I Don't Know If It Was A Divorce But It Sure Felt Like One Was Coming Up. But Can We Stress The 'talk

Hyperfixation strikes back and I'm absolutely not normal about how tragic Gordon's character actually is once again.

A lot of words in very bad English (because I clearly don't get enough sleep) under the cut.

Okay so Gordon and Warren as the main characters are obviously dualistic. They work as a duo for that exact reason and it's mostly about the way they handle things. They balance each other and stuff but that's not my point. My point is that they're not only dualistic when it comes to their personality. They're also dualistic when it comes to how they're presented in the story itself not taking the plot and interactions with other characters.

We know a lot about Warren's past. And it's really an interesting thing about him as an amnesiac character. We KNOW him because we know his past. We even know something about his time as a convict because we get to hear him on the records from that time. He doesn't know a lot about himself but we as the observers do.

But for Gordon it's quite the opposite. We know only the bare essentials about his past and most of it is not really that huge. Like OK he played in a band and yet we don't even know for sure what instrument he played. We know his favorite movies and his love for the macabre but it's not his past, it's just who he is on the outside, something anyone can see without looking too deep. We know that's he's half Brazilian on his mother's side and yet we don't even know his parents' names or anything about them at all. I mean we can assume they were neglectful to his feelings from the 'you know who belongs in a jar like that' part and the way he behaves in general but it's not really a lot of information. And it's not like he's being secretive about it, it's just that no one ever cares to ask. And that's exactly what I find so tragic about him.

He's always left neglected. His feelings don't matter to anyone if we're being completely honest. The closest he gets to being seen is when after a fight in a tunnel Warren lets him go back first because 'You don't like being here on your own'. And it's coming from Warren, the closest person he has, and as much as it's appreciated, I really don't think it's enough considering all the trauma Gordon has to constantly go through.

Aubrey is also neglectful to him as she is usually only concerned about Warren.

And yeah, I get it, it's really not the time and place to care about such things as feelings. And yet Gordon always made time to check on Warren, to comfort him, to at least offer his company.

And the most tragic part is that he got shot and went into the pod just as neglected as he always was. And it's not about the degraded infusion, it's about the way he was treated by the only two people he could trust. It's about how Aubrey just contacted him on her own knowing full well that it could get him in serious trouble and potentially murdered. It's about Warren's indifference (though it wasn't really his fault, the man just learned he's a murderer, he really should get a break. But Gordon didn't know about that so imagine how it must'd looked like to the poor dude). And then he was left for 44 years and now nobody can even tell what his condition is in there. 'You don't fucking know, do you?'

So YEAH. In conclusion. Gordon needs to get his fucking hugs and apologies. And he needs to get his shit considered and appreciated. And like. A life long therapy.

I couldn't sleep last night so I made S1E6 memes. I love this TikTok trend.

Actually going insane about the new Red Valley episode. I love Clive Schill I love him so much. AND HIS DYNAMIC WITH PAM??? INSANE.

It's crazy how some people can get mad just because there is a group of people that are not that interested in being intimate. Like. What is these people's problem...

And it's just so irritating too when you meet these people irl and it seems that all they are able to talk about is having sexual connections and then they hate on you for not jumping in on a subject and call you weird for not wanting to spread your legs.

And also why the fuck do I see this shit about how asexual people are arrogant and think they're better than everyone else??? Dude every day of my life is a fucking struggle trying to fit in because the world is so sex-centered and it's almost impossible to socialize without at least some relationship gossip. It's draining enough already, why would I waste my little remaining energy on being mean on top of that?

Asexual awareness day is great and all but oh boy does it make the shit on X float.

i didn't realize on the first listen, but gordon didn't get the teddy bears picnic tape as a tape. he got the video feed recording, ripped the audio from that, mixed it with aubrey's log for maximum drama, practiced getting his timing right for his presentation, and then put all that on a tape that he knew wouldn't fit in a dictaphone so warren would have to listen to it with him in the golden bullet, effectively recreating the late night conversation in a car park that he never got to have with oscar. in one day.

gordon. oh my god you are so fucking extra.

i approach human relationships in a normal manner

Warren loves Gordon more than he hates/ is scared of Bryony.

What the fuck.

Literally my go-to playlist

I'm in love with RV season 2 trailer.

Like SURE it's only 53 seconds. But GOOD GOD what 53 seconds those are.

Bryony and her Death Speech™. Different people calling Warren's name overlapping each other like they would in some actual Hollywood film trailer. And then there's my bestie Warren Godby being his silly little self awkwardly asking for a blanket.

I mean I may actually be insane at this point but this trailer alone just makes me so happy I can't help ranting about it.

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