Love Reds And Blues

My lovelies

God I love Barrett so much, he's got a special place in my heart <3

Btw, the red haired one is Rose Marilyn, they're a werewolf, Barrett is the white/black haired obviously homosexual fellow and also a vampire. The one with long purple hair is Salvatore, he's a crime boss and a vampire and the little girl with black hair is Angel, she's also a vampire haha.

Yeah a hot lesbian siren that lures women to their death with a song.... Why not? :D

Techno hut :3

Very different style from my usual stuff but I felt like painting so here we are. Honestly I think I’m improving a bit haha

Version 2 of "Kiss it better, I know you want to"

I don't think a kiss will help all that much but who cares <3

rewatching “the wedding squanchers” and i have a mini-theory that morty’s pep-talk actually did impact rick because he decided to finally try to move on

when morty first shames him for not being supportive of BP’s wedding and refers to it as his “big day,” rick references blood ridge as his actual “big day.” knowing what we know now, i fully believe that the reason he was so upset about BP’s wedding is not only because he loves him but because he’s been told that the “relationship” he and BP have is “not worth (his) integrity,” and then watched him give his life (and, arguably, his integrity) away to this seventeen year old girl who he would probably do anything for. that’s why it makes sense that he wouldn’t refute the fact that BP can be a dick in s5 ep8 (“why are you risking your life for that asshole?” “because you love him”) and why he refers resentfully to blood ridge as BP’s big day—he once chose fighting over rick, and now has done the opposite for tammy regardless of his remaining passion for the war. it wouldn’t track for rick to be saying this because he actually values the memory of blood ridge, considering how adamant he is about repressing it. i mean, he doesn’t even seem to enjoy the actual battle if you look at his facial expressions in s5 ep8:

morty’s speech is what actually lowers rick’s guard in the first place, no matter how much he would deny it; when morty says “this is your family and friends all around you, you know? take the day off. there’s nothing to run from—nothing to fight.” he’s unintentionally giving rick a distraction from the pain he’s dealing with watching this wedding happen. the “camera” pans to beth, jerry, and summer with the focus on them more than anyone else. it’s clear that rick is prioritizing the “family” part more than anything else, even though birdperson and squanchy are in the short clips we see.

even so, rick insults morty, claiming his pep-talk is just “lame advice (he) knows nothing about.” makes a lot of sense coming from a man who’s hopelessly in love with the groom and has never told any of his family members nor even said it out loud. since morty really is giving advice on an issue he doesn’t even know exists, you’d expect rick to keep being a dick until the end of the episode.

but rick DOES stop his grumbling. at the actual wedding ceremony, he doesn’t say a word but instead just groans sadly as birdperson says his vows. and, of course, his toast:

“i haven't been exactly subtle about how little i trust marriage. i couldn't make it work, and i could turn a black hole into a sun, so at a certain point, you’ve got to ask yourself: ‘what are the odds this is legit and not just some big lie we're all telling ourselves because we're afraid to die alone?’ because—you know—that's exactly how we all die: alone.”

strange coming from someone who (from the short clip we saw) did, in fact, manage to make marriage work with diane. rick’s skin is significantly lighter in the memory before diane’s death which (weirdly enough) symbolizes happiness/completion in this show (considering that was how the distinction was made between normal rick and healthy rick in rest and ricklaxation)

so why is rick talking about how horrible marriage is? the same reason for his actions after diane’s death: he didn’t go looking for a universe where she was alive but instead looked for vengeance and temporary distractions (this is exactly how his and BP’s friendship started, i’d like to point out), and the same reason he didn’t just go find a new BP after he was reassembled by the federation: even rick has moments where he values his relationships with people so much that he doesn’t want them to change, especially as a middle-aged adult who isn’t quite desensitized yet. in season five he tries to bring back that part of him, especially because of how much he loves birdperson. so the same way he knew going to find another BP was out of the question because he would have a different personality and perception of rick, going to find another diane was out of the question because she wouldn’t be the same one he loved.

rick believes that marriage is a trap because fate already has your future with the person laid out for you; getting attached ensures that you’ll be destroyed by this fate because there’s no way to escape when someone you love is involved.

but rick knows that he and BP are not the same. BP has not seen the horror of the multiverse, nor has he pushed everyone away to protect himself from being hurt.

understanding rick’s heavy contrast from BP in terms of their values, the last few lines of his speech make a lot more sense.

“birdperson is my best friend, and if he loves tammy, well, then I love tammy, too. to friendship, to love, and to my greatest adventure yet... opening myself up to others.”

so, basically: “as much as i hate watching you give your life to this girl, the main reason i love you in the first place is because of your strong sense of self-respect and commitment to the things you care about. so fine, i’ll let you go and hope she’s good to you.”

I carved a pumpkin c:

Happy Halloween!

I pulled another all nighter to study.... 

so here's kacchan doing the exact same >:') 

This might actually be the personification of a red button wired to a nuclear bomb tbh

Honestly I’m so tempted to also attempt to turn myself into a pickle since I have to go attend a daily therapy program starting mid next week… I know it’s good for me but god, I don’t want to go.

I just wanna bury myself in a hole and stay there for a bit :c

billy drawing number 856