I Got Honey, Sunshine, And Warmth! I Can't Think Of A Better Way I'd Want My Kiss Described 🤗

I received a $250 bonus at work yesterday and today, I dropped my phone. Of FUCKING course it decided that this tiny fall would be the one that broke it. Took it to the repair shop and they're gonna fix it...for $190. I'm so fucking done with this life. I'm literally forcing myself to name every positive thing about this experience so that I don't spiral. I'm so frustrated because I thought I finally FINALLY got a break from the universe. There were SO many things I had planned for that $250. For a moment, I was happy and could breathe a sigh of relief. I was excited to go to the grocery cuz for the first time in forever, I wouldn't have to penny pinch, I could just shop! God, I was looking forward to the weekend. But no, of course it couldn't last. Of course my phone had to break RIGHT NOW. Of course I couldn't just enjoy MY $250 that I earned with blood, sweat, and tears. I'm trying to stay positive and appreciate what I do have. I just needed a moment to vent.

I don't know how to tag this so I imagine no one will see it. I had to at least try to get my feelings out. I guess this is more for me then. For anyone who cares, I think this is goodbye. I'm so overwhelmed and brokenhearted and downright terrified of Trump's administration and what it bodes for the future. Everywhere I turn I'm being reminded of how terrible he is, how powerless I am, and that there is no hope for a better future. I can't begin to describe the emotions I've been feeling...that I'm currently feeling even as I write this. I feel backed into a corner with no way out. I feel so alone in all of this. I don't know what to do. Like, the responsibility for fixing all this is on my shoulders purely because of my age and I have NO IDEA how to help anyone much less myself. I don't have answers, or a plan, or some indomitable spirit. I've often joked with friends that I've never understood horror movies like "Saw." If I ever found myself in a situation where I was forced between excruciating torture or death, I'd choose death. Hands down. It's not even a question. "Who wants to go through all that? Who wants to live THAT bad?" That's how I'm feeling right now. I don't see how life is worth living. I don't know how to be happy. How to fight. How to hope. Not if I'm alone. And I am alone. A conversation at work sent me over the edge. I wanted to blow my brains out right there. It was then that I realized how naive I was to believe that anyone else cared. That change was happening. Was possible. I am drowning in a sea of hatred. I just can't do this anymore. I don't know what to do, but I can't. do. this.

I fucking love that name! And the meaning lol 😁

I've been wanting to come up with an oc but I also can't draw ☹️ I think I finally came up with a name though!

So Gerard once retweeted a fan who was asking for advice about peer pressure to drink alcohol and he called it "loserjuice" which I thought was a pretty sick name already tbh lol. I wanted to make a necklace with that word on it and then I thought, what if I replaced the "o"with an "a" to make it "laserjuice" 🤔 and BAM I knew that had to be a Killjoy name!

If I could draw, I'd absolutely draw our ocs together 🤙

Do you have a Killjoy oc?

No mostly cause I suck at drawing but my killjoy name is Hi-Def cuz I’m high sometimes and also can’t hear shit. I totally should make one, I think my color would be a slightly darker hot pink like Mike Milligram’s hair

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Oh my gosh, thank you Toad! 🥹🫶 Right back at you 🫂

Thoughts: Attack of the Clones

I've been watching Star Wars Attack of the Clones and got to the scene where Anakin and Padmé are in the meadow. Anakin asks her about her childhood crush or something and she says "Are you gonna use your Jedi mind trick on me?" For whatever reason, her asking that made me wonder if Force-play is a thing in the Star Wars universe and if Padmé was into it. Like, do you think Anakin ever DID try to mind trick her in the bedroom per her request? Do you think that being such a powerful and commanding figure for practically all her life would make her interested in submission? To be able to just turn her mind off and allow someone else, someone she trusts above all others, to control her body? Make decisions for her? It's a thought I found interesting.

Another one! Also, I 100% agree with the person who said this is them but reversed 🤭 like you KNOW that Christian is the one waking Satine in the middle of the night to ask her these questions and she's just used to it by now 😁

Everyone's songs that were requested got played yesterday!

Song Requests!

So, last week my job started something called "Request Friday" where employees could write in song requests that would then be played on the store speaker. It was a hit! Everyone had a lot of fun and it boosted team morale!

Well, I thought it'd be fun to take song requests from you guys and write them in at work tomorrow in your honor! 😁

THE RULES:

The songs MUST be clean! Meaning no vulgarity or explicit sexual/violent lyrics. This includes even "tame" curse words like damn/hell. It is a workplace environment after all and they're very strict about what customers may hear.

Not a rule but a preference: high tempo songs are preferred because of the fast-paced nature of the job. Slow songs, in turn, tend to slow us down 🤷

That's pretty much it!

Also, songs in Spanish are VERY WELCOME!

Leave your request in the comments or tags and I'll submit what I can tomorrow. Let's see how it goes!

If you have any other questions, please don't hesitate to ask! 🫶

love this clip so much. Can't believe I forgot about it :)

happy sunday :)

Whoa this is seriously cool! Thank you for sharing your fish of the day! That's so funny that even fish have doppelgangers lol

(for anyone reading this who also received a freebie ask from me and was confused on how to answer, THIS is a perfect example!)

Freebie!

Tell me something you've been dying for someone to ask you about

i see youve asked about my current favorite fish, im always itchin to tell people about the fish of the day

Mola Tecta!!! aka the hoodwinker sunfish

this is thee most recently discovered ocean sunfish (2015!!!), and not because they are particularly elusive or shy, but because they look.

almost exactly the same as Mola Mola

Here is a picture of my goodest boy. My best friend. He crossed the rainbow bridge last week...thank you for allowing me to share him with you. I hope he brings a smile to your face.

AWWWWW <3333 sweet baby, rest in peace little guy! his cute little faceeee, thank you so much for sharing