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i keep trying to memorize every detail of the moments i live in. in the soreness of my legs from standing so long at a concert, the chill of the night, the patterns of a tablecloth, the oily texture in my mouth after eating fried bananas. i keep trying to memorize the feelings, the quiet contentedness, the laughter, the excitement. i keep trying to memorize the people, their smiles, the way they speak, what makes them laugh. i’m constantly on the cusp of the next part of my life and that’s just so.. strange. but it makes it so much easier to find happiness no matter what’s happening to me, in a way? because i’m already kind of looking at life with those rose-colored glasses of nostalgia, simply because i know these are times i’ll never be able to live again, and these are people i might not always have, and that makes it so much easier to appreciate everything i might miss later. 

I’m sick of wearing a mask when I’m dealing with others.

Beloved Mother Sister Shijie

Art by bbbeyonce099

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aspec culture is looking back at all your “crushes” growing up and realizing they just seemed like cool people and you wanted to be their friend

i made a uquiz where i designate you “____ to lovers” pls validate me by reblogging & tagging with what u get

When I joined Engineering, for the first time, I found myself to be, academically, just an average person. Below average, in fact. With no other talent, academic prowess was my only source of pride - now even that was gone.

Predictably, when my first semester grades came, I rationalized that since the grades were not outstanding, it did not matter if they were decent or absolutely horrible. I call this an ‘all or nothing’ mindset.

As a result, I stopped caring and my grades kept slipping.

And all my sins are catching up when I'm having to apply for an internship or job interview. I'm having constant anxiety.

This all or nothing mindset is pure evil. This is why, when things are not going well, we totally give up instead of fighting to redeem whatever is possible. It is why we wait for the New Year to make resolutions instead of getting started the next day - ‘After all, since this year is imperfect, why bother at all?’

This is why we give up on our dreams when we suffer a setback. This mindset is just an excuse for procrastination.

Life is not a black and white choice between ‘perfect’ and ‘imperfect’; most of life is grayscale. We don’t have to be perfect - we just have to do the best we can, under the circumstances.

Learning a language at school is like I can debate important political issues in this language but I cannot remember the word for chair 

THE EIGHTH SENSE (2023) Episode 2 dir. Baek Inu and Werner du Plessis