How Tf Have I Gotten 70+ Likes On My Recent Post For San And 40+ Likes On The Crack Post I Made About

No one:

My ass and my praise kink:

I didn’t understand it when I watched it the first time but like half a year later I binged it again and that’s when I was starting to learn Chinese. I think that’s when everything clicked tbh

It’s been a year since I’ve watched meteor garden and I still don’t understand the last episode

Alright loves here’s what’s been going on. I’ve (obviously) found myself in a bit of a writing rut when it comes to ateez. I LOVE my boys don’t get me wrong, but I’ve found myself gravitating to other circles recently and so it’s been hard to write about ateez. I’ve put this off for longer than I should have, but I need advice.

Recently, I’ve been falling head over heals for Pedro Pascal and literally everything he’s in (The hyperfixation kicked in HARD). I currently have one Pedro fic and one character fic (Javier Peña) done because I could not help myself. I really want to post them, so I guess my question is should I make a new account solely dedicated to Pedro or should I post them on this account along with ateez fics? Currently, I’m leaning towards making a new account, because admittedly it would be a strange mix, but I’m curious as to what you all think 👀

As far as ateez fics go, I will still be posting, but it will likely be less frequent than when I post about Pedro. I’m hoping that as a byproduct of doing this I’ll be writing more frequently for ateez as well. Big thank you to everyone for your input! Based on the poll results I’ll make a decision tomorrow and make a post about it! 💕💕

idk but something abt u makes me want to vehemently be ur friend but at the same time i am very antisocial and i prefer to talk to ppl as if weve known each other for years and im pretty wack 🧎‍♀️🏌️‍♀️

Awww! I’m all for being friends! I’m super talkative and literally the least intimidating person ever so don’t be too shy!! Also I love your username can I join-

RAHH THESE MEN 😭😭

240204 ateez 🍻 arriba!

The Blossom Festival~

ꕥPosted: 7/8/20

ꕥGenre: Fluff, Crack

ꕥPairing: GenderNeutral!Reader x Yunho

ꕥWord Count: Enough

ꕥWarnings: Language

“It’s too damn hot for this,” Hongjoong said, wiping sweat off his forehead.

“Well what do you want me to do about it, Hongjoong?” San retorted.

“Well some shade would be nice, to start.”

Yunho, Hongjoong, San, and I made the terribly unfortunate decision to attend a festival in July...in the middle of a heat wave. To be fair, we were bored as hell and barely had time to go out anymore with our busy schedules.

Hongjoong continued, “It’s literally 92 degrees outside. This is disgusting.”

“Your mom’s disgusting.”

“Watch your mouth, San, or I’m gonna smack you to next week.”

“Ha. I’m sure you would if you could reach me.”

“Alright, that’s enough testosterone out of the both of you,” I wiped my sweat-filled hair out of my eyes and continued, “let’s try and enjoy this, okay?”

“Y/n you literally look like wet dog.”

I closed my eyes and feigned annoyance, “San I don’t have the time or patience to deal with you right now.”

I looked up at Yunho and saw him smiling. Even though he hadn’t said a word I could see the playfulness in his eyes. He didn’t look back at me but clearly saw me looking and squeezed my hand in acknowledgment.

Yunho finally spoke up, “How about some blossom ice cream? It’s a tradition of y/n’s and mine to get some every year.”

I nodded my head in agreement, remembering all the cute memories we made here since we started dating. I then looked to gauge San and Hongjoong’s reactions. San seemed to be on board but Hongjoong had a different opinion.

“What the hell is that? Is it made with legit blossoms or something?”

“No, dumbass. It’s pink sherbet.”

“Then why on earth is it called blossom ice cream, y/n?”

“Dude,” Yunho interjected, “This celebration is literally called The Blossom Festival.”

“Oh. Uh...sure then.”

“...dumbass.”

-

We walked along the busy street, watching people pass. Little children chased one another holding pink stuffed animals while others played carnival games. Young teenagers could be spotted kissing under blossom trees. Elderly were often found sitting on benches under the shade, reminiscing and telling stories of when they were young. There was a place for everyone here, I think that’s partly why I liked it so much.

“This certainly is a busy place, especially considering the weather,” Hongjoong said as he fanned his face with his hand, clearly regretting wearing all black.

“It’s so obvious that you’ve never been here before. People will come here in over 100 degree weather just to celebrate and play games.”

“Yunho, that’s the most ridiculous thing I’ve ever heard.”

“I mean it’s 92 right now, and look at all the people still here,” Yunho motioned all around us.

“Touché.”

-

After what felt like forever, we reached one of the booths selling blossom ice cream. Surprisingly, there wasn’t that long of a line.

“This better be worth it, Yunho.”

“It will be, San. Trust me.”

Standing in line for 15 minutes doesn’t sound like much, but when the heat is steadily climbing it feels like you’re the wicked witch and someone just threw a bucket of water at you. Luckily, the line was under shade.

Finally, when we got the ice cream, it was just as good as I remember. Just like-

“OH MY GOD THIS IS THE BEST ICE CREAM I’VE EVER HAD IN MY FUCKING LIFE.”

“San you need to calm your ass down, there are children,” Hongjoong said while we all laughed at San’s reaction, “It is super good though.” He added.

Surprisingly, we were silent for a while, simply enjoying our ice cream until San spotted a certain carnival game.

“HONGJOONG THEY HAVE THAT ONE GAME WHERE YOU THROW THE NEEDLE THINGS AT THE BALLOONS AND THEY POP! WE GOTTA GO!!”

San turned to Hongjoong and shook his shoulders, yelling at him a bit too loud, “WE COULD WIN A GOLDFISH!”

Before Hongjoong could get a word in, San ran off in the direction of the booth.

Hongjoong put a hand on his face and sighed, “Alright I’ll take the child. You two lovebirds have fun.”

Yunho and I looked at each other. Both of us had smiles on our faces as we raised our ice creams.

“Geonbae!” We cheered and continued to eat our ice cream.

“You know y/n, I’ve been thinking.”

“Have you been doing so safely? That’s a dangerous game, babe.”

He rolled his eyes, “I meant our three year anniversary is coming up and I want to do something special.”

“Oh yeah?” I raised my eyebrows, “What did you have in mind?”

“Honesty, whatever you want, honey.”

Yunho kissed me gently, then pulled back only for me to place my hand on his cheek and pull him back to my lips.

“You’re pretty cute, you know that?”

I blushed, making Yunho smile. He kissed both of my pink cheeks and whispered to me, “I don’t care what we do. I’m with you and that’s all I care about.”

It took me wayyy too long to respond to this but thank you for tagging me ily 🥺

So my favorites are Favorite Place, All For You, and Just What The Doctor Ordered. Favorite Place is the first “bad boy” fic that I wrote and I honestly had so much fun with it. It’s based on Hongjoong and inspired by his cover of Numb bc he looks 🔥🔥 in that video. All for you is a fluff fic for Seonghwa and it’s just so wholesome and domestic and I love it. Just What The Doctor Ordered was a spur-of-the-moment fic for me and I really ended up liking how it turned out. It’s one of my most liked fics right now and it makes me so happy to see people enjoy it.

My least favorite is probably The Blossom Festival. It was the second fic I wrote and it’s just so cringy to me I can’t even go back and read it. I’ve considered deleting it and re-writing it a billion times and I think I’m going to soon. I’m not even gonna link it because of how much it makes me cringe. But! It shows that I’ve made progress so I try not to hate it too much

tagging (no pressure!!) : @onceonafullmoon​ @cappujinho @yeochikin @masterninjacow

OK QUESTION TO MY FIC WRITER MOOTS (u dont have to answer if you’re uncomfortable)

Which of your own fics do you like and dislike the most and why???

For me, I really enjoyed writing my oneshot fic This Town and its prequel. Partly because I had that idea for a separate story I was planning to write and mainly because I love angst <3 hehe I just feel like it had the “we couldn’t fulfill our promises not because we wanted to, but because it was out of our control” vibe ok wait i like that line + for me, it felt like Up’s Ellie and Carl except that they didn’t grow old together dndjsjsk

The fic I disliked the most would probably have to be Self-Service 😭✋🏻 UHHH that’s kinda around the time I got a slump and it kinda went downhill from there. I had that idea around my first few days here on Tumblr and I fell out of love with it while writing. Dhdjejsk ngl i also have icky feelings about my latest fic??? Had a slump by part two so yea

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Tagging my moots because I want to know theirs: @railmeharrypotter @mendesxruel @hey-there-angels @helleli @hellohellook @hellounicorn @sfdlm @holden-caulfield + anyone else who wants to do this

Not on my fucking christian minecraft server you don’t-

This bitchass knows what he’s doing look at that fucking smirk my god he’s so hot I feel attacked

choi san (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

I want to make a post as a form of assurance for everyone reading this, and for myself. As you all know at this point, my boyfriend and I broke up almost two months ago. I’m not gonna lie, it still hurts. Sometimes it hurts just as much as the day he broke up with me. Heartbreak is painful. It isn’t easy and there are days where you feel like it’s hard to do anything, even the things you’re passionate about. It’s hard to move on when someone you thought you could’ve loved or did love is doing okay. It’s even worse when you see them smile and act as if nothing ever happened. It is going to hurt. But you’re stronger than this. I am stronger than this. It’s okay to take time for yourself to just feel it. To give yourself time to heal. You will grow from this, and you will make it out. It doesn’t feel like it right now, god it doesn’t feel like it right now, but we’ll make it out together. We will be okay.

For The First Time Pt.2~

ꕥPosted: 7/25/20

ꕥGenre: College!au, Fluff

ꕥPairing: Fem!reader x Jongho

ꕥWord Count: ~1k

ꕥWarnings: None

ꕥA/N: I know this isn’t a popular series which makes me a little sad but I wanted to finish it anyway. If people end up liking it and it actually gets attention I might(?) make a part 3. It’s most likely gonna end here tho. Read part 1 also if you wouldn’t mind! Things will make a lot more sense if you do. You can do that here

ꕥA/N Cont: So even though I provided translations for some words, there is a phrase that I clarified in the middle of the writing bc I didn’t want to spoil anything

ꕥPhrase Guide:

你= You

加油 = You can do it (encouragement)

Jongho was surprisingly easy to talk to and we got along better than I thought we would. Not that I thought we wouldn’t get along, but I was still surprised.

After we had lunch together we exchanged numbers and began to hang out more, usually every couple days given our busy schedules.

He was so talkative that I found out almost everything about him in no time. He just turned 20, was a music major, and took Chinese because he wanted a challenge. He loved snow but hated the cold. Soccer was his favorite sport but he didn’t play often since he was always either studying or working as a tutor for underclassmen. He was born in Korea but grew up in America. Fluent in Korean but insecure enough about his American accent that he only spoke it with close friends and family. He met Mingi during a soccer camp he went to in middle school and his best friend - the guy with the mullet - was named Hongjoong and apparently much friendlier than he looked.

The more I spent time with Jongho, the more I realized I had feelings for him and the stronger they became. When Marina and I were alone in our dorm, I told her everything I was feeling and the response was exactly what I suspected.

“HA! KNEW IT!” Marina yelled, “I just won myself ten bucks.”

“I’m sorry, YOU WHAT?”

“I may or may not have made a bet with Mingi that you would catch feelings within three months of meeting Jongho. And you’re two days away from three months, girly.” She shrugged but kept the smile on her face.

“Oh my god you did not. Actually speaking of...what’s up with you two? Are you official yet?”

Marina went quiet for a moment then bit her lip, finally speaking up, “Well...not yet, technically, but we’ve seriously considered it. We have another date this weekend. Now all you have to do is get with Jongho and we can go on a double date.”

“Yeah I don’t know about that, M.”

“Y/n he totally likes you, if that’s what you’re worried about.”

“No I know. He’s got a few tells so I know he feels at least a little something. I’m just not sure if I should commit to anything, you know?”

Marina let out a loud laugh before speaking again.

“Pfft no. I dated all throughout high school. If I’m being honest, though, I really think you should give it a chance. People always freak out about possibly ruining a friendship by confessing but honestly if a friendship can’t withstand a little crush then you probably weren’t solid friends in the first place.”

“You know what? You’re right. I’ll tell him tomorrow.”

“Hell yeah girl! Go get him!”

-

The next day arrived way too quickly. Although I told myself I would confess, I was getting anxious. I walked into Chinese class holding hands with Marina for emotional support. We were the first ones there, as always, so I had a bit of time to rant.

“I’ll be honest, M. I’ve never felt butterflies like this before. I’m actually shaking.” I lifted up my hand to show her my slight tremor.

“Oh sweetheart! It’ll be all good! Promise. Just take a few deep breaths.”

I slowly breathed in and out for the next several seconds.

“You’re right. I can do this.”

The trio walked into class several minutes later. Mingi gave a quick kiss to Marina and Jongho gave me a friendly smile. Hongjoong rolled his eyes at the four of us and walked to his usual seat, propping his feet up on the seat in front of him.

The rest of the class filled in and soon our professor arrived.

The professor loudly clapped her hands, speaking up, “Alright class. Today I’m going to have you pair up in groups of two and work together. I don’t care who it’s with, as long as it’s with somebody. We’ve got an even number of students so we should be fine. I’ve got some games for you to play today.”

I turned to Marina but she was already halfway up the stairs to sit next to Mingi. I looked at Jongho but he motioned at Hongjoong, mouthing that he was sorry.

Okay. That’s fine. I thought. I’ll find someone else. Looking up I saw the unfamiliar young man standing in front of me. He blanked for a moment when I looked up at him.

“Hey! Uh...would you maybe want to be partners?”

“Are you sure? With the both of us together we’ll probably beat the whole class by a landslide.”

He laughed and sat down next to me, visibly more confident.

“I’m sure they can manage. I’m Tommy, by the way. You’re y/n, right?”

I nodded and smiled at him as we shook hands. I looked Tommy in the eyes and saw a slight blush on his cheeks. What I didn’t see; however, was the death stare Jongho was giving him.

The professor looked up and let out a laugh, pointing at Tommy and I.

“Yeah no way in hell am I letting that happen. You two are my best students and - no offense everyone - but no one would stand a chance against you two.”

“Ouch.” I heard Mingi say.

Jongho quickly stood up and raised his hand, “I’ll partner up with her!”

“Very good. Get on with it then.”

Tommy looked upset, making me feel bad for leaving him.

“Hey that’s okay, Tommy. Maybe next time?” I gave him a smile that he soon returned.

I walked up to Jongho, sitting next to him as Hongjoong sat down next to Tommy.

Jongho leaned in and whispered, “I’ll be honest, y/n. I’m really glad the teacher separated you two.”

“Yeah, I bet everyone is. We are the best in the class, no offense,” I laughed.

“Actually no I meant-“

“Alright class. I have talked in English for an unusually long time but in my defense, I was up basically all night grading essays so I’m running on two hours of sleep and a cappuccino. Nevertheless, I’ll now switch to Chinese. 加油.”

The first game was simple enough. The teacher wrote beginner to intermediate level phrases for us to translate. If we got it right, we got a point.

My team eventually won, beating Tommy and Hongjoong by a single point. Jongho really surprised me, getting almost as many questions right as I did.

Mingi and Marina ended up last because neither of them were paying attention, instead flirting with each other.

The second and final game was a little more complicated. We had to translate the sentence, as well as pronounce all the characters correctly. Tommy’s team was tied with mine until Jongho answered the last question correctly. I smiled at him and bounced in my seat.

“We won, Jongho!” I exclaimed, pulling him into a hug. He froze at first, but then put his arms around me and pulled me closer.

The professor spoke up once more, “We’re out of time for class today but remember you have a test next week. I expect you all to be studying!”

Our classmates soon left the room along with our teacher. Hongjoong quickly ran out to meet his new boyfriend - Seonghwa I think he said? - and Mingi and Marina were already gone. I assumed they left class sometime during the second game.

“Hey,” Jongho said to me as I was slipping on my backpack, “I was wondering if you could help me out with my writing in Chinese? Sometimes I mess up the stroke order and I could use the practice.”

“Sure! When do you want to study?”

“How about now?”

Jongho grabbed my arm and led me down to the whiteboard at the front of the class. I looked around at the empty classroom and nodded. I didn’t want to disturb anyone. He picked up a marker and began to write.

“I’ll write and you tell me if I make a mistake, okay?”

I laughed, “Sure, Jongho.”

As he started writing I didn’t see any mistakes. When he finished writing, I gasped.

“我喜欢你。你喜欢谁?”

[I like you. Who you you like?]

I smiled and took the marker from his hands, placing it back on the podium. I looked him in the eyes and cupped his face. “你” I said as I kissed him. I pulled back and looked into his eyes. He smiled and kissed me again, this time wrapping his arms around my waist.

We pulled back for air and I whispered, “You know, I was actually planning on telling you today, too. Marina encouraged me to tell you, but I guess I didn’t have to after all.”

“I mean you can still tell me, if you want.”

I gently kissed his cheek, “You already know how I feel.”

“Hmm. Actually I’m not quite sure. Could you clarify for me?” Jongho laughed when I playfully hit his arm.

“You know,” he continued, “when I said I was glad the teacher separated you earlier, I meant that I was glad you were away from Tommy. I’ve seen the way he looks at you and I really didn’t like it. I got so nervous because even though I tease, this is the first time I’ve felt like this. So I guess the question is...will you let me take you on a date?”

“Absolutely!”