“I Had Always Been In Love With Him…He Had Been My Almost, My Might Have Been, And I Did Not Want

Summerland Homecoming by Stijn Windig

Best feeling is when someone checked if you’re okay.

“I am a different person to different people. Annoying to one. Talented to another. Quiet to a few. Unknown to a lot. But who am I, to me?”

— Unknown

ASTROLOGY FINANCES 101

I've been digging a lot about money and astrology, and most information is pretty basic. They all say to keep an eye on 2h, but this is not enough. So, this is a short summary of things that i've found relevant so far:

2H: yes, your 2h is important. It is the house of value, and therefore, it also includes your income. But this house talks about how you make your regular day to day money, AND your relationship with that money. So, if your 2h is on a fire sign, you will be comfortable making money in risky ways, and you will have a very passionate relationship with your money. Money becomes something exciting, and if you have a job that is not exciting, you will see that reflected. Of course, it is important to know what other planets are there and PLEASE check your house ruler. For example, if you have a 2h Aries, where is Mars on your chart? This will give your a better idea of how money comes to you.

8H: this is the house of shared money, investments, stocks, inheritance. If you have placements in this house, you will probably be interested in investing or making your money work for you. You can receive or work with money that isn't yours too. For this house i think it is not only important to know the qualities of the sign that is in, but the ruler of that sign. For example: if you have a Libra 8h, and Venus on 9h, we could say that could feel a bit insecure about investing even though you like the idea, but through knowledge and information, you can make solid choices and start your path.

11H: this is the house of gains, popularity and social recognition. People with placements in this house are recognized by their community and tend to accomplish their financial dreams. They are wealthy, and it comes without much effort. It is important to see the sign, of course, but also what placements are here. Mercury? Then you will gain through communicating. Venus? Maybe through art or entertainment. Mars? It could be activism and social causes.

North Node: do you have your north node on these houses? If your north node is on the 2h and 8h, you are called to make your financial dreams come true. It is important that you see what aspects and signs are affecting your north node so you can know how to work with it. For example, a 2h Cancer North Node can feel very shy about finances and will struggle taking risky decisions. They want to feel safe first, and this will be majorly important to make money in the right way for them. If they don't feel safe first, money won't come.

Saturn: many people ignore Saturn when is about finances, because saturn is mostly about karma and lessons. But Saturn is also discipline, hard-work, control, and stability in the material world. Saturn in 2h 8h often means that big money will come, but it will come later in life, you will have to go through his lessons firsts. If you have conjuction with Venus or Jupiter, this will give a bit of push to your finances and you won't struggle much, but again, you need to be ready for father Saturn lessons too.

Jupiter: known as a the planet for luck, it can play a big role on finances. Not only check where is located on your natal chart, especially in the 2h or 8h, but also it is interesting if it is on the 10h or 11h. What sign is located in? This can tell you the qualities. For example, Pisces 11h with Jupiter could be manifested as a lot of gains through creative work or spiritual work.

Moon: i'm sorry but the moon is extremely helpful for making daily decisions about money, don't come at me lol do you need to publish your big project or business and you need people to pay attention? Wait for the moon to be favorable, maybe on your 10H, 11H, wait for a full moon. You want personal recognition through your business? Wait for the moon transit your 1H. Get a moon calendar, you won't regret it.

These are just a few basics observations that have helped me on my financial journey. I hope this helps you guys!

Skylust

to fly through silvered clouds

tearing wind

fragile wings

the urge

the need

trapped to the ground

human limitations

oh glorious sky

what would i give to soar

through storms

through clear skies

how could i blame icarus?

free for the first time

to soar

to glide

the burning wax worth the glorious skies

i need not safety

the risk worth the pain

falling to the ocean

flying

soaring

GOD

oh let me fly

let me feel hurricanes rip apart my wings

let my fragile lungs be torn with pressure

not built for the skies

i want to plummet

i want to soar

i want to glide

i want

i want

i want

I have no need for gentleness

freedom is safety to fall with no fear of harm

but harm me

oh harm me dear skies

let lighting dance on my tender flesh

let my limbs be ripped from me

oh only for the flight i desire

let the tears on the inside show

let the mental become physical

anything will do

let me feel the clouds on my skin

oh dear skys

suffocate me

dont be gentle

dont be kind

let me fulfill my skylust for you

ravage me

rip at my hair as i fall

bruise my skin with your frost

leave lashes with your hail

oh let me be your icarus

let me get to close to the sun

rip me away

oh dear

not really praying

talking to god in vowels but its too soft to make a difference

most prayers are shaped as consonants sharp-edged, crowded or out of place

I’m not really praying though, more like hoping ( I don’t like to throw things at intangible notions )

innocent wishes fluttering in the air, soft ducklings swimming in a deep black lake

most of these will be blown away or drowned

for the rest of them I provide my own securities

When Bram Stroker penned, ' despair has its own calms' I realised the beauty behind hopelessness and helped me make peace with the flow of life.

“A non-writing writer is a monster courting insanity.”

— Franz Kafka (via writingdotcoffee)

I fell asleep and into your arms

Lying there luxuriating in bed

In each other; raptly willing to watch those eyes

--More than anything any app could stream--

Surface rippling rivetingly

Intimating all that teems beneath

Yet somehow riveted on me

Heart-racing soul-stirring

Embracing as the flame burns hotter

Stroking innocently until the intent

Gains in momentum, in urgency

Only we're not alone, witnesses surround

So we furtively glance around tickling

Ears with our murmurings

Plotting to sneak away...our stares

And sighs asking, why wait?

They matter too but not as much

As we do, as our untamable

Urges do, at this moment

If this be no more than a one-time

Wonderful dream detour

Another almost--but a bittersweet

Tantalizing taste

Would it be better preserved

That way or a crying shame waste?

Will I ever even have a say

When awake?

I feel like such a temporary person in everyone’s life