I've had some time to think about it and I'm feeling better!
I reminded myself that I'm the odd one out here. Of course people think I look weird! Just because I love Star Wars and Jedi doesn't mean everyone else feels the same and know what's going on. I'm in the real world not online. The unfortunate truth is that adults who dress up in costumes will always be seen as weirdos/immature/losers etc etc. I signed up for that when I decided to step outside wearing something unconventional. It sucks that I had some negative reactions. But you know what? I've started to have some positive ones too!
A little kid recognized my costume!
I got to take a picture with a coworker who dressed up today for her first time (up till now, I've been the only person in the whole store who's been dressing up) even though she's been scared to do it all week!
An elderly person exclaimed, "WOW, I love your outfit!" When I walked past them and said they wish more people were like me where they're from!
It's been a learning experience and I'm thankful for the reality check. I don't have to play by society's rules, but doing so is gonna make me an outsider. I gotta be okay with that 🤷
Thanks again for y'all's kind words! I love you guys 🫶
I really appreciate you guys. I wore my Jedi costume to work... let's just say my coworkers weren't as supportive as y'all...
I'm genuinely bummed out. I know my costumes aren't good. I don't get them special made or anything. I just use what's in my closet or from the thrift store. This is my third costume this week and I'm starting to realize I was probably being made fun of the entire time.
I know I'm not attractive. I can't help it. I wish I looked good like everyone else. I just like dressing up cuz it's fun. It's silly and makes me happy.
I'll still do Stranger Things tomorrow since it's supposed to be a group costume (even though I'm thinking I'm gonna be left hanging) and after that, I'm not sure...
I'm glad I have y'all. When I start getting down, I think about how y'all were nice to me 💜
I like wondering what a Scarecrow music video would look like. Also, it's the last song I listened to on Spotify today 😁
I think my top choice for a music video would be DESTROYA. I feel like Gerard would make it a big spectacle filled production like Welcome to the Black Parade but...neon or something lol
What's a song from Danger Days that you wish got a music video?
Scarecrow or an actual plot video of planetary if that’s a possibility :3
I've been watching Star Wars Attack of the Clones and got to the scene where Anakin and Padmé are in the meadow. Anakin asks her about her childhood crush or something and she says "Are you gonna use your Jedi mind trick on me?" For whatever reason, her asking that made me wonder if Force-play is a thing in the Star Wars universe and if Padmé was into it. Like, do you think Anakin ever DID try to mind trick her in the bedroom per her request? Do you think that being such a powerful and commanding figure for practically all her life would make her interested in submission? To be able to just turn her mind off and allow someone else, someone she trusts above all others, to control her body? Make decisions for her? It's a thought I found interesting.
Padawan braids should be far more decorated I don't care
I want them to have beads and bows and jewels and rings and bells and-
I want them to scream culture, to scream tradition, to scream history!!!
Ewan Character Ask Game
Cole Ainsley (Zoe) + 1. Why do you like or dislike this character?
Oh Zoe was a Ewan movie that took me by surprise by just how much I enjoyed it. I love Ewan’s character in it! Cole feels deeply, is empathic, and is just so sad. I spend the whole movie just wanting to wrap him up in a hug and make him feel better. He’s smart and his smile and the way his eyes light up when he’s excited is just too adorable. 💕 must protect at all costs
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I don't want to go to sleep. I want to keep thinking about Ewan McGregor 😔 why god why?
today was terrible. My job gets the credit for that. I'm genuinely scared about tomorrow and am probably going to eat my feelings to cope which I don't want to do but I don't know what ELSE to do.
HOWEVER! I'm determining to find one good thing that happened every day and writing it down and today there was one really good thing.
My friend had a heart attack a few weeks back. Last week she was cleared to come back to work and it's nice seeing her again. She's doing better which is wonderful. During her hospitalization and recovery, I'd reach out to her and chat, offer encouragement, or assistance if necessary. Just being a friend. She was really moved by this and today she surprised me with a beautiful gold cross necklace to show her appreciation! I was stunned. She asked if it was something I would wear and I told her I'd wear it immediately lol. And I did! I put it on right there and finished my shift wearing it. I never expected anything in return for being there for her. That's what friends do and her friendship is more than enough. Still, I'm honored by her gesture and will cherish this necklace forever.
My score is 7/61 making me "definitely gay". What's interesting to me about the quiz is that it reads as more of a "how white are you?" quiz. My first instinct when reading the questions was that they were attributes of whiteness, not straightness. Specifically male whiteness. Like, if someone told me they loved the show Friends, played lacrosse, or sang Mr. Brightside at karaoke, my first thought wouldn't be "You're obviously straight." It'd be, "Sounds about white!" lol
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