“Are You Alright?”

I didn’t learn this on my own, of course. I had help. Christopher helped.

“if i had to sum up the last four years into a few sentences, a handful of memories, a small collection of thoughts, i would say this: freshman year was magical and full of growth and excitement at having friends who could drive; sophomore year was met with more maturity but, with that, more stupidity; junior year almost ended my life and changed it as i knew it while i barely escaped; and senior year was full of growth, the same way this era began, but no longer held the magical firsts of three years before; senior year was full of bittersweet lasts and nights spent crying at the irony of being so scared of losing a time that i’ve hated so much of.”

— 4.5.17

Person A: I can't take this anymore. Please take me out.

Person B: In the date kind of way or in the assassination kind of way?

Person A: Surprise me.

types of people

shades of purple

lavender: oversized sweaters, stark contrasts, misunderstood jokes, loud laughter, pencil shading rubbing off on skin, overflowing emotions, appreciated nostalgia, star-gazing, late-night conversations

wisteria: adrenaline crashes, ocean mist, layering clothes, lighthearted games of truth or dare, messy hair, bubbly laughter from excess energy, the tired satisfaction of a full day

lilac: neon lights, bright cities, slightly smudged make-up, a fast beating heart, secret confessions, too-loud music, wide smiles between friends, freedom from deadlines, the ache of what could have been

mauve: comfortable silences, rainy days, organized shelves, discovering a new interest, hot tea, eye bags, getting lost in thought, absentminded singing, the epiphany that comes from understanding a concept

plum: smiling at a stranger, spontaneous conversations, winged eyeliner, total honesty, animated gestures, fluorescent lighting, stores at 2am, pinkie promises, holding hands, reminiscent stories, conversations about the future

amethyst: uncertain smiles, subtle exchanged glances, paint-stained hands, inside jokes, cups of coffee, multi-tasking, unspoken promises, a not-quite persistent yearning, shaky breaths, a constantly calm demeanor

shades of lipstick: aesthetics

classic red - cotton candy lollipops, sequin converse, art galleries, leather skirts, fold hoops, rooftop gardens, vintage cars, balloon arches

understated nude - skateboards with a wobbly wheel, beach nights, acoustic guitars, antique shops, wild highlights, paint-stained fingers

perfect plum - uneven bangs, lace tights, ceramic mugs, half-finished books, knitting needles and wool yarn, bare feet on hardwood floors, scented markers

sunset orange - learning new languages, piano ballads, spicy food, muddy hiking books, stamped passports, corner cafes, scarves and beanies

blush pink - frozen lakes, bullet journals, Japanese Cherry Blossoms, sad smiles, movie nights with friends, fuzzy socks, fairy lights

black cherry merlot - tulle skirts and heels, spoken word poetry, chokers, apple picking, a lane of lampposts, heart-shaped sunglasses, hardcover books

types of boys - drink edition

Coffee boys: Organization, color-coded notes, never sleeping, writing all the time, people-watching in cafes, fountain pens, warm pullover sweaters, fidgeting allll the time

Tea boys: Warm fireplaces, soft fabric, gentle hands, contagious laughter, mom friend, cottages, cheek kisses, fluffy curly hair, trying to be strong for the sake of others, acoustic guitar

Hot chocolate boys: Getting easily excited, big hearts, holidays, loves winter, stays up too late, broad music taste, sees the good in people, D O G S, sometimes childish, kind of low self-esteem (even tho they’re perf)

Smoothie boys: Sunrises, every single fruit, pastels and bright colors, wants to travel, glittery highlighter, piano, probably has a really nice singing voice, patterned button-ups, lennon glasses

Water boys: Vegetarian, worrying too much, really caring about the environment, not using the internet that much, loving the ocean, soft-hearted, comfy flowing clothes, open-toed shoes

Milk boys: Minimalist aesthetic, slime videos, wishing it was spring, succulents, pink shirts, daydreaming a lot, brown eyes, loving hugs, hating gender roles, incredibly soft skin

Soda boys: Primary colors, always being hungry, giving advice to friends, cartoons, being super bubbly, movie marathons, fingerless gloves, knee-high socks

Slushy boys: Dyed hair, converse sneakers, painted nails, hyperactivity, neon colors, probably needs to shower, convenience stores at 1am, holding hands, adrenaline, holographic stuff

Engineer 1 : 0 Architect. 😂😂

tag yourself: the solar system

mercury: the leader, athletic, friendly, summer vibes, always making plans for the group, organized, impatient, wine lover, reads in their free time

venus: the pretty friend, instagram famous, watches cartoons, very kind, loves skirts and dresses, smart, horrible at money management

earth: the young friend, wears flower crowns, fashionable, probably short as heck, clumsy, lovable, kind of sad inside, idolizes their friends

mars: the mysterious friend, reads comic books, prefers summer over winter, messy hair, lipstick stains on every cup, gardens

jupiter: the mom/dad friend, protective, always drinking but never hungover, loves the outdoors, very patient, has a bad temper if you cross them, collects something

saturn: the powerful friend, will be president someday probably, you want to raid their wardrobe, always has good advice, bad at cooking, loves movies

uranus: the quiet friend, kind of introverted, always laughing, tags you in memes all the time, lurks in the group chat but never responds, dog lover

neptune: the aesthetic friend, doesn’t care what people think, loves art, owns 395754 pairs of jeans, reckless driver, always want to go somewhere

pluto: the smol friend, always busy, loves their friends (will fight for their friends), boy/girl crazy, bottles up their feelings, can never make up their mind, huge smile

I realized something about majority of my ships...

Person A: Charming, Intelligent, Can speak multiple languages, Straight A student

Person B: Loud, Obnoxious, Probably ate all the candy in the jar then guessed zero, Mega dork and proud

But also...

Person B: Compassionate, Scary threat when provoked, Very chill when mellow, Keeps things bottled up and fakes smiles to get through the day, Very tol

Person A: Standoffish, High and mighty complex, Angry at everything and everyone, Cries at everything, Emotionally stunted due to tragic past, Very smol but will fight you

types of boys - fruit edition

Apple boys: Good grades, light sweaters over button downs, crooked smiles, hanging out with lots of different kinds of people, walking in the woods with your friends

Banana boys: Snorting when laughing, bare feet, the beach, a cold drink on a hot day, physical affection, painted nails, smoothies, cute happy dogs, dirty jokes during sleepovers

Lemon boys: Color coding, fidgeting, anxiety, the pool in the summer, stretching when you first wake up, brutal honesty, gummy candy, bright colors, patterned socks

Peach boys: Sunrises, thrift shopping, red cheeks, pastels, having just a few close friends, picnics, overalls, pretty jewelry, stuffed animals, vintage clothes, candles during a power outage

Cherry boys: Makeup, late night walks, one night stands, falling in love easily, dancing in the kitchen late at night, writing secret love letters, dark eyes, curly hair, neon signs, holding hands while sleeping

Mango boys: Boardwalks in the summer, tanned skin, reuniting with old friends, flip flops, crop tops, running your hand through your lover’s hair, sand angels, climbing trees, picking berries from the vine

Strawberry boys: Getting excited for no reason, sleeping in past noon, freckles, walking around aimlessly, brightly colored turtlenecks, gardening in the morning, the sound of birds in the summer