So I Realized Something Last Night...

Adam Driver on the set of Star Wars: The Rise of Skywalker (2019)

The Rise of Kylo Ren

Okay so, just read the last issue of The Rise of Kylo Ren and here is everything we have learned from this comic:

1. Ben did not destroy Luke’s temple. Palpatine did, and somehow he gaslighted Ben into thinking he was responsible.

2. Ben thought he killed Luke but it was in self-defense, but he still feels enormously guilty about it.

3. Ben did not kill ANY of Luke’s other students that night. He was instead relentlessly hunted by a small group of them across the galaxy, including one (Voe) who had a particularly large chip on her shoulder wrt to Ben and feeling inadequate in comparison to his Force-abilities.

4. Ben wanted to go home to Leia but felt he couldn’t because he didn’t think she would believe him.

5. Snoke was just casually in his head having full-on conversations with him when he was at least 11 or 12 years old, feeding him lies about his family and how they didn’t really give a shit about him.

6. Ben killed one of the Jedi students hunting him by accident.

7. He turns to the Knights of Ren because he literally feels like he doesn’t belong anywhere else.

8. He openly acknowledges that even Snoke only cares about his legacy and not himself as a person.

9. HE DOES NOT WANT TO KILL ANYONE. Even after he joins the KoR, he goes out of his way to avoid killing if possible… until it’s no longer possible.

10. He did not “fall to” or “choose” the dark side – he was gaslit and pushed into it. Treat someone like a monster long enough, they will start to believe it.

11. Ben doesn’t think he’s “special”. He just wants to be treated like a normal fucking person.

12. The first person that Ben killed on purpose was Ren, the leader/founder of the Knights of Ren, thereby facilitating his fall to the dark.

13. Leia felt his fall…

14. … AND SO DID LITTLE BABY REY

15. Ben finally killed Voe after he killed Ren.

16. Ben’s preferred mode of drawing his saber was from over his shoulder, like at the end of TROS.

17. He bled his kyber crystal while shirtless, and he squeezed it so hard that it cracked.

18. He never did anything wrong, ever, in his life, and they still let him die.

a favourable misunderstanding 🧣

this was supposed to be a meme redraw of a b99 scene but with my own twist on it … instead: it took on a life of it’s own, became super fluffy and ridiculous, and consists of 5 different styles at once lmao

🕯🧎‍♀️📿 <— this is me manifesting for Kung Fu panda 4

Dear golden boy, whose love language is physical touch

Never posted this one here, so it's now time.

My comic for the 2017 MegOp Zine, "Equinox". It was a project I really loved and I'm humbled that so many great artists participated on it. Forever grateful! The edition turned our pretty neat and I still cherish it on my bookshelf :>

地味に左読みです

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I wrote twitter meta about the one good thing about this film (Adam Driver’s acting, the PURE character work he did with zero dialogue) because I finally figured out what he was talking about when he said he was using “mask work” with Kylo Ren. He wasn’t playing through a mask only when he wore the helmet, he was acting as if his very FACE was a stoic blank mask he was looking through. That’s why Kylo Ren as a character has such a specific feeling to him, and why the audience instantly responded to Ben Solo, who could show his emotions.

This character was always 100% a young boy hiding behind a mask that hid and disallowed every emotion except for his anger, the only emotion that men are allowed to feel. This character is an exploration of how toxic masculinity harms men. And what miracles can happen for men internally when they embrace emotionality and forgive themselves and use their energy to do good. (I’m crying about him again.)

Stucky

In my brain they are together ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ

Reality...(I love to cry)

Sketches