you think bad boys deserved to be treated nice? Do good boys try and make others jealous? Huh?โ
โNo,โ he shook his head eyes squeezed shut. You smirked, his mouth opened wide when you kissed the tip. Slowly easing him into your mouth you pushed his hips down to keep him from moving. He got more vocal, hands struggling to find purchase before he gripped the headboard almost screaming, โCum. Goโnna cum!โ You shook your head moaning at the taste his precum letting your tongue slide against the underside of his thick cock. You pulled up with a pop catching your breath, โNot until I say so.โ He shook his head when you went back down, stuttering.
And then he did it. Screaming your name and headboard hitting the wall as thick spurts of liquid hit your throat. You gagged making him shudder as it continued on. You swallowed every drop enjoying the bittersweet taste. Your nipples were hard. And your shorts were beginning to get uncomfortable. You hopped off the bed, watching as he struggled to catch his breath. He watched as you began to shimmy out of your shorts and ruined panties, โIโm sorry.โ You rolled your eyes, โI told you not to come.โ You almost laughed watching the small tear trail down, โNow youโre gonna watch me play with my pussy until youโre hard again and can fuck me right.โ He sighed, more tears falling. His stomach tensed as you took a seat just above where his limp dick fell. He was crying and spitting out apologies as he watched you. You slowly opened your legs, your wetness hitting his stomach making him groan. His breath became heavy watching as you groped your breasts again, hand coming down to your clit. Your rubbed gently, hand picking up the wetness to make it smoother as you rubbed yourself. โGod I need you to fuck me,โ you moaned, โLook how wet you make me Kookie.โ
โSo wet,โ he agreed licking his lips. His tears were drying, he opened his mouth watching as you touched your lips softly. You smiled bringing two fingers into his mouth watching as he sucked on them hungrily. You brought them down, teasing your entrance. You threw your head back, going for it and pushing one finger in. He watched closely, hands gripping the sheets, โHold me Kookie.โ He nodded, he squeezed your waist. One hand flying up to your chest as you played with yourself. He groaned watching your now two fingers in and out. โYouโre so big youโre not going to fit. Maybe you should fuck Jisooโs loose pussy instead.โ
He shook his head whining, โI donโt wanna! Wanna fuck you! Need to be inside you.โ You smiled looking back. His dick was slowly hardening again. You brought your free hand back to touch his dick, he shuddered immediately. You basically humped his abs, your slick creating a puddle on his stomach. โI want you to stretch me. I donโt wanna wait anymore Jungkook. Need you inside me.โ He nodded watching as you slowly slid back, pussy lips grinding and soaking his hard cock. He moaned loudly digging his head into the pillows. You smirked, slowly you reached for his dick aiming at your entrance. You had to be slow, careful not to impale yourself on his monster cock. But then he bucked his hips, and down you came loud moans falling from the both of you. It hurt, not fully adjusting but Jungkook squirming underneath you made it hard to care. You leaned forward hands against his stomach squeezing your tits as you began to rock slowly, โSo good baby. You feel so good.โ
He moaned watched your tits bounce, โMm.โ You lifted your hips, letting them fall down, his hand came up gripping your tits in large hand and squeezing. You let out a loud whine in surprise head falling forward. โI need you to be a good boy and fuck me.โ
He shook his head eyes squeezed shut. You watched as one hand gripped your big tits and the other squeezed the top of the headboard as you bounced, โFuck me hard Kookie I know you can do it.โ โDonโt wanna hurt you.โ โHurt me. Do it hard and fast or else Iโm leaving.โ
โNo!โ You yelped in surprise as his hand hit your ass, gripping you tightly. You groaned as he was quick to flip you around, hovering above you still holding the headboard. You wrapped your legs around him, hand touching his thick ass. โFuck me like you mean it.โ He shook his head, eyes not opening, โCanโt hurt you.โ
He held your waist up with his free hand, using you like a toy impaling you with his cock. You both were a moaning mess. โHarder Jungkook!โ You whined moving your hips but he didnโt let you, instead shaking his head, โDo it. Call me a slut baby.โ
You sighed trying to urge him to do more with all those muscles and fat cock of his. โFine, then Iโll go find someone else to fuck. Do you want that? When you got here I thought โ mm โ- I thought you were some guy I fucked a week ago โ-ugh,โ you threw your head back. He was still shaking no.
โThought you were the guy coming back to fuck me.โ
โShut up,โ he shouted pushing down until he collapsed on top of you. You smile watching his inexperienced hips rut against you. โThought you were the guy who was going to fuck me right.โ
โShut up,โ he repeated going harder hand coming up to your throat, โShut up. Shut up. Shut up.โ You gasped as he squeezed head shooting up to capture your mouth in his hungrily and messy. You liked it messy. โHe pulled on my hair and I called him daddy.โ
โSlut,โ he cried, against your mouth breathing like an animal, โGonna cum.โ
โAnd he made me cum first unlike you. Youโre little virgin dick canโt make me cum.โ He shook his head as you moaned, sliding out before plunging back in, โFucking slut. Slut for cock,โ he whined going harder leaving you breathless, โMy cock only.โ
You shook your head, โYou gonna cum for me baby?โ He nodded, head dipping to your tits and lying there, โCum. Need you. Cum.โ He went harder, you brought your hand down, playing with your clit so you could come with him. He whined as your finger grazed his dick. You snaked other hand around, cupping his balls and rubbing them against your folds watching as he stuttered above you.
โAh!โ He yelled, โGonna cum!โ โCum inside baby,โ he didnโt need to be told twice. Completely collapsing on top of you as he filled you up. You moaned at the feeling. He was breathing heavy, face flush against your tits too scared to pull out, โSo good.โ
The tears came back, he winced as you moved your legs from around him. He cried, โIโm sorry. Iโm sorry. Iโm sorry.โ
โFor what baby?โ
โFor trying to make you jealous. For letting them treat you like that. For not making you cum,โ he dug his face further mouth opening slightly around your mound. You were pretty sure he had an oral fixation kink. You shook your head, โDonโt worry baby, next time.โ
โNo,โ he lifted his head, โNeed you to cum now,โ he huffed clearly determined as he lowered himself face to face with you drenched pussy leaking his cum. โWhat do I do?โ โKiss it,โ your hands came up to squeeze your boobs. You let out a small mewl as his nose bumped your clit, slowly inhaling your scent mixed with his cum. You were surprised to see him so eager to kiss your pussy. He moaned at the taste going more in and letting his tongue pop out.
He was a natural sex god and he was in your bed.
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pairing: idol! jungkook x editor! reader
genre: smut, ex lovers, second chance au, angst with smut, toxic ex au
summary: You loved him before the lights, before the headlines, before he learned how to disappear.Now heโs back โ older, hotter, famous โ and this time,ย youโreย the one calling the shots. But Jeon Jungkook doesnโt do endings. Only encores.
w.c: 10k
author's note: writing and creating stories takes a lot of time, and no matter how much i love doing this and jungkook, i would love your support and feedback ๐ค
Youโve always known how to keep secrets. Itโs a requirementโthe requirementโof survival in an industry that trades on whispers, scandals, and carefully curated lies. Fashion is ruthless, a pretty monster wearing designer heels, and no one understands that better than you.
Two years of blood, sweat, and designer tears later, you've earned your throne at Vogue Korea. A glass-walled office overlooking Seoul's constellation of lights, your name etched in gold next to campaigns that make lesser editors weep with envy. You didn't just climb the ladder; you conquered it in six-inch heels.
They call you the Ice Queen of Editorial. Untouchable. Unshakeable. The woman who can stare down Korea's biggest idols without so much as a flutter of mascara-coated lashes. Your boundaries aren't just lines in the sandโthey're walls of steel and glass, keeping your personal life locked away where it belongs.
Youโve been handed the crown jewel of assignments: the exclusive BTS cover story.
The kind of story that turns editors into legends. Or ruins them completely.
โYou must be feeling the pressure,โ Hyerin teases, nudging your elbow as you both stand by the studio coffee station. โIf I had to face seven of the most beautiful men on Earth, Iโd probably collapse.โ
You smile lightly, perfectly controlled. โLuckily, fainting isnโt part of my job description.โ
Hyerin laughs, tossing her silky hair back. โYouโre seriously not nervous? Not even a little?โ
Before you can respond, another voice cuts inโcool and sharp as glass.
โY/Nโs never nervous,โ Kara says smoothly, sidling up with a carefully constructed smile. Her eyes skim over your perfectly ironed blouse, searching for any flaw she can exploit. โEven when she probably should be.โ
You meet her stare evenly. โThereโs nothing to be nervous about. Itโs just another day at work.โ
โOh, sure,โ Kara shrugs, delicately adjusting her blazer. โJust the biggest magazine cover of the year. With the biggest K-pop group in history. But youโre rightโno pressure at all.โ
You hold your tongue, refusing to give her the satisfaction of seeing you flustered. Karaโs smile widens, eyes glittering dangerously.
โDonโt worry,โ she says softly. โWeโre all rooting for you.โ
As she walks away, Hyerin gives you a sympathetic glance. โIgnore her. Sheโs just mad they picked you.โ
โSheโll get over it,โ you say calmly, taking a sip of coffee. But privately, you wonder if she ever will. Karaโs eyes feel permanently locked on your back, waiting for you to slipโand sheโd love nothing more than to watch you fall.
You breathe deeply, shaking off the brief flash of anxiety. Kara isnโt your problem today.
Your problem just walked through the studio doors.
You straighten your shoulders, lift your chin, and mask your pounding heart beneath layers of polished composure.
You feel Jungkookโs presence before you see him. Hear the chatter ripple across the set, feel the shift in the air. Turning slowly, you catch sight of him walking toward makeup, tTattooed fingers, midnight hair, confident smile charming everyone in his orbit.
He hasnโt noticed you yet, but your pulse already quickens. You havenโt been face-to-face since he vanished from your life years ago, choosing fame over what you once shared. Not even your closest colleagues know about your pastโnot Hyerin, certainly not Kara. To them, youโre the girl who can handle any celebrity without batting an eye.
But Jungkook isnโt just any celebrity. Heโs your first heartbreak. Your only weakness.
And the moment his eyes find yours across the room, his casual smile fading into something raw and hungry, you realize secrets never stay hidden forever.
Not when every glance he sends your way feels like a promiseโEncore. Weโre not done yet.
Your breath catches painfully in your throat, stomach twisting into a knot so tight it leaves you dizzy. For all your polished composure, the sight of Jungkook still manages to unravel you like loose threads on a designer gown.
Seeing him again feels like reopening a wound you spent years pretending had healed. It floods you with memories you'd promised yourself to forgetโquiet nights tangled in sheets, whispered promises that felt unbreakable, how he used to hold you as if you were the most precious thing heโd ever touched.
But then came the silence. Slow at first, then deafening. A text left unread, calls unanswered. You waited like a fool, convinced something must've happened, sure heโd reach out again and say everything was fine. But days turned into weeks, then months, and eventually you stopped countingโstopped waiting.
He'd left you in a silence louder than any goodbye could've been.
It still haunts you, that hollow uncertainty. All those unanswered questions, the ache of wondering why you hadn't been enoughโwhy something that had been your entire world had apparently meant so little to him.
Even now, standing across a crowded room from him, you feel nineteen again, confused and heartbroken, questioning yourself: Was it you? Was it fame? Or was he just that good at faking forever?
Your hands tremble slightly, and you quickly clasp them behind your back, steadying your breath, forcing your expression back into neutrality. You are not that girl anymore. You're not nineteen, naive and waiting.
You're the woman who clawed her way up the ladder, who built herself from the ground up, and who refuses to be unraveled by Jeon Jungkook ever again.
Yet, as his gaze locks onto yours and his expression shiftsโsomething fragile breaking beneath the confident maskโyou realize you might not have a choice.
Your hands tremble slightly, and you quickly clasp them behind your back, steadying your breath, forcing your expression back into neutrality. You are not that girl anymore. You're not nineteen, naive and waiting.
You're the woman who clawed her way up the ladder, who built herself from the ground up, and who refuses to be unraveled by Jeon Jungkook ever again.
You grit your teeth, straightening your posture defiantly. No, you're not going to fall apart because he decided to show up now, years later. It doesnโt matter how familiar his gaze still feels, or how your stomach flips traitorously when his eyes linger a second too long. Itโs just shock, you reason. The surprise of seeing someone from your past. He means nothing now. He canโt mean anythingโnot after he left you drowning in unanswered questions.
And yet, as his gaze locks onto yours and his expression shiftsโsomething fragile breaking beneath the confident maskโyou shove down the dangerous impulse fluttering inside you.
Because you wonโt allow it. Not today. Not ever.
But Jungkook tilts his head slightly, eyes darkening with an intensity you know too well, and you feel your carefully constructed resolve begin to tremble at the edges.
It doesnโt matter, you remind yourself harshly. Youโll never make the same mistake twice. Not for Jungkook. Not for anyone.
Still, the moment he takes a step toward you, your heart skipsโjust once.
And you hate yourself for it.
And itโs terrifying how much your body still reacts, how tightly your stomach knots, how you feel yourself leaning backward without meaning to. You donโt even realize youโve stopped breathing.
But just before he can get closerโ
โJungkook! Manager wants you in the briefing room, now!โ
The shout cuts across the set, snapping him back to reality.
He hesitates. A small shift of weight. A flicker of something unreadable in his eyes. Then he turns, walking toward the exit without another glance.
You make yourself go still, expression smooth, breath finally releasing.
Heโs gone again.
And you hate how that emptiness still lingers in the space he almost crossed.
The studio smelled like caffeine, expensive cologne, and urgency.
Light rigs hummed above, shifting shadows across white backdrops. Stylists darted like bees between racks of designer coats and racks of idols. The floor was a mosaic of garment bags, wires, coffee cups, and carefully controlled chaos.
And you were in the eye of the storm.
Clipboards. Checklists. The shoot brief folded neatly in your tote, annotated with sharp red edits. Youโd been here since seven. Confirming the team, adjusting the timeline after a last-minute delivery delay, nodding politely through the photographerโs temper tantrum over lighting angles.
Professional. Polished. In control.
Just like always.
โIโll need the group on set in twenty,โ you told Hyerin as you skimmed the latest schedule, your voice calm despite the pressure gnawing at your ribs. โCan we get final approval on the beige Balenciaga set for the third look? The stylistโs still undecided.โ
Hyerin nodded, phone already raised to send the message.
And thenโ
A ripple in the room. Nothing visible at first. Just a shift. The kind that presses into your skin before you understand whatโs happening. Like the barometric pressure dropping before a storm.
You didnโt have to turn. You knew.
BTS had arrived. This time, fully.
Voices lifted across the space. Polite bows, excited murmurs, stylists practically vibrating. You focused on your clipboard, eyes locked on the line that read: Group cover, final set โ standing profile + seated variation.
You could feel it before you saw him. Like a magnet realigning in your chest.
Jeon Jungkook.
He wasnโt supposed to matter. Not anymore. Not here.
You glanced up onceโonly for a secondโand there he was.
Dark hair, slightly damp. A black oversized tee clinging to his frame like it had no choice. Tattoos curling down his arm like vines. He was talking to one of the stylists, something easy in his body, but thenโ
His eyes found yours. Again.ย
And froze. As if the moment before seemed unbelievable to him, and now he got a confirmation that it was truly you who he saw before.
For one suspended moment, the studio blurred. Sound dulled. All you could hear was the low pulse in your ears, thudding like memory. His gaze didnโt flicker. Didnโt flinch.
It lingered.
You turned away first.
Professional, you reminded yourself. You could breathe later.
Behind you, a quiet voice laced with syrup and venom sliced through the air. โWell, donโt you look composed.โ
Kara.
You didnโt bother turning. Her heels clicked as she approached, each step full of intention.
โIโd be shaking,โ she continued, feigning casual amusement. โIf he looked at me like that.โ
Your clipboard didnโt move.
โI donโt mix work with fantasy,โ you said coolly.
Kara laughed, bright and biting. โRight. Of course. Youโre very composed.โ
Before you could answer, the studio door opened wider, and the rest of the crew flooded in behind the members. Lights adjusted. Cables plugged. The moment passed.
But your stomach? Still twisted.
You didnโt have time for this. Not the memories. Not the questions. Not the way your breath still stumbled just because he was in the same room.
You walked across the set with quick, clean steps, addressing the camera assistant. You didnโt look at him again.
You didnโt need to.
Because suddenly, he was walking toward you.
You caught it in your peripheralโthe blur of black, the low timbre of his voice as he murmured a polite greeting to the stylist he passed. He was smiling, charming, textbook idol.
But he was walking toward you.
And you didnโt move.
Behind him, Taehyung tilted his head, brows subtly furrowing.
โWhereโs he going?โ he murmured to Jimin, his voice low enough not to carry.
Jimin looked up from his water bottle, following the path of Jungkookโs steps.
โWho is thatโโ He paused. Squinted.
His expression shifted slowly.
โNo way,โ he muttered. โIs thatโฆ Y/N?โ
Taehyungโs eyes narrowed as he got a better look.
โDamn,โ he said under his breath. โShe really changed.โ
โShe doesnโt look like a college student anymore,โ Jimin added, then whistled low. โShe looks like sheโd step on your throat for blinking at the wrong moment.โ
Taehyung snorted. โAnd Jungkookโs walking straight toward her like itโs nothing.โ
Jiminโs smile faded a little. โItโs not nothing.โ
They exchanged a glance.
One of quiet recognition.
One that said: This is going to get complicated.
Jungkook stopped just close enough for it to be plausible. Two colleagues. Two professionals. A friendly exchange in the middle of a crowded set.
But you felt the heat of him at your side. The static in the air between your bodies. The weight of five years in the space between his next breath and your silence.
โDidnโt expect to see you here,โ he said.
His voice was lower now. Smooth, familiar. Dangerous.
You kept your eyes on the call sheet in your hands.
โThen maybe you shouldโve read your shoot brief.โ
He let out a quiet, amused exhale. โGuess I was distracted.โ
You finally turned to face him, slow and deliberate.
He looked at you like you were a memory he wanted to taste again. And you hated how much you felt it in your knees.
โStill pretending I donโt exist?โ he asked softly.
You smiledโpolite, cold.
โYouโre not that hard to ignore.โ
He tilted his head, amused. โYou used to say I was impossible to forget.โ
You didnโt blink. โPeople change.โ
Something flickered behind his eyes. The smile dimmed, only slightly.
And you hated that it made your chest ache.
โYeah,โ he said quietly. โThey do.โ
You stepped back first. Not because you were retreatingโbut because if you stayed, youโd say something youโd regret.
โWeโre about to start,โ you said, voice crisp. โPlease get into wardrobe.โ
He didnโt argue. But his gaze lingered like the brush of fingers on skinโsomething remembered. Something unfinished.
You turned on your heel and walked away.
And behind you, Jungkook watched like he was seeing something he thought he'd lost forever.
You walk with your back straight, spine stiff, each click of your heels against the polished floor louder than the last. The studio spins in a blur around youโshutters firing, stylists buzzing, interns darting pastโbut your body moves like itโs on autopilot.
You donโt look back.
You donโt need to see him to feel the weight of his stare still pressing into your skin, hot and searching. Your lungs burn quietly, your heart hammering beneath the silk of your blouse in a rhythm that doesnโt belong to a woman in control.
You handled that well, you tell yourself. He didnโt rattle you. Not really. It was nothingโjust a greeting. Just a ghost in designer boots. You didnโt flinch.
But your fingers still tremble as you slide the clipboard into your bag. And his scentโfaint on the air, sandalwood and heatโlingers like a bruise.
That voice. That voice you used to fall asleep to.
He said so little, but it was too much. Too soft. Too knowing. Too close to the edge of the past you buried under ambition and late-night edits and deadlines that couldnโt be missed. A past that still knows exactly how to make your mouth dry and your pulse quicken.
You exhale through your nose, slow and tight, pressing your thumb into your palm until it stings.
This isnโt college. This isnโt your bedroom at 3 a.m. waiting for his text. You are not that girl anymore.
And he doesnโt get to reach into your life now just because he remembered how to say your name.
Across the studio, a pair of eyes followed your every step.
Kara leaned against a lighting rig, one arm crossed lazily over her chest, a paper cup of overpriced coffee in hand. She wasnโt watching the shoot, not really. Her gaze was fixed on youโyour clenched jaw, your too-smooth posture, the slight tremble in your fingers as you adjusted your sleeve.
Her lips curled just barely at the edges.
She didnโt say anything. She didnโt have to.
She just sipped her coffee and tilted her head thoughtfully, like a girl already collecting dots to connect.
And when her eyes flicked over to Jungkook, now slipping into wardrobe, and then back to youโ
Something in her expression sharpened.
She had nothing solid. Not yet.
But Kara had always known how to smell blood long before the wound appeared.
The shoot was already in full swing by the time you were called in.
High-key lighting flared against the matte white backdrop as the photographer directed the rest of the group into place. Jungkook hadnโt shot his solos yet โ heโd been saved for last, as if they all knew the best tension builds slowly.
You were reviewing proofs on a monitor when the stylist approached you, breathless and mid-hustle.
โSorry, Y/Nโcan you approve the jewelry for Jungkookโs third look? Weโve got the options prepped, but he wants to wear the chain without layering.โ She didn't wait for a full answer, already turning back. โHeโs in the fitting room.โ
You donโt hesitate. Donโt sigh. You just nod once and follow, clipboard in hand, pulse tucked neatly beneath your professionalism.
Itโs just another detail. Another decision. Youโve approved a hundred accessories today already.
But you havenโt approved him.
The fitting area isnโt private. Just a curtained nook off the main set, half-lit by dressing bulbs and cluttered with half-dressed mannequins and hangers heavy with sponsored silk.
And heโs there when you slip inside. Shirtless.
Silver chain dangling from his fingers, tattoos curling down his arm like they belong to a different man than the boy you once knew.
He looks over his shoulder the moment he hears you enter. His lips curve slowly, like this is a scene heโs played in his head a thousand times already.
โOh,โ he says. โThey sent you.โ
You donโt react. Youโre too tired for games and too exposed for softness.
โOnly because the chain needs editorial sign-off,โ you say coolly.
He turns to face you fully, unhurried. Like the air between you isnโt thick enough to choke on.
โThen by all means,โ he murmurs, offering the necklace like a dare, โapprove me.โ
You step forward without flinching, though every part of you wants to be somewhereโanywhereโelse. The chain is cool in your palm. His hand is warm. The heat of his body radiates as you move into his space, standing just close enough to clasp the piece around his bare neck.
His skin smells like cologne and memory. Like summer and sweat and one a.m. phone calls youโll never get back.
You keep your eyes down. Your fingers are steady as you drape the chain across his collarbones, lock it into place behind his neck.
He watches you in the mirror. Doesnโt blink.
โStill pretending I donโt affect you?โ he asks, low enough that no one outside this curtain will ever hear.
You donโt look at him. Donโt let him win.
โYouโre not that hard to ignore.โ
He laughs, soft and sharp. It brushes the side of your cheek like smoke.
โLiar.โ
You step back. One clean motion. No hesitation.
Your eyes scan the chain against his chest. Simple. Effective. Professional.
โIt works,โ you say.
Heโs still looking at you. Not with smugness now, but something quieter. Studying the way your arms stay crossed. The way your voice never shakes, even when your throat does.
โYou always liked this one,โ he says, tapping the charm. โYou said it made me look dangerous.โ
โThat was a long time ago.โ
His smile shifts. โYou still look at me like itโs not.โ
You leave before you can answer. Let the curtain fall shut behind you like a closing door.
And you donโt breathe again until youโre halfway down the hallway.
The bathroom is cold and sterile and mercifully empty.
You close the door behind you, flip the lock, and let your clipboard fall to the counter with a dull clatter.
Itโs only thenโonly thenโthat your shoulders drop.
Your hands brace against the sink, breath coming out in one sharp exhale like itโs been trapped under your ribs since you walked into that fitting room. Your reflection in the mirror is still composed, still preciseโฆ but your eyes are too bright, and your skin is too warm, and the chain you touched is still clinging to your fingertips like a memory you canโt scrub off.
You run cold water, splash your wrists, press your fingers to your temples.
Get a grip.
This is work. He is work.
Youโve survived far worse than being this close to someone who once knew how to love you. Who once made you believe it would last.
Youโre not that girl anymore.
You fix your lipstick. Smooth your blouse.
By the time you unlock the door and step back into the hallway, your expression is perfect again.
As if nothing ever touched you.
The studio has thinned to a skeleton crew.
Light rigs now buzz on low. Laptops closed, garment bags zipped, coffee cups abandoned on carts. A few stylists linger in quiet conversations by the exit, voices hushed with the kind of fatigue that only comes after a perfect shot.
Youโre alone in the hallway just outside the dressing area, waiting for the final export to transfer. The hum of the hard drive beside you is the only sound. The air smells like cold metal and the ghost of sweat.
Itโs a clean ending. You did your job. No mistakes. No slips.
And yet.
You hear the footsteps before you see himโslow, deliberate, not echoing loud but close. You donโt need to turn. You already know.
โDidnโt think youโd still be here,โ Jungkook says, voice low behind you.
You glance over your shoulder. Heโs out of wardrobe now, in a simple hoodie and sweats, hair still slightly damp from styling. His tattoos are half-hidden under the sleeves, but his eyes are all sharp edge and unfinished business.
You straighten. โWaiting on a drive.โ
He nods, steps closer. Not too close. Just enough.
โThey left in a rush,โ he says. โDidnโt even say goodbye.โ
You know heโs not talking about the team.
You exhale slowly. โIt was a long day.โ
โRight.โ A pause. โYou always were good at making things efficient.โ
You turn fully now, facing him with that expression youโve perfectedโthe cool editor, the one no one questions.
โDid you need something, Jungkook?โ
His tongue rests against the inside of his cheek. He doesnโt smile.
โYeah,โ he says. โI need to know why youโre acting like we didnโt matter.โ
The words land heavy. No pretense. No smirk. Just a quiet ache, sharpened by guilt.
You blink once. Slowly.
โBecause you acted like we didnโt,โ you say.
The silence between you stretches. Presses.
You see it hit himโfull in the chest. He doesnโt argue. Doesnโt flinch.
โI didnโt know how to end it,โ he says finally. โBack then. I was selfish.โ
โYou were a coward.โ Your voice stays even, but your throat burns. โYou couldโve called. Texted. Anything. But you just disappeared.โ
โI thought it would be easier if I let you hate me.โ
You scoff, almost laugh. โEasier for who?โ
He steps closer. This time itโs too close. Close enough to smell his skin again, to feel the heat rolling off him like static. The hallway is dim now. Only emergency lights glowing soft along the floorboards.
โI still remember everything,โ he says.
Your heart stutters. You hate it.
โI remember your old apartment. That shitty mattress on the floor. How you used to cry when you couldnโt finish an article.โ He pauses, voice softening. โThe way youโd fall asleep against my chest like you belonged there.โ
You stare at him. Frozen. Your breath is stuck somewhere just below your ribs.
He leans inโjust a fraction. Not touching. But the air between your mouths is electric.
โDo you remember any of it?โ he asks, voice barely above a whisper.
You do.
Of course you do.
But you donโt give him that.
Instead, you tilt your head and say, evenly:
โYouโre five years too late.โ
You walk away before he can see the tremble in your hands.
And behind you, Jungkook doesn't call after you.
He just stands in the hallway, quiet and still, like heโs afraid of how much he still wants to follow.
The suite smells like charcoal-grilled meat and takeout beer. The shootโs over. The glamor is gone.
Theyโve all crammed into Namjoonโs apartment for a late dinner, half-unwinding, half-rehashing the chaos of the day. Yoongiโs in the corner scrolling on his phone. Jinโs talking over everyone about how the lighting made him look โunfairly youthful.โ But Jungkook hasnโt touched his food.
Heโs nursing a beer. And he hasnโt said more than a few words all night.
Taehyung notices first.
โYou good?โ he asks, lazily tossing a cushion at him from across the couch.
Jungkook doesnโt look up. โYeah.โ
Jimin lifts an eyebrow. โYouโve been zoning out since we left the studio.โ
Thereโs a beat of silence.
Then Jungkook exhales and runs a hand through his hair.
โShe was really there.โ
Jin, mid-chew, frowns. โWho?โ
Jungkook glances at the ceiling, leans back, eyes unfocused.
โY/N.โ
The name still tastes strange in his mouth.
โSheโsโฆ she was our editorial lead. For the cover.โ
Yoongi finally looks up. โSeriously?โ
โShe didnโt even flinch,โ Jungkook mutters. โLike I never existed.โ
Namjoon gives him a long look. โYou expected a welcome hug?โ
โNo,โ Jungkook says, quieter. โI donโt know what I expected. But notโฆ that.โ
He thinks of the way she stoodโstraight-backed, calm, like sheโd stripped him from her system entirely. He thinks of her voice. How carefully detached it was. Youโre five years too late.The line replays in his chest like a lyric.
โShe looked good,โ Jungkook says after a pause. โBetter than before.โ
โBetter without you,โ Yoongi says flatly.
Jungkook doesnโt reply.
Taehyung sighs, sitting up. โItโs insane that youโre surprised. You ghosted her while fucking your way through rookie girl groups.โ
โI didnโtโโ Jungkook winces. โI didnโt mean for it to happen like that.โ
โBut it did,โ Namjoon says, voice firm. โYou left her. And you never gave her a real goodbye. You just vanished.โ
Jimin shifts, arms crossed. โYou think she forgot? That she sat around waiting while you made headlines with girls you didnโt even text back?โ
โI was overwhelmed,โ Jungkook snaps, frustration leaking out. โWe were finally being notice, I was twenty, the world was on fireโโ
โAnd she was in the middle of it with you,โ Taehyung cuts in. โUntil you acted like she was a phase you could leave behind.โ
That shuts him up.
Jungkook stares at the label on his bottle. His jaw ticks.
โShe looked right through me today,โ he says quietly. โLike I never touched her. Like she doesnโt still exist in my head every fucking day.โ
Silence falls over the room.
Then Jin sighs and pats his shoulder. โWell. Maybe now you know how it felt.โ
You hold the final print like it owes you something.
Not just a paycheck. Not just another spread to fill your portfolio. But proof that you belong here.
Vogue Korea โ October Issue. The one everyone wanted to work on. And you got it.
The paper stock is matte heavyweight โ no gloss, no gimmick. The cover design minimal: just the groupโs name in clean serif and the issue title in metallic foil, whispering luxury. Echoes of the Future.
You flip through the pages like you havenโt already memorized the entire layout. But it still hits. The gravity. The precision. The power of it.
Each editorial frame is stripped to its bones โ no backdrops, no props, no distractions. Just symmetry, shadowplay, and seven of the most photographed men in the world, captured like youโve never seen them before.
Jimin in sharp Cรฉline tailoring, wet hair pushed off his forehead, lips parted like heโs about to ruin someone. Namjoon in a crisp Ferragamo overcoat and nothing underneath. Minimal styling. Maximum command. Taehyung draped in silk Givenchy, silver rings on every finger, a single brow arched like a dare. Yoongi โ Gucci and attitude. Seated. Unbothered. A king tired of his throne. Jin in a Bottega turtleneck with sculptural shoulders, the kind of silhouette only he could make feel warm. Hoseokโs frame wrapped in a monochrome Rick Owens layered set, gaze tilted away from camera โ like he knows youโre looking. And Jungkook. Front and center. Mugler suit. Bare chest. One silver chain. Wet strands falling over his brow, a half-smirk caught between innocence and provocation.
You chose that shot. Pushed for it. Itโs not about sex. Itโs about control. Power. Presence.
Thereโs no overstyling. No theatrics. Just tension. The kind that doesnโt need words.
When you close the issue and step into the elevator of the JW Marriott rooftop lounge, your reflection catches in the mirror: off-the-shoulder Alaรฏa column dress in black crepe, Louboutin heels, lips painted the exact shade of silent danger.
You look expensive. Untouchable. Editorial.
Exactly how you planned it.
The party has already started by the time you arrive โ hosted in the private event wing, high above Seoulโs skyline. Dim, golden lighting. Smooth jazz threaded with ambient house. Crystal glasses passed by silent staff in Tom Ford uniforms. Everyone here is someone.
Vogue doesnโt just launch a cover โ it celebrates it. Especially one this anticipated. Especially when the entire campaign broke engagement records before it hit print.
And when the subject is BTS? The fashion world watches. So tonight isnโt just a party. Itโs an affirmation. For the magazine. For the editorial team. For you.
You float through it with your usual ease โ nodding to the creative director from Boucheron, chatting with the head of marketing from Dior Beauty, accepting compliments on the issue from half the room without blinking.
Until someone mentions it.
โDid you hear BTS might actually show tonight?โ
You donโt flinch. Not externally.
You just let the champagne touch your lips and smile like it doesnโt matter.
Like you didnโt already feel the air in the room shift.
Because when you turn your head โ just a little, just enough โ you see him.
Jeon Jungkook. Walking in through the side entrance, flanked by two staffers and dressed in black-on-black: a Saint Laurent suit jacket left open over a silk shirt, sheer enough to tease the curve of his chest. No tie. Just skin, chain, stare.
He looks different tonight. Not like the idol you edited into iconography. Not like the ghost who haunted your hallway last week.
He looks like a man who came here with a purpose.
And his eyes are already on you.
He looks like a man who came here with a purpose.
And his eyes are already on you.
The others didnโt come.
Namjoon had RSVPโd but sent a polite decline. Youโd caught wind of Jimin flying out for a brand shoot in Tokyo. The rest were likely busy or deliberately laying low โ as expected.
But he showed up.
Of all people.
You canโt tell if the audacity makes you laugh or bite the rim of your glass harder.
Jungkook doesnโt approach you. Not at first.
You feel his gaze like pressure behind your bare shoulder. But he moves slowly through the room โ greets the Vogue team with a bow, gives the photographer a brief, easy hug. Accepts a drink from a server. Ends up near the bar with a woman you vaguely recognize from the Seoul fashion circuit โ a model with collarbones sharp enough to cut glass, her dress barely skimming the line of decency.
She leans in when she speaks to him. Laughs too brightly. Touches his forearm once, casually.
He doesn't touch her back. Doesnโt even fully turn toward her. His eyes are somewhere else.
You.
You catch him watching you more than once. Not with hunger. Not yet. Just a quiet study.
The glances become a pattern. A beat you start to recognize.
And still, he doesnโt move.
But others do.
Youโre halfway through your second glass when two men โ suits, handsome, not strangers to the room โ flank you near the edge of the terrace. One is from an ad agency youโve worked with before. The otherโs from an international menswear brand.
They talk shop. Compliment your dress. One of them offers you another drink before you can say no. The other leans in when he speaks, a little too close to your ear, and you catch the ghost of his cologne mixed with something slightly sour.
You smile. Politely. The way you always do.
But you're aware of how their eyes follow the dip of your neckline like theyโve been given permission. One of them lets his fingers rest too long against your elbow. The other jokes, "Are all editors this pretty or are you the exception?" and doesnโt seem to care that you donโt laugh.
You glance across the room without meaning to.
Heโs still there.
Still watching.
Jungkookโs grip on his glass is tighter now. The model beside him keeps talking, oblivious. Heโs not listening. You know that jaw too well. The tension behind it. The twitch when heโs about to break.
You take another sip. Feel the flush of alcohol under your skin. Your vision gets softer at the edges, but the awareness sharpens. You know how this ends. You feel it humming beneath your ribs, hot and inevitable.
And when the man beside you brushes your wrist again โ subtle, casual, entitled โ you donโt pull away fast enough.
But Jungkook moves.
Jungkook doesnโt make a scene.
Thatโs the most infuriating part.
He doesnโt shove. Doesnโt glare. Doesnโt even raise his voice. He just appears beside you with the kind of seamless, quiet ease that only someone deeply used to being watched can master.
One second the man beside you is leaning in, his breath too warm against your cheekโ And the next, Jungkook is sliding in between you, a hand at the small of your back, the angle of his body just enough to cut.
โDidnโt realize I was late to this conversation,โ he says smoothly.
You catch the flicker of recognition on the menโs faces. One of them steps back half a pace, suddenly less charming. The other adjusts his collar and offers a polite smile that doesnโt reach his eyes.
โJeon Jungkook,โ the taller one says, offering a hand. โDidnโt know you were here.โ
Jungkook shakes it. Calm. Collected. โFigured Iโd say hello to the team who made the shoot happen.โ His eyes flick toward you, then back. โThough it looks like I shouldโve come earlier.โ
Itโs almost nothing. Just a hint. A slip beneath the surface. But you hear it. Feel it in the weight of his voice. The way his hand stays just a fraction too close to yours.
Possessive. And yet โ perfectly palatable for a crowd.
No one would question this. Not the touch. Not the timing. Not the sudden chill of disappointment settling in the faces of the men who had clearly imagined something else for the end of the night.
They make excuses. One says something about needing to call his driver. The other claims someone from LโOfficiel just texted.
Within a minute, theyโre gone.
Jungkook watches them disappear into the crowd with that unreadable expression you remember from his early idol days. When he didnโt know how to speak with words yet โ just stares.
โYou didnโt have to do that,โ you say, voice quiet, cutting.
โI know.โ
โThen why?โ
He shrugs. Still watching the crowd. โDidnโt like how they were touching you.โ
You pause.
โThatโs not your concern anymore.โ
He turns to face you then. Full. Real. And the look in his eyes is darker than the mood lighting.
โIt never stopped being my concern.โ
That does something to your throat. Tightens it.
You want to roll your eyes. Push him away. Instead, you take a half-step back and fix your dress strap.
โYou can go now,โ you say, coolly.
But his jaw tightens. Thatโs when you know youโve hit something.
โIโm not going anywhere.โ
He says it so quietly. But it doesnโt feel soft. It feels like something pulled from the center of his chest.
You scan the room out of instinct. Too many eyes. Too much potential noise.
Jungkook notices. And he moves.
He doesnโt ask.
His hand brushes your wristโlight, guidingโand then heโs walking. Confident. Unbothered. Heading toward the side hallway just past the lounge bar, near the VIP exit where only staff and talent are allowed to pass.
You should stop him. You donโt.
You follow.
The hallway is quiet, dimmer than the rest of the event. A velvet rope keeps guests from entering, and a private elevator tucked at the end promises anonymity to anyone important enough to use it. Youโve seen it before. Watched stylists hustle idols through that door like ghosts, like secrets.
Jungkook stops just out of view.
The corner of the hall is shadowed, walls covered in gold-veined marble and muted hotel art. The muffled bass from the party barely reaches here. His back is to you.
He turns when you stop. And then he steps in.
Close.
Too close.
He doesnโt touch you. Doesnโt raise his voice.
But he towers.
The heat from his body sears into yours. His jaw clenches once before relaxing, like heโs trying to hold back a thousand versions of the same mistake.
โYou know what they wanted from you,โ he says, voice low. โAnd you were going to let them?โ
โI wasnโt going to let them do anything.โ
โYou let them touch you.โ
โYou fucked half the industry,โ you snap, too fast. Too exposed. โDonโt start pretending Iโm the one who crossed lines.โ
That lands. Sharp. But he doesnโt retreat.
โI havenโt loved anyone except for you.โ
You blink.
Your breath stumbles.
Your throat goes dry.
You want to argue. You want to scream liar.But heโs looking at you like itโs gospel. Like the weight of that confession has been killing him slowly every night since.
And god, heโs close.
You feel your body respond before your brain can stop it. The heat between your legs. The flush rising beneath your skin. The sharp, brutal ache that coils low in your stomach just from the way heโs standing there โ like heโd throw himself between you and the world all over again.
You glance down โ mistake. The open collar of his shirt frames his chest like it was designed for your hands. The chain you once clasped glints against his skin, half-damp from heat. You remember how he tastes. Wonder if he still does.
Your thighs press together. Reflex.
His eyes drop. He notices.
And you hate him for it.
โYou have no right to be jealous,โ you say, voice barely a whisper.
โI know.โ
โYou left me.โ
โI know.โ
Your heart is pounding. Your mouth is dry.
And when he leans in just a little closer โ breath brushing your ear, his voice raw and unfiltered โ it takes every ounce of strength not to melt against the wall.
โYou can hate me all you want,โ he says. โBut I still know how to make you come apart.โ
Jungkookโs stare is heavy. Focused. Unflinching.
He says nothing for a long, charged second, and you hate how your body reacts to that silence โ like it remembers something your brain is still trying to forget.
โYou donโt get to act like this,โ you say, and it comes out sharp, acidic. โYou donโt get to touch me now and pretend it means anything.โ
His jaw tenses, but his voice stays level. Quiet. Deadly calm.
โIโm not pretending.โ
You scoff, rolling your eyes, shifting your weight โ and thatโs when he does it.
His hand slides down. Not rushed. Not hesitant.
And thenโ
He squeezes your ass.
Firm. Full. Like it still belongs to him.
Your breath halts. You donโt flinch. But your skin lights up like a flare, thighs clenching, stomach twisting.
You donโt show it.
โYouโre disgusting,โ you mutter through your teeth.
But he leans in, his mouth brushing the shell of your ear.
โYou didnโt stop me.โ
You shove at his chest, but thereโs no real strength in it. Not when your knees feel like static and your pulse is hammering between your legs. Not when your own body is already betraying you, flooding with heat from the base of your spine to the ache youโve been pretending doesnโt exist.
โYouโre the one who fucked other people the second you got famous,โ you snap. โDonโt come near me like we have unfinished business.โ
โYou think I donโt remember how you taste?โ he breathes, low and lethal. โHow your thighs shake when Iโโ
โShut up.โ You cut him off, voice breaking around the edge. โYouโre pathetic.โ
But his hand is still on you. Still burning through the fabric of your dress.
And now he's walking.
You're not sure when his hand left yours. You're not sure when your legs decided to follow. But you're moving. Toward the private elevator at the end of the hallway. It dings as it opens โ discreet, slow, waiting for no one else.
โDonโt,โ you say, half-hearted, hovering just outside the doors.
He steps inside. Looks over his shoulder. Waits.
โUnless you're scared,โ he murmurs.
You could slap him. You should.
Instead, you walk in like your heels arenโt shaking.
The doors close.
Silence. Thick. Electric.
Heโs behind you now. You feel it โ his presence coiled tight, simmering. You keep your chin high. Your eyes fixed on the seam of the elevator door.
But your brain is spinning.
You donโt know where heโs taking you. You donโt care.
You tell yourself itโs just physical. Youโre tired. Your bones are tired. You've been carrying ambition like armor for too long and you want โ god, you want โ to feel something. Something that doesnโt require you to smile, or pose, or win.
You want to stop being the editor. The image. The perfection.
Just for one night.
And if it has to be Jungkook โ the only man who ever saw you wrecked โ so be it.
Because if heโs going to ruin you again, heโs not doing it alone.
The car ride is silent.
Not awkward. Not uncertain. Justโฆ heavy.
A stretch of velvet air between you, thick with all the things neither of you are brave or stupid enough to say.
Jungkookโs limo is absurd. Sleek black leather, blue LED trim humming at your feet. A built-in bar you ignore. Curtains drawn. City lights blur past the tinted glass as if the world outside has nothing to do with whatโs about to happen inside.
You sit rigid, legs crossed. The dress has ridden up just slightly โ the soft part of your thigh kissing cool air โ and he notices.
Of course he notices.
His hand moves. Quietly. Confident. Like heโs done this before โ with you.
Fingertips rest on your knee at first. Just that. Stillness.
But then they begin to slide.
Up.
Slow. Torturous. Not grabbing โ stroking. His thumb draws lazy circles against your skin, tracing the edge where silk meets flesh.
You donโt look at him. You play with your hair instead, twisting it around your fingers like a lifeline.
But your thighs tighten. Clamp together as he nears dangerous ground.
He smirks beside you.
โI forgot how stubborn you are.โ
You glare. โYou forgot a lot of things.โ
His fingers donโt retreat. He slides them just a breath higher, pulling the hem of your dress with them.
โYou can say stop,โ he murmurs, voice dropping low. โYou know Iโll listen.โ
You hate that itโs true.
You hate that you donโt want to say it.
Your jaw clenches. Your thighs stay locked, heat building between them like friction might burn the memory away before it begins.
He doesnโt push further. Just stays there. Waiting. Letting you sit with the fact that your body is already betraying you โ pulse between your legs fluttering like it remembers the path heโs about to take.
You stare out the window, trying to breathe through the ache.
This is happening. You know it. You knew it the moment you followed him out of that party.
Tonight, youโre not Vogue Koreaโs untouchable ice queen. Youโre just a woman. Lonely. Starving. So fucking tired of pretending she doesnโt want to be ruined.
The car stops in front of La Premiere, one of Seoulโs most exclusive residential towers โ all glass, obsidian stone, gold accents that shimmer even at midnight. Youโre not surprised. This is the kind of place you only enter if your name is a brand.
The lobby is silent, marble floors echoing beneath your heels. The elevator requires a thumbprint. The doorman greets him by name.
You stay silent.
But your heart is screaming.
The apartment is on the 38th floor. The penthouse.
Of course it is.
High ceilings. Soft lighting. Concrete walls and floor-to-ceiling windows that open into an unobstructed view of Seoulโs skyline. You barely have time to look.
Because the moment the door clicks shut behind youโ
Heโs on you.
Your back hits the wall. Hard. His mouth finds yours like heโs starving. Like heโs been dreaming of this moment and canโt wait another second.
Itโs not a kiss. Itโs a collision. Wet, messy, teeth and tongue and heat. His hands are on your hips, your ribs, your ass โ greedy, possessive, hungry.
You moan into his mouth, furious at yourself.
He grins.
โStill pretending you donโt want this?โ
You shove at his chest, breathless.
โStill pretending you donโt want to be fucked?โ
His laugh is dark. โYou want to feel me inside you, donโt you?โ
You donโt answer.
He takes it as a yes.
He lifts you like you weigh nothing, carrying you down the hallway. You catch glimpses of modern art, black marble floors, absurdly expensive furniture you could write articles about.
But thenโ
His bedroom.
Of course itโs massive. King-sized bed draped in jet-black sheets, one wall entirely glass, Seoul glittering behind it like a crown.
He lays you down. Stares at you for a second.
Then bends. Presses a kiss to your shin. Your knee. Your inner thigh.
You arch.
โYouโre not going to tease me,โ you spit, breath shaky.
โOh no?โ His voice is warm silk wrapped around something feral. โI think youโve been begging to be teased.โ
And then heโs peeling your dress up, up, over your hips, dragging it slowly, deliberately, like heโs unwrapping a sin heโs already claimed.
His hands never stop moving.
He spreads your legs with ease, dress bunched high at your waist now, the cold kiss of air meeting warm skin. You feel obscenely exposed and utterly alive โ laid out against his sheets in nothing but a paper-thin pair of black lace underwear that does nothing to hide the heat soaking through.
And when his eyes land there, dark and molten, his breath catches.
โFuck,โ he mutters, more to himself than to you. โYouโve always been unreal.โ
You watch his throat move, swallowing thickly. His fingers trail from your calf to the inside of your thigh, slow and reverent.
โIโm gonna fuck you so good,โ he murmurs, eyes locked on your heat like heโs watching a meal heโs about to ruin. โYouโll forget how to hate me.โ
You donโt have time to snarl back before his mouth is on you again โ dragging up your body, lips trailing over your stomach, your ribs, your bra. He finds your breast with one hand, slipping beneath the delicate cup, warm palm cupping it, squeezing just enough to make you gasp. Then his tongue is there, licking over your nipple through the lace, wetting it until the fabric turns transparent and your back lifts off the bed.
You whimper. Loud.
And you hate that it sounds like relief.
His other hand finds your ass, gripping it with the kind of pressure that says mine, pulling you closer to the edge of the bed as he grinds down against you, clothed cock heavy and hot against your inner thigh.
He nips at your breast, tongue flicking, eyes on your face.
โStill pretending you donโt remember what this feels like?โ
You pant, fingers buried in his hair. โJust fuck me already.โ
But heโs not done teasing. He slides lower again, mouth kissing a path down your torso, tongue tasting your skin like itโs his.
When he reaches your panties, he pauses. Licks his lips.
โThese need to come off.โ
You lift your hips. He slides them down your legs, slow and smooth, like heโs savoring every inch of skin revealed.
And then he groans.
โFuck, babyโฆโ His thumb brushes over your slit. โYouโre soaked.โ
You glare. โYouโre not special.โ
He chuckles. โWeโll see.โ
Then he kisses you again, deep and dirty, hand slipping between your thighs, two fingers sliding through your folds with ease, coating themselves in everything your pride is trying to hide.
He presses in โ just one finger, shallow and slow โ and you gasp into his mouth.
โYouโre so fucking tight,โ he breathes against your lips. โYou really havenโt let anyone else stretch you like this?โ
You donโt answer.
But your moan says enough.
He adds another finger. Curling them. Moving them just right.
โThis is me preparing you,โ he murmurs, voice all silk and sin. โIโm gonna make it good. Gonna make you cum on my fingers before I even fuck you.โ
Your eyes flutter shut. โGod, Jungkookโโ
โI love when you beg,โ he growls, โbut not yet.โ
You reach for him then, desperate, fingers tugging at his open shirt โ sheer and slippery beneath your grip. You want to see him. Need to.
He feels it.
โPatience,โ he smirks, but he lets you undress him anyway.
Jacket drops first. Then that ridiculous silk shirt that slides off his arms like water. You make a sound low in your throat when you see him again, bare and sculpted and dangerous. Then he pushes his pants down, black slacks pooling on the floor, and all thatโs left is his boxers โ stretched tight over his cock, which is very obviously hard.
And huge.
Your mouth parts.
He sees it. Smirks again.
โDonโt act surprised,โ he murmurs, leaning in. โYouโve had it before.โ
His body covers yours, the warmth of his skin burning against you, his cock pressing hot and heavy between your thighs. He grinds once, slow, and you gasp โ the length of him perfectly aligned against your soaked slit, dragging between your folds like heโs memorizing the shape of your desperation.
He doesn't push in yet.
Just teases. Rubs the head against your clit. Circles it. Slips down, catches your entrance, then pulls back again.
You bite your lip so hard it stings.
โJungkook,โ you pant, voice breaking.
He kisses your jaw, your neck, his voice low and smug and maddening.
โYouโre gonna say please.โ
You donโt say please.
Not with your mouth.
But when you look down and see him reach for the nightstand drawer, tear open the foil packet with steady fingers, and roll the condom down his thick, veined lengthโ Your mouth parts on instinct.
God.
You forgot what he looked like like this. Not just big โ devastating. Long, hard, flushed dark at the tip, heavy in his own hand. Your core clenches around nothing, heat flooding your stomach.
You donโt mean to moan. But you do.
His smirk falters for a split second.
โYouโre still so easy to ruin,โ he murmurs, fisting his cock, stroking once, lining himself up between your thighs. โI barely touched you.โ
โYouโve been talking too much,โ you whisper, chest heaving. โShut up andโโ
But the words die the second he starts to push in.
You gasp โ your whole body tensing โ and your hands fly to his shoulders, nails digging in hard.
He groans above you. โShitโyouโre tight.โ
You feel the stretch like itโs the first time. A slow, thick pressure as he sinks in inch by inch. Every muscle in your body coils, thighs trembling, breath catching.
His mouth finds yours again โ wet, open, filthy โ kissing you through it, licking into your whimper like heโs feeding off your pleasure.
โJust breathe,โ he whispers, one hand cradling the back of your head, the other gripping your waist. โIโve got you.โ
You do.
You let him in.
And god, you hate how good it feels โ to have him deep inside, to feel the way your body opens around him like it remembers exactly where he belongs.
When he bottoms out, hips flush to yours, he groans into your throat.
Youโre both panting. Stunned.
Then you move.
Your legs wrap around his waist. Tight. Holding him there.
His back arches into it, and he nearly chokes on his breath.
โF-fuck,โ he stutters, voice cracking. โYouโre gonna make me cum just like that.โ
You grin, delirious. โControl yourself.โ
โImpossible,โ he groans, but he stays still, grinding his hips in slow, rolling circles, letting you feel all of him, the friction igniting fire where your nerves used to be.
Your hands slide down his back โ hot, damp with sweat โ and you whisper between shaky breaths:
โYou feel so good, Jungkookโฆ so fucking goodโโ
That does it.
He starts to move.
Slow at first. Deep. Letting you feel every inch drag through you, the way your walls flutter around him. He groans again โ long and low โ kisses you like heโs starving.
Then he leans back just enough to slip a hand between your bodies, tugging at your bra strap.
โOff,โ he pants. โI want to feel all of you.โ
You arch for him, and he peels the lace away, throws it somewhere behind him without a second glance. His mouth latches onto your breast immediately, tongue circling your nipple while he thrusts deeper now, rhythm gaining speed.
Your moan rips from your throat โ helpless.
The room is filled with slick, obscene sounds. Wet kisses. The slap of skin against skin. His name. Your name. Every broken breath in between.
He fucks you like he never stopped wanting you. Like every other girl was just a placeholder. Like this is what heโs been chasing for years.
You meet him thrust for thrust, body to body, every part of you singing from the friction and the fullness.
โJungkookโโ you gasp, legs shaking around him.
He presses his forehead to yours, eyes shut tight.
โIโm closeโfuckโIโm gonnaโโ
Your nails dig into his back. Your mouth finds his. Hot. Messy. Breathless.
And you both fall.
You cum around him with a strangled cry, legs locking, mouth open, his name your only word. He follows seconds later โ hips jerking, body shaking, groaning into your mouth as he spills into the condom, both of you swallowed in heat and noise and everything you said youโd never feel again.
The room goes still.
Except your breathing.
And the heartbeat pounding between your ribs like a warning.
Your body is still shaking when he collapses beside you, skin damp and breath ragged, his palm pressed flat against your stomach like he needs to anchor himself to something thatโs real.
Neither of you speak. Your lungs are too full of what just happened โ of the heat still lingering between your thighs, of his scent on your skin, of the kiss still wet on your mouth.
And thenโ
He moves again.
You feel it before you see it โ the subtle shift of his body behind yours, the press of his chest against your back, the way his hand slides down your stomach, lower, lower, fingers brushing over your still-sensitive slit with the softest, filthiest reverence.
Your legs twitch.
โJungkookโฆโ your voice is nothing more than a broken breath.
But heโs already hard again.
His cock slides against your ass, hot and ready, nestling in the curve of your body like it belongs there. Like it never stopped belonging there.
โI canโt stop,โ he whispers, voice husky and wrecked. โNot yet. I need more.โ
You donโt argue.
Because the truth is, so do you.
You feel the crinkle of another condom. The soft hiss of him rolling it on. And thenโ
He pushes in from behind.
This angle โ lying on your side, body curled into his, his arm wrapped tight around your waist โ itโs too much. Too deep. Too intimate.
You cry out softly as he fills you again, slower this time, his hips moving in lazy, grinding rolls that feel like velvet dragging through your core.
He groans low into your neck.
โStill so fucking tight. So warm,โ he pants. โYouโre made for me.โ
Your hands scramble behind you, reaching for anything to hold. You find his hair, his neck, your fingers threading through damp strands and pulling him closer. His mouth finds yours again โ messy, hot, upside down, your teeth clashing a little before they part.
The kiss is deeper than it should be. Slower. Desperate in a different way.
Like neither of you are trying to cum anymore.
Like youโre just trying to stay here.
He fucks you like heโs drunk on you โ like your body is a drug heโs been forced to quit and now canโt get enough of. His hand slides over your breasts, then down again, gripping your thigh to tilt your hips back, opening you wider.
You whimper into the pillow, moaning his name over and over, helpless.
โFeel so good, baby,โ he murmurs, forehead pressed to your shoulder. โI canโtโfuckโI canโt stop.โ
You donโt want him to.
Youโre shaking. Sweat-slick. Eyes wet.
You twist your neck just enough to kiss him again โ messy, slow, tongues tangling mid-thrust, like your mouths canโt stay apart even now.
His pace stutters.
You feel him start to lose it, his rhythm breaking as you clench around him, your walls pulling him deeper with every snap of his hips.
And when you cum again โ this time quieter, slower, your body trembling as you squeeze your eyes shut โ he goes with you.
He groans your name into your skin as he spills into you again, the rhythm fading into soft, tired rolls of his hips, your bodies still locked together under the sheets.
For a long while, neither of you move.
You just lay there. Breathing. Tangled. Spent.
He kisses your shoulder once. Light. Almost careful.
And then sleep pulls you both under โ not out of comfort, but out of collapse. Because neither of you came here looking for peace.
You just needed an escape.
And you found it in each otherโs ruin.
Your eyes snap open before your alarm ever has the chance.
The room is quiet. Dim gray light filters through blackout curtains. The sheets smell like sex and sweat and a mistake you swore you'd never make again.
You blink. Once. Twice.
And then it all rushes back.
The kisses. The way he moaned your name. His hands, his mouth, the sound of skin slapping skin. The taste of him on your lips. The way he said youโre mine without ever needing the words.
โFuck,โ you breathe, pressing your hand over your eyes.
You sit up slowly.
Your body aches in all the right ways and all the wrong ones โ thighs sore, lips bruised, a pulsing between your legs that still flutters when you shift.
Next to you, Jungkook sleeps facedown. Bare, sprawled, shamelessly beautiful. The sheets only just cover his waist, one arm bent beneath the pillow, the muscles in his back stretching in long, carved lines.
You stare. Just for a second.
He looks so peaceful.
So unaware.
So dangerous.
You bite your lip. Hard.
Your fingers twitch with the urge to trace the curve of his spine, but you stop yourself. Because you donโt have time for softness. You have work.
You always have work.
Dragging yourself out of the bed, you start collecting your clothes โ your dress crumpled in the corner, your heels under the chaise, your bra on the floor beside the door like a monument to your downfall.
When you catch your reflection in the bathroom mirror, you wince.
Mascara smudged. Lips bitten raw. Hair wrecked.
You look like a woman who had a night.
And in less than an hour, you need to look like a woman in charge of the most powerful editorial campaign of the year.
You move fast.
Cold water. Concealer. Lip balm. Breath mints. You finger-comb your hair and twist it into something sleek. But the problem isnโt the face โ itโs the clothes.
Your dress is a dead giveaway. Wrinkled, short, undeniably last night.
You move to Jungkookโs closet.
Rows of Saint Laurent, Givenchy, Alexander McQueen. Racks of custom suits and silky button-downs. Not a single item designed for discretion.
But then โ a structured black blazer. Boxy, masculine, clean-cut enough to pass.
You slide it on. It swallows your frame. The hem falls past your thighs, hiding your dress completely. You roll the sleeves once. Twice. Pair it with quiet confidence and a pair of sunglasses from the entryway table.
You almost look like a Vogue editor.
Almost.
You donโt let yourself look at him again.
You just close the door behind you, call a taxi, and vanish into morning traffic with nothing but your pride duct-taped together inside that blazer.
The office is already buzzing by the time you walk in.
People look up. Smiling. Bright. Warm.
โY/N! Congrats again on the October issueโโ โThat cover is insane, seriously, you killed itโโ โYou must be exhausted after last nightโs party!โ
You smile. Say thank you. Pretend your skin doesnโt still smell like sex and Jungkookโs cologne.
One of the interns offers you coffee. You accept, gratefully.
Youโre almost safe.
Until Kara appears.
โWow,โ she says, voice honeyed and loud. โYou lookโฆ rough.โ
The conversation halts like a car crash.
A beat of awkward silence. Someone clears their throat.
You look up slowly.
Kara smiles. All teeth.
โLate night?โ she adds, mock-innocent. โOr should I sayโฆ early morning?โ
You donโt answer. Just raise your coffee and keep walking.
But she follows.
Right into the main office hallway, right up to the bossโs glass-walled door โ just as it opens.
Your editor-in-chief steps out. Sharp-heeled. Impeccably dressed. Eyes cutting.
Kara laughs softly and says, โShe probably didnโt even go home. Just look โ same dress as last nightโs party. Slept over somewhere fancy, though. Thatโs not hers.โ
You freeze.
Your boss turns to you. Stares. The expression is unreadable โ but not soft.
โY/N,โ she says. โMy office. Now.โ
Your stomach drops.
You walk. Slowly. Kara watches you go, biting the edge of her thumb with a smile like she already knows sheโs won.
Your phone buzzes in your palm.
Unknown Number: That blazer suits you. But youโll have to pay me back eventually. Preferably not in cash.
Your pulse stutters.
You donโt have to guess who it is.
You just slide the phone into your pocket โ and knock on your bossโs door.
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โต summary: jungkookโs drunken one night stand goes awry when he comes to learn not only is he being forced into an arranged marriage, but itโs to the very girl he abandoned that nightโand things get a lot more complicated when youโre the best hookup heโs ever had. ย
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โต pairing: ceo!jungkook x law student!reader
โต genre:ย series, arranged marriage!au, fwb!au (?), haters to lovers!au, smut, fluff, angstย
โต rating: 18+
โต warnings : swearing, alcohol/marijuana consumption, mentions of ptsd/trauma, mentions of confrontative violence (with other characters, not each other), explicit sexual content, oral (m. and f. receiving), unprotected sex, penetrative sex (chapters have their own warnings!)
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โ ย chapter two: โiโll be in airplane modeโย (13k)
โ ย chapter three: โdonโt know what to do, am I livinโ this right?โ (12k)
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๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ | ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ pairings: heartthrob!jk, yandere!jk x fashion employee f!reader genre: dark romance, smut, porn with plot, 90s word count: 14K beta read by @chaoticpuff17 (ily) masterlist
summary: You, a determined fashion designer, find yourself entangled in a collaboration with the irresistibly charming and egotistic heartthrob, Jeon Jungkook. Will this partnership remain strictly professional, or will he make the lines blur?
warnings: minors dni 18+ | sexual tension, emotional distress, teasing, fingering, unprotected sex, jk is selfish af, jk is delulu, oral (fem receiving), forced oral (m receiving) spanking, squirting, cum swallowing, creampie, soft yandere behaviour, obsessive behaviour, choking, rough sex, pussy pounding, bruises, manipulation, gaslighting, strong language, oppressiveness
disclaimer: this story is purely fictional, it does not depict real-life events or involve any actual members of BTS. This story will contain strong language, explicit content, obsessive behaviour, alcohol drinking, illegal activities, oppressiveness, which we do not condone.
author's note: so as I said in the preview, this did not go as planned but I really enjoyed writing this to the point that I might do a part 2, perhaps 3, but we'll see about that. JK is delulu af here and the reader does not think through everything. For those who did not read preview and came upon this just now - originally what i wanted to build around was how Rachel Green from Friends was offered a job at Louis Vuitton but it was in Paris and Ross did not want her to go - that was supposed to be the whole plot (with slight changes ofc), well and somehow it went a bit darker than i intended so instead of rom-com, i'd rather listed it as dark romance and yandere. Hope you'll enjoy it! Love, always.
1996
โHe said what now?!โ The sentence burst out of you with a high-pitched tone, nearly causing your latte to spill all over your pristine white blouse and grey blazer. Not exactly the ideal way to kick off a new month, you mused as your friend dropped the bombshell about a certain someone.
โThat youโre the future mother of his children,โ said your friend, an amused smirk playing on her face. โI seriously donโt know how you can still resist him, girl.โ But resist him, you did.
Jeon Jungkook was undoubtedly one of the most sought-after and sexiest heartthrobs of the decade, possessed the best face card in the industry and carried the biggest ego in all of New York City. You could vividly recall the day he strolled inside of your office with the head of your department. A cocky, playful grin plastered on his face the moment his eyes landed on you.
Right from the very beginning, you made it crystal clear to Jungkook that your relationship would be strictly professional during your collaboration on the Calvin Klein project. He was given his own collection of menโs wear, and the job to work with him fell upon you.
You knew that this was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for you to elevate your standing within the fashion circle. Jeon Jungkookโs fame was immense, and your name would be signed on the collection too. Itโs not like you are head over heels that your name would be associated specifically with Jeon Jungkook, but you understood right away that this could put you on the radar. Your boss had even hinted at the possibility of a higher position within the department.
He constantly teased you, flirted shamelessly, and crossed boundaries by touching you as if you were his girlfriend. It was wildly inappropriate, especially given that the two of you had never even gone out for a work dinner or lunch alone. There were always other people from the team, and yet he always managed to find a way to sit right next to you. But it seems Jungkook was still living in an illusion where you were his girlfriend.
Your gaze shifted to the majestic Twin Towers, standing proudly in the distance, as you let out an annoyed puff of air.
โHeโs ridiculous,โ you finally declared.
โOr cute,โ countered your friend, opposing your viewpoint. She found this pseudo-relationship with Jungkook amusing, but a small part of her secretly wished youโd just give in and go out with him. It was quite some time since you were in a relationship, and Jeon Jungkook would definitely be a nice catch. You were not interested. Or you tried to persuade others that you arenโt.
โNo, ridiculous,โ you retorted again, lips pursed, and brows furrowed.
โOh, come on, give him a chance finally!!โ she exclaimed.
โAbsolutely not! Heโs egoistic, manipulative, a cocky little bastard with damn good hair,โ you said, your tone rising as you reached your final proclamation, which had simply slipped out of your mind that way.
โSee? One good thing โ good hair. Marry him,โ she laughed it off.
โNow youโre being ridiculous, and Iโm going to be late for work.โ You said while dusting your black skirt, grabbing your purse, and leaving a few bucks for the coffee. The song on the radio stopped your departure for a moment, listening to the familiar voice coming from it, you rolled your eyes.
โThatโs a clear sign, Y/N. Give it a chance!โ she called after you, and you couldnโt help but throw a side eye her way, though a small smile tugged at the corners of your lips nonetheless.
As the day passed, you found yourself increasingly entangled in the whirlwind of meetings, fittings, and photoshoots with an ever-present Jungkook. The photoshoots, in particular, became a source of both frustration and amusement. However today, a bigger problem surfaced.
โWhyโs he half-naked, Lucy?!โ You hissed at your assistant. Normally, you are very kind and respectful to everyone, but Jungkook had managed to irk you the moment you stepped into your office, finding him already seated in your chair with that smirk you despised. Bringing a coffee for you, which you never drink, or donuts that you always share with the department - not eating one yourself.
Jungkook, adorned in the latest Calvin Klein designs you two had meticulously crafted together, claimed a personal touch of his personaโ at least, thatโs how he described it. He looked effortlessly handsome, the camera adoring him, but what grated on your nerves was that his attention was solely focused on teasing you.
โWe also have shirts, why is he not wearing one?!โ You continued, expressing your disagreement to what was before you. What angered you even more was that you could not stop staring at his abs.
โWe shot with shirts earlier. They said the underwear and jeans will appear more artistic if his V line and absโโ
โAlright! Alright!โ You stopped her in mid-sentence. You didnโt want to look that way nor you didnโt want to admit that showcasing his V-line would enhance the aesthetics of the jeans. Therefore, you took a deep breath and walked towards the refreshments, you were in need of a second cup of coffee.
You heard the photographer call for a break, but you were focused on calming yourself with a steaming cup of coffee. Despite your irritation, you couldnโt deny that he looked breath-taking in the outfits you had designed, and it infuriated you.
Suddenly, two arms were laid flat on the tableโs surface, caging you in between. You could imagine his devilish grin. He did this way too often, whether it was his fingers lightly tracing your arm or tucking a loose strand of your hair behind your ear, looking intently into your eyes until you were fighting yourself to not get lost in his Bambi eyes.
โWeโre almost done for today,โ he whispered seductively into your right ear, his lips almost touching it. Your breath stammered.
โAnd yet you did not learn a single thing about professionalism or work ethic.โ You bit sarcastically, turning slowly to face him.
Jungkookโs grin only widened at your remark, and you couldnโt decide whether you were infuriated or slightly flustered by his audacity. He leaned in even closer, his breath grazing your ear as he spoke in a low, husky tone.
โTutor me then, in bedroom โ preferablyโ he suggested, his lips still dangerously close to the shell of your ear.
โI donโt think so. Youโre beyond help,โ you shot back, trying to assert control over the situation. His proximity was distracting, and you couldnโt afford to let him undermine the fact that you were in charge.
Jungkook continued to hover over you, the photographer calling for everyone to regroup for the next set of shots. You seized the opportunity to escape his magnetic pull, smoothly slipping out from between the table and his arms, deciding to escape to your humble office, seeking solace in the calmness it provided.
It wasnโt long before the shoot officially ended, and you knew damn well, that the man wouldnโt leave you alone. The door creaked open, and you turned to find Jungkook leaning against the frame, that infernal smirk still etched onto his face.
โWe did a good job, why donโt we celebrate it over at my place, baby?โ he complimented, but there was an undertone of something else in his voice. You overlooked his physique and leaned back in your chair, narrowing your eyes, making a clicking sound with your tongue.
โJungkook, again, this was a professional collaboration. Nothing more,โ you asserted, emphasising each word. If you did not say this sentence at least a hundred times you donโt know. He never takes it seriously; it appears as he is still trying to hammer his way into your guarded heart.
He pushed himself off the doorframe and sauntered closer. โWeโll see about that,โ he said, leaving you with a cryptic grin as he exited your office. The only thing you could do is sigh.
Before you went to continue working, you heard how Jungkookโs voice echoed from the hallway.
โI bet I can change your mind, sweetheart!โ
You rolled your eyes, muttering under your breath.
โNot a chance.โ
The denim collection with Jungkook was taking shape, and the buzz surrounding the collaboration grew with each passing day. A success, your boss was much more than pleased.
This success, however, meant even more for you. You were on cloud nine, basking in the glory of your hard work and the prospect of a ground-breaking partnership. Totally, forgetting to play unreachable when it came to the clinging boy who starred in this iconic collaboration. And that must have given him a false hope, perhaps a narrative in which you were his girl.
You were sitting in your office when you hung up the telephone after speaking with the vice president of Guess that contacted you earlier last week, offering you a part in a project for their brand, in Los Angeles. A dream come true for you. Leaving this place, after years of building your career from scratch, felt overwhelming. You loved working under Klein, yet it was time for you to take it higher. Your boss did not offer you a new position, and therefore, you did not hesitate to take the job opportunity and elevate yourself in fashion ranks.
It was an offer too tempting to resist, and you found yourself diving headfirst into the project, not even looking at the door when someone stepped in without knocking.
โYou may leave the reception reports on the table, Lucy,โ you said once feeling a presence in your office, not raising your eyesight from your computer, writing the prompts for the project Guess wants you to lead. Your twelve daysโ notice already printed out, ready to be signed by your boss. You planned to stop by his office after you would finish writing the draft and sending it to the Guess team together with the copy of your portfolio that you needed to make before you leave.
When there were no reports left on your table after a good long minute, you looked up.
โYou canโt just leave.โ he said, standing tall in the frame of the door, stepping inside once you finally gave him your attention. You could sense a hint of desperation and anger in his voice.
You raised your brows at him. How does he know? The mere thought of you leaving for LA, leaving him behind, was enough to make him confess the depth of his feelings.
You leaned to the leather armchair and listened to him closely.
โWhat are you talking about Jungkook?โ His eyes betrayed a mix of anxiety and vulnerability as he blurted out his fears.
โWhat about us? What about everything weโve built together?โ He stepped closer to your desk, looking directly to your eyes. You were taken aback by the raw emotion in his words. The air in the room thickened.
The once-confident man now stood vulnerable before you, stripped of the bravado that had defined him. And you were utterly confused and surprised how delusional this man is.
โWhat are you even saying, Jungkook?โ you questioned, your tone a mix of confusion and frustration.
โYou canโt leave me!โ He raised his voice an octave higher.
โCalm your tits. Iโm a grown-up woman. I can do what I want.โ You sassed back at him, tired of this made up situation-ship in his head. He scoffed, a bitter smile playing on his lips.
โWeโve built something special, and I canโt watch it crumble because of some job offer!โ He continued his rampage. You took a moment to breathe his words in, closing your eyes and counting to ten to calm yourself.
โJungkook, I appreciate your honesty, but I canโt give you what youโre asking for.โ This caught him by surprise. Instead of screaming at him, you chose to play the Iโll stay calm and professional card.
His eyes widened in disbelief, a mix of confusion and hurt clouding his features. โWhat do you mean?โ
Choosing your words carefully, you said: โI genuinely value this project we worked on together, but itโs time for us to part our ways.โ To fool him was your goal.
Jungkookโs shoulders slumped, the weight of your words settling upon him. โWho are you lying to, Y/N?โ His words shocked you.
โIโm not lying Jungkook, Iโm telling you the truth to your face, as you were too stubborn to hear it before.โ You stood up from your chair, moving to lean on the front of your desk, to show him he cannot get to you.
The room fell into a heavy silence as Jungkook looked deep into your eyes, searching for the truth in your words.
โSo, itโs all about the career for you? Youโre willing to sacrifice everything else, including us?โ Your jaw clenched, but you maintained your composed faรงade and with flaring nostrils and clenched teeth, you spoke.
โThere is no us, Jungkook. Get it into your head already!โ So much for being calm. The room crackled with tension as the argument reached an impasse. Jungkook shook his head, a mixture of disbelief and frustration.
โI canโt believe youโre throwing away what we have because of some job.โ Your eyes widened even more and the fact he would not listen boiled your blood.
โDo I need to spell it out for you? Iโm not your girlfriend! I was never your girlfriend, and I will never be your girlfriend!โ
But Jungkook wasnโt ready to accept defeat. His frustration reached a boiling point too, and without warning, he grabbed you by the shoulders, pulling you into an intense, angry kiss. It was a clash of emotions, a tumultuous blend of passion and anger that fuelled the fiery exchange.
Your initial instinct was to resist, to push him away, but the intensity of the kiss ignited a different kind of fire within you. His lips moved fiercely against yours, gripping your ass in his hands, making you moan to his lips. Your hands found their way to his hair, fingers threading through the dishevelled locks as the kiss deepened, your frustration causing to tug them. He growled from pleasure at the sensation.
It was a collision of lips and tongues, a heated exchange that spoke volumes without a single word. Once his hands disappeared under your skirt and the heat intensified, a sudden surge of clarity washed over you, breaking the intoxicating spell.
With a forceful push, you broke away from the kiss, creating a space between you and Jungkook. You locked eyes with him, your chest heaving as you struggled to regain control of the situation.
โI need you to leave,โ you stated, your voice cutting through the lingering tension, you leaned against the desk, your heart still racing from the intensity of the moment.
Jungkook, still caught in the haze of desire, tried to close the distance again, but you held up a hand, halting his advance.
โLeave!โ You growled, turning your back to him. You didnโt want him to see your face anymore, because soon enough, tears would break from your eyes. Youโre overwhelmed.
A loud bang of the door signalled that he finally understood and left. Breaking down with tears streaming down your cheeks you gasped for air. Tears blurred your vision as you struggled to regain composure.
Youโve counted to ten again, wiping your tears. You felt taken advantage of. He went too far this time. But this was only the beginning of his tremulous and wicked plan he had for you.
You packed your purse, ready to leave your office, you just needed to grab your work portfolio that you needed to send over to Guess. But the space it always inhabited, on the conference table, was empty. And you had one lucky guess who the thief was. โFucking bastard.โ
In the days that followed, the chaos in your personal and professional life escalated. The stolen portfolio, a representation of your work, became a haunting absence. As if the life source of your hard work was cut down.
Determined to salvage what remained of your career, you began the arduous task of recreating it. But time was not on your side, and as you delved into the meticulous process, news of your termination from Calvin Klein reached you like a punch to the gut.
The phone call was impersonal, a cold voice delivering the news of your dismissal as if reading from a script. Some Jack from the HR department spoke to you, someone you have never ever seen in the building whatsoever. Your boss did not even pick up the call when you wanted to ask what made them push the decision to let you go. You certainly did not deserve this after years of working for the brand. The reasons were vague and you knew this had to source from someone powerful. In simple terms, someone snitched that youโre planning to leave.
As the reality of unemployment settled in, you clung to the remnants of optimism that lingered, but even that proved elusive.
You were hundred percent sure that he is trying to sabotage your whole life when the call from Guess, a reason you did not fight for your position at Kleinโs delivered another blow.
Their decision not to collaborate with you crushed the remnants of optimism that clung to your spirit. The dream that had seemed within reach now slipped through your fingers, leaving you in a free fall of uncertainty.
They hadnโt even granted you the courtesy of waiting for your portfolio, even though it wouldnโt be what they expected. Whatever oral agreement had been in place disintegrated. So here you are โ jobless.
All this left you reeling with disbelief. The career you had meticulously built, the dreams that had taken years to nurture, all unravelling at the seams. The pain was visceral, a mix of frustration, anger, and a profound sense of betrayal.
You were certain that Jeon Jungkook himself was pulling the strings behind the scenes. And you hated him for it, needed to confront him and say that shit with your chest right to his faceโ he can go fuck himself. Set the record straight once youโre there.
Whatever he was thinking by ruining your career will force you to do, he better fix it before youโll sing to the media about his bunny smile and kind heart being all fake. The line had been crossed, and he would face the consequences of pushing you to the brink. Or so you thought it would go how your brain delusional thought it through.
Hence, with a heavy heart and a determination to confront the chaos head-on, you stood before the front door of his infamous penthouse. Emotions swirling within you like a tempest.
With a deep breath, you knocked, the sound echoing through the quiet hallway. The door swung open, revealing Jungkookโs bunny smile reaching his eyes.
โWell, well well, are we ready to talk like adults, pretty?โ He mocked this whole situation because he knew this would end up in his favour, nonetheless.
He moved back to let you in, and you stepped into his apartment, a mixture of anger and desperation in your gaze.
โI know you took it,โ you said, crossing your arms on your breasts. The heels of your black leather boots echoed in the apartment when you turned to face him.
โTook your breath away by that heated kiss, sexy, certainly. Otherwise, I did not take anything.โ Jungkook scoffed, crossing his arms defensively. The tension in the room was palpable as you square your shoulders, refusing to back down. You blinked twice at his cheesiness. The tip of your tongue moved to rest on the bottom of your upper teeth, your smile spreading on your face. The chuckle came out of you so naturally, laughing at his ridiculously ridiculous behaviour.
โDonโt play dumb, I know it was all you. You malicious sabotaging petty boyโโ You retorted, articulation perfectly clear while the words laced with underlying frustration and anger.
He sighed, weariness settling over him. โYou think I stole your portfolio to sabotage your career? Youโre giving me too much credit, love.โ Here he comes.
โI said nothing about my portfolio, Jungkook.โ You said playing with his name on your tongue. A tense silence hung in the air as he considered your words, clicking his tongue, clearly annoyed and you were just getting started.
โI managed to figure that out. A drink? โโ He offered, shrugging her statements of like snow in summer whilst he moved to the small bar that was a part of his spacious living room.
โI donโt want a drink, Jungkook. I want it back now,โ you replied, your tone cutting through the casual offer. The anger in your gaze intensified, fuelled by the frustration of dealing with his nonchalant attitude.
โLetโs talk, baby.โ He gestured towards the living room, as if trying to usher you into a more comfortable setting for the impending confrontation. He knew this was just a little shower, the real storm was still far away, giving him space to prepare.
As you moved, you could not help but notice the contrast between your demeanour and his. While your arms were still crossed defensively, his posture exuded a calm confidence that irked you further.
You took a seat on the edge of the sofa, not willing to fully settle into the illusion of camaraderie. Jungkook, on the other hand, sprawled onto a nearby chair, the picture of nonchalance.
โI need that portfolio to get a job because a certain someone has to be bitchy and sabotage my whole career because his big ass ego cannot take rejection. Give it to me,โ you fired off, your words sharp and accusatory. He leaned back in the chair, smirking.
โThose are very bold words, Y/N. I would prefer to think of it as a wake-up call for you, not sabotage.โ Your incredulous glare only intensified.
โAre you fucking serious Jungkook? A wake up call? Youโve just jeopardised everything Iโve worked for, and youโre calling this a wake up call?โ
He leaned forward, resting his elbows on his knees, his gaze locked onto yours.
โI can get you a better job.โ
You scoffed. The audacity of his response fuelled the simmering anger within you.
โYou canโt get a shit, so give it back to me, and Iโll be on my way,โ you requested.
Jungkookโs smirk remained, an infuriating mix of arrogance and nonchalance.
โNo,โ he said, smiling. Your hands clenched into fists at your sides, the frustration reaching a boiling point. He leaned back, seemingly unperturbed by your rising anger.
โWhat do you mean no?!โ you shot back, your voice sharp.
โYou were about to make a decision that would have consequences beyond your imagination. I had to intervene.โ
โWhat the fuck are you on again?โ Jungkookโs gaze remained fixed on you, the intensity of his stare almost unnerving while your voice went an octave higher. Your frustration reached its peak, and you stood up, pacing the room as you ranted. You were breathing heavily, trying to calm yourself.
You needed that portfolio, it was a collection of years of a work and your best work to be specific. The lousy new version wonโt get you a job at no high-profile fashion brand and you cannot afford to go lower than your last position.
โAlrightโโ You said defeated, turning yourself to face him again, you put off your black leather jacket and fixed your low ponytail, slumping back to his sofa. Spreading your arms on the backrest and cross your legs.
Jungkook took a moment to breathe in the sight before him; he was throbbing for you.
โโwhat do you want?โ you asked. He leaned back further into the chair, putting his masculine tattooed arms to rest on the back of his head, showing his abs from under the white tank top he is wearing.
โWhat do I want?โ he mused, as if contemplating the question but he already knew.
โSpill it out.โ You barked and he chuckled at your eagerness. He got up from his seat and dangerously slowly walked towards you.
When he reached you, both of his arms pressed to the leather of the sofa inches from you, caging your body. Your breath stammered as you looked at him towering over you, the golden chain around his neck hanging.
โFirstly, I want you to be my good girl, apologise for being a brat the other day and admit there is an โusโ. Secondlyโโ he whispered seductively, closing the approximate distance while doing so. He was right in your face, looking over at your lips evidently, he was controlling himself to not attack them. He invaded your personal space. The sudden shift in atmosphere left you breathless, and you could feel the heat radiating between you.
You squared your shoulders, refusing to succumb to the intoxicating energy he exuded. โI wonโt apologise for any shit, now secondly?โ You said while trying to hold your horses. You hate to admit your pussy was clenching and leaking under his gaze. He was attractive, and no one could deny that.
His fingers grazed your cheek gently, a teasing touch that sent a jolt of electricity through your body. You swallowed hard, trying to maintain a semblance of composure.
โI want these feisty little plump lips wrapped around my thick cockโโ you pushed him away from you once you heard his words. Grabbing your jacket and storming your way out to the door, angry with yourself that you let it go this far.
โYou walk out that door, and youโre done in this city, fuck even the whole continent if I want,โ Jungkook declared, his tone heavy with a sense of entitlement. The words hung in the air, a threat laced with possessiveness that sent a chill down your spine.
โYouโre bluffing.โ His eyes darkened, a storm brewing in their depths.
โYouโre underestimating the consequences, Y/N. Iโll snap my fingers, and you wonโt get a job. Anywhere.โ A bitter laugh escaped your lips. You did not believe him one bit, determined to try harder at the job hunting.
โYouโve already done enough. You canโt do worse.โ You scoffed, the absurdity of his demands pushing you further away. He stepped closer, the air thick with tension.
โYouโre not leaving, Y/N. Either youโll be my good girl and apologise, or all it will take is one phone call.โ As you reached for the doorknob, he grabbed your arm with a force that bordered on aggression.
โI am my own woman, Jungkook.โ Your eyes flashed with determination as you wrenched your arm free, emphasising every word of the sentence you just uttered.
With that, you swung the door open and stormed out, leaving Jungkookโs apartment and the tumultuous mess behind. The city lights greeted you outside, a stark contrast to the suffocating atmosphere within.
Your telephone remained eerily silent, devoid of the calls and opportunities that once filled it with promise. Jungkookโs vindictiveness had effectively severed the threads connecting you to your professional life, leaving you adrift in a sea of uncertainties.
A tear escaped your eye as you clutched the piece of paper you fetched out of your mailbox โ an eviction notice. You had fallen behind on rent, pleading with your landlord for more time, promising to pay in full for two months once you secured a job. But that ended up not happening, and thatโs how you find yourself sitting in a messy apartment full of half packed boxes, no job, little money left, and a bottle of cheap wine.
Moving in with friends or seeking refuge with your parents was not an option. They never supported your dreams enough to provide for you in such dire circumstances, especially at your age. Unmarried, jobless, and on the brink of homelessness, you felt trapped.
Despite your efforts to secure another job, including poorly recreating parts of your portfolio, rejections piled up, and the search for a new apartment proved equally futile. Not like you could afford it anyway.
The city that once held promise now felt like a maze of closed doors and dead ends. The mere thought of dialling his number sent a shiver down your spine, a conflicting mix of pride and necessity wrestling within you.
You drank the last of your wine, hiccupped, and cried. With only twenty-four hours to vacate your flat for the new tenant to come in. The friends you once thought you could rely on were facing their own struggles, unable to provide the sanctuary you so desperately needed. You had nowhere to go apart to his clutches if you of course did not want to freeze to death in the bustling city. It confused you how it came to having no other option.
Taking a deep breath, you dialled his number, each ring echoing the surrender of your independence. The telephone rang in your trembling hand. As the call connected, a heavy silence hung in the air and you desperately tried to calm your breathing.
โJeon speaking,โ his voice crackled through the phone. You were shaking in cold sweat, your eyes blood red from crying and alcohol clouded your mind enough to call him.
โHello?โ you heard his voice speak again, and another sob left your lips. The lump in your throat made it difficult to speak, but you pushed through the discomfort.
โI-Iโm sorry.โ The man on the other line smirked, seemingly thrilled to hear your voice. The next sentence you uttered, however, was even sweeter music to his ears.
โI need you.โ
You heard his car park in front of your building the next morning. The boxes were long gone on their way to the heart of Manhattan where Jungkookโs penthouse awaited. It was only you and your suitcase with only necessities packed inside. The reality of the situation hit you as you looked around at the empty apartment. The purple walls, once full of pictures from trips with your friends, were now bare. The fridge stripped of silly magnets you liked to collect, stood empty. Nothing left.
Taking a deep breath, you gripped the handle of your suitcase with a sense of resignation. You glanced out of the window on your way out, finding Jungkook casually leaning against his shiny black Jaguar, smiling directly at you. Closing your eyes, you mentally said goodbye to your small apartment.
Your hair, lazily put into a hair clip when you woke up, had a few stray strands escaping, framing your face that still showed signs of swelling from crying all night.
As you stepped out into the hallway, the door closing behind you, the weight of the suitcase in your hand served as a physical reminder of the choice you had made. Is this really your only option?
The sound of Jungkookโs footsteps echoed in the corridor, approaching closer with each passing second. He ran up the stairs just as you were locking the door. His gummy smile met your gaze, a clear expression of his happiness. The heartthrob had finally gotten you where he wanted you all along.
He was dressed in a denim jacket and jeans from the collection you worked on. As if he was intent on reminding you of something. His long curly locks were gone, replaced by a short mullet.
You, on the other hand, did not feel to dress classy and elegant as you usually did. You swapped heels for a pair of white sneakers, a tight designer skirt for simple blue boyfriend jeans and your upper body was covered by a white shirt layered with a pink shirt you loosely tight on your waist, leaving the buttons half open.
โBaby?โ he called out. You mustโve zoned out, as now he was holding your suitcase in his hand, ready to leave.
โMโsorry, I was in my head,โ you apologised. You didnโt want to upset him by negatively reacting to the pet name even though you irked to tell him youโre not his baby.
He smiled softly, putting the suitcase down, walking over to you. He caressed your cheek, leaning in for a kiss. Turning your face, he landed his lips on your other cheek. The man chuckled and put the freed strands of your hair behind your ear. โDonโt worry. I got you now.โ
The drive to Jungkookโs penthouse was filled with an uncomfortable silence as the city lights passed by in a dizzying display.
โWelcome home!โ The words hung in the air, the irony not lost on you. This was far from a home; it was a gilded cage you succumbed to. You did not answer him. You couldnโt bring yourself to do so.
He was saying something about a closet, but your mind totally spaced out looking at the boxes that you packed hours prior, casually sitting in his living room.
โBaby?โ You looked at him, eyes wide when you realised you were not listening to him again.
โDo you want to start unpacking or should we head out for brunch first?โ He approached you. Jungkook did not stop smiling since he pulled his car in front of your building.
Unpacking felt like an acceptance of this new reality, while brunch felt like an attempt to hold onto some semblance of normalcy.
โI... I think we should talk,โ you finally managed to say, your voice carrying the uncertainty that lingered within. Jungkookโs smile wavered for a moment, but he quickly masked it.
You couldnโt ignore the fact that your life had taken a sharp turn, and the unfamiliar surroundings only intensified the sense of displacement. Jungkook threw himself at his sofa just where you were sitting months prior. He motioned with his hand, silently ordering you to sit.
โI promise not to bother you long. I just need you to get me off the blacklist so I can get a job. I canโt be tied to you indefinitely.โ You spoke softly, careful to not anger him just yet. You knew he wouldnโt appreciate the direction this conversation was heading, but you needed to set the record straight. This was temporary, at least in your mind.
Jungkookโs expression shifted, a subtle tension in his features. He sighed. Leaning forward, Jungkook grabbed the remote control of the HiFi that was standing proud, setting it on, and whence the soft tones of Isaakโs โWicked Gameโ resonated the penthouse, you could not help but raise an eyebrow.
He petted his knee, a silent invitation. You were not stupid to not understand what he wants, yet you opted to sit next to him instead of where he wanted you.
โMaybe we got lost in translation, love.โ He spoke leaning closer to you. The music seemed to underscore the unspoken tension in the room.
โYou wonโt leave me, baby. Iโll keep you so satisfied and happy; you wonโt even want to go.โ He whispered to your ear. The atmosphere became charged with a palpable desire. His proximity sent a shiver down your spine, a conflicting mix of temptation and resistance.
โYou canโt keep me here against my will, Jungkook,โ you asserted, maintaining a thin thread of defiance. Yet, the allure of his touch lingered in the air, clouding your better judgement.
โTry me, love. Iโve got ways to make you stay,โ he countered, his tone dripping with confidence.
It took all you have in you to stand up and storm to the large windows that provided a magnificent view of Manhattan. This time, however, he was right behind you.
You heard him growl. He was angry, and he proved so once you found yourself pinned to the large window, your back facing him. He attacked your neck right away, bruising every single inch. His hand roamed over your breast, squeezing them to the point you had to moan. The situation escalated rather quickly, your resistance made him press you to his back even harder.
โIโm so tired of your running,โ he groaned into your neck. You put your hands on the glass trying to push yourself away and give yourself space to free from his grasp, but he has put a majority of his weight on you. You can feel his growing pulsating bulge on your heart-shaped bottom.
โMaybe I should show you, who you belong to, princess.โ He cupped your sex through your pants, and you whimpered from the sensation. You knew this was utterly wrong; you should not react to his touch this way, but you couldnโt help to notice the wetness pooling in between your legs once he continues to attack your neck with his soft plump lips.
โJungkook-โ You tried to resist, but his hand was already done with unbuttoning your jeans, sliding right down to your core. Your panties were sticky, your head was spinning, and the part of a window was getting foggy right next to your mouth from your hot breath.
โIโm gonna fuck you so good.โ He pulled his hand out of your pants for a second to wet his fingers and put them right back on the little bud that was waiting to be touched. He pressed his fingertips on your clit, circling it painfully slow. The heartthrob rutted his hips into your ass, looking for a friction, making you move your hips towards his hand. He chuckled to your ear.
โIf you want that job, baby, why donโt you deserve it first?โ you could sense a little hint of mockery in his voice. The pulsating beats of the music seemed to echo the rhythm of his movements. Now slow and calculated.
As the song reached its crescendo, his finger entered your vibrating heat. โHm?โ He pried, his finger moving in and out in punishingly slow, drawing silent moans from you when he brushed up the right spot.
โW-what do you want?โ You stammered out of yourself.
โYou. All of you of course.โ Jungkook replied in a heartbeat. Your heart raced and your head was clouded by the pleasure he was providing. Moving his finger slightly faster, you found yourself bowing forward, your body wanted him to reach deeper.
โPleaseโโ you whimpered when he slowed down the tempo again.
โGive me an answer baby, will you be my good girl?โ Now it was your mind that raced, grappling with the implications of his question while squeezing your walls around his finger.
โMaybe you need a little more convincing, hm?โ He softly bit your earlobe whilst inserting his second finger into your heat, making you moan louder than before. You pressed your forehead onto the glass and looked down at his hand in between your legs. The sight made your pussy clench even harder. A small tear escaped your eye, you are overwhelmed, and the pleasure is clouding your sound judgement.
โWhat will it be, baby?โ His fingers finally raised the tempo, and your eyesight was getting blurry, biting your lip from the sensation.
โFuckโโ you nibbed at your bottom lip a bit harder, trying to fight with yourself. But you couldnโt. He was playing a game, and he was winning this round.
โYes!โ you screamed louder than you intended when he hit the sweet spot, making you see stars. You did not necessarily want to agree. It was more of a reaction to how good his fingers feel inside of you. But Jungkookโs interpretation did not align with yours.
What you did not expect is the sudden feel of emptiness once his fingers abdicated its place. You protested with an unpleasant whine of frustration.
He spun you to face him, being quick enough to grab you below your ass, illocutionary forcing you to jump up. Jungkook leaned in to kiss you while he navigated the apartment blindly, right to the master bedroom.
Now you were feeling thrown. Literally. Your body bounced a little while Jungkook stood at the foot of his king sized bed adorned in black sheets. You could smell his expensive cologne on them. He was very eager to continue what you started.
His shirt was long gone and so were his pants when he was pulling down yours, alongside with your through-and-through wet panties. He very quickly inhabited his head in between your legs. Licking all the dirty juice your pussy was producing.
You could not help but to bury your fingers into his hair, slightly tugging on it once he decided to abuse your clit, sucking on it, his piercing cold against your skin. You were starting to feel the knot inside your lower belly, moaning and panting out loud.
โIโm gonna!โโ you breathed out heavily. Squeezing your eyes shut, feeling the heat rushing your body.
โNot yet,โ said the heartthrob, parting away from you. You shot your eyes open to look at him towering over you, his briefs thrown away somewhere in the room, and his pride leaning proudly against his abdomen, angry and red. The perfect opposite of soft. You gulped down. He was definitely not lying when he suggested he is thick.
The heartthrob helped you get rid of the rest of your clothes, bending down to lay a single kiss right above your clit, maintaining eye contact with you all the time. Sticking his tongue out yet again, making a straight wet line up your belly, ending at the valley between your breasts.
โYouโre so fucking beautiful.โ He groaned, squeezing your tits while pumping his dick, he could not take it anymore.
He spread your legs further, making space for him to fit right in. Your walls are trembling from excitement, especially when he presses the length of his cock to your lips, coating himself in your juices.
โCondoโโ you went to say when his lips silenced you in a hard passionate kiss. He moaned to your mouth, pressing the tip of his cock to your entrance, stretching you open. You pressed your hands to his chest, parting away from him. He looked at you with confusion and you repeated yourself.
โCondom, Guk,โ you said, using the nickname in an attempt to soften his hard features. Something told you that you might have just pissed him off. The heartthrob sighed and involuntarily got up, walking all the way to the bathroom, giving you a million-dollar view of his ass. Your gaze then shifted to his muscular shoulders, involuntarily admiring his impressive physique. You couldnโt deny he was hot as hell.
Your nipples were perky from the thrill that your body was going through. It was quite some time since the last you got laid. Maybe thatโs why it took him minimum effort to turn you into a whiny, needy little bitch.
You heard the light switch going off in the bathroom, and the man himself appearing in the doorframe with the little shiny square in his hands. Tearing it open, he returned to sit on his knees on the bed while sliding the condom on.
He grabbed your legs under your knees with one swift movement, sliding you closer to him. One hand aiming his cock to your entrance the other finding its place on your throat, holding it with the right pressure to elevate your pleasure. Pushing all the way through, you whimpered loudly at the intrusion. He was big, and you felt like youโre going to explode. The heat rushed through you like a momentary fever.
The heartthrob could not wait for you to adjust to his size, and he started to snap his hips into you in a punishing tempo, making your body bounce up at every thrust and clench your eyes shut tightly. Loud moans coming out of you.
โYou take me so well, baby.โ He whispered into your ear seductively, panting and groaning from the pleasure. He was on cloud nine, finally having the woman he longed for quite some time.
โGot me waiting for this pussy almost the whole damn year.โ You met his hungry gaze, your moaning synchronised with his. He crushed his lips to yours one more time before thrusting his cock in and out of your heat faster and deeper.
You bit down on his lip, him groaning at the sensation, slapping your ass in the heat of the moment.
โThis pussy was fucking designed for me.โ He claimed you.
He was hitting all the right places, making you squeeze your eyes shut again. He upheld his promise to fuck you good. You can regret this after, now itโs not the time.
โMโwanna pound this pretty ass too.โ He pulled out of you, turning you to lay on your belly, slapping the already reddened skin before setting you on all fours, ass up. He did not hesitate to rut inside of you again, feeling him all the way in your stomach, you screamed his name.
โJungkook!โ his thrusts set a brutal pace that you were not sure if youโll survive. Their moans continued to echo in the room.
โYou belong to me.โ He growled, pounding your pussy, the sound of skin slapping was audible ten times louder than usual. The knot in your lower belly appeared again, got you moaning uncontrollably.
Jungkook sensed that your climax was near and went to rub your clit with the desire to make you cum all over him while getting himself off with you.
โGukโโ you choked on your words, your legs and hands were trembling, tears springing out of your eyes. You desperately needed to cum.
โI know, baby.โ He kissed the arch of your back, making his hand and hips move even faster, hitting your cervix. If this is heaven, you donโt want to leave.
โI-Iโm gonna cum! Iโm gonna cum! Iโm gonna cum!โ You shouted, feeling the knot untying itself rather quickly. Jungkook growled right to your ear. He was close too, dangerously close.
โBaby!โ He whimpered, feeling the tension rising.
Your juice splashed the sheets as you squirted all over his cock, crying, the orgasm hitting you way too hard. Jungkookโs hips did not stop while he chased his own release, complimenting you, your body, and how you are such a good girl while doing so. With a loud moan and one last deep thrust, he came in you, holding you still while he emptied himself. The warmth of his release felt too authentic, but you were too fucked out to notice.
As you were also too fucked out to notice the empty abandoned condom laying on the ground.
โI love you so much babyโโ
It was getting dark outside when you woke up, your head pounding as you looked over your naked body and evident ache in between your legs. The sheer curtains that are covering the floor to ceiling windows, once airy and light, now filter the early evening light into a soft, diffused glow, creating a cosy atmosphere. You cuddled the soft sheets that were wrapped around your lower body, thinking that you could sleep some more.
But when you heard the muted notes of En Vogueโs Whatta Man blasting somewhere in the penthouse, any hopes of serenity were shattered. A curse slipped through your lips as the reality of your surroundings hit you.
โFuck,โ you muttered through your teeth, the small fists pounding against the bed. To muffle the scream of mixed emotions, you seized a leopard-patterned pillow, pressing it against your face.
You had willingly let this happen, all for the pursuit of a damn book and damn fucking job and your damn fucking career. But why was it so precious, you might ask? Your portfolio wasnโt just a collection of pages bound together; it was a culmination of dreams, aspirations, and relentless hard work. Each design you made over the years, a carefully curated piece of your artistic vision, held a piece of your soul.
The portfolio was your identity as a designer, a visual storyteller who poured emotions, creativity, and skill into each piece of clothing. It was something you presented yourself with, and you believed it held the power to open doors. It got you your first adult job after you spent two years in the big apple on your own, dreaming big while washing dishes behind the counter.
And it got you the second job of your early fashion career, a higher position than sales assistant, the head designer at the menโs wear division at Calvin Klein. You were aiming to become the head of the department when a better offer came your way, from Guess.
The project they offered you to be a part of was a kind of interview to get through and sit as the executive director of the womenโs department. You were thrilled to accept as you always wanted to design for your gender.
And he fucked it up. So, you have to excuse yourself by letting your guard down, giving him a chance to sway you. You are doing this for you and your career.
You sat on the bed, eyeing the modern bedroom that screamed his name as did the smell of the room. Just like you remembered before you blacked out from all the pleasure he forced upon you.
Sighing, you moved your sore naked body to the edge of the bed. A black leather armchair caught your eye, a clean set of underwear laid out on it, burning under your gaze. You gulped down. This was your mess after all. You let him come too closeโextremely close, judging by the recurring ache between your legs.
โFuck it, itโs fine.โ Youโd manage somehow, or at least, thatโs how you decided to play along with his nonsensical fantasy and possessive behaviour.
You tiptoed down the penthouse, searching for the devil. You knew you were going the right way when the music grew louder. Peeking from the narrow hallway into the living room, he was nowhere in sight. Only the RCA telly with MTV on indicated that he mustโve been there.
The sizzling sound of something cooking and a pleasant aroma hit your ears and nose. He was in the kitchen, cooking. Jeon Jungkook was in the kitchen, cooking. A certain degree of domesticity welcomed you as you stepped into the all-blue kitchen. His kitchen was way nicer than yours, you noted. Large cabinets, the island full of food ingredients he was preparing. Your gaze lingered as your eyes traced his masculine, naked back, tattoos shouting at you. Your knees felt weak at the sight, your body reacting to him as if he were the alpha wolf.
You couldnโt help but bite your lip. He was swaying his hips to the rhythm of the song. Even from this point of view, you could tell he is in a very good mood. It seemed like he was glowing.
You leaned against the arch, contemplating whether to make your presence known or observe from the shadows. Before you could decide, he turned around, planning to cut the vegetables, his eyes locking onto yours immediately. Bunny smile plastered on his face, reaching his ears โ a juxtaposition to how anxious you looked in his big shirt.
Quickly circling the kitchen island, he reached you in a matter of seconds. The heartthrob was beaming with happiness seeing you in his kitchen, in his shirt, barefoot, face raw, and all his. At least, that was his perspective after he finally got you where he wanted you.
โBaby!โ He squeaked happily, pulling you by your wrists. The movement causes your petite frame to collide with his naked torso. Jungkook did not let you speak even if you wanted to, instead he pulled you even closer, pressing his lips to yours. You yelped, surprised by the unexpected collision. The vulnerability you felt in his presence only heightened as he claimed you, his happiness seemingly derived from having you exactly where he wantedโvulnerable and dependent on him.
The kiss lingered for a moment, and as Jungkook pulled back, his eyes locked onto yours again, gleaming with an unspoken mischief you could not decipher. He seemed to revel in the flustered state he had induced, and a cocky grin played on his lips.
โMorning, beautiful,โ he whispered, his warm breath grazing your ear as he finally released your wrists, pecking your lips softly again. The shirt you wore clung to your form.
โItโs almost five pm.โ You muttered back after you gave the digital clock on the stove a glance. He laughed it off, not replying.
โHow do you like your steak?โ he asked, his tone casual as if the passionate kiss hadnโt just occurred.
โM-medium rare,โ you stammered, still processing the sudden turn of events. He chuckled, the sound resonating in the cosy kitchen as he came back to the stove to resume cooking, what you assumed is your dinner. Your stomach growled loudly when the delicious smell hit your nostrils, loudly. Jungkook even looked your way, encouraging you to take whatever you wanted from the fridge that was next to him, until dinner was ready.
You looked at the silver double-door fridge, and suddenly, your hunger vanished. Those were your magnets that were on your fridge just hours prior. He went through your boxes and unpacked them. The world was spinning, and your stomach was dangerously twisting.
He noticed the change in your expression, the playfulness in his eyes fading as he followed your gaze to the fridge.
โSomething wrong, baby?โ he inquired. You swallowed hard, attempting to mask the unease that threatened to bubble to the surface.
โNo, nothing,โ you replied, forcing a tight smile. His attention returned to the stove, the sizzling sounds and savoury aroma filling the kitchen. The clock on the stove continued its indifferent march towards evening. But your mind stopped.
โI-I thinkโโ you stammered, it was hard for you to speak when there was an evident lump in your throat that wanted to emerge to the surface.
โBaby?โ he raised a brow at you, letting everything he was doing to approach you again. You gulped down, trying to breathe it out.
โI think... I needโ,โ you tried, the words escaping in a breathy whisper. Jungkookโs expression shifted from curiosity to concern as he stepped closer. That got you even more anxious and a quick escape was a way you opted.
Your legs carried you back to the room where you knew a bathroom would be near. You heard him calling your name, but he did not run to get you. He must have thought that youโre trying to run again, but when he saw you going the way the master bedroom is, he did not push it.
You slumped right to your knees, emptying your already empty stomach into the toilet. Tears stringed from your eyes. Before you could calm or clean yourself the door creaked open, and Jungkookโs concerned voice seeped into the bathroom.
โOh my god! Are you okay baby?โ He hovered in the doorway, uncertainty flickering in his eyes. You didnโt have the strength to respond, only offering a weak nod as you continued to empty the contents of your stomach.
His footsteps approached, and you could feel him kneeling beside you, one hand tentatively rubbing your back.
โEasy, baby. Easy,โ he murmured softly.
After a moment, the nausea subsided, and you leaned back against the cool porcelain, wiping your mouth with the back of your hand. Jungkook remained by your side, a true concern readable in his eyes.
As you caught your breath, you couldnโt help but notice the familiar objects around the bathroom. Toothbrush, hairbrush, all your makeup and even your pyjamas, had found a place alongside Jungkookโs in the bathroom. He was blurring the lines between your lives.
Glancing at yourself in the mirror, you winced at the sight of prominent hickeys and bite marks adorning your neck. You caught Jungkookโs worrying gaze but did not pay attention to it longer than you needed to.
โWhen was the last time you ate properly, baby?โ he asked, caressing the small of your back, kissing the top of your head. You touched the tender skin on your neck, a mix of shame and regret settling in the pit of your stomach.
You knew very well that this wasnโt a doing of the lack of nutrition within your body but it did stop you to think for a second. When was the last time you had a proper meal and not a cheap ramen noodles from a convenience store near your building? You did not recall, so you rather opted to shrug your shoulders and reach for your toothbrush that could have melted under your gaze at this point.
โWhy donโt you freshen up, and Iโm going to finish dinner.โ He sighed and kissed your temple. Youโve let him. He has done worse. As he left the bathroom, you couldnโt shake the feeling of being exposedโphysically, emotionally, and now even in your most private spaces. Your eyes lingered back on the assortment of makeup and personal items neatly arranged beside his.
Brushing your teeth never felt so foreign and unnatural. Your eyes darted around his room after you finished, and thatโs when you noticed what you did not when you woke up โa closet, half-filled with your clothes. Neatly folded, hanged right beside his. Even your jewellery was sorted by the type of metal. Your shoes, your skirts, dresses, everything. He had seamlessly integrated your wardrobe into his, as if signalling an intention far beyond a temporary stay.
Then all your pictures scattered on the walls as you walked down the corridor back to the heartthrob who swayed you here. Feeling the unease building in your stomach again.
Jungkook stood by the table, a knowing smile playing on his lips as he watched you approach. His eyes flickered with a mixture of amusement and possession. This all seemed like a stage for a performance you hadnโt signed up for.
The steak, perfectly cooked to your liking, accompanied by a side of vegetables. The spread looked delectable, and your stomach rumbled again, reminding you that you hadnโt had a proper meal in days. The scent of the meal teased your senses.
As you picked at your food, a question lingered in the back of your mindโhow had it come to this? Have you really had no choice but him? Was this worth the trouble? Perhaps.
Your parents would think of you as a failure if you returned home. and your pride did not allow you to pick up your old job and be a girl for everything. You worked in the fashion industry and you were willing to do anything to maintain it.
โAre you listening to me, baby?โ Jungkook broke the stream of your consciousness, his voice soft yet insistent. You hummed in response but your ears could not pick precise words that left his mouth.
โThereโs Grammys next week, do you have any design for the red carpet so we could matchโโ
โWhat about the job?โ You interrupted him, setting your fork down, staring at him viciously.
โSo the Grammysโโ he tried to continue without replying to you but you were having none of it.
โSo the job, Jungkook.โ You said through clenched teeth one more time. You werenโt about to let him sidestep the conversation about your career.
He sighed, the corners of his mouth twitching with a momentary annoyance. The room crackled with tension, the unspoken power dynamics unravelling before you.
โYouโve been a very good girl so farโโ he lifted the handkerchief he had on his lap and placed it on top of the table next to his glass of red wine.
โWhy do you have to misbehave now.โ His attempt to redirect the conversation towards your behaviour only fuelled your frustration.
โIโm not misbehaving, Jungkook,โ you shot back, your voice sharp and unyielding. โI need to know about the job. I need to know that youโre actually doing something concrete to help me, not just playing puppeteer with my life.โ
โThereโs an opening at Givenchy, and Prada or Dior butโโ your eyes were full of false hope.
โโuntil I can be sure you wonโt leave me the second you get the new job. You wonโt go to any interview.โ He leaned back, a predatory gleam in his eyes, as if enjoying the power play.
Your mind raced, torn between ambition and self-respect. You had worked tirelessly to establish yourself, and the taste of success was within reach. Yet, the cost demanded by Jungkook was steepโan indefinite surrender of your autonomy.
โThatโs not what we agreed uponโโ You whined out, anxiety clutching your insights in tight grip.
โOh but we did baby.โ He answered swiftly, smiling sweetly.
โIโโ you wanted to protest, but he was quick to dismiss any argument you wanted to come up with.
โI said I want you, and you agreed, baby. You canโt take it back.โ
โWhat does that even mean?!โ You whined out.
โThat I wonโt let you slip through my fingers again. You belong here with me, and you better learn your place or prepare for a farewell with the magnificent fashion world of yours.โ The ultimatum echoed in your mind as his gaze was trying to make you submit. Jungkookโs possessiveness loomed over you, a suffocating force that sought to confine your wings.
โYou canโt force me,โ words slipped past your lips, a proclamation of your refusal to succumb to his dominance.
โYou underestimate the lengths Iโll go to keep you, Y/N,โ he retorted, his voice low and laced with a dangerous edge.
โYouโre sick.โ You spat out at him, standing up to leave when he grabbed you and held you tight. You were looking up at his face, seemingly angry with your words. His eyes darkened, a fleeting moment of anger crossing his features.
โArenโt you a bit ungrateful, my love?โ he seethed, his voice a low growl. The possessive tone sent shivers down your spine, but you refused to cower under his gaze.
โIโm providing you with shelter, food, money and most of all my love.โ
โItโs sick, Jungkook. This isnโt love,โ you shot back, your voice unwavering. He leaned in, his face inches from yours, his grip unyielding. He scoffed, a bitter smile playing on his lips.
โYouโre testing my patience, Y/N. Youโre mine,โ he retorted quickly, not letting you go. You wanted to protest, to tell him to fuck off, and even worse things, but he was not finished.
โThink with your pretty little head, wonโt you?โโ you glared at him, defiance burning in your eyes.
โโyou can live like a princess, you can have your dream position and on top of that a loving significant other โ me.โ The seconds felt like an eternity, the weight of his possessiveness pressing down on you.
โWhat is success for when you cannot share the joy with someone you love.โ He whispered, a sinister undertone in his words. You had a feeling heโs not only talking about you. You had to think, and you had to think quickly.
โYouโre asking me to give up my autonomy, Jungkook.โ You shot back, your voice unwavering. He scoffed, the air heavy with tension.
โYouโre too stubborn for your own good, Y/N. You need meโโ He chuckled, a condescending tone lacing his voice.
โโwhat were you gonna do if you didnโt come to me? Hm? Your mami and papi who are disappointed in you or your fake friends who did not bat an eye to try and help you out?โโ You turned your face away from him, not wanting to let his words affect you.
โโI helped you. I am here for you!โ He shook you, still holding a tight grip on you.
โAll Iโm asking in return is you to give yourself to me.โ With a defiant push, you broke free from his grasp, leaving him seething in frustration. Covering your face with your palms, you sobbed.
โLove and loyalty is not that big of a price when you think about it.โ
โYou promise?โ you choked out through your tears. You were tired, exhausted to the bone, and this was taking a bigger toll on you than you would expect. You wanted to trick him and instead he tricked you. But you needed to play by his rules to win in the game he started. His eyes softened momentarily, a twisted form of concern flickering in his gaze.
โI promise, baby,โ he murmured, his tone almost soothing. The fire has ceased for now. Or so you thought. Despite the fragile promise, you couldnโt shake off the feeling that you were dancing on the edge of a precipice, held by the strings he so skilfully pulled. But the stakes were high, and you couldnโt afford to falter. You had no shelter, almost no money and no one to turn to. For now. You promised yourself, this is temporary. You will find a way out of this arrangement.
You finished your dinner. He insisted. You stripped naked while he was drawing the bath. He again insisted. The penthouse, filled with music and the fragrance of expensive candles. You allowed yourself to be led, like a puppet, your exhaustion overshadowing your instincts. As you sat there in the hot water, vulnerable, he wiped away your tears.
The water lapping against your skin is like an ominous reminder of the depths you found yourself in. Jungkookโs hands traced patterns on your back.
Jungkook, seemingly attuned to your exhaustion, wiped away your tears, the gesture carrying a strange mixture of care and control.
โItโs all gonna feel better once you accept it.โ Said he, right to your ear, sending shivers down your naked body. You pressed your legs to your chest to hide yourself, a futile attempt at preserving some semblance of privacy, even though he had seen it all.
โI cannot grasp why you would do this to me, Jungkook,โ you sobbed, letting him hold you against his chest.
โI did it for us, baby.โ His hands firmly gripped yours now, making them stop hugging your knees. The heartthrob wanted you to relax in his presence. A laughable request considering the circumstances that led you here.
โStop being delusional. There is no us.โ You finally let him move your hands only for you to grab the frame of the bathtub and attempt to pull yourself up and away from him. He did not fancy this attempt of yours, and he let you know that by grabbing a large portion of your hair, dragging you back.
Your body slammed to his naked torso with a loud slap caused by the wet skin on skin contact. It took your breath away for a good minute.
โYou didnโt seem to argue about it earlier today when my cock was hitting all-the-right-places, making you squirt, hmm?โ Said the raven haired man, still holding your hair in his fist. He did not intend to hurt you, no, it was not as painful as the whole humiliating scenery and the fact you could not break free of him. Heโs putting an example of what will happen once you stop behaving again. Putting you in your place โ thatโs what he called it.
โMatter of fact, Imma show you again that thereโs us baby, until you realise it yourself.โ
Trying to wiggle out of his grasp, you whimpered every time you pulled your hair back to make you stay still. And as if he changed his mind, your body was pulled out of the warm water, letting your hair go, making you fall down to the bright rug on the floor of the bathroom. Soaking it wet you looked up to him towering over your shivering physique.
โIt was about time for you to show me how you are grateful to be my good girlโโ he stepped closer. You did not want to look at him, knowing well what he is talking about.
โOpen up babyโโ you shook your head, pulling away from him and his hard member that he was holding just inches away from your face. You felt it meet your cheek and immediately retrieved yourself again which made him even more frustrated. His cock was painfully hard, and you were not cooperating.
The tattooed hand in your hair pulled you right back, his eyes bore to yours with a hard stare, and you swear they got even darker. His other hand was clutching your jaw, harder and harder until you involuntarily opened your mouth wide enough.
Taking the chance right away, he slipped his thick and hard manhood into your mouth, hitting the back of your throat. He hissed at how your teeth slightly scraped his dick. You choked on it, but he was unfazed by it, continuing to thrust into your throat, making tears fall down your cheeks.
โI knew you could be my good girl.โ He groaned, praising you with each of his hard thrusts into your mouth. Your breathing was shallow, and you tried to get as much air as you could. He was moaning loudly, the wet sounds of his cock slipping in and out of your mouth, covered by your saliva made him even more aroused and hungry for you.
โYou just need a bit of a re-education.โ He was getting lost in the pleasure your mouth was providing him, and you were deprived of the air you needed. Your hand hit his pelvis when you thought youโre going to pass out soon.
โJust a moment more, baby. I know you can take it.โ He said through gritted teeth. Jungkook was panting loudly, mixing it with loud moans of your name.
โFuck, Y/N. Youโre my heaven.โ Your nails were scratching his abdomen, trying to break free, but his hold was too strong. You were drooling all over his cock, and your hand started to spin from the lack of oxygen and how quickly your head was bobbing.
He was getting dangerously close and his sloppy movements reflected that. He managed to pull one last thrust before he was cumming down your throat. He was letting his dick soften, pressed on your tongue while the hot semen was springing out of his tip.
โSwallow.โ
The night wore on, shadows dancing on the walls as you lay there, pressed to his chest, his hand limply laying on your hip, contemplating the surreal turn you took.
If anything arose in you during the intercourse you wish you would wipe out of your mind, it was a determination to break free from the suffocating grasp of the penthouse.
Jungkook laid beside you, his breathing steady, a faรงade of tranquillity painted on his features. As he drifted into a seemingly serene slumber, you waited for the right moment to seize the opportunity.
When you were certain he was deeply asleep, you carefully extricated yourself from his embrace, a shiver running down your spine as you tiptoed through the room.
The moon cast a pale glow through the sheer curtains, guiding your movements as you tiptoed across the room. Your hand grasped the cold doorknob, the soft creaking of the door threatened to betray your escape. Your body frozen in time, your pupils shaking, fearing what happens if he wakes up. You wait a minute to make sure he is not coming to drag you back before you open the door in one swift movement.
You rethought the tasks you listed in your plan. Find the portfolio and get the fuck out as quick as possible. Everything else is replaceable for you. The mindset that the portfolio is the only key to all your problems, remained.
The adrenaline surged through your veins, the pulse of your heart echoing in the quiet hallway you walked through to get to the front of the penthouse.
He never took you upstairs, therefore you assumed thatโs where he mustโve hidden it.
You approached the staircase, the carpet soft beneath your feet. The air seemed to grow heavier with every ascending step. The possibility of him waking up was not zero.
As you reached the upper level, you noticed the subtle shift in the ambiance. The hallway, adorned with pieces of art that whispered tales of luxury, and all his awards he won during his career, displayed to show his success. You passed several open doors, a home recording studio in one of them, be ridden of what you were looking for.
The hallway led you towards a set of double doors. That must be it. The doors creaked open, your gaze scanning for any sign of your portfolio. Your eyes flickering between the meticulously arranged accolades and the sprawling desk. He must be using this room as his office.
The seconds stretched into minutes, the urgency escalating with each passing heartbeat. You began with the drawers of the glass table, trying to be as quiet as possible. You cannot afford to cause commotion.
Anxiety wrapped around you, a vice tightening with every passing moment. You went through the library too, looked under every surface, you could not find it.
With a deep breath, you steadied yourself. There must be another place he could have hidden it. Your eyes fell upon the stack of papers, leaning your head to the side you examined the tabloid underneath with your face on it.
You fished it out in mere seconds, eyeing it unbelievably. If you were on the cover of a tabloid you would for sure know that. But you were not aware that your face appeared in Star magazine, right beside Jungkook. โJungkookโs Mysterious Muse Revealed!โ the headline screamed at you.
It was not only you after all. Society has convinced Jungkook that you two are sort of an item. A clandestine affair, a narrative spun by the society, linking your name with Jungkookโs in a tale of intrigue.
It was dated right when you started working on Kleinโs campaign, back in April. It is almost the end of November now, and this is the first time youโre seeing this. You couldnโt fathom how deeply the web had been woven around you. The urgency of the situation intensified, and you combed through every conceivable hiding spot.
A sudden noise from downstairs snapped your attention. Fear gripped you, and your heart raced. Did he wake up? The urgency of the situation intensified, and you felt the weight of the clock ticking against you.
You sobbed and when you went to rub your eyes, they fell upon the other room diagonally from the one you were searching now. The doors were slightly ajar and you could see soft shades of colours within. In a last-ditch effort you marched towards it.
But ever stepping inside you regretted. The whole scenery that was revealed once you opened the door swiftly caught your breath in your throat.
The soft shades of colours painted a haunting pictureโa baby room, unfinished and untouched by time. The sight startled you, sending a shiver down your spine. This canโt be.
โNo..โ You whispered to yourself, panicking. Your hands found their place in your hair. He is one delusional man. There is no other explanation, he is sick in the head if he thinks he is going to baby trap you.
A sense of dread overwhelmed you, and in your shock, you stumbled over something on the floor, hitting your head in the process. You groaned from the pain, forgetting that this commotion must have been loud enough for Jungkook to wake up.
As you rolled to the side, your eyes widened in disbelief. The portfolio was taped to the bottom of a cabinet. Without a second thought, you ripped it free, the sound echoing in the quiet room.
The rain outside intensified, a symphony of droplets against the windows. With the portfolio clutched in your hands, you ran down the stairs, right to the front door you prayed would not be locked. Would he be that careless? Yes. The degree of his mental instability was enough for him to believe that you are his and you would not think of running. He cut off every single option you had.
First, by making sure that your former employer would get to know youโre planning to leave the brand, enough for them to let you go. Second, he successfully obtained your portfolio that you were stupid enough to not make a copy of, which resulted in not meeting the deadline with Guess and losing that job opportunity too.
Third, he did not expect you to not stay the first you went to his penthouse but he was determined to go to extremes. So, every single fashion brand that had department stores in New York and in the rest of the world, backlisted you. No job application you sent, assistant buyer, a visibly lower position to what you had at Klein, would be turned down.
Fourth, make sure your landlord has already a tenant replacing you, ready to pay double for your apartment if they can move in as soon as possible.
That youโre alienated from your parents played his cards right and he never wished anything bad upon someone else, but how he thanked God that your friends have either too small apartments for another person to live in or they were struggling even more than you were. But lucky for you. He was right there, waiting for your call.
The handle felt too cold in your hand once you pushed the front door open merging the distance to the elevators, you were madly pushing the down button.
The seconds felt like an eternity as you waited for the elevator. Your breaths came in short, erratic bursts, mirroring the frenetic pace of your heart. Quickly stepping inside the metal box you heard it.
โY/N?!โ Your heart skipped a beat at the sound of his voice. His eyes momentarily locked with yours. You were clutching your portfolio to your chest, the other hand pressing the close button, praying it will close faster.
He must have heard you running down the stairs, or perhaps when you tripped and fell. You even forgot that youโve hurt yourself. The adrenaline was overshadowing the pain.
โCome back right now!โ He was mad, that much you could tell.
With the last determined push, you closed the door on him, severing the visual link between you. Letting out a relieving breath, you knew that this is far from being over. The elevator descended, carrying you away from the penthouse.
He cannot make it all the way down in time before youโll disappear from the area. You prayed, he would not.
The lobby welcomed you as the doors opened, the room blurred as you stormed towards the exit, your heart pounding in rhythm with the rain. You burst into the rain-soaked night. Clutching the book tightly, a surge of triumph coursed through your veins.
The cold drops pelted against your skin. The relentless downpour soaking your clothes and hair. Running towards the street, you waved at the cars, hoping a taxi would stop.
It took a minute for some yellow car to appear at the curb, not wasting time, you ran towards it.
A smile appeared on your face after a long time. You did not know where youโre going, nor what youโre going to do next but Jungkook was never supposed to be your option and now you got the chance to choose differently or not? This is your second chance, and youโre willing to take it.
Your hand touched the handle of the yellow vehicle, opening the door and planning to leap inside as quickly as possible.
A strong tattooed hand closed abruptly. You gulped down an enormous lump in your throat, almost not breathing. How could this happen? It was mere minutes. Did he run the stairs? Did you take too long to catch a cab? Should you just run as far as possible?
Every single thing you could have done differently would not change the outcome it seems. And every single thing worked out in his favour, again.
His palm pressed on the taxi door firm, you could not open it anymore nor he would let you hop in the front seat. Your heart pounded in your chest, the tension and fear to face him was killing you. The portfolio now felt like a burden, if you make peace with losing it and your career, would you avoid this?
You could feel his eyes burning holes to the back of your head.
โI will not go back.โ You said, voice resolute, but inside you were shaking. You could feel his hot breath on your cold skin, similarly you could feel his body pressing to your back. Once he reached your ear, you felt his lips mere inches from it, whispering.
โYou will.โ
I N T E R L O G U Eย
Jungkook settled into the plush leather chair after he finished carefully unpacking all your belongings, believing he is helping you to settle down. His fingers deftly dialled his motherโs number. As the phone rang, he gazed out over the city lights sprawling beneath him, a realm he had conquered with ruthless determination.
His new song, obviously written about you, was an enormous hit, granting him another Grammy nomination. But what was his success for when he did not have his love to share it with?
He smiled to himself, he got you. After long months of chasing you, then giving you the space you needed to realise he is your best shot in this world, youโre finally where you belong. Next to him.
The familiar voice of his mother greeted him, warm and comforting.
โEommaโโ Jungkook said, his tone affectionate.
โJungkook, dear! How is my baby?โ His motherโs voice held a blend of joy and concern.
โIโm doing well, Eomma. I have some news to share,โ he said, his eyes glancing toward the bedroom where Y/N lay, unaware of the conversation taking place.
โOh? Do tell,โ his mother replied, anticipation evident in her voice. Jungkook leaned back, a subtle smile playing on his lips.
โY/N moved in.โ His motherโs delight was palpable through the phone. Jungkook let her know the very moment he stepped into your office that he is very much interested in you. That he met the special one he wants to grow old with.
As he spoke, he subtly weaved a narrative of love and destiny, carefully crafting the tale of their supposed connection. His mother listened attentively, hanging onto every word.
โAre you going to propose over Christmas like you wanted, Kookie?โ His mother gasped with excitement. Jungkook glanced at the bedroom once more, satisfaction settling within him. The diamond ring well hidden deep inside of the closet. But thatโs given and final in his mind, thereโs something more he selfishly wants. Not only will it make sure you wonโt be able to leave him any more, it will give you reason to grow to love him back. After all, he would be the only person who you can grow old with.
โWeโre trying for a baby, Eomma.โ
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The cigarette you held in your hand burned slowly as you watched the smoke swirl in the air. The memory of Jungkook's intrusion replayed over and over in your mind. You found yourself creating scenarios on how you should have reacted. You envisioned yourself slapping him across the face and spitting at his feet in complete disgust, shouting at him and banging on his chest, getting ahold of anything within reach and throwing it in rage, causing as much damage as you possibly could. something, anything but reality. The reality that you found solace in that small contact and that thought repulsed you. If you couldn't keep yourself together from just a touch on the cheek, how did you plan to achieve anything to bring that family down?ย
Where did that reaction even come from? For an entire year, you had repelled the thought of being close to that man. Finding ways to avoid him entirely. Jungkook and his family had turned your life upside down and never for a moment did you ever consider that within your hatred lived a deep desire to be wanted. Sure, you had tried in the beginning to form some kind of connection, but he had never caused this kind of turmoil within you before.
You took another drag from the cigarette and inhaled slowly, shutting your eyes and wincing to yourself. You had to gather the bit of shame you had left and continue, there was no time for self-loathing or pity. Fine you had a moment of weakness, you are human after all and sometimes you are allowed to break but what you had done, what you had demonstrated to Jungkook was that he could play with you whenever he pleased and that, that you couldn't allow. As difficult as it proved to be, you needed to be as empty as him. It was the only way this plan would work.ย
โMrs. Y/nโ Ha-yoon called for you. You hummed in response as you leaned your head against the lounge chair in which you sat; a blanket comfortably laid on your lamp. โYour assistant has arrived, along with your stylist to prepare you for this eveningโ she spoke urgently. You closed your eyes for a moment and smirked. You had been more than reluctant to attend the rather infernal event but after some thought, you couldn't see why you couldn't turn this into something beneficial.ย
As you had assumed, if the Jeon family was planning this whole dinner, then they, of course, would not miss the opportunity of inviting all the important members of their inner circle. After all their reputation was everything, and what better than to show off the close-knit harmonious family they had created. Attending this event would allow you to meet every single person who had aided the Jeon family in building the criminal empire they now had.ย
They would have your full attention, you were looking forward to networking with every one of them, gaining their good graces and trust. This was a key step in your plan, you were sure that within that empire existed at least someone who hated them as much as you and if they didn't hate them, then at least they envied them. One thing you were sure of and itโs that tonight you had something to gain and what thrill did it bring. without noticing, the Jeon family had just aided you in their downfall.ย
โBring them in Ha-yoon, I need to look spectacular tonightโ you smiled.ย
Ha-yoon furrowed her brows for a moment, confusion overtaking her expression. โAre you sure youโre okay Mrs. Y/n?โ she asked. She had heard the entire altercation in the morning even if it was against her will, the screams between you and Jungkook had poured out of the dining room and into the vast spaces in the home. Ha-yoon had wanted to interrupt and bring some kind of peace amidst the war that had taken place, but she was hesitant. unsure of how her intrusion would sit with Jungkook. Afterward, she had heard the rushed steps of Jungkook and the loud slamming of the door as he stormed out of the house and then your agonizing screams as you threw every single plate of food across the room.ย
The woman who now sat calmly with a radiant smile was a stranger to the woman who had destroyed the dining room in a rage only a few hours ago. ย
You blinked, your smile faltering for just a moment. โOf course, Ha-yoon why wouldn't I be?โ you questioned, leaning your head to the side. Ha-yoon fiddled with her apron and then shook her head. โNothing Mrs. Y/n, I will allow them insideโ She bowed quickly and rushed out of the room. You took a deep breath dropping your smile and proceeded to put out your cigarette. Of course, you werenโt okay but falling back into your routine, you pretended like nothing had happened.
Soon your room was occupied by Myung and your stylist. They carried large shopping bags and hangers with flashy dresses. You stood up from where you sat on your balcony and entered the room. โY/n, my love!โ your stylist cheered as you walked inside. He threw his arms around you and hugged you tightly. You giggled into his embrace โHey Si-wooโ you breathed.
โI have so many beautiful options for you, I want you to look like the baddest bitch on the planetโ he beamed which caused you to smile. โI donโt doubt it for a second, Si-wooโ you replied. Si-woo had been your event stylist for years now, even before your marriage, and was one of the only personnel you had been allowed to keep after the union. You entrusted him with everything regarding your style, Si-woo being the only one who understood what you liked and felt comfortable in.
โHe went crazy at the store, Maโamโ Myung confirmed as she prepared the table for your makeup. โMe? Go crazy at the store how unusualโ Si-woo retorted with sarcasm. You laughed loudly and Myung smiled shyly like she always did. โHere, come look at these dressesโ he said whilst ushering you to sit on your bed, he quickly began rummaging through the rack he had brought in, pushing past some of the gowns that hung there.
โThis one is my favoriteโ he cried out as he held out a sequin golden dress, his eyes glowed as he unzipped it from its bag. โOscar De La Renta of courseโ he marveled.
ย โIt has a hand-embroidered sequin wave pattern with scallop details and a construction to accentuate your gorgeous waistโ he waved as he danced around the room with the gown.
ย For the first time since the day had begun, you felt at ease, Si-woo always managed to make you forget all your worries with his styling and charisma. โItโs strapless to show off those sexy shoulders you have, and a dramatic front slit to give it a cheeky touchโ he concluded, holding up the gown to your eyes.
โWhat do we think?โ he asks, raising his eyebrows. You nodded quickly โI love it, it's truly incredibleโ you approved which made him jump in excitement. โI knew it, as soon as I saw it on display, I knew you would love it!โ he exclaimed.
โI uhm I was under the impression you would be matching with Mr. Jeon, Maโamโ Myung spoke quietly from where she stood. Si-woo scoffed and rolled his eyes โMyung, please keep your dreadful comments to yourself, if anything it should be Jungkook who would need to be matching with our queen and savior Y/nโ he snapped back, glaring at Myung.
You wanted to burst into laughter but withheld from such a reaction, partly because it was rude and then because Myung did have a point. If you were to attend this dinner and gain the trust of the Jeonโs inner circle you needed to give the elution of a partnership with your husband and as strange as it sounded, you were aware that matching with your significant other was an indication of that. You sighed and gave Si-woo a shy stare. He shook his head and hung the dress back onto the rack.
โdonโt do this to me Y/n, I have the perfect heels and accessories for this dressโ he whined. He looked back at Myung with distaste and exasperated dramatically. โWell, what is this man wearing thenโ he asked, his hand still gripping the dress. โHe will be wearing a black suit along with a dark green undershirt and a black tieโ Myung spoke, her voice carrying excitement.
Si-woo looked around in desperation โOh my god, borrinnnnngggโ he almost yelled, causing a giggle to fall from your lips. โI will not have Y/n looking bland, she is everything but, okay?โ he voiced as he pointed at where you sat. โListen how about you get those little fingers moving and advise his stylist to just put some golden accessories on that suit for god's sake and call it a dayโ he concluded. Myung appeared nervous but nodded.
The smile that Si-woo produced afterwards couldโve blinded the sun itself as he reached for your arm. โlet's go! We have but a few hours and although you are gorgeous, we need these people to drool over you!โ you allowed him to guide you into the makeup chair proceeding to work on your hair and make-up.
After some time, there was a knock on the door and Ha-yoon stepped inside holding a tray of snacks and tea. โHello Maโam, I couldnโt help but notice you hadnโt eaten today, I wanted to bring you some refreshmentsโ she informed you as she laid the tray next to you. you gave her a bright smile and reached forth for a small sandwich โThank you so much Ha-yoon you are a lifesaverโ you spoke, taking a bite โBetween this and the medicine Nali brought into my room this morning, what would I do without you girlsโ you rejoiced.
โOh,โ Ha-yoon spoke, a small smile forming on her lips. โNo need Maโam, actually the medicine was Mr. Jeon's idea, he made sure you were taken care of this morningโ she disclosed, your jaw halted as you swallowed the rest of the sandwich harshly down your throat. โCome again?โ you asked, blinking quickly. โYes Maโam, he made sure to come into the kitchen and instructed us to ensure you received medicine for your headacheโ Ha-yoon confirmed.
You sat still as Si-woo curled another strand from your hair. You remained taken aback by the words Ha-yoon had said. What did he gain from doing that? You were sure he didn't care for you at all, so what was the real reason behind this sudden act of concern towards you?
โSeems to me like the man has finally grown a heartโ Si-woo voiced, looking at you through the mirror. You shook your head and looked back at Ha-yoon, you had no time to think about these things or the reasoning behind them. Maybe it was true he had grown a heart or maybe he just wanted to ensure you were coherent enough to put up with the atrocious conversation you had shared. You chose the ladder.
An idea settled into your head as you watched Ha-yoon shift uncomfortably in place.
โHey Ha-yoon, how well do you know the associates at the Jeon company?โ you asked, Ha-yoon looked up quickly โI uhm only met them a handful of times when they visited Mr. Jeon's father at his residence, I really donโt know much Maโamโ she expressed, shrugging slightly. You hummed โSurely you would be able to tell me their names if you saw them, right?โ you implied. She nodded innocently โOf course Maโam, it was our duty to learn the names of those who visited the Jeon residence in order for us to provide a much more comfortable visitโ she confirmed. You smirked wickedly and looked back at yourself in the mirror.
You were sure Ha-yoon knew much more than she was letting on, she had access to endless conversations and undisclosed information. Her profession allowed her to hear many things whilst serving the men their tea or coffee and thatโs exactly what you needed this evening. You needed to know how to work them. what their interests were and how they handled themselves. โSi-wooโ you called for your stylist whose head popped up from behind you as he clipped some of your hair back. โYes?โ he spoke softly with a smile.
โWe have a dress Ha-yoon could wear tonight, donโt we?โ you asked, raising your brow slightly. He glanced at Ha-yoon for a moment almost as if he was taking measurements with his eyes. โHer bust is a bit smaller than yours, but we could make it workโ he answered, looking over at the rack of dresses. โperfectโ you grinned as you looked at Ha-yoon once more. She looked frightened almost as if you had threatened her life.
โI-Iโm sorry, w-what?โ she stammered, her hands holding onto her apron tightly. โNo worries my Ha-yoon tonight you will be my confidantโ you assured her โYou see I just need a little guidance.โ
Her terrified eyes looked into yours without blinking, like a deer caught in between headlights.
โDonโt you worry darling, I will have you looking radiant!โ Si-woo promised, finishing the last touches on your hair. You nodded persuasively towards Ha-yoon. โradiantโ you mouthed as her cheeks grew flushed.
Just as promised, Si-woo had completed his craft impeccably not only making you appear absolutely stunning but completely changing Ha-Yoonโs look. You barely recognized her in the long black gown and foxy make-up. You watched Ha-Yoon as she looked over her dress timidly, rubbing her arms slightly. You could tell she was not used to this level of glamour.
After some time, you noticed a smile forming on her lips as she brushed her hands through her short hair. You stepped towards her and mirrored her smile.
You tapped on her shoulder softly and she turned around to look at you, her lips pressing together. โYou look beautifulโ you almost whispered. โThank You, Maโamโ she bowed, her face growing red. โIโve never worn anything so niceโ she confided which caused your smile to widen.
โI want you to have fun tonightโ you confessed. โof course, I'll need your assistance from time to time but I truly just want you to enjoy yourself,โ you wrapped your arms around her frame whilst turning her towards the mirror once again as you both shared smiles in the reflection.
โMaโam, the car is hereโ Myung spoke, you dropped your arms from where they held Ha-yoon and gave her a reassuring nod before reaching for your clutch and walking out of the room. Ha-Yoon would be the perfect help tonight. She was someone who wouldnโt question your motives and would provide the exact information you needed. She would play a major role in your success and freedom, and she didnโt even know it.
ย The driver held the door open as you strutted into the car, Ha-yoon following suit behind you.
โMaโam I will be making a stop just a block away from the event, your husband will be waiting for you in another carโ the driver spoke, beginning to drive away from your residence. You rolled your eyes and peered through the tinted windows disinterested in the theatrics. The show had commenced, even if you hadnโt seen Jungkook since this morning you had to give the illusion that you had arrived together like the happy couple you appeared to be.
โMaโam, are you sure this is okay?โ Ha-yoon whispered beside you, you looked over at her and nodded with a smile โDonโt worry Ha-yoon this event is for me, I can bring whomever I wantโ you reassured her. You reached for her hand and squeezed it softly. โdonโt be nervous, okay?โ she nodded quickly but you could still tell she was overthinking the entire thing much like you tended to do. For some reason, you were at ease. Having a plan in mind for tonight kept you focused, not allowing doubt to seep in as it usually did during these kinds of things.
The ride to the event was quiet, your eyes remained fixed on the cars passing by and the city lights, you werenโt going to allow anyone to ruin this for you. This was an important night for you even if it was for completely different reasons. Whilst everyone celebrated your anniversary you were confident you would soon find an acquaintance, whoever it turned out to be.
The car stopped a corner away from the hall just as instructed. The driver stepped out and quickly went to your door, holding it open for you. you gave Ha-yoon one last reassuring smile before getting out. Waiting for you were 2 bodyguards. They led you to a car which you assumed was Jungkookโs. His driver stood there patiently and opened the door for you as you neared the all-black SUV, you took one last glance at the car in which Ha-yoon sat before stepping inside. ย
Jungkook sat silently, looking out of his window. You adjusted yourself in the seat and cleared your throat to make your presence known, not that he would acknowledge it. Just as Myung had described, he wore an all-black suit with a green shirt and a black tie with the difference of a golden silk handkerchief in his front pocket and a golden pin with his family crest on it.
You noticed his new haircut, and how different he appeared with short hair. The last time he had worn it this way was for your wedding, you recalled how handsome he had looked that day as your father walked you down the aisle. The same warm feeling you had felt this morning surged through you and you felt your heart skip a beat. You looked away quickly, unwilling to entertain whatever this was forming in your chest but you couldnโt ignore the exhilaration the smell of his cologne caused you.
You held onto your clutch tightly and soon that feeling of ease you carried began to disappear. You attempted to grasp onto it for as much time as you could but the calmness which you had been so proud of just minutes before quickly left your body the moment you sat next to your husband.
Once again you felt like you were walking on eggshells. You tried to keep as much distance between you, trying to focus on anything else but the man sitting beside you. You could feel his eyes on you now as they scanned the dress you wore. It was as if he was undressing you, his stare ripping into whatever skin was exposed. You could sense he was about to say something but just as his lips parted, the car pulled into the entrance of where the dinner would be held.
Upon your arrival, you were quickly blinded by the flashing of camera lights. Your eyes widened in shock at the realization of what awaited you outside the car. โWhat?โ you whispered, looking out of the window at the paparazzi that stood there, cameras in hand. You were unaware the media would be here, assuming this would be a private event, but you were mistaken. Your grip on your clutch grew tighter as you attempted to gather your thoughts.
You hated them.
at the beginning of your marriage, they had made it their top priority to write vile tabloids about you, all pointing out how you werenโt enough for a man like Jungkook. Reading those articles caused you to swallow the little confidence you had back then, the words they had published ensured you questioned your self-worth. They dissected each one of your insecurities and then displayed them in sections of magazines for everyone to see. You grew sick at the sound of their clicking cameras as they called out your name. At that moment, all you wanted was for the car to drive away.
Your thoughts were interrupted by the door swinging open, the cold air smacking you in the face. Jungkook stood there, his hand held out for you. You hadnโt even noticed that he wasnโt sitting beside you anymore.
ย It became hard to breathe, hearing them much clearer now.
โY/n come out; we want to see you.โ
โJungkook, how is married life?โ
You looked up at Jungkook, your eyes wide open and you were hesitant to hold his hand. The very hand that had graced your cheek only a few hours ago, the same hand that had wiped away tears that he had caused. He recognized your panicked stare, the way you couldnโt focus as the lights blurred your vision. He reached for you and softly pulled you out of the car.
You couldnโt make out the voices around you as your ears ringed, the dress that you swore fit comfortably just a moment before, was now too tight. You felt the material grip your waist harshly while pressing down on your ribs and you swore given the chance, you wouldโve ripped it off at that very moment. ย
Jungkook led you onto the carpet and his arm wrapped around you as he smiled for the cameras. Yet, you couldnโt register his touch or the proximity he had as your chest pressed into his. You were too focused on surviving.
You couldnโt breathe.
ย you felt like the air had been sucked straight out of the atmosphere. Your hands grew clammy as the cameras continued to flash and your eyes couldnโt focus. You had never had a panic attack like this before. They usually came in waves and had never been as intense as this. For the most part, you were always alone, in a far quieter space. You had become great at calming yourself down but the voices around you were too loud as they consumed you, not allowing you to hear yourself.
โY/n, smile for the camera!โ
โLook here!โ
โYou look stunning Y/n!โ
โWho dressed you tonight?โ
โYou look thinner Y/n!โ
โAnswer some questions for us!โ
You felt the world caving in on you, sure that at any moment you would drop dead.
ย your hand gripped tightly onto the arm Jungkook had wrapped around your waist, your nails digging into the skin of his forearm. His eyes scanned your face, your skin had grown pale and you struggled to catch your breath. Your eyes soon swelled with tears as you looked around like a lost child.
You closed them for a moment, trying to ground yourself. You felt humiliated, you were becoming undone in front of the very people who had destroyed you with their words and you couldnโt take your control back. Couldnโt be the strong woman you so desperately yearned to be.
โHey,โ Jungkook whispered into your ear as he pressed his forehead against the side of your face. โheyโ he called once again. You opened your eyes and looked at him. his eyes locking with yours. They focused only on you. In them, you noticed warmth and calmness. โHey, look at meโ he instructed you, his voice being the only one you could make out amidst the noise around you.
You stayed there, secured in his eyes. He offered you a small smile โFocus on me, you hear me?โ he encouraged, and you felt your grip on his forearm loosen as you slowly caught your breath. The feeling of oxygen entering your lungs eased the burning that your panic attack had caused in them.
โFocus only on meโ he continued, ensuring you were now breathing with ease. He watched your chest rise and fall and then held onto your hand. โI didnโt know they would invite the mediaโ he confessed, his eyes stayed with yours and you knew he was telling the truth. You nodded slowly whilst he nodded with you, confirming you knew he was just as surprised as you.
โCome on, let's goโ he ordered, gripping your hand tightly in his and leading you away from the cameras and finally into the hall.
You grew disoriented whilst attempting to get your breathing rhythm back. As you stepped inside, several attendees began to approach you and Jungkook. He greeted them politely, his grip on your hand never lessening. they tried to conversate with you as well, but you couldnโt make out their words while your heart pounded loudly in your chest.
โPlease excuse my wife, she is not very used to the attentionโ Jungkook spoke and finally you began to register your surroundings. You quickly let go of his hand and lowered your gaze whilst he looked back at where his hand remained, empty without yours in it.
โLet go of meโ you muttered.
You were dumbfounded by his actions, the way he talked you through your panic attack, and the way he held onto your hand as if he was protecting you. You didnโt recognize this version of him now. he had never shielded you in this way before.
But then it clicked, this had to be for show. Of course, that could be the only reason.
He had to make sure your little scene didnโt ruin his image or his family name. He was obliged to portray himself as a caring and attentive husband for everyone to see. After all, that is the only thing that ever mattered. You blinked away and looked around the room.
The space had already been filled with men in suits and women in extravagant gowns, there were waiters in black tuxedos holding trays of various aperitives and champagne glasses. Flower arrangements decorated the center of each table that had been laid out with white covers and the chairs that were wrapped in the same color had red bows tied at the back.
This reminded you too much of your wedding day, the entire thing had been a blur but tonight, the memories were coming back. You could tell everything had been meticulously planned, all the way down to the gold cutlery that was laid on each table.
Your eyes quickly scanned the room, attempting to find Ha-yoon. You were losing precious time and again, you couldnโt sit around and dwell on whatever Jungkook was trying to do. You hoped that he had received enough material for his role of the caring husband and opted to leave you alone. You had way more important things to tend to tonight. Whatever it was he was trying to obtain by the sudden demonstration of affection, would have to wait.
You spotted Ha-yoon standing alone by the bar, her hands holding onto a glass of water whilst fidgeting with the straw. You almost ran towards her, your heels clashing against the marveled floors. She noticed you before you reached her, her eyes widening and a sigh of relief flowing past her lips.
โMrs. Y/nโ she yelled; you gave her a smile finally standing before her. โThank you for waiting Ha-yoon, I hope you werenโt alone for too longโ you apologized. She put the glass in her hand down and shook her head. โit's fine, Mrs. Y/n I know you are a busy womanโ she justified.
โbut I'm just still a bit confused on why you needed me here tonightโ she proceeded to say, her voice carrying doubt. You smirked and grabbed one of the champagne glasses from a waiter who passed by.
โYou will be helping me with a very serious task tonight, Ha-yoonโ you responded, taking a sip of the bubbly drink. โI am unfortunately not able to disclose the reason behind my request, but I need you to introduce me to every single person in this room, not physically of course, that I will do on my own, but I do need you to tell me who everyone isโ you explained, tilting your head towards her.
She laughed nervously and looked back at the attendees. โOh Maโam, here I was worried you were going to give me a task I would struggle withโ she spoke confidently. You raised your brows at the sudden change in her demeanor. โEveryone here is a familiar face; they visited the Jeons frequentlyโ she continued.
โPerfect!โ You cheered, you reached to interlock your arm with hers and began walking around the room. You could feel the guests glancing at you and whispering to each other. For a moment you felt self-conscious, but you held your head up high as you drank from your glass from time to time. It almost felt surreal how everyone here knew exactly who you were while they remained strangers to you. knowledge was power and soon, you would be holding a bit of your own.
โThat man there is Kim Taehyung, he has been friends with Mr. Jungkook since childhood and you could say they are closeโ Ha-yoon pointed out. You followed her finger and landed on a handsome man. he stood comfortably in the center of the room; appearing relaxed in the conversation he held with a woman. โClose friends?โ you asked, your eyes narrowing in on him.
โYes, Maโam. His father is the owner of the Monaco Towerโ she continued, information flowing past her lips without much persuasion. It was bewildering to you how detached you and Jungkook were, how he was able to have people in his life that you had never heard of. he lived this whole separate life outside of your marriage whilst yours had been shaped all around this union.
โHow close?โ you asked. You needed to know how willing this man would be to help your cause, was he a friend or a foe? โVery close, theyโve been glued to the hip since they were in diapersโ Ha-Yoon adverted, glancing at you. You frowned slightly; he was a friend then. ย
โLet's move alongโ you instructed, proceeding with your research. Along the way Ha-yoon continued to point out various guests, most of them having a long history with the Jeons. You began to grow doubtful that you would find anyone to aid you, from what Ha-yoon had disclosed almost everyone here was loyal to Jungkook and his family and would have a lot more to lose if their criminal enterprise happened to crumble.
You ditched the empty glass of champagne in your hand and grabbed another, taking a few sips hoping that it would soothe the tension you felt. You sighed and halted your steps, your feet aching from walking in circles. โAll right, we can take a break Ha-yoonโ you breathed. Gulping down the rest of the champagne.
ย โYou appear disappointed Maโamโ Ha-yoon spoke, her worried eyes taking in your tired appearance. You took a deep breath and closed your eyes. You were frustrated. How was the Jeon family able to run such a tight ship? ย Even the biggest criminal organizations had friends willing to betray them and here was Ha-yoon telling you no one here was willing to even step out of line?
โSort of, yeahโ you breathed, opening your eyes and looking around anxiously. โWere you looking to meet someone in particular?โ she asked, she looked around in the same manner as you, her eyes scanning the room carefully. You huffed and shook your head โIt doesnโt matter now; I donโt think that anyone here is the someone I'm looking forโ you exasperated.
โWell, if you can be a bit more specific then I can maybe try to help you find whomever this person isโ Ha-yoon spoke, growing anxious at the thought of letting you down. Your eyes focused on her as you contemplated your next words.
You were more than reluctant to tell her the truth. You wanted to involve the least amount of people that you cared about in this plan. Not only would you be putting them at risk, but you would be involving them in something you couldnโt guarantee the outcome of. Yet, it appeared like you had no other choice, you would just have to share a bit more information. Maybe, if you told her a bit more, she would catch on to what you truly needed.
โI need to find someone who would be willing to betray the Jeon familyโ You hesitated, your stare growing dark as the words fell from your lips.
Ha-Yoon stood in silence for a moment, mouth agape. Your confession had left her stunned, she looked into your eyes for a moment taking in the utter determination in them, and then her gaze fell onto the floor. She bit down on her lip and gulped. โMaโam a-are you sure?โ she whispered.
The question was innocent, but it carried weight. It was not asking you if you were in the mood to meet someone new or hold a conversation with a stranger. It was one Ha-Yoon asked out of fear, as she had realized the real reason you had brought her here. The real reason behind why you were so eager to attend this dinner in the first place. It had finally registered in her mind that you were about to begin a dangerous game, one you might not have been prepared to play.
Were you sure?
โyesโ you affirmed, the words escaping your mouth without delay.
She lifted her stare and nodded slowly. She kept her composure but through her eyes, you could see the worry, the fear, and the utter shock of the discovery she had just made. She turned her head slightly and her eyes looked toward the corner of the room, words werenโt needed as you followed her frightened stare.
In that very corner, stood a man which you hadnโt noticed before. He was alone, only being accompanied by a half-empty glass of what appeared to be whiskey. He had jet-black hair that shadowed his features. From this distance, you could pick out his menacing glare as he scanned the room.ย One of his hands remained buried into the pocket of his suit whilst the other held his drink. He was visibly uncomfortable and out of place. His stance of someone ready to fight at any moment.
โIf you are looking for someone who would undoubtedly betray the Jeon family, then there's no one better for that role than that manโ Ha-yoon informed you. your eyes remained on him, watching his movements. โWho is he?โ you asked, studying his appearance.
โHis name is Min Yoongiโ she spoke, a chill crawling up her spine. โHis father and Mr. Jungkook's father used to be best friends and ultimately business partnersโ she continued, in a hushed tone. โUsed to? What happened?โ you inquired. Your heart began to beat quickly, the hope you had lost returning into your heart. โWell, the last time I saw his father he was arguing with Mr. Jeon about some deal they had made and apparently there were some money issuesโ Ha-yoon recalled.
You were practically drooling, you knew it. you knew that there would be someone who the Jeon family had fucked over just like you. The ease with which they destroyed and stepped over your own family came with experience.
โNext thing we heard, his father had passed in a rather questionable car accidentโ Ha-yoon continued, you snapped your head in her direction. โAn accident?โ your eyes widened, taken aback by the details. โYes, one night while his father was driving, a semi-truck slammed into his car, killing him on impactโ She nodded. โAnd well Mr. Min never came to terms with his death, he had busted into the Jeonโs home screaming bloody murder, threatening to kill all of them to avenge the murder of his father, it was really uglyโ Ha-yoon winced. ย
โWell, how is he here then? I doubt the Jeon family would take those kinds of threats lightlyโ you commented. You knew this family to be ruthless and threats of any kind were always dealt with. โthatโs the thing Mrs. Y/n, they have no other option but to work togetherโ Ha-Yoon shrugged โMr. Min holds the most amount of shares in the company and almost all the board members are just too scared of himโ she concluded.
You couldnโt contain the smile that appeared on your face, you stepped forward without a second thought. You wanted to jump in excitement, to celebrate the gem you had discovered. The man who stood in solitude was the answer to all your prayers, he existed just for you. He was wrapped in a bow like a present sent from heaven above.
Suddenly you felt Ha-yoon grip your arm tightly, stopping you right in your tracks. โAre you crazy, Maโamโ she almost yelled, her eyes widened as she looked at you. โThat man is dangerous, do you see anyone else speaking to him?โ She spoke quickly, looking around to ensure no one could hear your conversation. You huffed and softly removed her hand from your arm. โI'm a big girl Ha-yoon, I can take care of myselfโ you announced, turning on your heel and walking towards the corner.
Yoongi remained motionless; his eyes fixed on Jungkookโs father as he spoke to some of the guests. As you stepped closer, a haunting feeling began to take shape within you, losing courage as you neared him. You started to overthink, perhaps this wasnโt the best moment to approach him, but the bait was just too good, you needed to say something, anything. You needed him to recognize that within these walls existed 2 people who wanted to bring the Jeons to their end, you and him.
He only noticed you once you were a few feet away, his brows furrowed as he glared at you. He appeared angry, angry at you. You stopped in front of him and the words you had practiced saying on your way over, had vanished from your mind. You were silent and you concluded by the way he looked at you that you looked completely dense.
From this distance, you noticed a scar that you hadnโt been able to notice from afar. It stretched from above his eyebrow down to his cheek and it only made him look that much more intimidating.
Was it caused by the accident? Was he in the car with his father?
The questions flowed across your head as you kept glancing at it, it looked painful, but it didnโt take away from his attractiveness. He raised his eyebrows as he waited for words to formulate in your mind. You blinked and opened your mouth to speak but nothing came out.
โCan I help you?โ he asked, his voice low and raspy.
โoh,โ you managed to emit. Your cheeks grew flushed from embarrassment and for a moment you were inclined to walk away without saying anything else. But you had a plan and Yoongi was perfect for it, you couldnโt fuck this up. You had everything you wanted standing right in front of you. ย
He was well-connected and feared, but most importantly he hated Jungkook and his family just like you. you could see it in his eyes, the way they burned with detestation when he looked at them, they resembled yours.
You extended your hand and smiled โHello, I'm Y/nโ you said, introducing yourself. He looked down at your hand and then back at you, not moving an inch.
โI know who you areโ he answered.
You fidgeted in place, dropping your extended arm and biting softly on your lip.
โOh, um well I just wanted to come by and say helloโ you explained, further embarrassment drifting inside of you. his eyes narrowed on you, his head tilting slightly as if he was trying to decipher you then he scoffed, a small smirk appearing on his face.
โTook you long enoughโ he noted.
You stared puzzled, unable to make out what he meant by that statement. Did he know your real intentions? He downed the rest of his whiskey and signaled one of the waiters for another. He looked back at you and licked his lips before speaking again.
โYou are Jungkook's wife, right?โ he asked, he grinned once he noticed how you tensed at the mention of your husband's name. โI noticed you staring at me for a whileโ he pointed out. You wanted the earth to crack open and swallow you whole. This was humiliating, he must've thought you were a weird housewife gossiping with Ha-Yoon, not that it was far from the truth.
โI apologize, I'm just trying to get to know everyone hereโ you replied quickly, trying to save yourself from further shame. He nodded in understanding and hummed.
โI see, well Iโm Min Yoongi,โ he said, now extending his hand out to you. You received it in yours and gave it a small shake. He smirked once again, his eyes studying your body language.
โYou still didnโt answer my questionโ he teased while letting go of your hand. You took a deep breath and produced a small smile before clearing your throat. โYes, Iโm Jungkookโs wifeโ you responded. He chuckled lowly and watched as the waiter sat his next drink on the table next to him.
โIt's hard to say it, isnโt it?โ he asked, you blinked slowly trying to find the right answer in your head. โIโm just not used to saying it, thatโs allโ you confided. He took a gulp from his drink and then stepped closer to you.
โYou donโt need to lie, Iโm not the police,โ he said, provoking chills to run through your body.
โyouโve been here for almost an hour and whilst your husband holds meaningless conversations with these hounds, he hasnโt once glanced in your directionโ he continued. โYou may be matching which by the way, is rather cute,โ he says whilst he smirks. โBut you fidget with the wedding ring on your finger which can only mean you arenโt used to wearing it.โ
You look down at the ring that sits on your left hand, glistening under the lights. You grow nervous, biting down on your lip, then look back at him.
โAnd you didnโt approach me because you are lonely and have finally found the courage to cheat on your prick of a husbandโ he chuckles at his own words and then takes another gulp from his drink. โNo, you are here for something elseโ he notes. You stand there as he strips away at your layers, beckoning the truth from you without even having to hear you speak.
โYou admit youโre his wife and the words burn your tongueโ he concludes.
Your breath hitches in your throat and you remain silent. He finishes the rest of his drink and stands there, continuing to study your reaction. Perhaps you werenโt ready, all the internal preparation you had done in advance had been worthless. This conversation had gone completely differently in your mind and now that you stood before him, with nothing to say you grew afraid you would lose the opportunity to persuade him to work with you.
From across the room, Jungkook laughed as he spoke to Taehyung.
โHey, when are you going to introduce me to that wife of yours?โ Taehyung asked, smiling at his best friend.
โOh shit, youโre right!โ Jungkook gasped.
โCome on bro, itโs been almost a year and all I've seen are picturesโ Taehyung complained as he smacked Jungkook's arm.
His eyes scanned the room but couldnโt make you out amongst the crowd of guests. He continued to search, spotting Ha-yoon standing alone by one of the tables. She looked anxious whilst holding a glass of champagne that remained untouched.
โIโll go find her,โ he said, excusing himself from the conversation and walking towards Ha-yoon.
As he neared her, he noticed her eyes remained anchored in a corner of the room. He followed her stare and was finally able to spot you. he smirked to himself and changed directions to where you stood but the closer, he got, the more he could make out who you spoke with. A boiling-hot Pressure began to form in his chest and his steps picked up their pace. His eyes darkened at the sight before him, and he couldnโt focus on anything else.
He didnโt like that Yoongi was talking to his wife and he didnโt like how close he was standing in front of you but what he couldnโt stand the most was the way you looked at Yoongi. In a way, you had never looked at him.
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NOT SO INVISIBLE STRING โ GOJO SATORU
synopsis: the universe has a funny way of working. gojo always knew he was destined to be with you and so did others. it just took some time for you to figure that out as well.
content warning(s): FLUFF! eventual smut so 18+ mdni, fem! reader, pining gojo (sooo cute), mutual pining, friends to lovers, unproetected sex, gojo calling you baby multiple times while going innn.
word count: 6.8k zoo wee mama... pls read anyway or i'll dโ EDIT: do not feed my work into c.ai. cough grimmjowshitheart cough
SPRING 2008
โSo, youโre not gonna miss me? Not even a little?โย
An arm was suddenly thrown across your shoulders, leaving you to bear its weight. The press of his uniform stuck to your nape, making his presence all the more difficult to ignore.
Fellow students bustled and sidestepped their way around you two, some even falter in their steps to ogle briefly at the scene unfolding before them.
โSatoru, move!โ Shokoโ your saviourโ jabs Gojoโs side, urging him to budge, but to no avail.
Heโs still tethered to your side, twirling around his diploma in his unoccupied hand despite your best efforts to create space between you two. โYouโre literally blocking peopleโs way toward the gates,โ she says.
Itโs graduation day and the last day of school for the spring semester, bringing the school year to yet another successful end. It also meant that today would be the last time your upperclassmen would walk on school grounds as students.
The sun was beginning to dip behind the many trees surrounding the school, and its marvellous glow cast warm hues of pink and orange that stretched across the sky. Its rays descend onto the schoolโs campus; setting for a brilliant, comforting atmosphere.ย
Answering Gojoโs initial question about whether youโd miss him, you avert eye contact with your persistent senior. โI never said that,โ your voice teeters between a grumble and a groan riddled with exasperation.ย
Your eyes sweep the courtyard and you spot a few familiar faces in the crowd. Some are gathered along the steps leading up to the school taking photos to commemorate today. Others linger on campus chatting amongst themselves, and some whack each other with their diploma scrolls while others treat theirs delicately.
And not too far off from where Satoru holds you hostage stood a small crowd of his classmatesโspecifically, his female classmatesโ waiting for their chance to bid their goodbyes...
Or stumble out an unprepared confession thrown out in the heat of the moment before they may never see Gojo Satoru again.
Who knows.ย
All youโre sure of is that they are most definitely throwing you shady death glares from your peripheral.
โYโknow, Iโm gonna miss you,โ Gojo says, his arm still looped around your shoulders. He has half a mind to drag you away from standing right front and centre in the entranceway and shuffles you off to the side. โAll the years weโve spent togetherโโ
โTwo years, by force.โย
โโ and now weโre being split apart,โ he finishes, paying no mind to your sardonic comment. The infliction in his voice prompts you to turn to look at him, only to wind up and see a slight pout tugging at his soft, pink lips. โHow ever will we manage?โ
You smother down the urge to heave a loud and heavy sigh at the clingy characteristics heโs displaying today and decide to play nice.
Gojoโs always been one to be playful, perhaps even a bit pushy at times but it was all in good nature. However, for some reason, his antics have reached a whole new level today.ย
Emotions were running high among staff and students alike. Some are more potent andโฆ persistent than others.
โYouโll be fine,โ you assure, patting his arm half-heartedly, โand I will certainly be fine. Everything will be just fine.โ
In the middle of your sentence from the corner of your eye, you spot another one of your seniorsโ Geto Suguru. You watch him step out from a conversation with two classmates of yours (Haibara and Nanami) and is now trekking his way over to where you and Gojo occupy the front steps.
โGeto-senpai!โย
Geto greets you warmly by placing a comforting hand on your head and gives you a reassuring pat once, then twice. The action leaves your hairstyle a little dishevelled, nonetheless, thereโs a small smile tugging at your lips.
Youโve only interacted with Geto a sparse number of times outside of class or at the end of the school day. Whenever you both would cross paths you appreciated how he would regard your presence with temperance. It always left you feeling at ease. Youโll miss him.ย
Youโll especially miss how he was so quick to offer you and Haibara snacks from the vending machines on campus.
Gojo emits a pathetic squawk at the special name drop.
Pale, white brows are pinched tightly together with faux betrayal. โHow come he gets honorifics but I donโt?!โ he complains once Getoโs within earshot.ย
โI see that Satoru's already startedโฆโ
Though Geto was talking to no one in particular, Shoko chips in given that she bore witness to Gojoโs incessant pestering toward you ever since the home bell rang. โYou missed the part where he blocked her from getting to the lockers for a good several minutes.โ Unzipping her bag, she carelessly shoves her diploma into it.ย
โBut anyway, Iโm gonna head out for a smoke. Iโll catch you guys later.โ Before departing, Shoko stretches her hand towards you and gives your arm an affectionate squeeze. โGet home safe, โkay? Donโt let these guys keep you out too long.โ
Which reminded youโฆ
โGojo, this has been fun and allโฆโ Being rag-dolled around by your upperclassman across campus has been anything but fun. โBut I really should start heading home now.โ
You wanted to beat the rush hour of students and working-class alike trying to go home on a late Thursday afternoon. Looking for empty seats on the 4:25 PM train was brutal and you did not have the energy to stand the entire ride home.
Sensing your air of urgency, he eventually relents. Heaving a dramatic sigh, Gojo steps back a few and gives you some space.ย ย
โGimme a second, yeah?โ He rummages around in his uniform pocket, searching for something. It only lasts about a second before he pulls out his flip phone.
โSuguru!โ A curt upward nod of Gojoโs head is the only warning Geto gets before he tosses his cell toward his best friend to catch. Youโre appalled that he catches it so easily with the little to no notice that was given. โTake a picture of us.โ
โฆHuh?
Your brows drew close-knit together with confusion. โWhat are yโ?!โ Before you can even finish your question, youโre pulled tightly into Gojoโs side.ย
His arms circle your neck once more, but this time, he uses the opportunity of your close proximity to tip his head to the side and knock it against your own.ย
โSmile,โ Gojo murmurs into your ear, his slender fingers pinching at your cheek prodding for you to plaster on a sugary smile for the picture.
You donโt have enough time to register, let alone recover from how his lips faintly brushed against your skin, Gojoโs already obnoxiously yelling โCheese!โ towards the awaiting camera.ย ย
Snapping the photo Geto sports a lazy grin admiring his work. โLooks good,โ he says before he tosses the phone back to its owner.ย
Youโre still reeling over the gentle graze of Gojoโs lips against your cheek, too dazed to digest whatโs going on around you. What. In. The hell. Just happened???ย
Sputtering out a laugh, Gojo grins down at the image on his phone. โWhatโs with that face youโre making, huh?โ
Eyebrows furrowing, you look up at Gojo curiously. Whatever was in that picture that made him smile that wide couldnโt have been good. โWhat do you mean?โ You question, stepping closer to see what he was referring to on his screen.
Gojo tips his cell over and shows you the photo Geto took. There you both are in grain, Gojo looking the most lively out of you two. Despite the quality of the camera, you can see the proud and happy smile he wears compared to your frazzled and confused expression.
If anything, it looked like you were the one who was graduating and he so happened to snag a photo with you before your big send-off.
โI wasnโt readyโฆโ you grumbled, looking away from his phone.
Thereโs a faint smile lingering on his face, blue eyes still trained on the screen. His voice's cadence grows warm and carries a small hint of affection.
โThat face of yours is what Iโm gonna miss the most.โ
SUMMER 2009ย
To no oneโs surprise, you and Gojo kept in close contact, even after graduating high school.ย
Wellโฆ More so Gojo kept in contact with you. Consistently.ย
Whenever he can.
He was there during your spring graduation (shocker), much to the elation of the entire female population from your graduating class. Looking back, the number of times he stopped to pose with random students around the school when he came to greet you was absurd.
Youโll also never forget how loud he cheered when your name was called despite Principal Yaga telling the audience to hold their applause and hollers until after the ceremony.
Fast forward to the summer of โ09 where Gojo consistently seeks your presence to go and hang out with him now that you have a freed-up schedule. Whether it's with him alone or with Geto and Shoko, you can always rely on him to shoot you a โu busy?โ text an hour before dragging you out for the rest of the day.
โSooo,โ you start slowly.
Your eyes skim across the playground, watching the few children who were there amble and climb on the jungle gym before you. The sun was beginning to descend below the skyline, and hues of warm orange press onto your features casting you and your surroundings in a soft glow.ย
โYouโre aโฆ guardian now,โ you state, eyeing how Gojo stretches his legs out beside you.ย
You both sit at a park bench, the chorus of laughter and playful shrieks surround you as you watch Megumiโ a kid Gojo now supposedly looks afterโ poke mindlessly at something buried beneath the playgroundโs sand.
โYup!โ he chirps, but then itโs swiftly followed by a hesitant, โWell, sorta kindaโฆโ
Thereโs a mental warfare going on in his mind as he combs through the various explanations he can give you, searching for one that would be both concise and easy for you to digest.
โTo put it simply, from here on out Iโm going to be a constant in Megumi and Tsumikiโs life.โ
You think of the step-sibling duo. Theyโre the sweetest pair of children youโve had the delight of coming across, and nowโฆ
โTheyโre doomed,โ you say with pity, your gaze still focused on the youngest Fushiguro.ย
Gojo gasps in disbelief at your bold accusation with his hand flying to his chest, clearly having taken offence. โWhatโs that supposed to mean?!โ he asks.
But before you could give him a smart alec answer, the cheerful exclamation of your name pulls your attention elsewhere. The soft thump of Tsumikiโs shoes approaching prompts you to smile brightly. With open arms, the girl practically throws herself at you and giggles.
You give her cheek an affectionate squeeze. Despite her being in the second grade, you couldnโt help but coddle her. โWhy hello, Tsumiki!โย
It takes her a few moments to finally release you from the hug, backing up a bit she glances up at you. โWhere were you? I missed you on Tuesday, the swings werenโt fun without you!โ she says, pouting.
โI wasnโt feeling the best, so I had to turn down Gojoโs invite to meet you guys at the park that day.โ
Upon hearing all the commotion, Megumi spots Tsumiki talking to you a few steps from the play area. It prompts the young boy to walk over and join you three at the bench. He nods his head over at his step-sister and says, โShe thought you guys broke up.โ
Huh?
You blink rapidly. โBrokeโ Broke up!?โ You squawk, the inflection of your voice rising at the โupโ part.
Where could she have possibly gotten that idea from? You and Gojo werenโt even dating!
Gathering your composure you plaster on a sweet smile, ready to explain to the young pair that you and Gojo werenโt together like that before a heavy arm comes hunkering down onto your shoulders. โEven if she tried, she canโt get rid of me that easily,โ Gojo comments.
Christ.
Tsumiki claps her hands together in glee at this revelation. โYay! โCause I like you!โ she confesses. โI thought Iโd have to deal with Gojo and his friend with the big ears pushing me on the swings forever.โ And with that, the girlโs already off running to the big yellow slide, pulling Megumi along in her wake.
The sweet smile you wear grows more and more strained the longer you two sit there on that damned bench with Gojoโs arm still lodged around you like it belonged there.ย
Long delicate fingers drum themselves along your bare shoulder which leaves a tingling sensation that lingers against your skin.
โGojo Satoruโฆโ you hiss between clenched teeth.
Your hand creeps up to give his knee a mean pinch, but as always, Gojo reads your movements like a damn book and catches your hand in his before that could happen. โHm?โ
โWhat do you mean โHmโ?โ You gesture in the general direction of where the kids are playing. You feel your brows start to pinch together. โWhy would you tell them that?!โ
โItโs true though, no?โ Snowy white wisps of hair fall in front of his eyes shaded by his signature round sunglasses. โWe havenโt โbroken upโ and weโre still together. Just not in their understanding of it.โ
โYouโ! Thatโs notโโ You flounder for words, trying to spit out why he canโt go around inadvertently feeding into the imagination of whatever relationship Tsumiki and Megumi thought you two had. But you come up blank.
โYouโre irritating, you know that?โ you say, as you try (and fail) at removing his arm which still rests comfortably around your shoulders, pressing you tight against him. โYouโll wind up confusing them.โ
An easy smile slips onto his lips as he observes Tsumiki and Megumi scramble up the slides. โRelax,โ he responds. โTheyโre smart kids.โ
And until it was time for the Fushiguros to go home, there you two sat underneath the thinning ochre sky. Stuck under the guise of an unspoken relationship.
WINTER 2011
Being the โmiddlemanโ between two people who are so obviously into each other but cannot figure out how to hang around each other normally was all too common for Shoko.
Itโs a shame that Geto wasnโt available to come down and hang out with the three of you tonight, he wouldโve revelled in getting a kick out of this expected yet unexpectedโฆ turn of events.
Brought in as a buffer between you two, with an unlit cigarette dangling loosely from her lips Shoko leaned back in her chair and watched the buzzing scene before her unfold with bemused eyes.ย
Underneath the comforting golden glow of the restaurantโs hanging table light, Gojo picks at the cookie dough chunks that litter your plate to which you turn a blind eye. Now, Shoko couldโve easily brushed this occurrence off, seeing that friends often eat from each other's share of food all the time.
But something was... different.
With Gojo seated to your left inside the booth, he neatly cuts up a piece of his soft, creamy cheesecake and leverages the small serving on his spoon. โHere, try some of mine,โ he says.
Harmless, right?ย
So, you reach for your own spoon to retrieve the sample of dessert that he was offering you. But without any hesitation, Gojo lifts his cutlery to your lips and prods the food toward your mouth.
There was no way that he intended on doing this right here, right now. In front of Shoko especially.
โSay, โAhhhโ!โ
Concern creases your brow when Gojo continues to press the spoon against your lips, idly humming as he waits for you to open your mouth so he can spoon feed you as if he were your mother. A delicate, yet sure hand cupping your chin and everything.
He was being serious.
From your peripheral, you catch the slow spread of a Cheshire-like grin creeping onto Shokoโs face.
You press your fingers onto Gojoโs wrist and frown. Trying to retreat from his hand, a peal of nervous laughter bubbles out from you at his display of reckless affection at the table. โGive me a brโโ
Gojo uses the opportunity of your uncertain state to slip his sharing of theย Japanese cheesecake into your mouth in the middle of your sentence. Your eyes widen a small fraction at its creamy taste, prompting him to comment, โItโs good, right?โ
The cigarette threatens to slip from Shokoโs mouth, as her lips slightly gape at what just happened before they curve into a soft smile. Her brown eyes are warm withโฆ something. Itโs as if she knew something that you didnโt.ย ย
โEhhhโฆโ Is all she says before youโre already jumping down her throat to clear up any misunderstandings.
โItโs nothing!โ you supply in a rushed manner. Your main objective was to simply imply that this was nothing for her to lose her head over. Hell, even the friendliest of friends feed each other all the time! Right?
But at your remark, Gojoโs mouth downturns into a cute little pout. โWhat do you mean, โnothingโ?โ From the corner of your eye you glance at how heโs fixed another spoonful of the dessert, and it's hovering in your direction.
โSatoโโ Fuck.
You quickly correct yourself on your mistake, and school your voice to have a bit more edge to it. Despite that, you donโt overlook how hard Gojoโs beaming at you. โGojo, not now.โ
โEhhh?โ Shoko exclaims once again, but this time the cadence of her voice has changed. Itโs gained an amused note to its tune. โYou call him Satoru now? Since when?โ
โIโve been begging her to use it for the longest time ever,โ Gojo answers on your behalf, and he ignores your mutter for him to please stop talking in favour of jabbing an accusatory finger at you. โYou know how painful it was to see you be all chummy and on a first-name basis with everyone but me?โ
Lord. Youโve forgotten how dramatic he could be.ย
Thereโs a teasing glint in Shokoโs eye that you quite donโt like, and her lips purse heavy with consideration at his comment. โYou make him beg?โ
Groaning, you cross your arms against the table and bury your face. You canโt with them. Your two former upperclassmen were the bane of your existence right about now.ย
โIโll kill you both,โ you mutter, your speech muffled by the fabric of your sweater.
A FEW YEARS LATER
A calming blue nightly glow ripples through your curtains, casting your room in nothing but moonlight. Amidst the serene silence, you idly stare at your screen and read the text Satoru sent you right as the clock struck midnight.
Satoru: Are you home?
What an ominous question. Your eyes skim over his message again. And then again.ย
โฆAnd again.
Thumbing through your phone, you glance at the time displayed on the top of your screen. Itโs been five minutes since youโve opened his text. You should probably send something back soon before he quintuple texts you.
As youโre about to respond right when Satoru immediately shoots you another.
Satoru: I KNOW you see this!!! ( `ฮตยด )
Satoru: Hurry hurry hurry
You: yes... why?
Now itโs his turn to take a while to respond. First, it takes a couple of minutes for you to receive that pinging chime; indicating that heโs texted you backโ which isnโt too bad because you like to consider yourself a pretty patient person.ย
But then five minutes slowly turn into ten, and that ten becomes a whopping fifteen until finally he answers.
Satoru: Open your door.
What the fuck.
Satoru: Pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepl
So thatโs why he took so long to reply. The man was coming all the way down from his place to come and visit you!
You: you're actually insane.
You: hold on!
Rising from your seated position on your bed, you stalk over to your bedroom door and are about to exit when you spot yourself in a nearby mirror.
โOh!โ you exclaim to no one in particular. You canโt open the door for him looking likeโฆ this.
Wait, why do you care about what Satoru thinks of your clothes?!
ย Heโs seen you wearing much worse. Like that one instance in first-year, when you had to borrow Getoโs spare parachute pants because Haibara accidentally spilt his soda all over your lap during an informal outing with everyone.
Yeesh.
Shaking your head, you slip out of your room and pad down your apartment hallway wearing your discoloured oversized band tee and shorts. Upon reaching your door, your hand hesitates on the doorknob.ย
It stays like that for a few seconds until the doorknob is rattled in a fashion thatโs all too persistent, annoying, and all fromโ
โSatoru!โ you hiss, swinging the door open. Youโre ready to chew him out on how much of a nuisance he may be for your sleeping neighbours a few doors down. But your looming reprimand falls short on your tongue once your eyes take in the man facing you.
โHappy birthday!โย
In the darkness, the soft glow of sparklers illuminates your features and highlights the exquisite details of a beautifully decorated cake held in Satoruโs hands.
Wordlessly, your hand aimlessly searches for the light switch to brighten up your hallway so that you may get a better look at whatโs on the cake.ย
Something trembles in your chest and it hurts a little to breathe. But not in the way that you detest.
Heโs cute.
Gojo Satoru is so heartbreakingly cute.
On the cake, you see that damn grainy photo you two took on his graduation day back in โ08. The photo you love to hate.
Wetness springs to your eyes from the entire gesture, from the fact that he ensured he was the first one through text and physically to wish you a happy birthday, and from the fact that heโs here right now.
โHeyโฆโ Thereโs concern creasing Satoruโs expression as he pokes his head down a little to get a better read on you. โAre you crying?โ
You sniff back your tears and grunt out a watery, โNoโฆ Shut up and come in already.โ
Ushering him inside, Satoru hands you your cake, toes off his shoes and heads straight to your living room. Good to see that heโs already making himself at home.
Plopping himself down onto your couch you hesitantly follow behind him, suddenly feeling like a stranger in your own home. โCome, come!โ He waves a welcoming hand at you and pats the seat beside him, insinuating that you should sit.
With immediate interest, you do as he says and take a seat beside him after you position your cake in the middle of your coffee table. The couch feels so small now, with him spread out like that.
Pulling out something from his pocket with one hand and tugging off the party hat from his head with the otherโ had he been wearing that the whole time?โ Satoru clears his throat. โBefore you cry again, I gotta make sure youโre able to see your present first.โ
He takes your head in his hands, and you realize his fingertips are a little cold as they press on your warm cheeks. Stretching the string down from the party hat a bit, he places it under your chin and snaps the cardboard cone into place on your head.
Breathing a noise of satisfaction seemingly content with how you look, a cheeky grin dances across Satoruโs face. โPerfect. You can now go ahead and open your gift,โ he says, handing you a small black velvet box with the company logo HW scrawled across it.
โWait, what,โ you deadpan.
This canโt be what you think it is.
โItโs not a ring!โ Satoru blurts. But composes himself seconds later with a quip of, โUnless you want it to be?โ
Har. Har. Very funny.
You disregard what heโs said and peel open the box with caring hands.
Inside was the most extravagant necklace youโve ever laid eyes on. A diamond pendant laid bare inside the box in the shape of a forget-me-not with your birthstone at the flower's centre.ย
That couldโve easily cost him a little over one million yen if you think about it deeply.
โSatoru!โ you squeal.
Without thinking, you throw your arms around his neck and squeeze your longtime friend into your loving embrace. Satoruโs gift to you almost topples and sinks into the crevice of your couch had it not been for his quick hand to catch the necklace.
Your heartโs racing, and initially, his body goes rigid until he gradually relaxes under your hold. โYouโre crazy, โs too expensive!โ you sparingly chastise him.ย
Satoru swallows hard and brings a careful arm up to reciprocate the hug. You feel the warm press of his arm against the thin material of your shirt.ย
โNothingโs too expensive if youโre involved,โ you hear him murmur into your ear. โSo, donโt worry โbout it.โ
You give him one last bone-crushing squeeze, hoping that your rare show of physical touch does not go unnoticed and exemplifies how grateful you are. Pulling away from him you look him dead in the eyes. โThank you, seriously.โ
Shrugging you off like it was no big deal as if he didnโt blow double, maybe even triple the money the average Japanese businessman earns on a singular paycheque toward your necklace, Satoru casts you a gentle smile and changes the subject.ย
There would be no need to dwell on it any longer with whatโs to come.
โNowโฆโ He gives your lower back a soft pat. Once, and twice. โA birthday kiss from the birthday girl.โ Satoru puckers out his lips and shuts his eyes real tight, making a huge show out of it.
For extra effect, he even hums a prolonged Mmm-ing sound to emphasize him waiting for you to initiate it.
Itโs a joke; you know heโs joking. He has a ridiculously long history of being overly affectionate with his teasings and whatnot.ย
But this time, you really do lean in and take said kiss from him.
Thereโs something incredibly adorable about this kiss that has your heart surging in your chest. Partly because itโs the first time that youโre kissing each other, but mostly because of how frigid and careful it is. It made you feel as if you were in high school all over again, trying a plethora of new things for kicks and giggles.
The tension was almost palpable, thick enough to suffocate the air he breathed. Even when you pulled away creating space between you both, Satoru still felt a lingering lump in his throat.
Cracking your eyes open, you see that Satoruโs own are blown wide. Piercing cerulean eyes stare unblinking at you. Normally, you wouldโve found that to be off putting as hell, had it not been for the slow rise of a blooming pink crawling up his neck.
โSorry,โ you offer weakly. Sensing that you may have gone too far, you make an effort to scoot off his lap. But a determined arm holds you in place.
โAgain.โ He swallows thickly, and your eyes follow that mesmerizing movement in his throat. โIโฆ I didnโt do it right. Please.โ
And who are you to make him beg? So, you do as he says.
Leaning in, your lips press against Satoruโs once more. And this time, he has the sense to close his eyes and bask in it, not daring to let his nerves get the best of him (though heโd never admit it).ย
Slotting yourself to be more flushed against him, the tips of your noses brush and you feel Satoruโs hand smooth down your spine. The pads of his fingertips press onto your exposed skin peeking out from underneath the hem of your shirt bunched around your hips.
God, you wanted him bad.
Itโs abrupt, the way you push yourself off him and force yourself to stand on your feet, breaking the kiss. The rise and fall of your chest is a bit staggered and Satoruโs is too. Heโs all red-faced and his snow-white hair is a bit dishevelled, considering how many times youโve combed your fingers through it.
โDid I do something wrong?โ
Cute.ย
That alone made you want to jump his bones even more.
You shake your head and get one good look at him before you leave him to head down your hallway. He looked perpetually enraptured by you, eyes hyper-focused on your every movement.ย โCome to my bedroom.โ
Satoruโs stunned, the implications of your remark not lost on him.
And like a keen lost puppy, of course he follows. He joins you in your bedroom seconds after you and stands in the doorway, just kind of hovering there. Not sure of what to do.
Wait. Did he come here too fast? Did that make him look overly desperate? A million and one questions rush through Satoruโs mind as his neck grows red, stained with embarrassment, wantโฆ arousal.ย
Seeing how he seems to be short-wiring at your doorway, you beckon him to join you on the bed with your hand. Once he does, he sits extremely close next to you. His clothed thigh brushes against your bare one, which sends a jolt of electricity through you.
Your fingers find his nape once again and they stroke up on his fresh undercut, prompting him to shiver a bit. โWhyโre you so shy all of a sudden?โ you question, your voice going gentle with a provoking edge to it.
Gaining some of his personality back, Satoru pinches your cheek. โโCause I didnโt think youโd want to kiss me!โ But his mean hand then turns soft and slides along your jaw, his thumb rubbing smooth circles into the skin just below your ear.ย
โWell, Iโm here,โ you say, scooting impossibly closer to the man beside you, โand wanting.โ
Message received.
Hauling you onto his lap, Satoru cradles your face in both hands and kisses you deeply. Itโs full of emotion, expressing all the things heโs been wanting to say for the longest time. A trembled exhale escapes you, and itโs through that that Satoru uses the opportunity to slide his tongue alongside yours.ย
The kiss is frenzied, but so filled with love.
โSo you like me?โ he asks, his breathing laboured.
โYes,โ you bite, pushing him away from you and onto the mattress. โAs if swapping spit with you wasnโt enough.โ You guess youโll have to show him how much you undoubtedly like him, love him even, through other means.ย
He huffs a breath of laughter and drops his back onto your bed. Underneath you, you see Satoruโs eyes sparkle as he watches you have your way with him.ย
But somethingโs up.
His eyes climb up a little higher and this time, he barks out a real laugh.
You still have that piece of fuck sitting on your head. You probably look stupid as hell right now.
Discerning that youโre about to raise your hand to your head, Satoru holds your wrist in his palm. Thereโs something bright that gleams behind those alluring pools of blue, warm and tender. He bites back a smile. โThe birthday hat stays on during sex.โ
You scrunch your nose at him. โYouโre so dumb,โ you growl with artificial frustration and tear off the cone-shaped hat from your head, tossing it into the depths of your room. He whines at its loss, but youโre quick to placate him with a slow roll of your hips into his lap.
Satoruโs jaw clenches and his hands fly to your waist, gripping you tightly as you continue to grind yourself down onto his erection. Your ministrations pull a wanton whimper from his lips, one that has you grinding with more purposeโ the purpose of hearing that sound again.
โDo you like that?โ you ask.
He nods, not trusting himself to speak, else heโll let out a pathetic string of moans.
โI know, me too.โ Satoruโs dick lurches in the confines of his pants as he watches you dry-hump him into the mattress slowly, your eyes shining with lust. Fuck, he could get hard just off your expression alone. โIt feels reeeally nice being up on you like this,โ you continue.
You have a fucking dirty mouth. One that Satoruโs growing more and more addicted to the more you speak.
Thereโs an incessant throbbing between your legs that you canโt quite alleviate. While rolling your hips into Satoruโs lapโ with his occasional thrust to match your movementsโ felt good, it can only do so much. You wanted and needed more.
And so did Satoru, because heโs already pulling at the waistband of his pants. His thumb loops two layers and tugs both his pants and boxers down, revealing his toned V-line.ย
Fuck.
You fall victim to Satoruโs enamoured gaze from below, which makes you squirm hot with arousal. โTake it off,โ he commands.
He wants you to strip him of his clothes.ย
Caught taking a startled breath, you ignore the wicked, handsome smile that slinks onto his face as you slip off his lap so you may curl your fingers around his waistband and pull. Your pussy clenches when his erect dick springs into view, and the heat pumping through your veins runs a little hotter.
You shiver at how pretty and filling his dick looks. After a few seconds of openly ogling at his lap, Satoru clears his throat which successfully gets you to drag your eyes back up to his face.
โWhile that was nice,โ he starts, leveraging himself up onto his elbows and grins at your cute error, โI meant you, baby. Take it off.โ
โOh.โย
Seriously? Just โOhโ?
Mentally facepalming, you shimmy your shorts down your legs along with your panties. They pool down at your ankles and you step out of them to stand between his legs.
Fully sitting up, Satoru pats his lap; encouraging you to sit on him again. โCโmere.โ
You crawl onto his lap, but you donโt sit down fully. Hovering a few inches away from his cock, your knees press on each side of his thighs, trapping him in.ย
Thereโs no way in hell you were gonna sit down right now, knowing that if you do, youโd be pressing your bare pussy onto his naked thigh and heโd feel everything. Exposing how wet you are.
Humming, Satoru lifts the hem of your oversized top to your breasts and sighs. โPretty,โ he murmurs before he leans forward and captures your nipple into his mouth.
You gasp harshly at the titillating feeling. Your hands balance on his shoulders for support, as he rolls your nipple on his tongue.
โSaโ Ah!โ You cry out. The hand between your legs startles you and has you whimpering in the open air.
โYouโre wet,โ he comments, slipping a finger against your slick pussy.
โShut up about itโฆโ
But he doesnโt. Another finger joins the first and delves down between your lips, gradually easing them inside you. They push against your walls, curling in a way that has you gasping into his neck. โYou got wet from grinding alone, huh?โย
A breath stutters out of your mouth and you rock yourself against his hand. You canโt take this anymore. You want more. โDo you have a condom?โ you ask.
โIโโ he groans when your hand slides between you two, your fingers curl around his dick and stroke his tip along your leaking slit. โI didnโt bring one, because I didnโt think weโdโโ
Oh.
Biting your bottom lip, you sling a heavy arm across Satoruโs shoulders. You meet his hungry gaze with one of your own and inch closer toward his dick that rests against his stomach. What youโre about to do could be risky, but at this given moment you couldnโt find it in you to be overly stressed about it.
โNo worries,โ you reply, your voice barely above a whisper, โI trust you enough to pull out in time.โ And like that, you push down on him and ease Satoruโs cock into your aching cunt, making him bottom out inside you completely.
Youโre so wet and slippery that it took little to no effort for him to slide inside. The noise of your slick sticking to where you two meet at the hips has you two moaning softly in unison.
The harsh mutter of your name echoes off your bedroom walls and goes straight to your cunt. โSo tight,โ he grits out behind clenched, white teeth.
Each time you slide up and down on his cock, Satoru grows more unrestrained with his vocal appreciation of how well you take him. Desperate little moans escape him each time your sweet cunt squeezes him of all heโs worth.
You were no better. Choppy, broken whimpers can be heard from you, loving how he stretches your walks with your length. He fits perfectly inside you like your cunt was destined for this moment, for him alone.ย
โLet me fuck you,โ Satoru blurts out. He was losing it, and he could feel him tipping closer and closer to the edge of release.
โYou areโ Ugn!โ you say weakly when his hands grab your ass and he stands, lifting you with him as if it were nothing. Kicking off his bottoms, Satoru props you on your back against your mattress.
ย Crawling between your legs, he positions the crown of his cock to press against your opening. โNo,โ he drawls, with one hand on the base of his shaft and the other propped beside your head. โLet me fuck you.โ
He pushes in and you swear you see stars.ย
Satoru pistons himself faster and faster inside of you, rocking your bodies against the mattress which makes your wooden headboard tap noisily against your drywall.
You fear your neighbours may have someโฆ less than pleasant words to share with you about the noise tomorrow morning.ย
โAh! Fuuuckingโ shit!โ You wail. Euphoric tears start prickling at the corner of your eyes. โDonโt stop, please!โ
The pleasure melts through you when Satoru presses down harder into you, his hand finding the back of your right knee and hikes your leg around his waist so that he can fill you at a new angle.
โBaby,โ he murmurs into your neck. He says it like youโve been his for years. โSay my name.โ
โSโSatoru!โ
Laughing a little, probably too fucked out of his mind, Satoru removes his face from your neck and presses a hot, searing kiss onto your lips.
You yelp when he drives his cock more harshly into you, growing more desperate with the urgency to come inside you.
Riding his high, Satoru says the first thing that comes to mind, which is a long drawn-out, โHaaaโฆโ
What Satoru meant to accomplish was to wish you another โHappy Birthdayโ, but of course, it all gets garbled up in his throat due to his approaching orgasm and comes out sounding fucking obscene.
Thatโs what gets you.
You come hard, your back bowing off the bed. Satoru, remembering your initial statement about how you trust him to pull out, does exactly that. Albeit, he did it at the very last second, but you avoided a pregnancy scare. So you canโt be mad.
Thick ropes of his cum splash across your bare belly and some get on your top. Youโre hyperaware of how it trickles down your abdomen, some dipping into your belly button.
Wow.
Breathing hard and heavy, both coated in sweat amongโฆ other sensual fluids, Satoru rolls onto his back.
โStuck with me for life, huh?โ he asks, delicate fingers intertwined with yours.ย
You hum. โSeems soโฆโ you agree quietly.ย
Now that you think about it, there hasnโt ever been a moment where Gojo Satoru hadnโt been present in your life, ever since meeting him during your high school days.
You two lay like that for some time, soaking in each otherโs company until the early traces of morning light ripple through your curtains.
Youโre about ready to shut your eyes until your thoughts are accosted by something you offhandedly forgot.ย
โSatoru?โ you begin, tone nice and sweet.
โHm?โ
You sit up slowly so you can peer down at his blissed-out face. โBy chance, was the cake you got for me made out of ice cream?โ
You know how deep his love for sweets goes. You just pray and hope to whatever higher power that he chose the safe route and chose a normal caโ
โโฆYeah, why?โ
Jumping out of bed, you rush to the living room where the cake is probably spilling its guts out all over your expensive, mahogany coffee table. โYou IDIOT!โย
A string of curses follows you out into the hallway, as Satoru sits on your bed confused.
โWhatโd I do?!โ
Whether you liked it or not, you were stuck with this bumbling idiot if he had any say in the matter, an invisible string keeping you two bound.
And maybe it wasnโt that bad.
Even if itโs at the cost of your ยฅ20,000 table.
if you read to the end we're making out.
ยฉ do not copy/plagiarize/translate/use ai on my work.
EASY โ CHAPTER ONE
summary when youโre young and swept up in the whirlwind of idol life, where every little move is scrutinized and relationships are hidden behind layers of secrecy, the pressure of the world watching makes everything so much more complicated. it's a lot. of course it is. yet, to jeon jungkook... loving you is still the easiest thing in the world.
โ please read the prologue first โ
pairing bts idol jk x female idol reader
genre idolverse, bff2l, fluff, angst
word count 13.1k
content read prologue for full fic warnings, chapter set in 2016, simp jk, down bad jk, heavy pining, touchy no-boundary bffs, gukkie's bday, two award shows, nct jaehyun appearance, eomma jang appearance, a bit of cursing, misunderstandings, jealousy, oc is confused, cringe fic, final proofread done on sleepy brain
author's note hello my patient little lovelies ๐ this chapter originally hit 20k ๐ญ but since it's a series, i decided to split it up to keep u guys excited for what's to come instead of giving it all away in one go :P had to cut a couple insaneeely cringy scenes ๐ so iโm v sorry if a few of the transitions are a bit choppy.. ๐ pls lemme know what u think tho!! love you lots<3
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CHAPTER ONE: Nineteen
"Close your eyes."ย
Jungkook flinched at the sound of your voice, his phone slipping from his hand and landing on the couch cushion with a soft thud.ย
His gaze had been focused on nothing, just scrolling aimlessly through Instagram while waiting for you to return. After the second movie of your marathon ended, you had suddenly disappeared into your room, leaving behind only a vague promise to 'be back in a sec!'ย
Obviously, he had tried to follow, but you stopped him in his tracks and forced him to sit back down on the couch. Even made him promise not to move.ย
So now, Jungkook barely registered your words, his mind too focused on the fact that you were finally back. Instinctively, he began to turn around. But before he could even glance in your direction, you gently placed a hand on his head, halting him in place.ย
"Uh-uh," you laughed, your voice light, the sound brushing past his ear like a whisper. It tickled. "Close your eyes, ttoki."ย
The closeness of your voice sent a tingle, or seven, down his spine. Without a second thought, his eyes fluttered shut. Whether it was from the command itself, or the undeniable effect you had on him, he wasn't sure.ย
You stood on your toes, leaning in to make sure his eyes were firmly closed, your face hovering close enough that he could smell the popcorn on your breath. He shivered.
A satisfied smile tugged at your lips as you quietly moved around to the front of the couch and plopped down beside him, the cushion dipping under your weight.ย
"Hold out your hands," you instructed softly, biting your lip to stifle your excitement.ย
Without hesitation, Jungkook complied, turning his palms up in front of him. He expected something smallโa snack, maybe, or one of the random trinkets you were always carrying around. But when you laid something soft and surprisingly heavy in his hands, his fingers instinctively closed around it, feeling the familiar texture of fabric.ย
โIt just arrived yesterday,โ you explained. โAnd weโve been together since, so I didnโt get the chance to wrap it properlyโฆโย
Jungkookโs brows furrowed in confusion, even with his eyes still firmly shut. "Butโฆ you already gave me my gift?" he said, his head tilting slightly toward you.ย
โTtoki,โ you chuckled, reaching over to brush your hand against his forehead, smoothing the crease that had formed. โI made you pancakes for breakfast. Thatโs not a real gift.โย
โThey were amazing, thoughโฆโ he mumbled, leaning into your touch, his face melting into that squishy pout that always melted your heart.ย
โIโm glad you liked them,โ you replied with a laugh, giving his cheek a light pinch before settling back against the couch. โOkay. Open your eyes.โย
Slowly, Jungkook blinked his eyes open, clearing the blur from his vision as he glanced down at the item in his hands. The air in his lungs froze.ย
It was an Off-White skate tee. Thee Off-White skate tee.ย
The same one that had been discontinued months ago. The one heโd casually mentioned to you, lamenting how he hadnโt bought it when he had the chance. He had even confessed to you onceโwhen youโd slyly prodded him for more details about the shirtโthat heโd hesitated back when it was available. At the time, he and his brothers were barely scraping by, and heโd been too cautious to spend what little money he had on something like that. Now, he could buy it a hundred times over, but it was too late. The brand no longer made that style.
Yet, here it was. In his hands.ย
Jungkook stared at the shirt like heโd never seen a piece of clothing before. His hands trembled slightly as he lifted the fabric, running his fingers over the soft material. "Howโฆ how did you get this?" he asked, his voice barely audible, eyes still glued to the shirt.ย
You smiled, pleased with his reaction. โI found it on HandMeDown,โ you explained, referring to the app where people in Seoul sold their secondhand clothes. โAnd donโt worry, I already washed it. Itโs ready to wear.โย
Jungkook instinctively brought the shirt to his nose, the familiar scent of your fabric conditioner filling his senses. He swallowed back a sigh. โSo thatโs why you didnโt want me doing your laundry yesterdayโฆโ he hummed in realization, now laying the shirt across his lap and staring at it in awe.ย
โWell, that, and Jiyoung-unnie was offended that you only do mine and not hers,โ you giggled.ย
Jungkook shrugged nonchalantly, the corner of his lips twitching in amusement as if to say, and what about it?ย
He looked at you then, the gratitude and affection in his eyes overwhelming. โJjogiโฆโ he said, his voice thick. โThank you. I love it so much.โย
Without another word, Jungkook pulled you into a tight hug, burying his face in the crook of your neck. The warmth of his breath against your skin made you shiver, but you smiled, wrapping your arms around him in return.ย
โThatโs okay, ttoki. Iโm glad you like it,โ you murmured, your hands moving in gentle circles on his back, your nails lightly scratching the spots you knew he liked. โIโm just sorry this isnโt the big, fancy 19th birthday party that you deserve.โย
Jungkook pulled back slightly, his his dark eyes soft as they searched your face. "This is all I wanted," he said simply. "I asked for thisโฆ"ย
You tilted your head, still holding his gaze as your fingers rest gently on his shoulders. "Yeah, I know you wanted Iron Man and time to just relax," you replied with a small smile. โBut I still feel bad that everyone else couldnโt come because of those stupid reshootsโฆ They should be back soon, though.โย
"Ah," Jungkook mumbled, his teeth catching his lower lip as he nibbled on itโa habit of his when he was lost in thought.ย
Reshoots. Right.ย
That was the excuse Namjoon had come up with, conveniently keeping the others away for the night. In reality, Jungkook had asked Namjoon to give him the day alone with youโjust you. And Namjoon, being the good hyung he was, made it happen.ย
Even though Jungkook knew you wouldโve been perfectly fine with just you and him for his birthday, he also knew you. Knew that you would've felt guilty for not having the whole group there. Could practically hear your soft voice reminding him how excited the others were to celebrate his birthday, how they would've loved to watch Iron Man with him.ย
But he didnโt want to watch Iron Man with them. He wanted to watch Iron Man with you.ย
"That's okay," Jungkook said softly. "Iโm more than happy with tonight. Itโsโitโs everything I wanted."ย
"Good." You let out a sigh of relief, your hands covering his as they rested on his lap. "Happy birthday, ttoki. You deserve everything you want. I love you so much, you know that?"ย
"I do. And I love you more." His words came so easily, so naturally, like they were meant to exist only between the two of you. His gaze lingered on yours for a moment before he turned to gently set the shirt aside. "Thank you so much, jjogi. God, you're justโ"ย
Jungkook cut himself short with a huff, as if whatever he was about to say wouldโve been too much. Instead, he leaned forward, and gently guided your arms around his neck. In one motion, he maneuvered you down onto the couch beneath him, your soft laughter filling his ears as you sank into the cushions.ย
He settled comfortably on top of you, his head finding its place in the crook of your neck. "Letโs sleep," he mumbled, his voice muffled against your skin.ย
โBut we still have the third movie to get through,โ you protested, though your voice lacked conviction as your hands wandered down to gently poke his side.ย
Jungkook grunted, burrowing deeper into you, making it abundantly clear he wasnโt planning on moving. โNap first,โ he grumbled.ย
You laughed, poking him again. โAnd you donโt want any of your birthday cake?โย
Jungkook shook his head lazily, a quiet no escaping his lips as he tightened his arms around you.ย
You laughed softly, threading your fingers through his hair and gently scratching his scalp. โWell, we should at least move to a bed. Weโll regret sleeping here in the morning.โย
Jungkook shook his head again, his voice barely a whisper now. โJust a napโฆโย
After a pause, he tilted his head back slightly, his dark eyes peeking up at you as he added, almost innocently, โBy the way, how much was it?โย
You froze for a second, pretending not to hear the question as your fingers continued their slow, soothing strokes through his hair. โHm? How much was what?โย
He let out a soft hum, clearly enjoying your touch, before murmuring sleepily, โThe shirt.โย
You hesitated, chewing on your bottom lip as you tried to think of a response. โMmm, I donโt remember,โ you finally whispered, leaning down to press a gentle kiss to his cheek in hopes of distracting him. โLetโs sleep,โ you added, guiding his head back down against your chest as you leaned into the throw pillow behind you.ย
What were you supposed to say?ย
That youโd saved every bit of your allowance for three months just to afford it? That youโd scoured every corner of the internet before stumbling upon it on some random resale app, only to have MarkLee99 refuse to let you haggle the price down, no matter how hard you tried?ย
It wasnโt that you were embarrassed about your finances in front of Jungkook. God, no. You both had been through way too much together for that. Spent too many nights, broke and broken, licking the seasoning off the snack bags your mom sent from Daegu during trainee days when meals were sparse.ย
It wasnโt shameโ it was that you just didnโt want him to worry. He did that a lot when it came to you.ย
Jungkook hummed softly, his muscles growing heavier. He knew. He knew that shirt cost you a lot, more than youโd ever admit. You spent your money on himโjust him. And god, you were so fucking perfect for that.ย
Of course he wasnโt going to let it go. He'd pester you tomorrowโor maybe the day after, as a thank you for such an amazing night. But for now? He wasnโt moving. Not from this spot. Not from you.ย
Jungkookโs eyes finally fluttered shut, his body sinking deeper into yours as sleep began to pull him under. He made sure to keep most of his weight pressed into the couch, though his body stayed comfortably intertwined with yours.ย
And then he waited.ย
Patiently listening to the steady rhythm of your breathing, the quiet rise and fall of your chest beneath him, until it finally evened outโreassuring him that you were fast asleep.ย
Only then did he allow himself to slip into unconsciousness, his mind full of you, his heart lighter than it had been in a long time.
Best birthday ever.
Mnet Asian Music Awardsย
โAnd now, the nominees for Song of the Yearโฆโย
Jungkookโs gaze was fixed on the floor. Not out of boredom or disinterestโno, nothing like that. But because this way, he could catch glimpses of you in his peripheral vision without needing to strain his eyes around Jiminโs frame or tilt his head in an obvious way. Just the edge of your figure, the way your jewelery shimmered in the lights, the way your hands fidgeted in your lap. He wanted to see your reaction properly, but he had to be careful.
โBTS - Blood Sweat and Tears,โ โExo - Monster,โ โGFriend - Rough,โ โLUMI - Supernatural,โ โTwice - Cheer Up.โย
GFriendโs performance had been incredible, and he knew you would've been quietly geeking out over it. You loved the group, especially their song โRough,โ your favorite at the moment. He could practically hear you humming the chorus in his head, like youโd done all month.
It made him smile, remembering how you made him sing it with you that one time. Late night in the practice room, giggling uncontrollably when he forced himself to sing off-key.
Jungkook wished he couldโve seen your face light up when they sang it, but heโs already in hot water for not keeping his expressions in check when you both attend award shows. His managers, his hyungs, and even your leader, Nari, had all warned him.
Nari-noona was kindhearted, much like his own leader. But she was fiercely protective of her members, just as Namjoon-hyung was of his.ย
A few weeks ago, at an event where both your groups attended, a clip had gone viral of Jungkook staring at you for a little too long to be considered just a glance.ย
It wasn't just a glance, of courseโhe had been completely distracted by how good you looked in that gown that night, stealing far more looks than the internet even caught wind of. But the world didnโt need to know that.ย
Still, the six-second clip had been enough to send netizens into a fucking frenzy.ย
He wasnโt surprised when the criticism came for him; that always happened. But when you took the brunt of the backlash... yeah, that fucking gutted him.ย
Nari knew you wouldnโt say anything to Jungkook about itโand you didn'tโbecause you didnโt blame him. You never blamed him for the gossip or the way the internet twisted things. It was just a look.ย
But the industry you were both in could be as toxic as it was rewarding, and Nari had gently reminded him, in that older sister way, that when youโre constantly in the limelight like he was now, things are different. Even when he thought nobody was paying attention, it only took one person to notice.ย
She had also pointed out that, as endearing as it was, Jungkook was utterly hopeless at hiding his feelings. Everything was always written right across his face, whether he meant it to be or not.ย
Though BTS was technically the senior group to LUMI, Nari had been in the industry nearly as long as Namjoon, and both were wise beyond their years. Jungkook would never disregard advice from either of them.ย
He had promised Nari that he understood, that he was sorry, that he would do better to protect you.ย
Nari had just smiled. She already knew he would.ย
"And the 2016 Mnet Asian Music Award winner for Song of the Yearโฆ LUMI, Supernatural! Congratulations!"ย
And just like that, all prior thoughts of keeping his cool completely and utterly evaporated.ย
Before he could stop himself, Jungkook shot to his feet, his fists punching the air as if he just won the fucking daesang. โYES. Wooooooo!!!"ย
The stadium exploded in applause, but Jungkook barely registered the noise. His heart pounded in his chest, the euphoria of your win surging through him likeย nothing he'd ever felt before.
Especially when the first thing you did after Cha Seungwon announced your groupโs win was look at him. Not just in his direction, but directly at him.ย
Your eyes were wide with disbelief, face glowing with pure joy. Jungkookโs breath hitched at the sight. God, you were so beautiful when you were happy.ย
โThank fuck,โ he muttered under his breath, clapping so hard his palms stung.ย
No one deserved this award more than your group. "Supernatural" was massive. It dominated the charts in Korea and made waves internationally too. It was everywhere for monthsโit still was.ย
He remembered when it first dropped. You were out of town for promo, and when the song played over the speakers at a little local cafe where he was picking up drinks for his members, he couldnโt resist Facetiming you.ย
Youโd been over the moon, screaming into the phone, and made him stay on the line with you until the song ended. He found an empty booth in the back, pulled up his hoodie, and and sat there on the phone with you until all the coffees heโd ordered had gone cold.ย
Now, as the cameras flashed and chaos ensued around him, Jungkook's focus was locked on youโwatching as your members pulled you into a group hug, your eyes shimmering with unshed tears. When you broke away to head for the stage and he remembered youโd have to pass by himโฆ he stood a little straighter.ย
His hyungs were cheering tooโmaybe not as embarrassingly as he wasโbut they knew, just like he did, what this moment meant. You had all trained together, struggled together, grew up in the industry together. Getting this sort of recognition after so much hard work was a feeling that they understood all too well.ย
As your group bowed to the senior idols seated to his left, you approached the stage steps directly in front of him. Nari was leading the way, but Jungkook noticed the subtle nudge you gave her. It was so slight, anyone else wouldโve missed it. But not him.ย
Nari glanced back at you, confusion flickering across her face for a split second before realization dawned. A knowing smile tugged at her lips as she shifted gracefully, taking a few steps to the side, drawing the cameraโs attention with her.ย
Then the crowd exploded. The loudest cheers of the night echoed around the arena as Nari led the four of you in a deep bow toward BTS.ย
Jungkookโs grin widened, his heart pounding all over again as you lifted your head, the most adorable fucking smile lighting up your face. He and his members grinned, returning the bow instantly. Taehyung and Jimin added their own touch, wiggling their fingers at your group in a goofy, showing-off way, snickering as the cameras ate it all up.
As Jungkookโs hands stilled, he clasped them together in front of him, fighting off every urge in his body to pull you into his arms and congratulate you properly. He wanted toโgod, he wanted toโbut he couldnโt. Not now, with every lens in the room trained on you both. Instead, he stayed rooted, lips parting as if to say something, but closing quickly.ย
You didnโt need words. You never did.ย
With a little tilt of your head, a soft crinkle of your eyes, you said it all. You knew exactly what he was feeling, and the sweet smile you shot him left his pulse racing. He felt his throat tighten as he swallowed a little too hard, catching the way you bit your lip as you fought off a grin before taking Eunjiโs extended hand and heading up onto the platform.ย
The cameramen scrambled to adjust their angles as your group walked toward center stage. It had been less than two minutes since your name was announced, but for Jungkook, it felt like twenty.ย
It was ridiculous, really. That stupid, adorable fucking smile of yours, always making him lose his train of thought. And now, apparently, his sense of time too.
With a huff, he dropped back into his seat next to Jimin, already bracing himself for the grilling he'd get once the show aired.ย
Oh well, what were they going to do? Fire him?ย
"Wah," Nari's breathless voice echoed through the speakers. The crowd roared in response, bringing a wide grin to her face. Jungkook smiled, watching as you and your members marvelled at the trophy in your leader's hands before turning back to the audience.ย
"I donโt know what to say, and I always know what to say..." Nari laughed, sending another wave of cheers through the stadium. "I know this might sound like false humility, but we really didnโt think we would winโฆ I mean..."ย
The crowd erupted in laughter as Nari gestured playfully toward the right, where your sunbae group, Exo, sat. The cameras zoomed in on the groupโs modest smiles and head shakes and Jungkook shared a knowing glance with his own members.ย
You and the rest of LUMI giggled softly, nudging Nari as she bowed sheepishly toward the senior group before regaining her composure.ย
โOkay, okayโฆ ah, here we go,โ Nari chuckled, taking a deep breath as she steadied herself in front of the microphone. "Thank you, Bang PD-nim and BigHit Entertainment for these unbelievable opportunitiesโฆ Thank you to our amazing friends and families for always loving and supporting us... And thank you to our incredible seniors for showing us what it means to never give up."ย
The crowdโs response was deafening. Like, ear-piercingly loud. Jungkook soon realized the cause of the explosion when he glanced up at the large LCD screens overhead and saw Taehyung and Jimin displayed in all their glory, posing dramatically for the shot.
Jungkook rolled his eyes, chuckling along with Hobi, yet extremely grateful that the camera didnโt pan to him. He was self-aware enough to know that his eyes were probably shaped like fucking hearts right now.
"And most importantlyโฆ thank you so much, Nova," Nari continued, fingers tracing the edges of the trophy. The applause swelled again, somehow even louder than before. "This means more to us than we could ever put into words. We work hard, but Nova, you worked even harder to get us here. This is as much yours as it is ours. Thank you. We love you."ย
As Nari stepped back with a bow, Jungkook swore he saw her eyes glistening, and his smile softened. Heโd never seen Nari-noona cry before.ย
She waved a calm hand out to you and your members members, signaling for one of you to speak next. Jungkook leaned back in his seat, clapping along with the rest of the room, and beside him, Namjoon let out a low, impressed sigh. โIncredible,โ he murmured.ย
Jungkook and Jimin exchanged looks, snickering but nodding in agreement. Jungkookโs gaze found its way back to you and your members, watching as you all looked at each other, shaking your heads and silently insisting, no, you go.ย
He almost chuckled aloud, surprised that Jiyoung wasnโt clamoring for the microphoneโhe couldnโt recall a time when she wasnโt chatting his ear off.ย
Nari rolled her eyes playfully before gently nudging you toward the microphone.
Jungkook knew there was a camera pointed at him, and he hoped it didnโt catch the way he jerked slightly in his seat, maybe a little too eager for you to hear you speak.ย
โAh,โ you chuckled nervously as the stadium exploded into cheers the moment you took the mic. A blush crept up your cheeks, and Jungkook instinctively leaned forward, lifting a hand to hide the smile tugging at his lips.ย
โI donโt- uhโฆโ you began, your voice soft as you glanced at your members, who nodded at you encouragingly. "Sorry," you murmed into the microphone with a light laugh, clearing your throat as you gathered your thoughts. "Mmm, well, when we were writing this song, we were so excited to see what people would think, and, wellโฆ it seems you liked it?โย
Jungkook bit back a groan. So fucking cute.ย
He already knew you weren't a fan of public speaking, just as he wasn't. But still, to see the most secure girl he knew, the most powerful performer heโd ever seen, turn all blushy and shy when she had to give a speech? Fucking hell.ย
โNari-unnie already said it all, but really, weโre so happy and sooo thankful. We will continue to work hard, alwaysโฆ Ahh, we love you, Nova. Thank you so much. Thank you.โย
Your words drew another round of applause as you stumbled back from the mic, your members giggling softly as they patted you all over in encouragement. Jungkook nodded giddily, his grin widening when you glanced in his direction, flashing him one last pretty smile before bowing to the crowd with your sisters.
As soon as your group stepped backstage, the lights, cheers, and noise seemed to fade, replaced by the hum of the crew and the buzz of excitement still lingering in the air. The adrenaline pulsing through your veins was slowly ebbing away, leaving you standing in the midst of it all, clutching the trophy in your hands.ย
Youโd been the only one of your members who hadnโt cried during the acceptance speech. But now, as you stared down at the shiny trophy, the weight of the moment crashed over you in a heavy wave. The reality of it allโthe sleepless nights, the endless rehearsals, the doubts and fears you all shared. It hit you square in the chest.ย
You just won a fucking daesang.ย
Before you could stop yourself, your shoulders shook and a choky sob escaped from deep in your chest.ย
Nari was the first to rush to your side, wrapping her arms around your trembling frame, her own eyes red and watery. โOh, honeyโฆโ she whispered, pulling you close. Within seconds, Eunji and Jiyoung were there too, the three of them surrounding you in a tight, protective circle, holding you tightly as your tears fell unchecked.
Jiyoung buried her face in your shoulder, crying softly. Eunji wiped at her eyes with the back of her hand, biting her lip to keep her tears in check, but it was no use. Nari held you even tighter, her lips pressed to your hair as she rocked you gently.ย
"Thank you so much, Nari-unnie," you managed to whisper through your sobs. Nari shook her head, a teary smile on her face as she gently brushed some stray hair away from your eyes. โI wouldnโt be here without you. Any of you,โ you sniffled, glancing between your unnies.
Your members cooed softly, pulling you closer as you giggled through the tears. When they finally pulled back, your face was still damp, but there was a faint smile tugging at your lips.ย โI canโt believe we did it..โ you croaked, shaking your head in disbelief as your eyes flickered down to the award in your hands.
โIt still feels unreal,โ Eunji agreed with a laugh, her own tears mingling with her smile. โLike, Iโm waiting to wake upโฆ Iโve had this dream so many times.โย
Jiyoung snickered, wiping her eyes. โRight? If I turn around and see Lee Junho walking toward me shirtlessโฆโย
The room erupted into giggles, the tension breaking as your members shoved Jiyoung for her comment. You handed the trophy over to your manager for safekeeping, still laughing as you wiped at your cheeks.
With a gentle nudge from the staff, you were ushered off to tidy up your makeup. It gave you time to calm down, maybe catch your breath, but the excitement still bubbled under your skin. Especially with SHINeeโs performance coming up in just a few more categories!!!ย
When you stepped back from the mirror you thanked your makeup artist, Julie, with a hug and waited for Nari and Eunji to finish up. But as you waited, there came a gentle nudge to your side, and you glanced over to find Jiyoung stifling a giggle.ย
โLook over there,โ she whispered, nodding toward the back of the room.ย
Your curious eyes followed her gaze, scanning the backstage area until you spotted himโa tall, undeniably handsome guy standing a little away from his group. He seemed calm, focused on a conversation with his manager, but the moment your eyes locked, his expression faltered. His face flushed pink before he immediately looked away allโฆ embarrassed?
You frowned, turning back to Jiyoung. โStop it,โ you whispered, giving her a little swat on the arm.ย
But you couldnโt help yourself. As your group began moving toward the exit, you stole another glance over your shoulder, and there he was again. This time, his gaze was unmistakably fixed on you, eyes wide and frozen. Not in a creepy way, though. More like a deer caught in headlights.ย
You hesitated slightly, your group moving ahead without noticing that you had stopped. With a small smile, you turned back toward him and offered a little bow. His reaction was immediateโhis eyes widened even more, if that was possible, and he returned the bow so fast you almost worried heโd pull a muscle.ย
Nari soon noticed you lingering behind and a little frown pulled at her brow, but before she could make a move to fetch you, Jiyoung grabbed her arm. โLeave her,โ she whispered with a smirk, tugging Nari back toward the exit.ย
Meanwhile, you made your way over to the guy. He was definitely an idol, though his name escaped you at the moment. โAre you okay?โ you asked gently. โDo you need something?โย
His face flushed as he stammered, "I-Iโm sorry, no. I justโ uh, I love your music. Your group is incredible. Iโve been listening to 'Supernatural' nonstop! Seriously! I was wondering ifโฆ if youโre performing tonight?โย
โOh, wow, thank you so much.โ Your smile brightened at his sincerity, still not used to receiving compliments like that. โYeah, weโll be performing at around nine.โย
His shoulders relaxed, and a shy smile crept across his face. โThatโs great. Iโll definitely be watchingโฆ Iโm Jeong Jaehyun, from NCT? We just, um, just debuted recently.โย
"Ahh, thatโs why you look so familiar!" you exclaimed, recognition lighting up your face. โI saw your debut stage! It was amazing!โย
Jaehyunโs ears turned a deep shade of red as he ducked his head. โAh, thank you so much, wow, that... that means a lot.โย
The conversation grew easier after that, his nervousness slowly melting away. His humor naturally peeked through, and you even found out he was a fellow โ97-liner. He was genuine and sweet. Jeonggukkie would love him, you thought.ย
As Jaehyun fidgeted, his hand subtly patting his pocket as though reaching for something, the sound of footsteps approaching caught your attention.ย
When you glanced over your shoulder, you smiled as you spotted Jungkook and Taehyung making their way to you guys. Jaehyunโs reaction was almost comical with the way his eyes widened again as he immediately bowed deeply, all stiff and formal. You bit back a laugh as you remembered what it was like to meet your idols for the first time.ย At least he didn't cry.
Jungkook and Taehyung greeted Jaehyun , their kind demeanour helping him ease up, though he still stumbled over his words every now and then. Especially when Jaehyun managed to make Taehyung laugh. The look of pure joy on his face was so adorable.ย
After a few minutes of chatting, you glanced toward the stage. โWe should get back out thereโฆโ you said, nodding toward the performance area. โThe next category is coming up soon.โย
Jungkook nodded, stepping a little closer to you while Taehyung followed suit. โYeah, weโll catch up later,โ Jungkook added with a friendly nod toward Jaehyun.ย
Jaehyun bowed like his life depended on it and smiled handsomely. โCool! Yeah, absolutely! Have a good performance! Good luck!โย
With a wave and a smile, you fell into step beside Jungkook and Taehyung, the three of you heading back toward the guest section. As you walked, you glanced over your shoulder one last time, catching Jaehyunโs lingering gaze. You couldnโt help but laugh softly before turning away.
โYou know,โ Taehyung started, his voice teasing, โyou couldโve just said SHINee is coming up. You didnโt have to say โthe next category.โโย
You rolled your eyes, though the smile tugging at your lips betrayed you. โShut up,โ you mumbled with a little shove. He wasn't wrong.
Meanwhile, Mark, who had been watching the entire exchange from a distance, sidled up to Jaehyun with a teasing smirk. โSo, howโd it go?โ he asked, nudging his bandmateโs shoulder. โDid you tell her how youโve been in love with her since you were just a shy little traineeโโย
โShut up,โ Jaehyun muttered, his face burning as he shoved his phone back into his pocket, grumbling. โShe had to go.โย
Mark laughed, watching as Jaehyunโs gaze drifted back toward you for one last fleeting glance before he sighed in quiet defeat.
As you, Jungkook, and Taehyung continued toward the guest section, Taehyung suddenly slowed. โHold up,โ he muttered, glancing between you and Jungkook. โNeeda go to the bathroom real quick.โย
You smiled, nodding toward the nearby restroom. โOkay. Weโll wait here.โย
With a quick nod, Taehyung slipped through the door, leaving you and Jungkook standing alone in the quiet hallway. You leaned back against the wall, the hum of applause from the show pounding through the walls.ย
Jungkook shifted beside you before leaning in. โSo proud of you, jjogi.โย
You looked up at him, a wide smile spreading across your face. โThank you, ttoki,โ you replied sweetly, instinctively glancing around the empty hall. โIโm so proud of you too, Mr. Album of the Year.โ
His big eyes met yours, a cute grin tugging at his lips. โThank you, Mrs. Song of the Year,โ he shot back, his bunny teeth peeking out as he tilted his head.ย
Your cheeks heated up, your smile widening as you smoothed over your dress, hands twitching with the desire to pull him into a hug. But you knew better.
With one more quick glance at your surroundings, you leaned in, lifting a hand to the side of your mouth as if whispering a secret. โLove you.โย
Jungkookโs eyes crinkled into a smile, his hands mimicking yours as he leaned closer. โI love you moreโฆโ
Before you could reply, the bathroom door swung open and Taehyung strolled out, slipping between you and Jungkook with a content grin. โAlright, letโs go.โย
As the three of you walked together, a question popped into your mind. โHey, why were you guys backstage?โ you asked, glancing curiously between the two.ย
Taehyung shrugged, hands tucked in his pockets. โJeonggukkie needed something.โย
Your brow raised as you leaned forward, looking past Taehyung at Jungkook. โOh? Did you get what you needed?โย
He hummed, his gaze shifting toward you with a little smile tugging at the corner of his lips. โYeah,โ he replied simply.ย
MBC Gayo Daejejeonย
The current artists, Lovelyz, were wrapping up their performance, final notes fading as the audience erupted into applause.ย
The sound echoed all the way down the hall where you and your members stood in a tight semi-circle. There was a buzz in the air, a thick mix of nerves and excitement. A water bottle made its rounds between the four of you, each taking quick sips.ย
You were up next.ย
Adjusting the mic taped to your cheek, you exhaled slowly, trying to calm the rush of adrenaline. Your heart was racing, but it wasnโt a bad feeling. It was the kind of thrill that made you feel like you could do anything. You glanced at Jiyoung, who was bouncing on her feet, twisting her hands together.ย
A teasing smile tugged at your lips. "Unnieโ"ย
Before you could finish, the stage director rushed over, his arms gesturing in wide urgent motions. "Letโs go, girls! Youโre next!"ย
As the four of you reached the stage doors, waiting as they slowly slid open, something clicked inside you. That version of yourself that existed onstage snapped into place like armour, any nerves you might have had completely melting away.
It was almost strange, really, how easily you slipped into this other self. Offstage, you were confident, sure. But onstage, you were something else. The rush was intoxicating, like a drug you craved more than anything.ย
Your mom had always said you liked attention.ย
The stadium lights dimmed, casting long, dramatic shadows along the floor as you and your sisters strode toward centre stage. For a second, everything slowed, the noise of the crowd fading into the background.ย
Then, No More Dream exploded through the speakers, and the crowd roared even louder, the sheer strength of their cries vibrating the ground beneath your feet. You dropped to one knee, taking your position at the front of Nari, with Eunji and Jiyoung flanking her sides.ย
Just as you were about to launch into the performance, something tugged at the edges of your awareness. A strange sensation, a tightness in your chest. Your brow furrowed ever so slightly.
Huhโฆ Youโd never gotten stage fright before.
Not during your first audition, when the judgesโ eyes felt like they were burning holes straight through your soul. Not during the grueling trainee days, when one by one, the girls youโd grown close to disappeared, cut from the potential lineup. Not even when your group had teetered on the brink of disbandment, when everything youโd worked for since you were too young to fully understand the true scope of things, dangled by a thread.
The stage had always been your safe space. Nerves were never the enemy. They were fuel, pushing you to be better.
So why now, of all times, did you feel a prickle of sweat forming at the base of your hairlineโฆ
In the second row, you caught a glimpse of movement. Jungkook, elbowing Taehyung in the ribs, his face scrunched in annoyance. He was trying to get Taehyung to stop leaning over him to chat with Jin. His lips moved quickly, whining in that way he always did when he was being ignored.ย
โItโs starting,โ Jungkook whined, placing a hand on Taehyungโs chest, trying to push him back into his seat.ย
They were being so loud. If Jungkook missed even a single second of your performance because of his hyungs, he was going to fucking lose it.ย
Taehyung finally grumbled something and settled into his seat. Jungkookโs eyes quickly snapped back to the stage, his eyes locking onto yours instantly.ย
The second your gaze met, a smile tugged at your lips, easing the weird tension youโd felt moments before until it melted away, just like that. You didnโt even think about itโyou were just grateful.ย
โI wannaโฆโ
When youโd first been asked to choose a song to cover for Gayo Daejejeon, your producer had mentioned offhandedly that BTS had picked one of your groupโs songs for their performance.ย
Youโd been curious at first, but it wasnโt until later, during a game of Uno, that Jimin had let it slip.ย
โIt was Jeonggukkieโs idea,โ heโd said, grinning at you while tossing down a +4 card with wicked delight.ย
The memory bubbled up now as you transitioned into the next part of the choreo, your mind flicking back to the way Jungkook had pouted when youโd teased him about his suggestion during movie night in his room.ย
โIf you keep teasing me, Iโll ask them to change it,โ he grumbled, pouting in that way only he could.ย
โOkay, okay, Iโm sorry,โ you relented, giggling. โWe could... cover one of your songs too?โย
His pout vanished instantly, replaced by an excited grin that lit up his entire face. โDeal!โ he said, practically bouncing on the bed. Then, he quickly added, "but you have to do my lines, though."ย
You groaned dramatically, playfully pushing out your bottom lip in protest. โBut I wanted to do Namjoonie-oppaโs partโฆโย
The memory of him yanking the blanket over his head like a sulking bunny still made you smile. Heโd curled up into a ball on his bed, refusing to come out until youโd given in and cuddled him for the rest of the movie.
Dramatic didnโt even begin to cover it.ย
And now, here you were, on stage, trying to bite back that same laugh as you rose from behind Nari as she finished RM's line. You brought the mic to your lips, your free hand running through your hair in the way Jungkook had taught you.ย
"Arasseoโฆ eomma jigeum dokseosil gandanikka?"ย
"Yahhh!" Jungkookโs giddy cheer was muffled by his hand covering his mouth.ย
He was trying, and failing, not to react too enthusiastically. His grin was wide behind his fingers, eyes glued to you as you moved across the stage.ย
"Sheโs literally a female Jeonggukkie," Taehyung laughed, nudging the youngest with his elbow.ย
The rest of BTS nodded in agreement, expressions a mixture of amusement and admiration as they watched you copy Jungkookโs mannerisms with scary accuracy.ย
Jungkookโs mouth twitched, trying to hold back a bigger smile at Taeโs comment, but his eyes never left you. He watched intently as you slinked back to the center after Eunjiโs verse.ย
"Ah, sheโs doing Kookieโs rap?" Jin leaned in, eyebrows raised in intrigue.ย
"Mhm," Jimin confirmed with a nod, his fingers drumming against his knees. "She can rap well."ย
Jungkook let out a soft, dreamy sigh, leaning back in his seat. โShe can do everything well,โ he mumbled, not even trying to hide the affection in his voice.ย
His hyungs groaned in unison, the sound almost drowning out the cheers from the crowd. Rolling their eyes at the lovesick tone in his voice, they shook their heads and shoved playfully at the maknae.ย
Jungkook just giggled with an unashamed shrug.
Jiyoung was the first to break the post-performance haze as you slipped through the backstage curtain. "God, that choreo is so fucked," she groaned, running a hand through her sweat drenched hair.
"I know," you laughed, brushing a stray piece of hair from her face as you glanced down at her legs. "How are your knees?"
Jiyoung gave your hair a ruffle as you worriedly rubbed her kneecaps through the fabric of her jeans. "Theyโre fine, honey. Like I was going to ruin my fit with a pair of ugly kneepads."
You snickered, rolling your eyes. "Priorities..." you teased, giving her legs one last pat before straightening up. "You guys thirsty? I can grab drinks."
But before you could move, you noticed your members exchanging sly, knowing glances.
"Thatโs okay, weโll get our own drinks," Jiyoung said with a little smirk. Eunji giggled, elbowing her lightly as they began to walk away.
"Huhโ" You didnโt quite get a chance to question them.
Nari flashed you a soft smile as she linked arms with the other two. "Weโll be at the monitors," she called over her shoulder, leaving you standing thereโconfused and suddenly alone.
That confusion quickly melted away when you turned around, finding yourself face to face with your favorite pair of big, boba eyes.
โOh, hi, ttoki,โ you smiled.
"Hi," he echoed, flashing you a pretty grin as he held out a cold bottle of water toward you.
Before you could take the bottle from his grasp, Jungkookโs hand gently caught your outstretched one, pulling you in with one quick motion. Laughter bubbled up in your chest as you stumbled into him, his arms wrapping around your waist like they belonged there and only there.
Jungkook sighed softly, his body relaxing as he pulled you closer, your arms naturally finding their way around his neck. The moment was so familiar, so easy, that you didn't even look around you to see if anybody could see you.
โYou did so well,โ he mumbled into your skin, his breath warm against your neck.
โThank you,โ you smiled, the tickle of his breath making your shoulder lift involuntarily.
You tried to balance the cold bottle now in your hand, careful not to press it against him. Jungkook noticed, his nose crinkling as he gave your sides one last gentle squeeze before relunctantly pulling away.
As he stepped back, he blinked a few times, trying to refocus. His gaze had wandered, caught on the curve of your smile, the way it always made his heart do that thing.
His eyes trailed over you, watching as you unscrewed the cap of the water bottle, your body naturally leaning toward him.
But then, you paused, frowning down at the bottle in your hand, and the hairs on the back of his neck prickled.
โWhatโs wrong?โ Jungkook asked, his brows furrowing as he leaned in closer.
โMy water...โ you pouted, turning the bottle over in your hands.
"Huh? What about it?โ Jungkookโs hands shot out to inspect the bottle. He had just taken a sip earlier, and it was fine?
โThereโs some missingโฆโ you said, your pout deepening.
His face fell instantly. "Ohโฆ yeah, I had a drink. Sorry. Iโll go get you a fresh oneโ"
But before he could finish, your soft giggle cut through his panic, and you unscrewed the cap, taking a big gulp. You shrugged playfully. "Iโm kidding, ttoki. Unlessโฆ you have cooties?"
Jungkook forced out a laugh, but it came out dry. Unlike the droplet of water that slipped past your lips and trailed slowly down the curve of your fucking neck. His gaze followed it unbiddenly as it disappeared beneath the neckline of your cropped t-shirt.
โJeonggukkie?โ
His head jerked up. "Hm?"
โI asked when you guys are going up?โ you repeated gently, tilting your head in that adorable, curious way you didโlike a puppy waiting for a response.
Jungkook blinked, pulling his thoughts together. โTwo more acts, jjogi,โ he said softly.
You nodded, satisfied, flashing him that pretty smileโthe one where your eyes crinkle just slightly, your nose scrunches up, and he can see your dimple peeking through.
So pretty, he groaned inwardly. He could write a fucking song about it.
Without a word, you quickly scoped your surroundings before reaching out and slipping your hand into his. Jungkookโs fingers reacted faster than his brain, linking with yours like second nature. You tugged him forward, weaving through the bare backstage area.
For a moment, Jungkook wondered where you were taking him. To the monitors where he saw your unnies heading? To the guest section, so you could experience SHINeeโs performance from the best possible view?
His mind wandered briefly, curiously.
But then again, it didnโt really matter, did it? His inner voice snarked.
Heโd follow you anywhere.
โWhatโd ya think?โ Jungkookโs voice caught you off guard, his grin wide as you yelped in surprise.
Your phone almost slipped from your hand as you spun around with wide eyes. "It was so good, ttoki," you replied, trying to catch your breath. You gave him a smile, the initial shock fading. โAs always.โ
Jungkookโs grin widened, very pleased by your words. As he stepped closer with his arms outstretched and ready to pull you into a hug, you took a small step back. He frowned.
โYou okay, jjogi?โ
โMhm,โ you nodded, holding your phone tightly in front of you. Your eyes flickered around the room, and Jungkook followed your gaze, his brows pulling together.
"What?" he asked, voice low with uncertainty.
โThere's a couple people,โ you murmured quietly, like it shouldโve been obvious.
Jungkook blinked, his frown deepening. "They're just staffโฆ"
Your phone buzzed, and instantly, your thumb slid to the mute button to silence it. Jungkook noticed but didnโt say anything. He just waited, watching as you slipped your phone into the back pocket of your jeans.
โTtoki, we canโt, you knowโฆโ you trailed off, your head tilting to one side like you were waiting for him to understand.
But he didnโt.
โWe canโtโฆ what?โ he asked, the confusion in his voice almost making you laugh.
With a soft shake of your head, you reached for his hand, wrapping your fingers around his as you started to lead him through the crowd of people backstage. He followed without hesitation, his fingers curling around yours as he kept quiet.
When you reached the double doors separating backstage from the dressing room hallway, you pushed them open, sliding through with Jungkook right behind you. His hand found yours again, fingers slipping easily into place as you walked.
โCanโt what, jjogi?โ he asked again, his steps slowing as he tugged lightly at your hand.
In the distance, Jinโs windshield wiper laugh grew louder as you approached his dressing room. Jungkookโs footsteps dragged. He didn't want to get there just yet.
โHug in public,โ youclarified simply, swinging your linked hands between you.
Jungkookโs brows furrowed. "Was barely anyone back there.. And itโs just a quick hug," he said, looking down at your entwined fingers. "We hold hands in public."
โYeah, but holding hands can be interpreted as friendly, I guess,โ you shrugged, your pace slowing as Jungkookโs did, both of you nearly crawling down the hall now.
โA hug really canโt be interpreted as friendly?โ he asked quietly.
โA hug can,โ you nodded, glancing up at him with a cute smile. โBut your hugs? Not so much.โ
At that, he pouted. Like, full-on Jeon Jeongguk power-pouted.
You giggled, the sound quiet in the empty hallway, before resting your head against his arm. โTtoki, itโs not a bad thing. I love your hugs,โ you reassured him, your hand gently rubbing his bare arm. โBut I don't know those staff members enough to trust themโฆ and if we got dragged into heat over you just looking at me, I canโt imagine what a picture of us hugging would do.โ
Jungkook sighed, his head dipping. โYou mean you got dragged into heat, not me,โ he grumbled.
You lifted your head to meet his eyes, your brows knitting together. โStop that. You got backlash tooโโ
โNot like you did,โ he cut in. โAnd it was my fault.โ
You let out a soft sigh, rubbing his arm again, trying to soothe the weight he carried. โTtoki, I donโt care what people say about us. They donโt know us. I just donโt want stupid rumors to hurt our groups, that's all.โ
Jungkookโs thumb brushed across the back of your hand. โI know, jjogi,โ he murmured, guilt lacing his words. โIโm so sorry.โ
You pressed a quick kiss to his arm, hoping to end the topic once and for all. โYouโve apologized a hundred times, and Iโve growled you a hundred times, ttoki. It's okay. Okay?โ
Jungkookโs eyes softened as you stopped in front of the bathroom door. He tilted his head, watching you curiously as you pulled away.
โI need to pee,โ you explained with a grin. โIโll meet you in the dressing room, โkay?โ
He shook his head slightly, leaning against the wall with his arms crossed. "Iโll wait here."
You paused, your hand resting on the doorknob, an amused smile tugging at your lips. โJeonggukkie, itโs fine,โ you said with a quiet laugh. โThe girls are in there too. Probably figuring out what weโre doing for dinner.โ
โI know,โ he replied easily. His eyes stayed fixed on yours, his stance shifting to a more comfortable position against the wall. โIโll wait. What if you get kidnapped or something?โ
โAish,โ you snorted, reaching up to brush a stray strand of hair from his eyes. โOkay, but if someone sees you hanging around outside the girlsโ bathroom like a creepโฆโ
โYahh,โ he chuckled, jerking his head toward the door. โJust go. Hurry up.โ
Your laughter lingered in his ears as you disappeared into the restroom.
A few minutes later, as you pressed the foot pedal of the trash can to toss the paper towel, you heard the faint sound of Jungkookโs voice outside the bathroom.
โSorry, ttoki, I couldnโt hear you properly. What did you saโโ you called out as you tried to open the door, but it stopped halfway, hitting something on the other side.
โOops, sorry!โ a soft, feminine voice giggled from the other side, stepping back to let you through.
โShit, are you okay?โ you asked, quickly slipping through the gap, hands hovering near her arms in concern.
โIโm fine!โ she squeaked, bowing quickly in apology.
You let out a relieved sigh and mirrored her gesture. "Are you surโ"
"Of course! I was the one in your wayโ" she began, her words trailing off as her eyes lit up in sudden recognition. โWah, Jang Y/N-seonbaenim? Iโm such a huge fan! Iโm Lee Mijoo.โ
"Wow, thank you so much,โ you smiled, cupping her outstretched hand between both of yours. โLee Mijooโฆ Oh woah, youโre in Lovelyz! My members and I were just listening to your performance. It was amazing.โ
Her wide eyes sparkled, her voice a little breathless as she replied, โR-really? Thank you so much! Ah, they're going to freak out when I tell them about this..."
Your cheeks flushed as you laughed softly, giving her hand a gentle squeeze before letting go. Jungkook watched the interaction, lips pressed together as he tried not to smile. You were so cute.
โOkay, I really better go, I think Iโm holding up dinnerโฆโ You laughed again, giving Mijoo a final bow, which she eagerly returned. โIt was nice to meet you, and Iโm sorry again. I hope youโre okay.โ
โIโm fine, really! Thank you so much. Have a great dinner!โ Mijoo smiled brightly, and you returned it, stepping back.
As your gaze shifted to Jungkook, you noticed his eyes were already on Mijoo. She had turned back toward him, continuing their conversation as if no time had passed.
You watched, breath catching for a moment as her hand lightly brushed against his chest.
Jungkookโs ears, already tinted red from his usual shyness, deepened in color. And there it wasโhis stupid bunny smile. The one you knew so well. Right there on his pouty lips as he looked down at her.
A strange pang settled in your chest, sharp but soft, as if youโd swallowed something too big and it was lodged somewhere just behind your heart. You pushed it down quickly before turning quietly and heading toward the dressing room where your friends were waiting.
Behind you, Mijooโs soft giggles lingered in the hallway, the sound trailing after you like a taunting echo.
Fifteen minutes later, you found yourself bundled up in the jacket Taehyung had handed you when he noticed your thin coat not doing much to stop your shivering. You sat quietly on a stool while Nari stood behind you, her fingers gently combing through your hair.
"You alright, honey?" she asked softly, her hands sliding from your hair to rest on your shoulders, giving them a squeeze.
โHm?" You blinked, snapping out of the daze you had drifted into, your gaze distant. Adjusting the coat draped around your shoulders, you looked up at her. "Yeah, Iโm okay, unnie."
Nari nodded, though not fully convinced. She knew you well enough to recognize when something was off. Still, she didnโt press, trusting that if you needed her, youโd speak up. "You hungry?" she asked, her tone gentle.
โMhm,โ you hummed, leaning back into her embrace as her arms wrapped around you. โAre we going to eat now?โ
โWeโre supposed to be,โ Taehyung grumbled from where he sat next to Jimin on the couch, his eyes flicking up from his phone. "Weโre just waiting for Jeonggukkie. Where is he, Y/N-ssi? Thought he was with you?"
Before you could answer, the door swung open, and in walked the man of the hourโcheeks flushed, eyes slightly hooded. You swallowed down the bitter taste creeping up your throat.
A collective groan of satisfaction rippled through the room as Jungkook stepped inside, flashing an apologetic smile while dodging playful shoves from his hyungs. His gaze swept over the room, eyes settling on you almost instantly.
"Alright, letโs go," Namjoon called, standing to gather his things. The others followed suit, moving to grab their clothes and bags.
You stayed quiet, watching as Jungkook navigated around Namjoon and started heading your way. Quickly slipping your arms into the sleeves of Taehyungโs jacket, you adjusted it so it wasnโt hanging loosely on your shoulders before turning to Nari. โUnnie, can we go, please?โ
Nariโs brows knitted slightly at the urgency in your voice, but she nodded, grabbing her purse and coat before holding out her hand to you. You snatched your phone off the bench, linking your arm with hers, practically hugging her side as she gently ushered your other members to grab their things.
Jiyoung and Eunji moved like fucking snails, lazily climbing off the loveseat, and it took every ounce of restraint not to stomp your foot in frustration. You could feel Jungkookโs presence drawing closer, the familiar scent of his cologne wrapping around you, tightening like an invisible net.
Nari felt the change in your posture.She glanced down at your face, then over your shoulder, her gaze landing on Jungkook as he approached. She looked back and forth between the two of you, then at Jiyoung and Eunji who were still taking their sweet time. With a quiet sigh, she let go of your arm.
Your eyes snapped to hers in panic. You opened your mouth to protest, but the firm look she gave you stopped you in your tracks, making your lips press together in a pout. She stepped away, and your shoulders sagged in defeat. You didnโt have much of a choice anymoreโyouโd have to talk to him.
You didnโt really have a reason to avoid Jungkook. Nothing you could explain out loud, at least. You justโฆ didnโt feel like it right now.
But when you turned, bracing yourself to face him, relief flooded through you at the sight of Nari intercepting his path.
You exhaled, grabbing the arms of your other two membersโwho had finally gathered their thingsโignoring their teasing laughs as you dragged them out of the dressing room.
โHey, Jungkook-ssi,โ Nari greeted, offering the younger boy a warm smile as he slowed to a stop.
โHi, noonaโoh, Y/N-yah, hey, waitโโ Jungkookโs voice trailed off as he watched you hurriedly slip out of the room with Eunji and Jiyoung, leaving only him and your leader behind. โAh, she must not have heard you,โ Nari said with a soft sigh, patting his back as she gently steered him toward the door. โCome on, letโs go have some dinner.โ
You had only just stepped out of the bathroom, steam billowing behind you as the door clicked shut.
The scent of spices from the kitchen floated down the hallway, mixing with the lingering warmth of your shower. You hugged the towel youโd used on your hair to your chest, eyes half-lidded with the weight of exhaustion pulling at your limbs.
Just as you began to head for your dorm, footsteps echoed behind you, drawing your attention. You glanced over your shoulder to see Jungkook walking toward you, his smile soft, eyes raking over you familiar way he does. Your hair was still damp, falling over your shoulders, and the t-shirt and sweatpants you were wearing clung comfortably to your skin.
"Hi," he greeted, his voice low, still warm from the kitchen heat. He gave you a once-over, smile widening at the sight of you looking so cozy. "Dinnerโs almost ready. Couch or floor?"
Your head tilted as you thought. It was always one or the other, the two of you eating dinner together with the group, perched either on the couch or sitting cross-legged on the floor.
But the image of him asking Lee Mijoo that same question nagged at the back of your mind, a thought you shoved down before it could fester.
"Couch," you answered quietly.
Jungkook nodded, about to turn back toward the living room when he noticed it. Something about the way you stood, or maybe it was your shouldersโฆ they were just a little off. Not something most people would pick up on, but then again, most people werenโt irrevocably in love with you.
"You alright, jjogi?" he asked, voice softer now.
"Uh-huh," you replied with a small smile, turning away before he could ask anything else. "Iโll be out in a sec."
"Oโ" Jungkook started, but the door to your dorm clicked shut before he could finish. He stood there for a second longer, staring at the closed door, muttering the rest to himself. "-kay."
A few minutes later, Jungkook was back in the living room, adjusting the cushions on the couch when he heard footsteps approaching. "Move, hyung," he grumbled at Jimin, nudging him sharply to get him to scoot over to the left side of the couch instead of sitting smack-bang in the middle.
"Yah!" Jimin laughed, swatting at him. "Youโre not the only one who wants to sit next to Y/N-ssi, you knowโ"
"Shut up," Jungkook shot back, easily overpowering him and forcing him to slide over.
Jungkook planted himself stubbornly in the middle with a huff. He had planned on giving you the middle seat, letting Jimin sit next to you too. But now, Jimin gets nothing.
"Aish, you littleโ" Jimin shook his head, laughing, just as you wandered into the room.
You had socks and a little zip-up jacket on now, and Jungkook's eyes immediately flicked to the air conditioning meter on the wall. It's warm already.
Maybe you're getting sick, he thought. Ah, that must be why you seemed a little off earlier.
The long coffee table was covered in a spread of food, and your stomach growled in response as you flopped down next to Jungkook. His arm immediately reached out, grabbing an empty bowl and glancing back at you. He pointed at the pot of kimchi-jjigae, a silent question on his lips. It was your favorite, and he already knew youโd want it, but he asked anyway.
You nodded with a small smile, pulling your legs up and crossing them beneath you. Your sock-covered foot pressed against his thigh while his gaze lingered for a second, eyes flickering over your face before he nodded. Turning back to the table, he scooped some rice into the bowl, then topped it with the steaming stew. He grabbed a spoon and handed the bowl to you, careful not to let it spill.
"Thank you," you murmured, giving him a quiet smile before mouthing, 'ttoki'.
Jungkook bit back a laugh, knowing you only whispered it because his brothers loved teasing him whenever you called him that in front of them. He didnโt care. Heโd told you that a thousand times, but you still didn't want them to tease him.
Jungkook leaned forward to grab his own bowl when Jimin poked his arm. "Jeonggukkie, can you dish me a bowl too, please?"
"Do it yourself," Jungkook grumbled, scooping his own portion of stew.
"Ttoki!" you gasped in shock, laughing as you nudged him with your foot. "Donโt be rude."
"Yeah, ttoki," Taehyung chimed in from his spot on the floor, snickering with Jiyoung as they dug into their food. "Donโt be rude."
Jungkookโs eyes went wide as he looked at you, and you just tilted your head innocently. He sighed, lips pulling to the side in a begrudging frown as he scooped some of the stew into a bowl for Jimin. He grabbed a spoon and clanked it into the bowl a little aggressively before thrusting it toward Jimin.
"Thank you, ttoki," Jimin cooed, accepting the bowl with a sickeningly sweet smile. "And be a darling bunny and pass me a couple of dumplโ"
You placed your hand on Jungkookโs arm, holding him back just as he lunged at Jimin, ready to tackle him into the back of the couch.
Dinner was amazing.
You only had one bowl, and though you could've easily finished another, maybe two, you stopped yourself. Practice was early tomorrow, and you knew better than to overeat and feel sick or sluggish. Jungkook, however, kept trying to slip you dumplings or a bread roll whenever he saw the empty bowl in your lap.
You just shook your head, smiling, settling deeper into the couch. He wasnโt thrilled, but when you rested your head on his arm, he relaxed a bit, quietly going back to his second serving.
Now, the cold night air nipped at your neck, sharp against your skin as you sat against the rough brick wall outside the building. The gravel dug into your sweatpants, uncomfortable but not unbearable. You adjusted the phone in your hand as your motherโs concerned voice filled the quiet night.
โHave you been eating well?โ she asked, her tone halfway between worried and accusatory. โYouโre looking a bit thin, gongju.โ
You smiled softly, tilting your head as you rested your chin on your knees. โYes, eomma. I just had a nice dinner,โ you reassured her. โI had the flu, remember? Took a while to get back to normal, but Iโm fine now.โ
Your mom sighed, the sound crackling through the video call. โMm. Iโll send some extra choco pies in my next package, just in caseโโ
โDonโt, please,โ you laughed, tucking a loose strand of hair behind your ear. "I canโt eat those right now, eomma. Iโmโโ
But your words were cut off by the rise of her familiar Daegu accent, sharp with concern. She launched into a tirade about โdangerous dietsโ and โending up in the hospital.โ
You winced, a soft smile tugging at your lips as you cut in, โItโs not a bad diet, eomma. Itโs a healthy one. Iโm just taking better care of myselfโฆ something I havenโt done in a while." You laughed lightly, your gaze dropping to the gravel at your feet.
Her sigh came softer this time, a little more accepting. "Well, I'm glad to hear that." A pause lingered between you, then her voice softened again. "You look happy, my gongju. Youโre so beautiful when youโre happy."
โThanks, eomma,โ you murmured, your smile widening. "I am happy." You nodded before adding, "You look good too. I like your haircut."
Your motherโs hand automatically went to her hair, fingers combing through the strands of her shoulder-length bob. โAh, yes. My friend Dong-wook did it, free of charge,โ she said with a sly smile. โYou remember him, right? The hair stylist I told you about?โ
โMmhm," you hummed knowingly, teasing. โFree of charge, huh?โ
She narrowed her eyes. "Donโt start that, Y/N,โ she scolded lightly, but you could see her lips curving into a playful smile. โMen and women can be just friends.โย
You blinked, holding back the laugh bubbling up in your chest. โRight.โ
She gave you a pointed look before finally breaking into a full smile, her eyes crinkling at the corners. โIsnโt that right, gongju?โ
โEomma,โ you warned, shifting your position against the wall.
Your mom was one of the few people you trusted with everything. One of the few who had always supported your dreams, no matter how crazy or far-fetched they seemed. But in moments like this, you almost regretted how much she knew.
โIโm just saying,โ she pressed on, โIโm not getting any younger, gongjuโฆ and I want to see you happy. With someone who cares about yoโโ ย โEomma,โ you interrupted, laughing softly, โYouโre only forty-three. And Iโm nineteen. I have plenty of time for all of that...โ ย โYou do,โ she agreed, her voice dipping into a knowing hum. โBut why wait when you have everything you need right in front of you?โ
You let out a short, exasperated laugh. โSubject change, please,โ you muttered, trying to steer the conversation in a safer direction.ย
But your mom wasnโt done. โAh, youโre so focused on your career, darling, and thatโs good! But donโt forget that you can still enjoy lifeโฆ and love.โ She gave you that endearing look, the one that made you feel like a child all over again. โYou can have both.โ
You sighed with a chuckle, resting your chin on your knees again. โEomma, shouldnโt you be telling me to focus on my career? Not to do drugs or run around chasing boys?โย
She laughed, a warm, rich sound that made your chest ache with homesickness. โAh, gongju. First of all, I know youโd never do drugs. Youโre too much of a gongju for that.โ You gasped in mock offense, but she just chuckled. โAnd as for boysโฆ Honey, you just have to stand in place. Heโs the one doing all the running.โ
โEomma,โ you groaned, pressing your head against your knees as her sweet laugh echoed through the phone.
โWell, am I wrong?โ she teased, and you could practically see the arch of her brow. โHe looks at you like you hung every star in the sky. Itโs just so adorabโโย
โStop it,โ you whined, hiding your face further. โGuys and girls can be just friends, okay? Just like you and Dong-wook.โย
โAhhh, I see. Well, if you and Jeongguk-ssi are those kinds of friends,โ she said with a mischievous lilt, โthen I have nothing to worry about.โย
โEomma!โ You nearly screamed, a hand flying to your face. โPlease, I just ate. Donโt make me throw it all up.โ
Her laughter bubbled up again, and despite your frustration, you found yourself smiling. โOkay, okay, gongju. Iโll stop.โ A brief pause followed before her eyes shifted. โOh, Jeongguk-ah! Hello, sweetie! How are you?โย
Peeking around the corner of the wall, you saw Jungkook approaching, hands tucked into his pockets, his bunny smile lighting up as soon as he saw your mom.
โHi, eomma,โ he waved, plopping down next to you. You scooted over, making room for him as he took the phone from your hands. โIโm well, and you? Wah, I love your haircut.โ
You leaned into him, resting your head on his shoulder as your arm linked through his, letting their conversation wash over you. The warmth of his hoodie against your cheek and the gentle rumble of his voice made your eyelids feel heavier. You hadnโt even realized how tired you were.ย
As your breathing slowed, Jungkookโs voice grew quieter, the volume on your phone clicking down softly three times. You didnโt notice him reach over to pull the zipper of your jacket up properly. But your mom did.
โOne second, eomma,โ Jungkook said, his voice soft as he turned the phone away. The faint sound of the zipper echoed before he brought the phone back. โSorry about that. So, what did Minho-hyung do next?โย
Your mom smiled, her eyes catching the sight of your peaceful face, now bundled up against Jungkookโs side, your cheek pressed to his arm as you slept.
โAh, yes, where was I?โ she murmured, a fond smile on her lips as she continued her story.ย
Mothers know best.
The soft glow of the TV illuminated the living room as Toy Story 2 played its final scenes.
The house had long since quietedโeveryone else had already gone to bed after the first movie. But you and Jungkook remained, curled up on the couch, a cozy blanket draped over your legs.
It was late. You had practice at 9am, and Jungkook had a full day of promotions ahead, but neither of you moved.ย
As the credits began to roll, Jungkook shifted beside you, his voice low and thick with sleep. โWanna watch the third one?โ
You glanced up at him, taking in the way his eyelids drooped, the way his head barely held itself up. โArenโt you sleepy?โ you asked softly.
He nodded, but the movement was languid. โA little..โ he mumbled, though even he knew the truth was written all over his face.
Jungkook had been up since 5am, and his exhaustion was obvious, but there was no way he was going to be the one to end the night. Not when he was here, wrapped up in a cozy fucking blanket with you, watching one of his favorite movies.
โLast one,โ he added, more to himself than to you, as if convincing his body to stay awake just a little longer.
You smiled softly, nodding as he stood up, gathering the empty popcorn bowl. He stretched, a yawn slipping from his lips before he bent to grab your water bottle from the coffee table. He gave it a small shake, noticing it was nearly empty, and tucked it under his arm. โBe back in a sec,โ he murmured, his steps slow as he disappeared into the kitchen.
You watched him go, warmth filling your chest as you reached for the remote. You began typing Toy Story 3 into the search bar when Jungkookโs phone buzzed on the coffee table.
Your fingers hesitated over the remote for a split second, your eyes drifting to the lit-up screen. You quickly shook off the urge to look, refocusing on the TV as you continued your search. The letters appeared slowly on the screen, but the phone buzzed again, pulling your attention back.
You tried to ignore it. Reallyโฆ you did. You forced yourself to focus on the title in front of you, but it wasn't long until another buzz echoed through the room.
You pressed your lips into a thin line. Alright, Mr. Popular, you thought, lips curving in a humourless smile as you clicked on the movie, pausing it while it loaded to wait for Jungkook.
The quiet around you felt heavier than it shouldโve. The only sounds were the soft hum of the microwave and the trickle of water from the kitchen as Jungkook filled your bottle. Your eyes flicked to his phone again, resting innocently on the table.
You didnโt know why you did it.
Maybe it was curiosity. Maybe it was something else. But your hand moved of its own accord, fingertips brushing the screen and watching as it lit up.
His notifications flashed before your eyesโInstagram, Clash of Clans, (1) text from Eomma, (3) text from Unknown.
Before you could stop yourself, your fingers were already typing in his passcode.
Unknown [11:48 PM] hey jungkook! sorry i hope this doesn't wake youใ ใ [11:48 PM] it's me, lee mijoo!! [11:49 PM] just let me know when you wanted to meet up :) ๐
A rush of heat spread through your chest, your fingers freezing over the screen before you scrambled to lock the phone. Your breath was shaky as you placed it back on the table, the blanket that had been so warm moments ago now felt suffocating, too heavy, too much.
You tried to steady your thoughts, shifting uncomfortably on the couch as you heard Jungkook returning. He plopped down beside you with a soft grunt, his arm brushing yours as he held out the water bottle. โDid you want some?โ
You just shook your head, unable to find your voice. Jungkook gave a small nod, setting the bottle on the table as he checked his phone briefly.
You watched out of the corner of your eye, your stomach twisting as his thumb hovered over the notifications. He swiped through them casually, not even bothering to read the messages before setting the phone back down, oblivious.
Jungkook settled back into the couch, adjusting the popcorn bowl on his lap as he reached out to wrap an arm around your shoulders like he always did. But this time, you leaned forward quickly, grabbing the remote before he could touch you. His arm hovered for a second, confused, before dropping limply to his side.
His brows furrowed slightly, but he waited, watching as you pressed play on the movie. When you leaned back, his arm instinctively moved again, grazing your shoulder, but you shifted once more, pulling away.
This time, he knew it wasnโt an accident.
โJjogi?โ he asked, his voice tinged with confusion. โIs everything okay?โ
You nodded, lips pressed tightly together, your gaze fixed on the screen. โYeah,โ you murmured, watching as Woody chased after One-Eyed Betty.
Jungkook frowned, concern etched into his features. His stomach knotted as he shoved a few kernels of popcorn into his mouth, chewing slowly as he tried to figure out what was wrong.
He couldnโt shake the feeling that you were upset. That he had done something.
So he set the bowl on the coffee table, turning toward you. โAre you too tired? We donโt have to keep watching if you want to sleep.โ
โIโm not tired,โ you replied, your tone clipped.
You werenโt lyingโyou didnโt feel tired anymore. But you werenโt exactly sure what you felt, either. All you knew was that you didnโt like it.
โDid Iโฆdo something?โ he asked hesitantly, his heart sinking as he searched your face.
โNo.โ The word came out flat, your eyes never leaving the screen.
โAre you hungry? I couldโโ
โGod, Jeongguk, would you just stop?โ you snapped, cutting him off. โI said Iโm fine. Just watch the movie.โ
He flinched, swallowing hard at the sharpness in your voice.
Jeongguk? You were pissed.
But he had no idea why.
โJjogiโโ he started again, but before he could finish, you tossed the blanket off your legs and stood up abruptly. His eyes widened as he watched you stomp away.
In your haste, your leg hit the edge of the coffee table, knocking your water bottle over and sending his phone tumbling to the floor. Jungkook leaned forward immediately, grabbing the bottle and standing it upright before scooping up his phone.
โJjogi,โ he called softly, trailing after you as you walked toward your room.
โJust go away, Jeongguk,โ you muttered, your voice low and tired.
โPlease, jjogi,โ he pleaded, his steps quickening to catch up. โWhatโs wrong?โ
โNothingโs wrong,โ you sighed, still walking. โI just want to be alone.โ
โAll of a sudden?โ His frown deepened, frustration creeping into his voice. โPlease, just talk to me.โ
You stopped abruptly, spinning around to face him. "Why donโt you just go talk to Mijoo?"
Jungkook froze, his brows knitting together in genuine confusion. "Mijoo?" he echoed, the name foreign on his lips, as though he had to drag it out of the depths of his mind. "Whatโฆ what are you talking about?"
Mijoo? Lee Mijoo? The conversation theyโd had with her earlier replayed in his mind, but nothing about it stood out. Had she said something to upset you? No way. He wouldโve noticed.
โOkay, I really better go. I think Iโm holding up dinnerโฆโ youโd said with a light laugh as you tried to make your exit. Jungkook had nodded absentmindedly, his stomach grumbling as he prepared to part ways with Mijoo and follow you. โIt was so nice to meet you, and Iโm sorry again. I hope youโre okay.โ
โIโm fine, really, thank you so much. Have a good dinner!โ Mijoo had smiled, her face bright and friendly.
Jungkook had smiled politely in return, already about to bow and follow after you, when Mijooโs hand brushed lightly against him. โWow, so youโre really a โ97-liner? Gah, so talentedโฆโ
Heโd felt the heat creeping up his neck, a blush rising as he shook his head. โAhh, thank you.โ
Out of the corner of his eye, he saw you turning to leave, your figure retreating down the hall and disappearing into the doorway of the dressing room without so much as a glance back at him. His heart sank.
โAh, I betterโโ heโd started, ready to go after you.
But Mijooโs soft, hopeful voice interrupted him. โWould it be too forward of me to ask for your number? I really enjoyed talking to you, and would love to do it again sometime? Maybe we couldโฆโ
Jungkook didn't hear the rest of her words, his eyes darting back toward the now-empty hallway where you had disappeared. A dull ache settled in his chest.
He barely registered Mijooโs outstretched phone, his hand moving automatically to take it. He forced a smile, fingers trembling slightly as he typed his number into the device. But his heart wasnโt in it.
Obviously, his subconscious mocked. Because it belongs to her.
iโll reblog with my taglist tmrw, iโm about to get taken by the sleepy police..๐ love youu ๐๐ค