“The Meaning Of My Existence Is That Life Has Addressed A Question To Me. Or, Conversely, I Myself

One piece of media that totally changed my perspective is Viktor Frankl’s "Man's Search for Meaning." His story hit hard. Frankl talks about how he found purpose even in the darkest moments, saying, “When we can’t change a situation, we have to change ourselves". It made me realize that life can throw some serious curveballs, but how we respond is what matters.

He says,“life isn’t unbearable because of circumstances", and that idea flipped a switch for me. Nowadays, whenever I encounter difficulties, I work hard to understand what is the purpose behind it rather than just get stressed about it. I have been able to forgive and have compassion for myself and other people who might find it difficult to understand where I am coming from. To be frank, it is a game changer. 💯💯💯

What’s a piece of media (book, movie, song, etc.) that completely changed your perspective on life? How did it impact you?

“The meaning of my existence is that life has addressed a question to me. Or, conversely, I myself am a question which is addressed to the world, and I must communicate my answer, for otherwise I am dependent upon the world’s answer.”

I’ve been feeling really disconnected lately. I crave conversations about astronomy, psychology, and philosophy—those deep dives into mythology and the mysteries of the universe. I want to discuss the stars, the moon, and the way different languages shape our thoughts. It’s tough when no one around me shares that passion; it often feels like I’m speaking a different language. If you’re out there and want to explore these topics together, let’s connect. I’d love to find someone to share ideas and rants with.

About planetary maturity

In Vedic astrology, the concept of planetary maturity, or Graha Pakvata (sansk.), refers to the specific age at which each of the nine planets reaches its full potential and begins to influence the native's life with greater clarity and strength. Once a planet attains maturity, it becomes more capable of interacting productively with other natal and transit planets. Such planets are considered "wiser," better equipped to counter malefic influences and mitigate negative effects.

It is important to note that changes after a planet matures do not happen suddenly. These changes unfold gradually, over the course of a year or even several years, after the planet reaches its full potential. However, if a planet is particularly significant in a natal chart, its mature effects will be more noticeable, both physically and emotionally.

Traditionally, the most important planets to consider are:

The Moon and the ruler of the Moon

Lagnesha (the ruler of the Ascendant, or Lagna)

Planets occupying the 1st house (where Lagna is located)

Important note: If, say, two planets are in conjunction and are located within 15 degrees of each other, the planet that matures earlier will be held back until the second reaches its maturity age as well. For example, if Venus and Rahu are within a 15-degree orb in a chart, even if Venus is strong and well-placed, you can expect the person to experience unstable relationships or a lack of desire to settle into marital life until Rahu reaches maturity (the maturity ages of each planet and the lunar nodes are listed below).

Estimated maturity ages of the planets according to Jyotish:

Jupiter: 16 years — by 16, a person begins to understand moral principles, distinguish between good and bad, and typically get a secondary school education. Jupiter, being the planet of expansion and wisdom, fosters further education and a deeper understanding of life. By this age, a person is no longer a child.

Sun: 22 years — Following Jupiter's maturity, the Sun reaches maturity at 22, bringing self-awareness and a sense of ego and individuality. People at this age begin to seek their place in society and explore their life purpose.

Moon: 24 years — When the Moon matures, emotions become more stable and grounded compared to the emotionally turbulent teenage period , particularly in water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, Pisces). This period is especially noticeable for young females, as many enter into their first serious relationships.

Venus: 25 years — Venus’ maturity brings a more practical and grounded approach to love and relationships. Romantic affairs become more meaningful, and this is often the time when some individuals settle into long-term commitments or marriage.

Mars: 28 years — By this age, Mars stabilizes. People learn to manage impulsiveness and aggression, replacing bold, impulsive actions with more thoughtful decision-making. They also become more competitive and are better at taking calculated risks.

Mercury: 32 years — At this stage, individuals become more analytical and practical in life. They gain better control over their finances, start businesses, or pursue higher education. Daily communication becomes more purposeful and refined.

Saturn: 36 years — One of the most critical ages in life, Saturn’s maturity marks the end of any lingering childhood attitudes. Real adulthood begins, where life philosophy, karma, career, and societal roles become established. If Saturn is prominent in a chart, significant life changes often happen around this time.

Rahu: 41 - 42 years — Rahu, symbolizing material desires, generally brings material success by this age. By 42, a person has typically achieved a certain level of wealth and understands their true desires in life.

Ketu: 47 - 48 years — Ketu's maturity leads to spiritual development and detachment from material concerns. By this age, individuals start focusing on spiritual growth, introspection, and deeper understanding. This period marks a shift toward spiritual realization and inner peace.

Respectively, the astrological houses where these planets are located begin to deliver their maximum results after the planets reach maturity.

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1st House: The Helm This is where your spiritual energy and identity take the spotlight. The 1st House governs your appearance, personality, and vitality—the essence of how you project yourself to the world. It’s your steez, your approach to life, and the first impression you make on others. The 1st House is all about beginnings, the mask you may unknowingly wear, and how you come to know yourself on a deep authentic level. The captain of this ship is the ruling planet of the zodiac sign residing there.

2nd House: Gate of Hades Your values, self-esteem, and ability to attract wealth are all tied to the 2nd House. This is where your personal resources, possessions, and financial matters come into play. The foods you eat, your saving and spending habits, and your sense of self-worth are all part of this house. It’s where your style and material wealth are rooted, reflecting how you value yourself and what you own. This house represents how you sustain for yourself, how you support all that the first house needs of you to be who you are.

3rd House: Goddess The 3rd House is the domain of communication, early education, and the mind. It governs how you gather and process information, your intellect, and your interactions within your community. This house also encompasses your relationships with siblings, short travels, and technical skills. It’s the space where your to-do list and daily mental activities take shape.

4th House: Subterranean Deeply connected to your roots, the 4th House represents your home, heritage, and ancestry. It’s where your inner life and sense of security are nurtured, influenced by your upbringing and relationship with your parents—especially the mother. This house also relates to land, generational gifts, and knowledge passed down through the family. It’s a space of femininity and the feminine energies in your life. This is the lowest point of the birth chart and can be fairly private and personal-as opposed to the 10th house. It holds up the rest of the chart and is incredibly important in terms of learning about our sense of security/stability emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

5th House: Good Fortune Joy, creativity, and self-expression flourish in the 5th House. This is where you experience the pleasures of life—love affairs, children, art, and entertainment. It’s the house of flirtation, play, and drama, where your passions come to life. The 5th House also governs leisure activities, fertility, and the pursuit of happiness through creative endeavors. A sense of nostalgia lives here too.

6th House: Bad Fortune The 6th House deals with work, health, and daily routines. It’s the space of labor, servitude, and the duties that never seem to end. This house also governs how you care for your body, deal with illness and injury, and interact with employees or pets. It’s where the unexpected challenges in life arise, requiring your attention and resilience. Look here for understanding on what great works you may find yourself committing to.

7th House: Setting Place Relationships take center stage in the 7th House. This is where you finally begin to truly engage with others, forming long-term commitments, whether in marriage, partnerships, or friendships. It’s the house of open enemies, where you face the other in life. The 7th House also governs relaxation, romance, and the deep bonds that define your connections with others.

8th House: Gate of Hades Death, transformation, and shared resources are key themes in the 8th House. It’s where you confront karma, contracts, and generational lessons. This house also deals with loans, debts, and the deep psyche—the mysteries and fears that lie beneath the surface. The 8th House is a place of soul material, where you explore the unseen and the unknown. Here, you face all consequences-positive & negative- of the 7th house and the relationships, contracts, and potential enemies made there. This is the house of others esteem of you, opposite of the 2nd.

9th House: House of God The 9th House is your portal to higher knowledge, philosophy, and spiritual exploration. It governs your worldview, ethics, and the pursuit of truth through study, travel, and discovery. This house is where you connect with religion, spirituality, and the higher mind, expanding your understanding of the world and your place in it.

10th House: House of Praxis Your public life, reputation, and career are shaped by the 10th House. It’s where you strive for honor, recognition, and achievements that define your legacy. This house also relates to your relationships with authority figures, particularly the father, and how you navigate the public sphere. The 10th House is where your goals, fame, and business acumen are realized. Sitting at the very top of the chart, like the sun at noon high in the sky, all can see you here.

11th House: Good Spirits In the 11th House, your hopes, dreams, and social networks come to life. This house governs your friendships, group affiliations, and the communities you belong to. It’s where you connect with humanity, receive sudden blessings, and find support in your aspirations. The 11th House is also associated with gifts, riches, and the imagination needed to dream big.

12th House: Bad Spirits The 12th House is a place of retreat, isolation, and self-undoing. It’s where you confront your inner shadows, secrets, and hidden enemies. This house governs institutions, mental health, and the need for solitude or seclusion. It’s also a space of psychological development, where you deal with endings, sickness, and the unseen forces that shape your life journey. This house is in a blind spot to the first house of Self and that is why we can be blind to the very things that reside here. Its not so much that these things seek out to destroy you but any area of your life your are deeply unaware of can come back and disorientate you from who you believe yourself to be.

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Reminder to self_ Celebrate small wins. Every step counts. You deserve it.

One more day has passed and like all others, it just felt like a rehearsal of the past. It’s so easy to get used to this life and miss all the miracles right in front of our eyes. One more day has passed and like all others, it was the first, it was the last.

"There is a kind of sadness that comes from knowing too much, from seeing the world as it truly is. It is the sadness of understanding that life is not a grand adventure, but a series of small, insignificant moments, that love is not a fairy tale, but a fragile, fleeting emotion, that happiness is not a permanent state, but a rare, fleeting glimpse of something we can never hold onto. And in that understanding, there is a profound loneliness, a sense of being cut off from the world, from other people, from oneself..."

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"One of the saddest lessons of history is this: If we've been bamboozled long enough, we tend to reject any evidence of the bamboozle. We're no longer interested in finding out the truth. The bamboozle has captured us. It's simply too painful to acknowledge, even to ourselves, that we've been taken. Once you give a charlatan power over you, you almost never get it back."

- Carl Sagan

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